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My Future Goals

After the Twitter poll tied last week, I decided to do one of the options last week which was a new personal character reveal and save the other tied option for this week which is a few of my future goals. I decided to split the goals into my top 3 goals for this year and then my top 3 lifetime goals. These obviously aren't all of my goals, and I probably have way too many, but there's no point in thinking small! Some of them include dreams like being able to create work for top games studios such as Blizzard Ent, Insomniac Games and Naughty Dog, but I also have goals such as visiting certain countries and getting a puppy. So I thought I'd use this post to write about ambitions related to what I'm working on now.

My top goals for 2017.

        1. Launch my first Skillshare class.

I currently have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do for this, but I do know that I love sharing what I know with others and while I might not be as experienced as the next person, I am have been doing this professionally for 3 years now, so I do know that I have more experience than someone who is just starting out. 

I'm thinking that I'll probably either direct the class towards character design or my digital process, if you have any other suggestions of course then feel free to let me know! I think the next focus for this goal is analysing my own work, figuring out what I'm good at and then working out what I want to put into a class before I take it to the next stages.

       2. Get my portfolio games studio ready.

Anyone who knows me will know how much I love games, however, it's taken me a good few years to realise that creating character designs and concept art for games is the direction that I would like to take my work. It took me a quite a while before I realised that I wanted to focus more on characters and monsters, and both of these realisations have both been something I should've picked up on earlier. But that's just one of those things, sometimes you focus so much on creating what you think you should be creating, rather than gravitating to what you've always enjoyed working on, usually the thing you love but think that no one else will be interested in!

If you're a regular reader of my blog or follow me on social media, you might have seen some of the personal work I've been creating over the last few months. I knew that I wanted to create various character designs and environments for this project, but I have now decided to direct this more towards developing the art for it as if I'm designing it for a game. This will result in me having a project on my website that can show what I can do for a games studio and allow me to challenge myself at the same time. 

I do already work for games studios on a freelance basis and would love to continue to do so, but in all honesty, I think that I've only just taken my first few steps in this area and the work that I've created recently, which makes me so excited to do more. I'm also looking into applying for in house positions to get that face to face advice and experience.

       3. Bullet Journal for the rest of 2017.

I am constantly trying to improve my organisation, productivity and ideas, I find new ways to do this, and although they seem to work for a while, I usually get bored of using that technique and need to find something new, which I think goes for a lot of things in life, we need change. I saw the term bullet journal (if you aren't sure what is is just google bullet journal as it has an official website) getting thrown around a lot in 2016 and just thought it was another trendy thing to do, after looking it up I still didn't get it and just forgot about it. However at the start of 2017, I needed to explore a new way to keep organised so I watched the bullet journal video and gave it a try. It was working OK, but I was going through a really, really rough time at the start of the year, and I just completely forgot about it.

Recently though, I have gotten back on track with trying to organise all of my tasks and projects and the way I did it before just wasn't working. So I found my old bullet journal and carried it on. I've been using it for a couple of weeks now and it's been really effective for me personally, allowing me to see what is working and what isn't, what sort of tasks I am capable of getting done in a day and what tasks aren't as important as I thought. This is something I would like to keep in motion for the rest of the year and see how it works out for me.

My top 3 life goals.

       1. Build my own house.

Most people will probably read that and be like 'Pffft, no way will that happen' but I am a firm backer of believing in yourself and working hard to achieve what you want. It's not going to happen now, but one day, I will build my own custom house with an indoor pool, home cinema, games room and a bright and inspiring studio. I'm not looking to build a mansion, but I want to live in a home that fits my needs and that will do so for a long time. 

At the moment I've not really set anything into action, I have looked into a few things and some big things are happening in my life soon which will hopefully allow me to plan this goal in more depth and figure out the exact steps to achieve it.

       2. Have a full time freelance creative career that provides me with an income to support my lifestyle.

This might sound really obnoxious from the way that it's written, I feel like it comes across that I'm making out like I want to be some top dog that earns a ton of money to support my lavish spending. However, all I want is to build a great reputation, doing what I love, earning a good income from that and being able to live happily. I want to have enough money to not have to worry about paying bills or buying food, I want to have plenty of money spare to invest into areas/projects that I believe will make a difference and to be able to pay for treats such as a couple of holidays a year, a nice car and maybe a hot tub in my custom back garden haha!

You only live once, and I don't want to live this life scraping by, and I certainly don't want to be selfish with what I do earn. Two things I value extremely highly in my life is happiness and investing in others whether that's teaching, the investment of money or even just giving someone an hour of your time. 

       3. Be creatively fulfilled.

You could say that this is too closely related to the previous goal to be a goal of it's own but I don't agree with that. You can make all sorts of money, work for the biggest clients and have a huge social following, but literally none of that will leave you creatively fulfilled if you're not passionate about what you are actually working on. I've mentioned it before but I spent my first year out of University working on quite a few client projects and making decent money, but eventually I came to the realisation that I'd gotten miserable because I was working to make money, not because I loved what I was doing. So I took a good few months out to purely work on personal projects, I've never felt better for it and it led me on a journey to self discovery of what I do love to work on. 

If I can work on projects/ideas, whether they're my own or clients, that leave me feeling creatively fulfilled, AND earn a good living from them at the same time, then I know I'm well on my way to living a happy life.

Time is the most valuable commodity we have in life and I certainly don't want to grow old full of regrets!

I hope you guys liked this post, it's a little different and a little scary in all honesty to put my goals out there, but great at the same time because now I feel responsible to you guys to reach them! I don't post as much on social media any more about my goals/ideas etc. because when people reply to that sort of thing and praise you, it gives the false effect that you've already gotten the results of achieving that goal so you don't feel like you need to go for it anymore. So I'm choosing to keep to myself a bit more and focus on my work, but I'm really hoping that sharing these goals with you guys will really encourage me to work hard towards them, and hopefully you guys too!

Thanks for reading!

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I will try to keep it brief, lest this become a book! (eh, publishers?) I hope this encourages others to share a “3-things…” post. It’s fun to introspect and accumulate learnings from your career. But first, a shiny picture of some films I’ve worked on!

Why 3 things? It’s something Randy Pausch asked us to do after each project at Carnegie Mellon’s Entertainment Technology Center. “List 3 things that worked, 3 things that didn’t and 3 things you’ll do differently next time”. I’m modifying Randy’s thought exercise a bit to bring you 3 things I learned per each job I’ve had in my career so far. Let’s begin.

Electronic Arts / Maxis

Software Engineer, 2005–2009

The Spore team hitting “First Internal Playable”. I am towards the top left

In 2005, I joined Maxis straight out of grad school at Carnegie Mellon to work on Will Wright’s game “Spore”. I was part of the core engine team.

1. Invest in your own tools

My career has been about building tools for creative people. Tools for gamers to create their own universe (Spore), tools for professional artists to craft beautiful characters (Pixar), tools for education (Teal Labs) etc. Early on, I learned that the most important thing is to get your own tools right. Evaluate and improve your workflow constantly. Huge thanks to @AndrewWillmott for being an amazing mentor who showed me this and so much more. Which brings us to…

2. Seek a good mentor, be a good mentor

People who think deeply but communicate simply tend to be good mentors. Other kinds of mentors guide you through their work, instead of their words. Regardless of their style, good mentors make all the difference. While receiving mentorship is key early on, paying it back by guiding others is equally rewarding later in your career.

3. “When it’s ready” is the best deadline

I learned a lot from the production cycle of Spore because we got one half of the product right and the other half wrong. The Creature Editor in Spore is a great example of investing tremendously in a product till it’s ready. The game part of Spore, however, was presented too early (and too well). Then, the longer we took to finish it, the more deadline-oriented it got. Ultimately quality suffered. My learning: Deadlines should be kept simple — show something in private user tests every X weeks. Then focus on scope and quality and do a public beta when it’s ready leading up to product release.

Pixar Animation Studios

Shading Technical Director, 2009–2014

One of the many soft perks at Pixar. Oscar pictures with the directors! Mark Andrews (left) and Lee Unkrich (right)

In 2009 I joined Pixar after a rather grueling interview process. I was put in charge of a 16 year old application, written in an obscure programming language. 50 artists hated it but used it as their primary tool to shade all the characters and sets on all the movies in production. No engineers wanted to work on this thing. Welcome to Pixar!

1. Document your journey

Having a reasonable portfolio of work displayed on my website has opened doors for me time and again. My Pixar interviews went terribly. Most of the team didn’t think I had the chops for the job. But the leader of the engineering group — Bill Polson had seen my website. Apparently he was the only one who had. So he called everyone into a room, put the site up on the screen and said “This guy has done more computer graphics than a lot of you in this room combined” — he was exaggerating, but his point was well taken and I got a shot! A few months into the job, a number of folks came by and told me the story of how they had rejected me in interviews but were very glad to be wrong. Phew!

2. Eat your own dog food

Don’t just sit in your own chair. Visit people in departments downstream or upstream from yours and try to do their job. If you become your client you will be able to deploy your vision as if it was the client’s idea all along. At Pixar, I was able to reform the entire shading pipeline across a period of 2 years while 50 artists used it daily without disruption. Like any good method actor I took it too far and eventually gave up my software engineer role to become a shading artist working on characters and sets using the tool I once maintained.

3. Do different things, don’t be afraid to start from zero

I feel the most fulfilled when I’m learning tons of new stuff. Bill Polson once said to me — “If you’re going to work somewhere for 5 years, make sure it’s not the same year repeated 5 times”. I live by that. You don’t need to “be an artist” to make good art or “be a programmer” to develop great software. Put your ego away and try new things. I went from being a tools engineer to a character and sets artist at Pixar. The transitions were tough and not necessarily smart career moves but the personal growth was immense.

I learned so many amazing things at Pixar that I could write a book. Luckily my hero and Pixar president Ed Catmull already did — Read Creativity Inc.

Lumos Labs (Lumosity)

Senior Software Engineer, 2014–2016

Lumos Labs is based in this historic San Francisco building. I took this picture on one of our daily bubble-tea breaks.

In grad school, I co-founded the Experimental Gameplay Project (EGP). We made 50 game prototypes in one semester and had the best time ever. I was always looking for a job version of the EGP. In 2014, I discovered Lumosity and immediately wanted to work there EGP-style.

1. Separate makers from fakers

This learning is for interviewers and managers trying to hire candidates that are a great fit. Lumos Labs sent me a design document and asked me to build a game using only HTML and JS. I had about 6–8 hours to do it. During in-person interviews I was asked to make lots of modifications to my game. They do similar tests for all the roles they hire for. Build something, then modify and defend it — so much more effective than typical interviews!

2. Challenge your ethos

Lumosity prides itself on the scientific research they put into their games. I can tell you it’s not a marketing gimmick, though the FTC thought so. At Lumos they take the science stuff so seriously that we could barely get any games approved by the Science Team. This was a problem because our customers wanted more games, different kinds of games and were using the product to have fun. Whether games make you smart or not, the truth is people practice because it feels good to work out your brain. And in my opinion, by not providing lots of new stuff regularly, we lost a lot of players to the competition. Sometimes we make the mistake of implicitly following what has worked before and get too close to our ethos to challenge it.

3. The whole can be greater than sum of its parts

To me, Lumosity’s greatest achievement is showing that a subscription based product made entirely out of mini-games can be a huge success. When a number of small projects serve a common theme they can really turn into something very deep and meaningful even if each project itself is relatively shallow. As a fan of quick and small projects, this gives me great hope.

Teal Labs

Chief Technology Officer, 2016

Getting mobbed by kids!

I’ve always been very interested in educational technology. So I spent 2016 working closely with a K-12 school. My team and I deployed iPads for 350 students and 5o teachers, created custom apps and came away with tons of learnings about learning itself!

1. Surround yourself with your audience

At Teal Labs I insisted that our office be inside the school we were working with. So we sat in a room behind the library where we welcomed invasions by kids during recess. I also made it compulsory for my team to take classes or co-teach at least once a week. This helped us make relevant and engaging products and improve upon them in a tight feedback loop.

2. Give students tools to produce content

We invest so much in giving fantastic content to students on a plate. They eat it up voraciously, but it doesn’t translate into skills and knowledge. It just turns kids into content-addicts expecting easy content all the time. On the other hand, if a child is asked to research and teach a topic or create a report on it, the retention of learning is much higher. Teaching is the best learning, as they say. My Teal Labs experience taught me that educational technology should be about engaging tools for students to create, teach, perform and present. Then, as Will Wright would say, “get out of the way and watch them go!”. “Tools to produce content” is also the answer to — What role should VR/AR have in education?

3. Education and Entertainment are the same thing

The best learning experiences are so fun, that you lose track of time. The best entertainment experiences are so transformative that you end up growing and learning something about yourself. Engagement is a key ingredient to both education and entertainment. In the classroom we found that engagement comes from meaningful social interactions with other students- discussions, performances, collaboration and competition. We built an asynchronous multiplayer game for 350 students. The game was about capturing territory in a common world by doing math problems. Each student collaborated with everyone in her class but competed with students from other classes. We saw 40x more participation in math as a result!

Masala Games

Director, Developer, Janitor, (side project since 2012, For reals in 2017)

I have no idea what I’m doing, but it’s fun

After being lulled by the sweet embrace of gainful employment for 12 years, I finally made the jump into full time independent development. I am making my own games right now because it’s my favorite thing to do and I want my kids to grow up and play 10 awesome things that their papa made.

1. Business is a crazy emotional roller-coaster

Being your own boss is the best! There is nothing more exhilarating than people buying and appreciating a product that is all your own. But there is nothing more depressing than not being able to reach those people. My first game Word Mess has 603,143 downloads (in 5 years) and I have cheered each one of them like I cheered Toy Story 3 winning an Oscar. My recent app Text Mess, on the other hand, has only been downloaded a 100 times in its first 10 days and I feel like jumping off of a bridge :P Hopefully I can learn to trust the process and be cooler about the ups and downs.

2. Clearly define what risk and success mean to you

You can succeed without any major risks if you plan smartly, execute patiently and course correct regularly. It comes down to how you calculate risk and define success. Success for me is financial independence and 100% ownership of my work. To me, risk is when uncertainty can’t be bounded within a small ok-to-fail region of tolerance. In other words, I don’t like risk :) That’s why I’ve patiently saved and learned for 12 years before venturing out on my own. What do risk and success mean to you?

3. Find a good bouncing wall

You are too close to your work. Find a good bullshit detector who will tell you like it is. Ideally, they are also part of (or understand) your target audience. In my case, my wife usually plays this role. She is brutally honest (sometimes too brutal) about the stuff I make. Build a group of early-feedback providers like it’s Pixar’s Brain Trust.

Handy cheat sheet of Shalin’s learnings

Invest in your own tools

Seek a good mentor, be a good mentor

“When it’s ready” is the best deadline

Document your journey

Eat your own dog food

Do different things, don’t be afraid to start from zero

Separate makers from fakers

Challenge your ethos

The whole can be greater than sum of its parts

Surround yourself with your audience

Give students tools to produce content

Education and Entertainment are the same thing

Business is a crazy emotional roller-coaster

Clearly define what risk and success mean to you

Find a good bouncing wall

There you have it! Learnings from a colorful decade or so of career. I am incredibly thankful to my mentors, coworkers and friends for this amazing journey. I hope #4 encourages you to make your own 3-things post. If you do, send it to me-

Say hi: @ShalinShodhan

Random picture of my boys and I rocking mutton chops

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[My other Gamasutra article from 12 years ago!]