#whew! happy reading yall

[keplercryptids]

Queer Books for Spooky Season!

i have read and enjoyed all of these, and have organized them in such a way that makes sense to me and hopefully peaks your interest! most are straight-up horror, but some just have horror / spooky themes.

[please note, not all these books have overtly queer characters / relationships, but are included because they have queer authors and/or queer characters, plots or themes. don’t want people to go into any of these books expecting romance.]

Spooky & Sapphic

The Locked Tomb series by Tamsyn Muir. everyone on tumblr knows about this series. it’s a science-fantasy, it’s got lesbian necromancers in space, it’s got mysteries and intrigue, and i would describe it as a “fun” read but please know my idea of fun includes body horror, grief and spooky vibes.

The Luminous Dead by Caitlin Starling. the vibes of this one are off the charts. story is told from the perspective of a lone caver on a foreign planet, as she communicates with her dive suit’s handler. it’s tense and suspenseful, lots of survival-fiction vibes, and it’s exactly how i want characters to flirt: via coms only, as one fights for their life.

Yellow Jessamine by Caitlin Starling. this one’s a weird little gothic novella about a shipping magnate who’s confined to her creepy estate as a mysterious plague runs rampant through the city.

Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke by Eric LaRocca. this novella is told via early-2000s chat logs and emails between two women as they develop one of the most unnerving relationships i’ve ever read. gross things happen! this one’s polarizing! but i loved it so much. absolutely unhinged vibes.

Parasites, but Goth

Leech by Hiron Ennes. most of this book is told from the POV of a parasitic hivemind called the Institute, which uses host bodies to act as physicians for the rest of society in a post-apocalyptic, gothic setting. and it gets weirder from there. it’s an honestly quite beautiful exploration of bodily autonomy, identity, and trauma.

What Moves the Dead by T. Kingfisher. this is a retelling of the fall of the house of usher, and includes a spooky manor, fungal parasites, possessed wildlife, and the exact kind of unsettling atmosphere that i love in a horror book.

Sorrowland by Rivers Solomon. this story follows a teen mother who’s escaped from a cult and is now undergoing a fungal metamorphosis in the forest. big thriller/survival vibes and some truly excellent commentary about oppression, trauma and societal secrets.

Could Vampirism be Gayer? (yes, actually)

A Dowry of Blood by S.T. Gibson. "dracula’s polycule” is what sold me on this book, and while yes, it’s got polyamorous vampires, the heart of the story is about the dynamics of an abusive relationship, with a strong thread of hope throughout.

The Route of Ice and Salt by José Luis Zárate, transl. by David Bowles. i’m not usually one to categorize a book as Important (TM) but this novella definitely is that. it was originally published in the 90s by a mexican author, and it’s a reimagining of dracula’s voyage to england from the POV of the captain, a closeted gay man full of queer yearning. this book is beautiful and painful and challenging and yes, important. it’s also horny as hell so like, you’ve been warned lol. only recently has it been made available in english, too!

Science as Horror

The Echo Wife by Sarah Gailey. a short novel about a woman who’s recently separated from her husband, who in turn started a relationship with a clone of her. loved the character exploration in this, and it’s definitely got mystery/thriller vibes if you’re into that.

You’ve Lost a Lot of Blood by Eric LaRocca. this is a vibe-heavy, kind of trippy novella which features a story-within-a-story. don’t want to give away too much of the plot here because it’s a wild ride.

and finally, here’s some honorable mentions, at the end here because i didn’t love them. but you might!

Just Like Home by Sarah Gailey (haunted house personified, exploration of dysfunctional family)

The Seep by Chana Porter (post-apocalyptic quest)

Into the Drowning Deep by Mira Grant (killer mermaids)

Nothing but Blackened Teeth by Cassandra Khaw (creepy mansion, corpse bride)

[clowningaroundmars]

just got my phone in da maaaiillll :3

i looove her omg

[ggukiepie]

fic recs (that hurt)

hi everyone ! so i love reading bts fics, and angsty ones just hit the right spot like whew break my heart will ya !! anw, here are some fic recs that are super angsty (some have a happy ending and some don't)

idealizations concerning real life relations by @venusiangguk (jk x reader, fuckboy!jk x hopeless romantic!oc, fluff, smut, angst) - icrlr girlies rise up 😔✊🏽 this hit close to home so i really fuck w this fic yall, i like re-reading the angsty parts from time to time bc we stupid like that; will break your heart x100 this ain't for the faint of heart

the boy with galaxies in his eyes by @oddinary4bts (jk x female tattoo artist reader, fwb to lovers, idol!au, angst, smut, fluff) - besties its 52k words this got me crying till 4am likeee i don't usually cry while reading fics but this one got me fr... will break your heart then mend it back again don't worry ! abt two people who have been hurt in the past and are afraid to love again

colour me in (series; ongoing) by @taegularities (jk x reader, fwb, fake dating, college!au, fluff, smut, angst) - lykkk where do i even begin w this series i am hooked !!! and the writing is top tier.. as u can see i like the fwb trope a lot :D

4-7-8 (series; completed) by @jiminrings (jk x actress!reader, angst, fluff, they are married) - ohhhh hell the issue of this is - is it ok to be friends with your ex? 🤨 really angsty and this made me tear up

heartburn (series; completed) by ms jiminrings again (jimin x reader, ANGST, emotional cheating) - will literally give you heartburn so be prepared

full stop (series; ongoing) by @1oserjk (jk x ex wife!reader, they have a kid, angst, fluff ??) - about a divorced couple co-parenting and there's a lot of yearning and angst in between; hasn't been updated in like 3 years so if you're not up for that then that's okay, but it's such a good read and i still think abt this series a lot !!

pick & roll | la lakers by @xpeachesncream (nba player!jk x reader, fuckboy!jk, brother's best friend, angst, smut) - another fwb au are we surprised 😃 this hurt so good and it got me screaming at jk by the end of the fic

the love after (series; completed) by @ahundredtimesover (werewolf au, beta!jk x human!reader, angst, fluff, smut) - werewolf au !! also so refreshing to see jk as a beta instead of an alpha, really suits him, one quote to describe this series, "love heals all wounds"

[megamindsecretlair]

Get To Know Me Tag Game

Thank you for the tag @nerdieforpedro 😚 for anyone who cares, here's a bit about me! 🥹

General rule: I may overshare in dms and authors notes sometimes but Im generally a private person 🤣 to the point Ive lost friends over it. ive been working with my coworkers for 3 years and they dont know shit about me 🤣 I juss really love yall and feel safe with yall so here we go!

1. Were you named after anyone?

No. My mom didnt want our names to announce who we were on applications so we all got regular smegular names. My name is of Irish origin so my yt folks customer service voice got ppl thinkin I have red hair. I mean....technically yes but its buried under my braids 🤣

2. When was the last time you cried?

At the end of The Marvels. The first end credit had me in real, actual tears. On a more serious note, I last cried before my grandma died. Yall, its fn hard being a caretaker. I was not built Ford Tuff.

3. Do you have kids?

*ahem* 🗣🗣 fuck no! 🤣🤣🤣 I dont even have nieces or nephews. Kids make me nervous and Im pretty sure they can smell the fear on me. 🤣

4. What sports do you play/ have you played?

I played basketball and softball in HS. I love and miss softball all the time even though my big behind HATES running.

5. Do you use sarcasm?

Sarcasm is one of my love languages. I put that shit on everything 🤣 Physical Touch is my main one since we sharing.

6. What is the first thing you notice about people?

Ooof, tough. Depends. Some quirk like glasses, lisp, moles. How they walk/talk, the way they laugh. I am a lurker by trade. Overly shy kid and writer by nature will do that to ya.

7. What is your eye color?

Dark brown. When that sun hits 🫠🫠🫦

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

I am a HUGE scaredy cat. I dont do scary movies nothin! Happy endings over here! 🤸🏽‍♀️ I will enjoy a thriller but only behind my hands and mostly starring Matthew Lillard.

9. Any talents?

.....no? I have a bunch of useless knowledge or trivia that no one asked for but ya gonna get 🤣 . Juss realized writing is considered a talent 😭 so that too 🤣

10. Where were you born?

US, West Coast baybeee

11. What are your hobbies?

Obvs, writing. Reading, sewing, cons, tarot, tv, listening to music, video games (xbox, switch, PC girlie) , Marvel. Marvel is a hobby. I will talk your ear off. That is both a threat and a promise 😚

12. Do you have any pets?

I have two gorgeous Boston Terriers who run me into the ground every day. Idk why my mom thought two was okay 🫠🫠 my Black ass tide 🥲 👏🏽

13. How tall are you?

Fun sized 5'3 and a half 👏🏽👏🏽🤣 pear shaped. I got ass for days but in the itty bitty titty committee. 😭😭😭😭😭

14. Favorite subject in high school?

Definitely English. My English teacher was so fine 🥲🥲 thats not WHY it was my fave but can ya blame me 😩 I loved reading the books but I hated the themes they shoved down our throats. What if that wasnt MY interpretation of the book??? Hmmm? Some faves include: Their Eyes Were Watching God (Teacake 🥵🥵🥵), Brave New World, Bright Lights Big City (probably where my love of second person is from) , Bronx Masquerade, and The Outsiders. And FUCK the Great Gatsby. If I hear about that damn green light one 👏🏽 mo 👏🏽 fn 👏🏽 time 👏🏽😩😡 and FUCK Of Mice and Men, he aint have to do all that in the end. And DOUBLE FUCK I Know Why the Caged Bird sings. Turned my stomach when she described the SA. Lemme stop 🥴

15. Dream Job?

Writer. I will publish, I will be successful, and I will live the life I want. I claim it 😩 on my Octavia Butler, NK Jemisin, Danielle Allen shit 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

Whew! That was fun 😭🤣

No pressure tags: @mybonafidefeelings @bratzmaraj @braverthanthenewworld @multiversefanfics @chaos-4baby @westside-rot @saturn-rings-writes @notapradagurl7 @wide-nose-and-wonderful @blowmymbackout @blackerthings @harmshake @targaryenvampireslayer and who wants to do one. I love learning bout my moots.

[heavyhitterheaux]

I just finally read what are we thankful for. First I wanna say I fucking loved it. AND I LOVE YOU GIRLY YOU NEVER MISS WITH ANY FIC 💕

I’m glad to see some progress between curse & FL, and by that I mean FL being kind enough to invite her & even be in the same room as her. Also I’m sorry but the part where all of PG glared at her 😭 like it’s gonna be sometime before they forgive her, but I feel like once FL does then everyone else will follow. (Except Jack, he don’t okay abt his bby ✋🏽) I love how Clay & Dua take turns stressin Jack out 😭 And I just love Druski, not him tryna put a wig on, BOY BYEEEEE!

Now moving onto that bitch imma beat up A**tta THIS MISERABLE OLD BITCH. I’m fuckin tired of her ass 😭 LIKE BITCH HES MARRIED, OFF THE MARKET, NOT FUCKING INTERESTED IN YOU 😐 I swearrrr Imma whoop yo ass if I catch you on these streets so watch out hoe 😘😒

WOAHH HOLD ON- I ALMOST FUCKIN FORGOT my gurlll FL could be pregnanttt stop playinnn, I’m ready I wanna be a auntie 🫶🏽

Love you more my bby! And yesss to all of this!!

So happy you loved it!!

And they'll both get back to how they were before. Something is about to happen that causes a shift in their relationship. A good shift. It'll take time, but she'll be forgiven. (Now Jackman might take years to do that. Like you said he don't play about his baby).

And Jack doesn't rest when Clay and Dua are around 😭😭😭

And Anitta! WHEW CHILE!

I can't WAIT until yall see what she does 😭😭

This will be yall

[blissfullybloomed]

“The music is all around us. All you have to do is listen”- Freddy Highmore, August Rush

Good Morning beautiful people! Everyone loves music….yeah, actually everyone. 

Isn't it the coolest thing when you can find people that listen to the same type of music as you do?

When one person enjoys jazz(my papaw), one enjoys electronic dance music(YALL), one or two enjoy native american flute music(my spa peeps), and some more enjoy Simon & Garfunkel(my old-er peeps.) That's when you see  the universal language of music has now brought together different cultures, ideas, and personalities. 

Music has been around since the dawn of time. It's also evolutionary….Just like we are. We as humans evolve into different versions of ourselves as we grow and mature into adults. Our musical preferences change and grow too. I can't imagine you were listening to Buddy Bolden(African-American jazz pioneer from New Orleans), when you were five years old. If you were…you had some dope parents! Your parents and your surroundings subjected you to different types of music, people and places. You know what's cool though? When you find someone else who also listens to Buddy Bolden…and knows his history- you now have a new friend. 

I have curated sooooo many relationships over music. I once fell in love with someone from Sweden over music….it's an entire feeling yall. He had music I had never heard before, and we bonded over that. Still friends to this day!  When you find the music that takes your breath away, and makes the hair on your neck stand up….that's magic. That's love in my opinion. And yeah…music makes me extremely emotional when it hits right. 

I was in a band (YEAH- Im a total band geek through and through) for eight years. I remember they came in during 5th grade and asked us to try and make noise through all these brass instruments….Im not a brass person…LOL. I found my home with the clarinet. I think I was the 6th generation clarinet player? Fam…help me out with that one. No clue…but the clarinet is cool…I still have a hard time “hearing the beat” when reading music for the first time ....but once I hear the tune, I'm golden. Someone has to play the tune for me to hear….communicating musically…universal language. Music is the best. 

Music has let me live through a lot of trauma in my life as well. I'm sure several of you reading this know exactly what I'm talking about here. If you dont…next time you feel happy, play a sad song…see what happens. Your entire mood shifts. Your brain was like….uhm, HALP! 

This is also where this blog may offend you….hang in with me…

I remember being young in church, standing proudly and singing with my gran and papaw to songs like, “ How Great Thou Art”, and I would secretly stop singing so I could hear them sing together. It is still to this day one of my favorite church memories. Papaw's voice is super deep like the ocean, and gran…your voice is honestly angelic. You two are incredible people. Love you very much. I haven't been to church, or listened to any type of that musical genre since I was young. 

I remember riding to the campground in Bellefontaine,Ohio listening to the emo punk rock band,  My Chemical Romance,  with a friend. We didn't listen to it quietly either. We also were not sober when we would listen to it….at the time…I thought that was the best part. Not being sober, and being able to “lose “ myself in music. I didn't want to be in reality at that time of my life ...loud music got me through though…and so did my friend. Unfortunately, we fell out permanently. We had different paths, and that's okay. In hindsight, we both had each other …through one of the hardest, and unimaginable times in both our lives. Still a universal language, and musical communication. 

I remember hearing a man sing Disney songs in his truck- because he couldn't have know Disney music! I later married that man. He introduced me to Boyce Avenue(cover band), Journey….whew…this one is hard. Damn, I said two sentences, and I forgot how to type.

You got it Vic, keep moving. 

 I remember him acting an absolute idiot singing AeroSmith. This person is now my ex-husband. I fell in love with him over Disney music. The reason…my favorite childhood memory is watching Little Mermaid over and over again until the VHS Tape couldn't play anymore. He knew every word to not just Little Mermaid…all of em. He was a disney fanatic too.  That was all it took for me...I'm not sure he even knows that. I am very thankful for that small gift of musical communication…it united us. We are still supportive friends to this very day. Love you dude. Thank you. 

All of these musical memories have history, language, love, rage and vulnerability attached to them.

Each one a catalyst to the other in my own personal timeline. 

Each is a universal language that someone else understood during a time. 

In closing, music has saved my life more than once. Well cats too, but we aint talking about them yet. If you ever find yourself in the deepest depths of yourself and you feel like you can't claw your way out…try music. Just try it …see if it speaks to you. 

I bet it will. 

“La música es hermosa”

“Muzyka jest piekna”

“Muziki ni mzuri”

Yeah…its spanish, polish, and Swahili….get some education! I'm kidding of course…but while you're still here…go look up some polish music ….it's the coolest! 

Peace!

[not-your-fucking-kacchan]

yO omg i just found ur page and i love it so hi im requesting : )

can i get izuku x male reader (or gn! idrc) where the reader is pretty stoic, like todoroki times a billion, and is only friends (boyfriends LMAO, i should mention id prefer if they r already in a relationship) with izuku, like mutters to him to talk, n just follows him around most of the time, n is kinda insecure since he has a bunch of scars and his arms are messed up because of his quirk (like discoloured skin and such) and because him n izuku are childhood friends hes kinda clingy, and is only soft with izuku

but then one day izuku is kinda havin a tough time, and snaps at the reader by accident (the reader kept clinging to him cause he didn't know where else to go and couldn't read the social cues of izuku being frustrated) and just the most heartbreaking angst with a nice fluffy ending of izuku after like a day of realizing the reader hasn't been clinging to him or talking to him and him going to see the reader in his dorms and just walking in on him curled up with a plushie or smth that izuku bought him n trying to sleep and izuku just breaking

you dont have to do this!! have a great day/night and stay hydrated!! im gonna go stalk ur bnha masterlist now ;)

ndsjafbiw i love angst sm

And feel free to stalk my masterlist lmfao i get really happy when i put more and more stuff on there and it gets longer and longer...

brheupqbufverpw also i was listening to bad habits by steve lacy and i llove you so by the walters and bjhsbafw it set the scene so good yall omg.

Whew this has been sitting in my drafts collecting dust since I lost the motivation to write when my account was nuked, but it's back, so I'm back and you guys can have this as your peace offering :D

Masterlist <3

Warning: Scarring, mentions of vomit...

Izuku x Male!Reader - Quiet

You were practically Izuku's shadow. Everywhere he went, you went too. At the beginning of the year you were incredibly quiet and didn't really react to much. You just kept to yourself, really. You had been suffering with some pretty damn crippling anxiety at the time, and it almost had you staying home and ghosting the entrance exam because you couldn't stop thinking about what could go wrong.

You had nearly forfeited your dream because you were scared.

What if you're too weak? What if they reject you? What if you humiliate yourself?

What if somebody sees the horrible scarring on your arms and says something? It's not your fault you're so hideous, but that doesn't stop you from feeling like it is.

Things stayed that way until Izuku spoke to you again for the first time in a few years, making your little heart thud in your chest as he mumbles and mutters hypotheses about your quirk and about how glad he was to have seen how you'd grown. The boy is so open and friendly, and so talkative that it more than makes up for your lack of input in the conversation. It had been that way before as well.

You both had been childhood friendsat some point, but for some reason you'd grown apart. It broke your heart, but lo and behold the quirkless boy is entering the exam too. Who knows, when you both fail maybe you could be friends again.

At least that was what you'd thought.

Except, you didn't fail. And neither did he.

You had stuck around him after that, following him to class and for lunch until he started to get a little freaked out when leaving for the dorms only to see you still trailing behind. He confronted you and bashfully asked why you've been shadowing him the whole day with an awkward smile, unknowingly hurting your little guarded heart as you realised that your company was apparently unwanted. Of course it was. What were you thinking?

When he saw your dejected face, and felt you practically deflate in front of him, speaking up quietly for the first time the whole day, he immediately felt bad and invited you to his dorm room to talk at you some more, since he knew you wouldn't be replying much.

"S- sorry... i'll go. 'didn't mean to bother you. I just felt safe..."

His poor little (gay, but he doesn't know that yet) heart melted on the spot.

It was from then on that the two of you stayed as close friends again, and Izuku became your safety net. Every time you would panic or cry and cower away in your dorm room he was there, ready to help you challenge your negative thoughts and give you the confidence to step outside again. You had grown even closer than before despite the rift that had previously grown between you.

When he had gained the patchy, discoloured scarring on his arms from abusing them so much with his quirk, he had smiled, and held your arms close together with his.

"We match! ... You still think we're so hideous?..."

Your heart had skipped a beat when he said "we", implying that he would share this burden with you.

Over time, you started to grow closer and closer, until one day, you cleared your throat to speak while sitting in Izuku's bed with him, some random hero documentary playing on his TV. He immediately shut up at the time, listening to you speak because it's so rare that you'd break your silence unless you were with him and he was honoured that he was the one to make you feel that comfortable, and you would never forget how his cheeks started to glow when you confessed to him that day. He was so proud that you were able to tell him, and immediately accepted your confession of love.

Ever since then you had hung around him at all times, clinging to his blazer with an outstretched hand when the halls got busy and even following him to the bathroom, his blush ever present every time you did. He didn't truly mind though.

But today, he had been in a rather sour fight with Bakugou, and he was reeling. You had never really been privvy to social cues, so when he let out frustrated sighs and huffs, and held his head in his hands during break, you just thought he was feeling a little off today.

Discoloured, scarred fingers reach out to hold onto his blazer sleeve when you start to feel a little unsettled, huddling close to him and showing him your affection, but he does not take kindly to it.

A sharp smack fills the silence of the room as Izuku swats your hand away harshly, growing irritated with and overstimulated by everything around him. You know he must have been having a bad day, but it must've been you. You didn't realise that you had ruined his day and part of you almost thinks of this as his way of breaking up with you, but you don't have much time to think on it before your boyfriend is yelling at you.

He had never yelled at you before.

"What's is it now?! Can't you see i'm not in the mood?! I can't do this right now. You don't have to cling to me every second of the day!"

Everything feels numb when, for the first time ever, Izuku raises his voice at you. He definately wants to break up. Didn't you hear, idiot? He said he doesn't want you near him anymore. He doesn't like you anymore.

It doesn't even take a second for the overwhelmingly depressing and intrusive thoughts to infiltrate your mind and swarm you, and you freeze up as he walks away from you, your throat suddenly closing up as your eyes sting from the salt in your tears.

For hours you sit alone in your bedroom, curled up under your sheets and crying so hard you almost vomit. Of course he doesn't want to be with you anymore, look at you. Your face is bright red and your skin is raw and sore from all of the tears and the wiping of your face. It hurts. And it looks like it does too.

You curl up into a large dragon plush that Izuku had won for you at an arcade date the two of you went on. It was one of your first dates and still remains one of the best memories of your life. The fur of the plush is absolutely ruined with snot and tears, and your voice is hoarse and it carries in your cries how torn apart you are. It's sad, the first time you've used your voice this much in such a short space of time is when your crying into a plush over your boyfriend. Or your ex.

Your hair is slick with sweat and tears and a few strands cling to your face as you cry, and you're completely exhausted by the time midday rolls around.

The next day, you skip school and stay in your room, your head pounding from the dehydration of crying out all the fluids in your body. You're only brought out of your trance as you hear a tentative knock on your door. Is the school day over already? Oh...

You didn't even bother to go to dinner, and you haven't eaten all day because you hadn't the guts to come out and face everyone after sonething like that. You may be a strong hero, but without Izuku, your crutch, you felt like nothing.

The last thing you expect to see is Izuku walking in to find you curled up in your bed, in a state worse than any he's ever seen you in. Considering that he's seen every one of your panics attacks since you had grown close, that's saying something.

Immidiately he's by yourside, relising how bedly he had fucked up. You were still cradling your hand close to your chest in an effort to stay close to the last place he touched you.

The freckled boy had come to apologise for snapping at you the way he did, but he never expected it to be this bad, and he truly worried when he didn't see you in class this morning. He felt unsettled not having you there beside him since you were both a package deal, and everywhere you went, you went with Izuku in tow.

His heart just about shatters as you look up at him with confused eyes, the colour in them appearing so much more intense with the flood of emotion and the redness of your sclera. your eyelashes are dark and bunched together with little tear droplets and the image is so etherial to him. He's so in love with you that it hurts, and there's an uncomfortable tightness in his chest and a lump in his throat at the sight of you like this. The second he saw you curled up and crying into his plush his heart had dropped to the floor and he had physically felt it.

In seconds he's apologising and tearing up, crying with you while he gets under the covers to cuddle.

"Baby, I- i'm so, so sorry! I never meant to hurt you like that, I swear! I was stressed and I took it out on you- i'm sorry! I've been a horrible partner- but i'll make it up to you, I promise..."

You didn't doubt him. The boy was torn up about how he treated you and the relief and comfort of finally being back in his arms again, coupled with the realisation that he didn't break up with you had your heart stuttering and racing and a hundred miles an hour while you cuddle the fluffy haired boy.

Your hands are already buried into his hair and he practically whines as you press your forehead against his under the sheets. As he rambles about how sorry he is you just scratch his scalp, still recovering from the heartbreak of what you thought was a split between the two of you, and you say nothing back.

Izuku knows you though, and he knows your silence isn't one of rejection. He holds you close with surprisingly strong arms, holding the hand he slapped away in his and trailing his thumbs over the discoloured scarring there. As much as you see Izuku breaking every record with his astounding strength, he's still just that squishy baby in your mind, with hamster cheeks and big, beady eyes that are like glass windows to his soul.

It brings a smile to your face and fresh tears to your eyes. You're so in love that it hurts.

[zarazmnie-cos]

hiiii

my tumblr just crashed I hope it didn’t send some half written ask in >.< but idk if you see it when I comment on the color post for you so I’m sending it here :D

Green, scarlet, periwinkle, mauve, blush, fuchsia, vermilion, honeydew (also my fav fruit), umber, razzmatazz, saffron, plum, tangerine, burgundy <3

dumblr get yo shit together would ya???? oh boi, thats a whole damn rainbow and im here for it, lets go. from this game!

green - i think you're cute.

why are so many people think im cute???? i am not????

scarlet - you have influenced my decision/thoughts on something

im so confused rn but i hope it was for the better!!! or that it wasn't something dangerous!! take care though and in case, i'm here to help you decide, bUT I'D LIKE TO KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO DECIDED ON OKAY??

periwinkle - you make me laugh

hehe, good. g o o d. i love making people laugh tbh

this one will be longer, so here's a cut!

mauve - you are really talented

well, i'd say it's more experience. i remember my first-ever works in polish and then in english and i hope to forget about it lol

blush - seeing you on my dash makes my day a little better

GOOD!!!! im here to brighten up your days and make you smile!!!! and also for you all to have someone to talk to!!!! i want you all to smile bcuz of me everyday or at least every time i post <3

fuchsia - your blog content is gold

pls it's 90% filthy trash and 10% shitpost, yall really think it's gold???

vermilion - you make me feel passionate

oh my- i never expected to inspire someone??? especially with the horny shit i write??? but i'm happy to see that someone feels like it bcuz of me <3

honeydew - i want to call you by a nickname

GO FOR IT!!!! LET'S GO!!!!! i'm ness and i'm here for you to call me like that!!!! or any other nickname you come up with!!! let's get that moot shit

i have never eaten a honeydew but know i want to try it

umber - i want to know more about you

lets go. what do you want to know? i won't give you my phone number or bank account, though. but if you uwant to know about me, just ask!!!! whether through dms or inbox, i'm ready to tell something about me!!!

razzmatazz - i would share my favorite food with you

i- no one really shares food with me since i'm usually the one who cooks for my friends or gives them food and now i'm super touched :((((( i love food and i love you :((( you're so precious my dear!!!!

saffron - i love your ideas

would it be narcissistic if i told yall i love them too? but thank you, it means a lot, seriously!!! whenever i will doubt my ideas, i will come back here and read it through once again <3

plum - i'd like to chat with you

LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. my dms and inbox is always open, come in and text me!!!!! don't be afraid, i'm not a spider!!! but it can take me some time to write back, which i'm sorry for :(((

tangerine - i love your aesthetic

SKFJBSIRBV THANK YOU!!! i'm trying to stay with the red color on my theme but these anime caps are kind of hard to find and later crop. but still i'm happy it looks good and that someone likes it :((

burgundy - i get excited when i see posts from you

AND I GET EXCITED WHEN I SEE YOUR ASKS!!!! actually i get excited when i see any asks or comment or reblog with nice words lmao its just that interactions makes me happy because i don't feel like im throwing my works into a void!!!!! that's why i treasure every ask, comment and kind words in my heart and i just love you all :(((

whew i managed to get through all these colors and once again THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR INTERACTING WITH ME!!!! ily <3

[nightswithkookmin]

Pls talk about this #꾹 😭 it's so nice to search this on twitter then see it most of the time with this #JIMIN

I see...

And you are saying this so calmly like that? Why are you not freaking out? You can't twerk ahjumma?

Do I need to block you too???

Please freak out cos I am😌

I want to see you do the victory dance

THEY GAY.

Thanks for attending my Tedtalk.

Also, do y'all pay attention to anything I say out here or y'all just akekeke and go?? I have to conduct exams at the end of every week cos yall don't be reading my assignments!😤

I did a whole ass analysis on JK changing his SNS habits lately and not tagging his posts- which makes it sus for me cos he could Jikook and we will never know it's him. Hell we're all convinced Tae posted those beach Instagram couple photos of Jikook but for all we know he could have done it😭😭😭

I mean when people were asking who posted for Jin's birthday Tae responded with a post saying it was him did he not? Yet he totally ignored that same question when those beach photos dropped. Sus.

I also talked about JM using a different tag of Kook's on twitter recently and said I found it sus that he would given as JK had recently debuted a new tag JKK.

I may seem nuts when I talk about these thing but it's not just about tags and acting cute on the internet, it's about branding.

As much as they share in the collective brand of BTS, they also have their individual brands which is their equity and bargaining power. Jungkook sells out products. That's one aspect of the power of his brand.

J I M I N

That's his brand. Not JM. Not Jiminie. Not Jiminah. Not Jiminshi.

Jimin doesn't joke with his brand. He hasn't joked with it from day one. And over the years I've watched him put in the effort to build JK's brand along side his out of everyone in the group.

It's intriguing to me when he uses JK's official brand handles Jk, JKK- personally I prefer Jungkook or JKK cos that's his brand.

Rapmonster- yea no. RM. That's the brand. JIN. That's the brand. SUGA that's the brand. Y'all see where I'm going with this?

They all have their individual brands and how they promote it is important- to me.

When JM uses Ggugie, Ggug rather than JK's official brand you just now he's thinking of him in affectionate terms🤭

When JK is using Ggug and acting all cute like that whew- remember the conversation we had about Oppa/aegyo yesterday???😏

Not that this ggug thingy is new. They've both used it in the past. But what are the chances they feeling nolstagic and wanna bring it back??

The last time he was using ggugie he had them calico cat paws next to it💀

I find it fascinating that JK tagged this post. It's cute, it's endearing or he's forgetting all about his branding😕

Equally fascinated that he sort of imitated Jimin and posted a funny photo of Jin. It's either cute and nostalgic as it's something they all used to do in the past or just plain lazy or says this was an afterthought😫😫

I'm surprised he posted at all- expected him to but still surprised. It's almost a thing now, when he is in a happy place and not being dragged to filth by pockets of the fandom he shows up and shows out.

Makes these genre of photos of Jikook bowing their heads or closing their eyes hit different.

Also I feel there's an inside joke somewhere 😫😫😫😫😫

Why are they both posting Jin's lips🤣

I can sniff the mischief a mile away. They are so chaotic these mothereffing gays.

But just the fact he posted alone makes me want to lick his face and kiss his ass😭😭

He lowered the bar so low for me his bare minimum feels like he went to hell and back for me. I'm pathetic.

Don't expect much from me is his M.O. lol

I think it's wrong to have expectations of people but never wrong to have standards of how you as a person want to be treated.

Sigh.

Can't even talk about it cos I'm afraid he will see it and stop trying all together and disappear on us for good chilee.

It feels like I'm in a toxic onesided relationship with this man. FREE ME. Jimin must really be dickmatised to be putting up with his ass all these years cos me and him would be throwing shoes at eachother if we was dating 🤣

When you keep compromising yourself for someone who won't meet you halfway you lose your sense of self- now I hope JM saying he felt he was denying his own thoughts and beliefs has nothing to do with JK cos I'll have to invite him to the boxing ring💀

Also, he didn't post to weverese did he?

Sus.

He throwing me for a loop with these antics.

Anywho I LOVE IT.

Joonie is not the only masochist up in here😭

Back to twerking cos these terms of endearment these two use with eachother makes my heart do several backflips at once

[kxshv-kei]

happy new year guys! guess who is back! it's now my 3rd year bullet journaling.

my spreads aren't anything beautiful or aesthetic and it just does the job for me and I used to beat myself up before because I couldn't achieve that aesthetic, filled with beautiful drawings but then I realized that every person and their lives are different and if something worked for them it doesn't necessarily have to work for me.

I really admire people who put a lot of time and effort into their journal spreads and it's really fascinating! but please be reminded that bullet journelling is a system and it only has to help you.

whew that was a lot. thank you for reading all this! have a great year ahead and I look forward to post more bujo and study related content here!

i am so sorry yet again to my tumblr followers for not posting for an entire year this time. i am grateful people still actually follow me here and i am happy to be back guys! i love yall so much and take care! i have a studygram please go check it out its @kxshv_kei thank you again.

[taeghi]

OKAY not yn and heeseung's brain thinking as one about the confrontation! As they should! Because you never want to say things you don't mean tbh 😢 ALREADY! YN wanting to hit heeseung at the same spot she always does when he makes her laugh. PLEASE MY HEART IS BREAKING!!!

DONT THINK ABOUT JAKE! YES HE JUST A FANTASY! HEESEUNG IS THE REAL ONE!!!

Noooooo bby g!!! Heeseung don't want Isa anymore! That girl is a lost cause. Our dude wants you omg. I'm literally only at the beginning and this is making me so sad lmao

JAKE BEING ANGRY ABOUT HEESEUNG SLEEPING WITH ISA?! DUDE HOLD TF SHE TRIED THINGS WITH HIM! JAKE, COME HERE 👊🏻👊🏻 omg not jake making yn thinking he's the main character rn come on guys. BUT HEESEUNG YOU COME HERE TOO 👊🏻👊🏻 why would you randomly expose something like that? YALL HAD THE SAME BRAIN ABOUT THE CONFRONTATION omggggg im crying

And the regret is eating at heeseung. Smh STUPID!!!!

HEESEUNG CONFESSING HOLD UP! LET ME GRAB A BAG. I AM HYPERVENTILATING!!!! omg nooooo not the "I didn't wanna fall in love with you!" 😫 my heart is shattering!!!

Omg I feel so bad for yn! Her friends shouldn't even be mad to ignore her just because ppl wanna whisper! LET ME AT THEM FOR A MINUTE! Just let knock some senses into YN's friends because dude, DUDE! I get that she kept it a secret but they didn't have to do this to her 😭

OH MY GOD! ISA, YOU NEED TO COME HERE 👊🏻👊🏻👊🏻 I KNEW SHE WAS A MEAN GIRL BUT I DIDNT EXPECT HER TO BE A WHOLE A B!!!! My jaw dropped so fast for Jake! The idiot actually liked her and she broke their friendship! B!!!!!!!!!! IMMA FIGHT HER! Make me get a cameo and fight her lol but wait a minute, Jake's feelings about yn?! PLEASE STOP I DONT WANT TO CRY ANYMORE!!! Yes he saw her looking ethereal and AS HE SHOULD THE FIRST TIME BUT JAKE ITS TOO LATE oml

Omg okay this is hitting a lil close to home. 😔 where Jake asks yn why she goes to those parties and if it's to hangout with him. Man, I used to stay after school with some friends because I had a crush on this dancer. But he never noticed me as a potential partner because we were always "friends". He tried hooking me up with one of his friends who they took it more like a joke. It hurt me a lot but im glad I didn't get with him or his friend. Apparently he's a loser now whew! Lol NOW BACK TO THE STORY

THATS RIGHT YN DEFEND YOUR MAN! 👏🏻👏🏻 aww Jake saying yn sees the best in everyone. 😭 I'm so happy he notices! Okay um jake, your hand, ooooffff of yn's thigh!!! NO COMPLIMENTS JAKE 👊🏻👊🏻 OMG THE WAY I HELD MY BREATH READING THE SCENE BEFORE ahemheeseungprobablyahem TYE THUD ON THE DOOR DJDHHDHDJDJF MY HEART IS RACING LORD

THE NICKNAME OMFG MY HEART FLUTTERED. Heeseung omg COME HERE AGAIN LOL 👊🏻👊🏻 DONT BE ALL SAPPY!!! Jake got there first and it's not like YN wasn't thinking about you, stupid!!!! Heeseung stop being jealous omgg 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

OH LOOOORD!!!! STEAM EVERYWHERE!!!! heeseung being a gentleman, afraid to hurt yn 😭 we love a green flag man! Him saying he loves her omgomgomgomgomg SOMEONE HOLD ME!

JAY AND CHEORRY THOUGH HDHDHHDHDJD ARE WE GONNA HAVE A SLIGHT MINISODE OF THEM?! Heheheh

Wait, are you hinting at us that Jake will have a story??? Like I genuinely feel bad for Jake, tbh lol he didn't deserve what Isa did to him smh but he shouldn't have tried to make a move on yn JUST BECAUSE he knows she likes him. It was like yn was a rebound :\ BUUUUUUT Heeyn being cute and him spinning her around before hugging her 😫😫😭😭 it's just too cute. Thank you so much for this series. I'm sobbing rainbows and butterflies at heeyn! 😈😈

HAHAHAHA UR SO FUNNY <33333 everyone is saying they feel bad for jake lmaoo anyways i’m glad u liked it <33 and a jake story/part would be pretty cool lol

[tobi-momo]

APPRECIATION POST [500]

whew this is gonna be long-

i just wanted to say that im very thankful for everyone that ive met on this app and that all of you guys make me feel so accepted and appreciated here- i wasnt fond of my own writings even though ive been doing it for years bc i didnt think i would go anywhere but yall make me feel like i can and it means the world to me <3 anyways lets get on with it

first of all i want to thank my best friend for telling me to get this app bc wattpad fucking sucks and i needed actually good shit to read (she shall remain unnamed bc i dont think she'd want to be mentioned here lol) but yeah thank you bitch ily <3

@todorkihoee mom 🥺*sniff* im really happy i became friends with you in the server bc holy shit youre awesome and you give me so much confidence in my writing and you make me feel validated as a person *sniff*

@toosharkinternet you were literally my first ask, my first tumblr friend and im so glad that you were bc omglkjfsdf i literally love you sm im so happy we started talking<33

@alpha3113 & @flattykawadoorusmilkbread yall have been my friends since the beginning like penny ^ and i appreciate you guys so much like i cant even express how much you guys mean to me :)

@somberess step mommy 😩 you also make me feel happy to be me like todo and im super glad that we became friends and i love worshiping you and your art and your relationship with todo and all that shit its just super fun and youre amazing to just vibe with <3

@combat-wombatus WOMBABTTJDD I LITERALLY LOVE THE SHIT OUT OF YOU SIS 🥺🥺 i cant even express to you how much you mean to me honestly i love brainstorming with you and hearing your ideas and i get so excited when you proofread my stuff bc i honestly feel so honored to have an author like you approve of my works youre jsut an awesome person all around ilysm

@hitosushi THEOOOASKDASL ILY SMMMM YOU ARE SO FULL OF AMAZING ENERGY AND AWESOME VIBES and whenever you put italics in your writing makes me cackle everytime i swear-

@solar3lunar @blackweebtrash @katsumiiii @angiebug101 @yvesvante @duskjelly @rosetheshapeshifter @moxie-elle @mads-fairy @cloudytamaki @koishiguro @silkylious @peanutbutterstuffedbagels yall are the funnest people ever istg- i know i havent talked much with all of you but you guys are so awesome to talk to and just vibe with honestly i love the energy yall have you guys all mean a lot to me thank you guys <3

@iicekking UGH ICYYYY ILYSM THANK YOU FOR OBSESSING OVER FAIRYTAIL AND HORIMIYA WITH ME IM SO HAPPY THAT WE DO THAT TOGETHER IT MAKES MY DAY ALL THE FRICKEN TIME MAN YOURE THE BEST <333

@shinsousliya BABE I LITERALLY LOVE YOU SM YOUR TALENT IS TO DIE FOR AND IM SO HAPPY YOU WATCH FT TOO AND I LOVE HOW WE TALK AB IT ALL THE TIME UGH ITS THE BEST <333 plus your oc's ???? literally amazing

@pies-writes-and-more @thisnoodlewritesao3 @elektrosonix YOU GUYS ARE SO SUPPORTIVE ISTG I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH I CANT- first of all your guys' talent is literally beautiful i could kill to have that and you guys are so nice and supportive and im so happy im friends with yall it makes me so happy <3

@maemi324 thank you sm for giving me advice and reminding me its not the end of the world im so greatful for you seriously- plus i love your writing and yeah just thank you

i also want to thank all of my mutuals that weren't mentioned here- i could write paragraphs for each one of you and i really thank you guys for wanting to get to know me and stuff i cant tell yall how much that means to me 🥺

MY CHARACTER ANONS!!! I APPRECIATE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU FOR TAKING TIME OUT OF YOUR DAY TO RP WITH ME UGH YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING THE REAL OG'S

and my followers!!! im so happy a lot of you guys interact with me and like what i write it makes my day srsly <3 you guys all mean a lot to me you guys dont even know <333

anyways

thats it

pls ik its super cringy and shit but pls bear with me i hit 500 followers and i feel super soft ab it 😭

[forbiddenfantasies1]

J/B Smut Swap Fic Recs

There have been so many amazing fics posted in the @jb-smut-swap, but I wanted to share the ones that have really stuck out for me. The amount of talent this fandom has continues to be ridiculous so this is long but in no way comprehensive.

Shocker...I got wordy so it's under the cut. I limited this one to 5 just because I couldn't shut up about them. At least one more will be coming (that's what she said).

with those who know secret things for SimoneBlack, rated E. The premise for Brienne as a sex worker and Jaime, a client who is seeking freedom and trust, could so easily be mishandled. This was anything but. It is somehow simultaneously wonderfully dirty and so, so tender. I lost my mind reading this, and it was worth every throw of my pillow. I'm still trying to understand how it had so much heat with so much heart.

Lines that will live in my head forever: There are several, but I'm gonna go with:

“Do you like to be touched, Jaime?”

“Yes,” he breathed.

Her finger stopped just above his navel, and when she pulled her hand away he swayed towards her. “But you aren't touched often,” she said, warm as a lazy afternoon. He listened for mockery, but there was none, just a fact, stated with quiet empathy.

“No.”

Blue placed her palm – studded with smoothed-down calluses and cooler than he expected – over his heart. “Do you want me to touch you tonight?”

The answer is yes, by the way

what is dark in me illumine for @bussdowntarthiana, rated E. Yall. This fic ruined me for an hour solid. My note on it says "made me want to throw myself through a plate glass window, and then eat the glass" and it's true. Jaime is a bar owner (and an ethical, exiled demon). Brienne is an ethics professor. Their attraction feels so layered, and the vibes of consent, and honor, and acceptance are woven through the smuttiest smut perfectly.

Lines that will live in my head forever: Again, there are so many, BUT this and the scene directly after it will live in my head FOREVER.

Her tongue darts out to wet her lips. Her pupils are spreading, darkness over the ocean. "I like hard and fast and filthy," she says evenly. "But do you want to know what happens to me when I hear you talk about how you've chosen to make your way in this world?"

He does. Desperately. "What?"

She opens her mouth, then seems to change her mind. "Maybe in this case, a demonstration would be the better pedagogical tool."

That prim word with all those consonants bouncing around in her mouth makes him want to sink his teeth into her. "Please feel free, Doctor Tarth."

(I can't talk about what her demonstration was because it makes me want to break things).

Hush for TwoKnightsOneCup, rated E. This is another that fell in the "Fuck this fic and this writer" category for me. It's a 5+1 structured fic where Jaime is a chopper pilot and Brienne is a researcher in Antarctica, and they're trying to fuck quietly all over the place without getting caught. Stupidly hot with amazing scenery porn, and some singular lines that will have you wanting to throw hands at the author for burrowing into your brain.

Lines that will live in my head forever: I almost picked the part with the belt, but honestly it's so fucking horny on main and I'm trying to have some decorum here. So I'll go with this instead.

“I’m taking these off,” Jaime tells her, his voice a low growl, and Brienne flushes but she lets him peel her thermal tights and underwear down while she sprawls on the bedroll before him, and it feels like flying in low out of the clouds over the frozen coastline for the first time, seeing the glacier rolling down to the water’s edge: the impossible extent of it, the startled sense of wonder. There are fading bruises on her shins and the vivid bright rash of a scrape on her knee, and he marvels at all the colors that make up the endless landscape of her. But then he nudges her knees apart and sees her cunt wet and open for him, smells her, and he realizes she’s not like that pallid, uninhabitable scenery at all: she’s pink and red and alive, almost steaming in the cool air. His mouth waters, and he shoves his arms under her thighs and descends.

But seriously...the part with the belt? Whew.

Lines that will live in my head forever: When they eventually came up for air, he looked at her with a look she’d seen on him in the courtyard every time he was going to go on the offence. Here, she knew not what it meant, yet it still sent a similar sort of anticipation down her spine.

Thrust Exercises for greenmtwoman, rated E. God this damn fic. First of all, it's basically canon divergence with a young Jaime and Brienne. Jaime has been Master at Arms at Evenfall ever since Selwyn lugged his ass home after the Rebellion like the world's mouthiest souvenir. There are three things to know about this fic: 1) Jaime and Brienne are genuinely friends in this. Their history and affection are just so apparent. 2) Jaime plans (beforehand!) to introduce Brienne to strip sparring (!!!) before the bedding. And 3) Jaime is so horny for his wife, y'all. He wants her so bad and there's a moment where he realizes she wants him too that made my heart migrate to my eyes.

“It means, I want you.” Before she could ask, he said, “I told you before, didn't I? Your face is very loud.”

She frowned; he lifted himself on his toes and kissed the knot between her brows.

“I quite like it,” he said, “your very loud face.”

They just like each other so much. I can't stand it.

Light my fire for me, and rated E. I've already recced this one in a separate post, but it's my list and I can do what I want. And what I want is to tell people to read this fic because I loved it so much. Brienne and Jaime are coworkers at a ski lodge, and are celebrating the end of a season. Jaime, bless his thotty soul, is wearing a union suit under his ski wear, and if that isn't code for "wants his dick admired" well then I don't know what is. When their roommates hook up, Jaime and Brienne are forced to share a cabin and if it has so many of my favorite tropes in it, I can barely stand it. I was so, so happy with my gift, and I just want everyone to read it and be happy too.

Lines that will live in my head forever: They stand in front of the fireplace and Jaime backs up half a step, watching her from beneath hooded eyelids as he undoes more buttons of his union suit. He takes his time, and she lets her eyes devour every sliver of skin he slowly exposes – muscled chest with dark blond hair scattered across it, defined abs highlighted by the orange glow of the fire, the V of muscle at the bottom of his stomach that leads her eyes down to the hard jut of his cock outlined by the cloth. He stops unbuttoning just there, sliding the top of the union suit down off his shoulders and letting the arms hang at his sides.

This is literally why I prompted the union suit. All I wanted was Jaime in a union suit with Brienne admiring the shape of his cock through the thin fabric. That's it. The one paragraph hit every dream I had for it, but all the other paragraphs are good too.

[ramp-it-up]

All I Want for Christmas

DJ’s 10 Days of Christmas

Day 10:12.24.2020

All I Want for Christmas x Jordin Sparks

Pairing: Daveed Diggs x Reader

Word Count: 2.3k

Warnings: Cursing, suggestive language, mild SMUT (18+) Christmas surprises, vlogging.

A/N: Whew, we made it! This Christmas series has been so much fun ad really put me in the spirit.  It has also given me some great practice.

This story is the beginning of a series with @riiyy and TOTALLY her idea. 

Look for more of “Dedicating Every Day to You” coming soon!

Read a previous part: Acceptance.

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November 2019

What a decade this year had been.  

Ever since you won the Tony, then announced your engagement to Daveed last winter, the world was going crazy. 

Your shows were even more in demand than they had been previously and the fan/media attention soon got overwhelming.  

You decided to take your final bows in the show in May, partly because Daveed was still splitting time between coasts because of you, and partly because your career was taking off. 

LA would be a perfect spot from which to be with your man and base your talent.

In June, while everyone was wondering when and where you would get married, you and Daveed slipped off to Turks and Caicos and tied the knot in an intimate ceremony, just you two.

You came back, flew your folks out to Cali, and had a big party for family and friends.  No one was the wiser, no one knew your business and you two were just happy.

With all of the activity, the six months since yall were married was a blur and very busy for the Diggs’.

In November, you hosted the Friendsgiving celebration at your house and it was a rager. Everyone got wasted, and that night was for sure a memory in the bedroom for you and Daveed. 

You still blushed to think of it and there were many times in the following weeks that you two looked at each other and smiled because you were thinking of it.

You knew what the other was thinking without saying a word. For some reason, you couldn't keep your hands off each other that night.

In the month since then, you’d been ripping and running, catching a flight back east to see your folks, doing prep work for an upcoming project, supporting Daveed in his shows that you could attend, everything that there was to do, you did it, and it was a lot.

For some crazy reason, since it was your first Holiday season as a married couple, you decided to resurrect the Diggs’ family Meat (or Meat substitute) Fest. 

You didn’t realize how hectic it would be when you agreed to it at Friendsgiving. You were in too good a mood. Now you were regretting it.

The two weeks leading up to Meat Fest were taxing.You were exhausted and slept every chance you got.  You started getting headaches and were very short tempered.

Daveed was worried about you and wanted you to go to a doctor, but you’d had a history of migraines and you weren’t too concerned.

There were about only about three people who could get you to smile. Anytime you saw Daveed and his beautiful smile, you had to respond in kind. 

And when he started walking around the house with no shirt on, well, hey, you were only human. 

Rafa with his fool self come in a close second, he was your brother from another mother and the sun to your moon. 

Ariana’s witty ass over the phone and texts completed the Triad of People to get you to smile.  They even had a group chat which discussed ways to lighten your mood.

That smile was Daveed’s everything. You gave him peace. Any drama outside of your household melted away when he was with you. He wanted you to be good. 

Maybe you were working too much. When he brought it up, you bit his head off, so he just held on to you and let you rest when you could find time. You were his rider, you deserved the world.

You were doing food prep the day before Meat Fest. Ariana facetimed you while you cooked.

"Oooh!  You should do some Tofurkey!" 

Ariana’s voice was excited.

Your stomach turned. You made a face.

"No?  Well, you don't have to eat it girl, you could just make it."  She was laughing at you.

You turned greener and greener as you two went through the menu.

"I'm going to the bathroom. Call you back.”  You didn’t even end the call.

You heard Ari calling your name as you went.

You went into the bathroom and splashed cold water on your face and came back out.

"You okay?"

"Yeah girl, its all this running around. I think I have a stomach bug."

"I’m glad I’m not there, I would be sick too, since you like to stay up under me all the time."

You laughed and rolled your eyes. " Bitch, whatever. Ok."

You had more meat to buy.  Anything for your Boo.  You ended the call with Ari and went the store.  After shopping, you were exhausted and went to sleep.

Daveed came home at 3 in the afternoon and saw you curled up in bed. It was cool and rainy outside, so he undressed and climbed in bed with you.

"Ow! Your hands are cold."

Daveed was palming your breasts; your nipples becoming concrete under his touch.

"That's why I put them under your shirt, to keep them warm, babe. They're huge today. I like these monthly benefits..."  

His voice in your ear was the shit.

You thought about what he said while Daveed started playing with your nipples.

"Oooh! That hurts!"

"But you like it, right?"

Daveed smiled against your neck.

"Actually. No. It's uncomfortable."

You didn't feel right.

D moved his hands and moved to look at you.

"You okay? You don’t look good." He felt your head. "Are you sick?"

"I don't know.  I've felt like crap all day."

Daveed stroked your cheek, examining your face for what might be wrong. Worried. He kissed your forehead.

"We have to get you to a doctor. Please. For me?"  

He gave you the puppy dog eyes, which you couldn’t resist.

Your mood lifted and you cracked a smile. 

"I'm sure we can't get an appointment. I bet they are all on Christmas Break." 

You stretched as Daveed’s eyes swept down your body. He licked his lips.

But, he sat up and got on the phone.

Within a few minutes, he had an appointment for you the next day.

"Thanks, Baby." You kissed his neck.

He moaned.

"But the appointment's at 10. I have press at nine. I'll be a little late, but I'll meet you there. Ahhhhh."

"That's sweet babe.  But you don't have to interrupt your day for...."

"Hey, I'm going to take care of you as much as I can.  It's what's important."

You just nodded and kissed his cheek.

He rubbed your back. "You good?"

"Yes."

You kept kissing his neck.

"I just had a crazy thought." 

You were in the zone.

"I've been thinking that I want to give you some."

"Yeah, girl. Give me some of that ill na na."

You pulled back.

"Nah, that was corny as fuck." 

You were cracking up and feeling better.

Daveed reached for you and pulled your shirt up. He leaned down and blew on your nipples.

"Now that feels goooood."

He appreciated your face expressing your desire.

"I see what the vibe is for today. we'll take it slow and easy. For my sick Boo."

He gently kissed your neck and torso, circling your areolas gently with his tongue and blowing on your nipples.

You were squirming beneath him, in ecstasy. He had taken all of your clothes off.

"Ah, Daveed...."

"Yes, baby?”

He stopped his attention to your body.

"Don't stop...."

"Never..."

Your face told him what he needed to know.  Daveed got between your legs and watched your face as he entered your warm goodness.

You were such a beautiful sight, and the emotions on your face were everything.

He took his sweet time, feeling your walls grab him as he moved in and out, in and out, until you raised your legs and put your hands on his ass.

Then he grabbed your thighs and held them as he steadily stroked your tight warm wetness.

"Ahh, you hitting my spot!  Yessss!  Feels so goooooddddd!"

Everytime Daveed touched the bundle of nerves inside you it felt that you lit up like a Christmas tree. 

You keened as you came, face buried in his shoulder.

"Now, that was a sick fuck."  

Daveed rolled over, and grinned.  It was like he couldn't stop with the puns.

"Cornyyyyy!" 

You felt better, but were still tired.  You curled up in his arms as he laughed and fell fast asleep.

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The next morning as Daveed went to do some press, you drove to the doctor’s office.

You waited about fifteen minutes and went back with the nurse.

"Okay Mrs. Diggs, what's going on today?"  The nurse was typing in an electronic chart.

"Well, I've really been run down lately, tired all the time and I get headaches.  I’ve been really busy lately.  I think I'm getting the flu.  And I hope I don't have mono."

The nurse nodded. 

"Okay, what medications are you on?"

"None."

"Any contact with children that may have been sick?  Around any situations where people were sick?"

"Well, yeah.  I have a few kids in my family.  And I've been visiting family and friends with kids."

"That may be it.  You have to be careful not to catch something when you're in the hospital."

The nurse took your blood pressure and wrote it down, got your height and weight.

"When was the date of your last menstrual cycle."

Your heart fell into your stomach.  You hadn't had a cycle since before Friendsgiving.  You were supposed to get your shot around that time as well, but in all the chaos...

Your mouth dropped open.

The nurse laughed.

"Well, you may be sick or we may have found another reason for your symptoms, Mrs. Diggs."

The nurse turned around to the cabinet and reached for a cup.

"I'm going to need you to pee in this."  

She looked at you, who felt like you were about to fall off the table.

"Mrs. Diggs?  Mrs. Diggs."

"Oh...ok..."  

You were in shock as you gave the urine sample.  Afterwards, the doctor came in with the results.

"Mrs. Diggs, I don't know if these results are a good thing or a bad thing for you....."

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You were sitting in the lobby when Daveed arrived.  You looked horrified.

"Hey, babe.  What's the matter?" 

He was worried.

You just stared at him for a minute.

"Welllll.  You know how I call you Daddy when we're doing it sometimes?"

D grinned and looked around, only slightly embarrassed.

"Yeah. But what's wrong?"

"Somebody else is going to be calling you Daddy soon?"

"Who lied and told you......"  

He started to get mad. 

"What?...Wait...."

You smiled at him.

"You're gonna be someone's Daddy.  Next summer.  I'm four weeks pregnant, Daveed."

He just stared at you.

Then, he stood up and yelled.

“Wooooooo! I'm gonna be a Dad!"

You stood up to shush him and he grabbed you up and spun you around.

"Oh, no.  Put me down. I'm going to throw up."

Daveed put you down and grinned.  You couldn't help but grin back.

"This is us, girl." 

He had his hand on your belly. 

"Yeah, this is us..." 

You kissed and the waiting room started clapping.

Daveed took a bow. You curtsied.

"Thank you, thank you very much.  We love you all."

You were both laughing with joy as you left the building. You had all you wanted for Christmas.

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Diggs, Baby Personal Video #1

“Dear Diggs Baby.  What to say to you?” 

You and Daveed sat in your living room and spoke to the camera. 

“I want you to look like your mama.”  You smiled at Daveed as he said that.

“I think that they should look like themselves, which will be a mix of the two of us.  Cause I think you are the best looking man in the world. And if I am as beautiful as you say, then they will be gorgeous.”

You beamed when you said it.

“Well, you are, and you are even more beautiful carrying our child.”

You looked at the camera as Daveed looked at you.

“We know that it is really early to be talking about this really. Some people think that we will jinx it.  I’m only about four and a half weeks along.

Only your grandparents, your aunties and uncles, including Auntie Ari and Tio Rafa know about you little nugget.

But Baby, we want you to know how much we love you.”

Daveed tore his eyes away from you to speak.

“Yeah.  We didn’t plan this, but our love made you happen, so the news that you are coming is the best holiday gift we could ever receive.

You have a lot of people who will love you and be there for you in your life. Besides me and your mom.”

“Welcome little nugget.  There will be lots of fun, laughter, and food coming your way.  And a whole lot of love. I have all I wanted for Christmas. And that is you and your Dad.”

“Yes, ‘nugget,’

Daveed looked at you and laughed. 

“We’ll be dedicating every day to you from now on. We’ll give the world to you. We’ll do it all for you.”

“We love youuuuu!”

You jumped in, grinning ear to ear.

“We love you. See you soon!” 

Daveed’s smile came toward the camera, as he fiddled with the phone.

He sat back on the couch with you.  You looked at him, a big smile on your face. Daveed reached for you. 

“We should have told the baby to expect Daddy to be knock knock knocking on their door, because, girl… I’m gonna be all up in that….

You covered Daveed’s mouth and squirmed out of his grip, diving for your phone.

“Daveed! The recording’s still going….. Stop….

You laughed as the recording ended.

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Merry Christmas Everybody!  I hope that you are enjoying it however you do, if you celebrate! If you don’t, have an amazing day!

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[sleepynegress]

OKAY... CASTLEVANIA BREAKDOWN... BECAUSE A FINAL SEASON THAT GOOD DESERVES IT...

I am still boggled that a cartoon did a final season better than every human show I’ve seen for the past few years.... So... quick sloppy spoilers-thoughts-reasons why beneath the cut... DON’T READ UNTIL YOU’VE WATCHED DAMMIT!!

The writers indulged in #1 the HUMAN CONNECTION. Which is why we watch!!  We care, we invest, when that is done justice and that was done justice here. It was centered on that and love... From my giant lesbian in her day-walker armor and her smart brown strategist, to even St. Germain’s dumb-ass and my hearty laughter at his connection with a woman who could beat his ass (which is a recurring theme in this show) to my two bisexual babies Adrian and Greta....( I TOLD YOU SO!!...well...half-way. turnt out the other one I was speculating about was cray-cray lol) Greta gonna peg that dhampir happy, w/o any stabbing attempts.  Every time they bantered I just saw Bowie and Iman, yall....lol The fight scenes fed me... Carmilla’s final fight MAH GAWD.... I want drag queens to reenact that ish forreal, down to the gold shoes. Trevor’s final fight.... BITCH!! when Sypha and Trevor showed up at Alucard’s side... it was legit an “On your left.” fucking feeling. The dialogue was intelligent  Whew! EVERY scene with Isaac.... The musings from both Sypha and Alucard on the Trevorisms rubbing off on them... The one-liners were chef’s kiss!!! And every character...  I MEAN EVERY ONE!!!  Got the exact right closure. The only thing I’m shaky on is Hector’s relatively light treatment of Lenore... but I mean, I got it.  Abusive situations can be like that... And as long as she got hers, (and she did)  I’m good. And it was still creepy and twisted... the sewn intersexed corpse... that fire-lighteninfg breathing cart-pulling thing...and plenty of flesh went a-flying. I also gotta appreciate the details in the background characters, villagers etc... Like two children who try and fail to capture a rat to eat, and the little black girl with the afro puffs.... ahh. This was everything. And why did it feel like a video game, in terms of esclating threats and special weapons for them... but written in a way that was entertaining for the format?!

I’m just saying.... final boss was a final boss. Loved it all...Will watch again.

[hongism]

Dude this is by far one of my favorite MOC chapters I’m absolutely feral rn oh my god. Like I’m happy we finally got ahem moments with San because pls god. But omg like THE FRICKIN KID I REMEMBER YOU TALKING ABOUT HIM AND HOW HE PLAYS A ROLE SOON AND IM OVER HERE LIKE OMFG WHAT GONNA HAPPEN. And then the whole issue of her leaving omfg dude this played out way more than I imagined, like how do you just have the inevitable stuff that’s gonna happen and still add a further juicy layer to it?? Like bRO. And omfg once again you got us over here suffering over the captain’s behavior and actions aHHHH, I really wanna know why sirens are such a big deal to him. But I’m so proud of her for being like IM GONNA MAKE YOU NEED ME AND IM LIKE OK BITCH POP OFF 💅🏼💅🏼💅🏼, nah when HJ said give something for Jisung to be afraid of I WAS LIKE PERIODT AS YOU FUCKING SHOULD QUEEN. I absolutely cannot wait for her to go feral on his ass ahh. But ohmygod yeo and woo broke my heart queen. Rip my heart out why don’t you. Mingi over here vibing tho LMAO. And omfg SEONGHWA being angry like where is is directed at 👀👀👀 just all these things, and like I wonder how the rest of the crew reacted to this situation because they were way too calm when she came back sooo they had no idea and won’t know until she’s gone. But miss caly let me end this on the note that this is literally one of the best chapters and one hell of a way to end this act. And don’t worry about making up for lost time, if we gotta wait a whole month for artistry such as this then fuck yeah I’ll wait forever, and honestly it’s such a wonderful surprise to see the notification about it and being like OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG and you’re immediately transported back into the world of MOC. Also might I add Yeonjun fucking hottie. I may not be a fan of heavy hurtful angst, but you write it in a way that aids the plot and easier to bear if that makes any sense. And I’m eagerly awaiting to see the aftermath of her leaving and her giving Jisung a run for his fucking money 😛, I crave violence and fear upon MOC Jisung because one hell of a power move. Does this next act involve Jin more or is he more on the sidelines? But omg just the way you write intimacy between San and MC just ohmygod it’s so precious and calming and speaks a lot on what love is and I really love reading it. I really can’t wait though for this next act and see if we get more on MC’s past too, like I wanna know what happened that one night and who she really killed 👀👀👀 Ok I’m gonna stop here for now, I’ll prob drop other thoughts throughout the week heh.

Like not @ me thinking of rereading MOC for funsies and then you drop the newest chapter JSKKCKDMF WIAT OMG I WAS READING SOMEONE ELSES RESPONSE TO MOC 41 AND I FORGOT WHAT THE FUCK DID YEOSANG MEAN BRO 🤯👀👁 LIKE IM OUT HERE STARING AT IT LIKE WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN HUH They also reminded me of like HJ clinging to San and his facial expressions like yes. You’ve made captain with such depth and morally gray area that the readers cling to him. I swear he regrets letting her go smh

SCREAMING HI BESTIE im thrilled to hear it’s one of your favorites by far what an HONOR 😭

i love the energy of this ask LKJGLKDJ it's all over the place it matches my energy perfectly thank u but god yeah there's so much going on and so much to get into and WHEW !!! im so glad it brings out all these emotions, that makes me so happy as the writer i couldn't be more happy to see my writing bring visceral reactions out of people HAHA

there's really so much nuance to this chapter just things left and right and it's crazy !!! but as for the rest of the crew i think it is safe to assume that they had no clue about hongjoong's decision or what the plans were ! but really tHANK YOU im so fucking glad it was a banger chapter and a banger end to the act, i think the end of the act is always hardest for me to write so im so thrilled this was worth it!!! sadly yall had to wait a little more than a month for this one and im still sorry about that no matter what T_T i think i love getting to surprise you guys tho it's a little surprise gift for yall for being so patient and waiting for me ❤

nightingale IS A MEGA HOTTIE i have so much planned for him i can't wait he's so sexy <3 and im so glad the angst aids the plot heh im hoping that it lightens up a bit from here on out <3 this next act is full of a LOT! a LOT!!!!! i can't say yet whether that includes jin or not tho !! we shall see in the future 👁👁🍿 this next act is really all about revealing secrets and unveiling truths soooooo i think we can gather what that means butttt we'll see we'll see it definitely ties into what yeosang said <//3 and that nuance of hongjoong clinging to san at the end was a fave of mine i loved adding that eeee <3