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beloveddawn-blog · 1 year ago

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I need a moment to come to terms with the fact that I'm about to spend $300 on a dreamcatcher

#I CAN just do that #which is still a bit strange #the hoop dancer is really cool too

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remitro · 3 months ago

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taps the mic. higuys is this thing on. tentative first passes at drawing william + bonus more self indulgent version of the same doodle where i make him a little more blue. for funsies <3

#scribbles #jrwi #william wisp #jrwi fanart #does this even deserve a fanart tag actually. hmmm. FUTURE ME CAN DELETE IT LATER I GUESS #struggled a little bit with him i will not lie. between fashion sense hair and just General Way I Draw Him #if i'm not careful. he does just look like a white version of me. WHICH IS REALLY STRANGE.#I THINK I CIRCUMVENTED IT FOR THE MOST PART. BUT STILL.

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evercelle · 6 months ago

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2024 art summary! it sure has been a year

#ever makes art #i bsky tweeted a bit but it feels weird talking there still so ill do my usual rambling into tags here :)c #i burned out super bad in the middle of this year for months where it felt like i couldnt draw anything good no matter how hard i tried #and the harder i tried the worst it felt - to the degree that i legitimately thought i wasnt going to be able to draw anything again #which sounds SO dramatic i know i know. but feelings arent always rational!!! and so many others things were going wrong at the same time #so it was strange putting together this year's art summary and realizing Huh. i did still have paintings to put in every space #that fear/anxiety spiral seems even sillier and more meaningless now that i have distance and proof of how irrational it was...#...but in reflection i'd like to think of it as proof that even when you feel at your worse it's worth it to keep trying...!!#after the Black Hole of Nothing i've been working every day on never ending doujin and xv anthology and orv sketchzine and merch #i can't say that i feel my artistic skills have like. improved or anything... but the passion i feel for the stories i read and #the stories i want to tell is still there!! and the happiness from getting to put form to those feelings large or small is worth it too #anyway......... lotta words to say tho i haven't posted much anymore and socmed is imploding and the world is dark #thank you very much for staying with me another year. i am - as ever - always grateful

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arolesbianism · 7 months ago

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May I offer some Siffrins on this fine day

#keese draws #isat #isat siffrin #sasasaap siffrin #comic siffrin #I was going to do more doodles but I ran out of steam rip #anyways I have Many comicfrin thoughts but they are still in the oven a bit #but the main thing I wanna clarify is that comicsif’s loops started much earlier than the other two #as in. the beginning of their journey early.#which considering they were a part of the party from the start in this au their loops lasted a While #they ofc eventually started speed running it a lot more but even then it’d still take them at least a month #not counting looping forwards and backwards ofc #I wanna take a crack at drawing their party soon but I wanna do some more brainstorming first #I have very clear visions in my head for two of them and basically nothing for the other two #one of them is also there from the start and in fact she’s the reason siffrin came to vaugard in the first place #she was going to visit her family at home and they knew that a family friend of theirs had an uncle that lived there and decided to tag #along to say hi. unfortunately while they were at dormont something attacked the castle before they could go… go…#hm. that’s strange. a glitch rewind effect happened and I seem to have lost my train of thought. how odd #anyways they and their friend were quite shaken ofc but their friend is brave! so she decided that they needed to do smth abt this #at which point comicfrin was given the cosmic rundown on the timeloop situation #smth that would not be repeated for the other sifs lol #new game+

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zer0expektation · 7 months ago

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HS AU Viktor and Singed on murder and love;

#a bit of a strange one for a modern/hs au #but singed is strange always so i think it makes sense #plus this is one of those weird conversations that you can only have with that one teacher thats kinda weird but still enjoys theyre job #arcane #viktor arcane #arcane league of legends #arcane fanart #singed arcane #dr reveck #fan art #art #traditional drawing #comic #fan comic #singed is that one teacher that disappears half way through the year and is replaced with long term subs #so everyone starts making up theories ab what happened - the majority of which being that he was arrested bc its always that -#but then randomly reappears during the last month and a half of school with - once again - zero explanation

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rubenesque-as-fuck · 20 days ago

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Oopsie daisy, we accidentally spent almost 5 full hours in my room 🥴 damn I had truly planned on buying him a nice dinner after sex too

#dating nonsense #stoner romeo #5 hour bedroom adventure #that honestly would have lasted even longer if I hadn't reminded him for the third time that I wanted to get him dinner #granted it wasn't all sex #it was more like foreplay then sex the more foreplay then more sex #then a massage and then domming/edging him for a while then aftercare then more sex #then cuddling then a stark moment of our emotional walls being let down with some light tears and then more kissing #then coming back downstairs and realizing it was already 10:30 at night #so instead of dinner I gave him the fancy dessert i bought for him earlier #then he headed home #i feel good but it was scary to be that emotionally vulnerable for even a little bit at the end #but it's not going to scare him away #and it's strange to feel confident in that #strange but good (and a little scary)#and like once again i have to question where the line is and how I'm supposed to not fall for someone who makes me feel so valued/cared for #and someone who allows themselves to be vulnerable with me as well #he talked a little bit more about his wife #and how sometimes he feels guilty for enjoying being with other people after her death #and thinking about how he wouldn't be doing any of it if she were still here #which is all very understandable to me #so anyway i have feelings for this guy for suuuuuure but I want to give him the space he needs to continue grieving/processing #and he's once again made it clear that he's planning on sticking around for the foreseeable future #i offhandedly mentioned something I like to bake in the winter time and he was like 'yum can't wait 😁'#told him it was so nice to not feel like there's a time limit or looming threat to our time together #I haven't really had that since... college? or maybe even ever?#yeah fuck it I'm in love #at least a little bit #and we have plenty of time for whatever will be to become what it is

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vaguely-concerned · 3 months ago

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for various rl and depression reasons I haven't actually gotten to play da:tv for quite a few days now, and I cannot adequately convey to you the sheer hilarity of the effect hearing lucanis' voice again just had on me. I was fully in the deepest trough of a depressive slump, still breathing but by no means what I would describe as 'alive', heard him Say Something (as he does), and immediately something in my soul went 'oh yeah no this changes everything actually I just forgot for a moment there sorry for the inconvenience'. like my depression is not healed or anything (it never is :') ) but it did lift its crushing weight from my entire being by a significant amount and let discernible light in where there had been pitch dark unshifting misery before. this is so funny. no real life human contact or warmth, no high ideals, no wise words encouraging hope, no awe nor curiosity over the infinite complexity and wonder of the universe has managed to do what lucanis dellamorte breezily coming to terms with the grand necropolis by grasping its role in nevarra's financial system just did in an instant, 'what like it's hard' style. no one is more baffled than me to find that it's not even a bit he just does that to me. that literally just happened. mary kirby I unironically kind of owe you my life

#emotional support lucanis dellamorte Saying (Insane) Things like they're the most obvious thing in the world saves lives apparently #dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #lucanis dellamorte #listen. i feel so much shame all the time about how the things that seem to help other people... don't really seem to help me much #all the 'this is good for everyone' stuff fails to bring me relief pretty much 100% of the time and all it does #is add alienation and shame to the mix. this is a twenty year long pattern. I don't think there's much getting away from it #so when something does actually kind of work even if it's not replicable or under my control and it somehow is also FUNNY...#we must take those #perhaps I am a strange grotesquery of inconsolable pain untouchable by and implacable to human warmth and comfort #but at least I am soul-level committed to the bit and I suppose that is something #social connection meditation and healthy excercise? GOD how i've tried and over decades it has not cumulatively helped #even as much as this one blorbo moment did. i'm not ok but I am living in a universe suddenly where I understand the state #of ok at least conceptually. like oh yeah. it is a thing. it's not what I am but it is a state that exists. do you see what I'm saying #also why I frankly just don't care what anyone else thinks or feels about this game. to me it's been this and that'll still be true #no matter what. which is another kind of relief as well.

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bayetea · 29 days ago

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some of my favorite leo bits from moa actually. messy ass bitch. I've been thinking about "gold is easy" "not to leo" for ten years

#aside from me giggling over the unwelcome romantic tension because it's just funny to me I like these leo character moments #ESPECIALLY “he felt pleased about it. then he felt bad for feeling pleased”#I love that line. shows what kind of guy leo is #he's being petty. he's happy that their relationship is faltering because of him #which is very real and very messy and very human of him #but he still feels guilty for relishing in someone else's grief. he doesn't want to be that kind of person but he is. just a little bit #I should leopost more but I feel . kind of at odds with a lot of contemporary leo stans #it's strange because I feel that the way leo is written is rather unsubtle compared to others #rick kind of tells the reader very directly what leo's about. I always notice this on my rereads #but I don't love a lot of the leoposting I see to be Honest. it could partially be because characters such as nico/will/leo appear to #have younger fanbases these days (and no offense to kids but it's Normal that kids might have a more off-base grasp of the characters)#idk just my observations. I do need to leopost more tho #baye.txt #pjo #leoposting

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amanedachi · 8 months ago

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iron / heart

Part of LoL Esports Elemental Series.

#lolelements #lol esports #t1 faker #t1 oner #t1 zeus #t1 gumayusi #t1 keria #skt bang #skt wolf #skt bengi #skt kkoma #warning: MAJOR yapping incoming below #thinking about still here.mp3 and 'gripping with my cold hands the shapes i used to take'#'it could all end here with the strange daylight caught in our eyes'#'my shadow stretching out through all the things i left behind'#opening ceremony+t1 has everything they need to put me on a stretcher to ER #images from lol esports flickr (2016 worlds either finals or semis i goofed and forgot)#(and msi 2024 brackets features and worlds 2024 semis features)#there is a universe where i collected more pics and put a bit more thought into which word should go to who #but that universe also involves me doing this at a time that is not 5am #this is my last one probably twas lots of fun but new things on the horizon for me #this post is scheduled to post on finals day but just know that i am awake and shitting my pants over worlds finals #then recovery period and then im shifting into arcane mode #being completely deranged is a full time commitment never let anyone tell you otherwise #lil pat on the back for myself for successfully posting one per day til finals EVEN if they were sorta mediocre or dupes hahaha #special thanks to t1 for making it to semis because if they didn't there's a chance i would have lost steam LMAO #work school and the physical need for sleep work hard #but the esports demons in my brain work harder

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maya-chirps · 2 months ago

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There's gotta be some piece about how the fandomization of the conclave has affected the initial response the public had about the cardinals and the new pope or something like how people did treat the conclave was strange and like I get it was spillover from the conclave 2024 fandom, it's still odd to me in hindsight and heck even right now

#mayaposts #christianity #roman catholicism #catholicism #ive got lots of thoughts into this really #like the much more widespread flattening of politics wrt the papabili #also how people did woobify tagle quite a bit just bc he's loosely partly the basis for benitez when like thats not how tagle is #while outsiders put him in the ''francis asian'' box a little too hard imo #like i dont hate the guy or anything but how he was presented by ppl was strange like the other less favorable things that other cardinals #said or believed in in the past like ten years was brought up but i only heard like two places that explained parts of his beliefs that #aren't progressive to a layperson #like i hadnt heard anyone talk about how tagle said that contraceptives are basically abortion like as if the rh law debate didnt happen #not surprising for a catholic bishop ofc but it's weird if you're trying to represent him as a good pope that's probably more progressive #that the last one besides the fact that yeah he's said blessings for divorcees and gay ppl but he did specify case by case basis which coul #be like some sort of softer blow to ease out other clergy but still there is that distinction #im not even saying he's less progressive than leo he probably is on some issues but it was still strange to see ppl talk abt him like that #some of them weren't even filipinos doing this while others weren't even catholic/excatholic too #idk ive got lots of thoughts post conclave and yeah the fandomization is strange and the woobification dishonest at times #and probably unintentionally so too #conclave #papal conclave #conclave 2025

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askblueandviolet · 1 year ago

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#lego monkie kid #lego monkie kid fanart #monkie kid #monkie kid fanart #lmk #lmk fanart #lmk mayor #monkie kid mayor #blue and violet #monkie kid macaque #lmk macaque #ngl I had to do a little bit of research for this #For context: Armin Meiwes is a cannibal who ate a willing victim and was still charged with manslaughter #I think Mayor is solely intrigued by the morality behind consensual cannibalism #in fact- I think in general they are intrigued by criminals who do their crimes for peculiar reasons and go about them in strange ways #which is not too far off from how they themselves act.#'Dark Shadows' is a 20th century gothic horror #it's not that Macaque likes the vampire themes it has- rather I think he finds the paranormal activity that terorrises the cast hilarious X #on top of soap operas he probably also likes reality TV and sit coms soley because its so easy to drone out #romance films and TV really isn't on his list of favourite genres- but he doesn't mind it #anyways- Mayor being a cannibal will always be one of my favourite headcons #but cannibalism is bad tho guys- don't do it lmao

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petr1kov · 5 months ago

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i've said this before but truly the number 1 reason why i couldn't love silent hill 2 remake despite thinking it is an otherwise fine game is the fact that it does not feel lynchian at all to me. like the most unsettling thing about this horror game to me was seeing how it was very often an almost 1:1 recreation of the scenes from the original in terms of script but executed very differently in tone. and because i almost never see other people talking about this it makes me feel like i'm going crazy lol

#now with the death of lynch and all this talk about how influential and unique his work is i started thinking about this again #the term lynchian gets thrown around a lot for any work that is a bit surreal but it is 100% the case with the og silent hill games #they had other influences too obviously but david lynch movies + twin peaks were always the biggest ones in terms of style #they set out to do something very lynchian from the start and aren't very subtle with the references lol #and the remake did not feel like that at all to me. i think it was probably the direction but the delivery of the lines changed drastically #the situations remain surreal but the lines are delivered with a more naturalistic vibe. it feels like a regular hollywood movie #and it's really not just a matter of the new cast being more professional. the control and alan wake games have professional actors #but still get that strange delivery across because it's what they want to get across. i don't think it was the goal with sh2remake #which is not necessarily bad but it is very very weird how little that's remarked upon while it gets praise for being faithful adaptation

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bigeloo · 4 months ago

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Every time I see Big-D with a baby-smooth face or reduced to a stick bug I die inside what did you DO TO HIMMMMM

#sorry I'm going to be a bit of a hater #but people also do this with marckus and it's strange #to be fair marckus doesn't have as many wrinkles/facial definition as big-d but it's still there #though he IS a victim of people turning a twunk into a twink #or people not knowing how to draw anyone other than a twink in which case STUDY AND LEARN YOU DINGUSES #bigeloo.txt #I had more thoughts but I don't think I can string them correctly anymore #anyways godbless me getting into jjba when I was 15 and hlvrai when I 16 which made me learn how to draw buff and old people respectively #it did made me a bit of a picky bitch when it pertains to those factors so uh........ you gain some you lose some I guess

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spaciebabie · 2 months ago

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worst part about cptsd is the chronic loneliness methinks

#spacie spoinks #not loneliness in the sense most people think where they're not around people #it is a loneliness i have felt since i was a child even when im around people #its a really strange emotion. something that makes my bones feel heavy #to feel lonely even though im surrounded by people who love me #and want to talk to me and frequently reach out to do so #it makes it a bit more painful too #b/c no matter how much i get to know someone and enjoy their company i am still. lonely.#its like im missing a part of my soul or something #ive seen a lot of other cptsd havers talk about this as well and the general consensus is that it never goes away #you just learn 2 live with it #which is fine #i just wish i didnt have to keep learning to live with stuff like this lol #kind of a vent actually #in a sour spot b/c of this #vent

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