#which was scary bc of the circumstances but hes probably friendly!

[cliveguy]

god im still freaked out bc one of my new co-workers looks exactly like someone else i know (and... dislike) and when he greeted me i thought it was him bc he had the same mannerisms and everything and djfjwjjd he's probably a very nice person and all but being in the same room as him gave me the creeps bc ... the resemblance was Literally uncanny

[tommytranselo]

Jesus Christ on a fucking bicycle your asks are. scary

Anyway tell me why you love the characters you love, y’know, for positivity’s sake -rottingmanifesto (my main)

oh my god is that a nice normal ask i see? incredible. this is about to be so long

vito partly because my favorite character archetype is sad, gay, doomed mobster with a complicated relationship with his father, and partly because the way he conceives of masculinity & maturity & financial security & success as essentially the same thing a) is... Oh Boy It Sure Is and b) screams trans to me, and partly because he's a very unique and well written protagonist–at first glance he might come off as a typical Cool Crime Guy™ (which a lot of fans mainly outside tumblr seem to read him as anyway, for some reason), but a closer look reveals...he is very much not. he lacks any real control of his life, he's very obviously joe's sidekick and not vice versa, he's so strongly coded as gay i cannot read him as anything else, he genuinely respects women (something i've found to be rare in the genre), he's been hurt over and over and yet he's so full of love for his friends no matter the risks, he has just...awful luck. he's naive, he's repressed, he's very emotionally damaged, he's stuck in a cycle of family tragedy, his downfall comes ultimately not from pissing off the wrong people but from trusting them. he doesn't know how to say "i love you" without saying "i'd kill for you, i'd bleed for you." that, i think, is his fatal flaw–he has all this love, yet he's unable to do anything good with it, either due to circumstance or because he doesn't know how.

joe because he served as such a fantastic co-protagonist and counterbalance to vito, and also because he's very well-rounded imo. despite coming off as the dumb muscle, he essentially operates as the brains of the main duo, he's clearly pretty street-smart and knows how to manage money, and he seems to have his shit together much better than vito or even henry–his plans are definitely better thought out than henry's (other than the marty incident oops) even if they get tripped up by random variables like the bomb going off early or brian o'neil...driving through a fucking window. he's definitely much more aware of and much less ashamed of his emotions, and he knows how to actually communicate them (there's an exchange i always think of where he and vito are on the phone at the start of ch 14, and vito says something snarky and joe bluntly tells him to quit it bc he's not in the mood, and vito immediately apologizes–i always liked that detail bc it makes it very clear their joking around is friendly and they do respect each other's boundaries). he's much more practical and can see the silver lining cause he's expecting clouds–it's his realism that makes him an optimist, which is basically the polar opposite to vito (his need for things to be perfect makes him incredibly pessimistic bc he's constantly getting let down). he's such an openly caring friend both to henry and especially vito, and he's by far the most openly physically affectionate of the three. both his fashion sense and interior decorating are incredible, and i like how he kind of serves as a symbol of success and by extension masculinity & maturity (from vito's pov at least) while having this very flamboyant style–he's really just out here doing his own thing and i respect that immensely. in terms of protagonist as in character who moves the plot forward, i'd say he fills the role more so than vito.

henry...idk man henry's just my boy. i love how they play him up as a role model and this super cool gangster who knows the business and then he's just a fucking idiot who screws up everything he touches. like the aloof wiseguy thing is such a facade. he throws a tantrum when he gets shot, his plans are really just "we'll do the thing and it'll work probably," he's so awkward (it took him a month to work up the nerve to talk to vito! come on), he dresses like shit! he clearly cares very deeply about his two friends in the entire world–he spared leo bc he couldn't stand breaking vito's heart, for crying out loud. and he's definitely a cold son of a bitch when he wants to be, but he's also a goofball in vito and joe's company and that's just endearing to me. he somehow strikes a balance between naive and disillusioned ("my father was a...man of honor," "if [falcone] can do it why can't we?" etc) and it ultimately bites him in the ass. he's terrified of being in other people's debt, something i assume came from the clemente family being Like That.

luca LISTEN I KNOW THAT'S WEIRD. i think he was a really solid villain and i say this all the time but "guy who is generally repulsive as an individual and definitely up to something but is ostensibly on your side for at least the time being" is such a good kind of character and i wish they'd done more with that! his reaction to vito's "people the president pointed his finger at" comment is extremely telling–he's laughing not bc he's impressed by the tough talk, but bc he sees how ridiculous it is (it's a "get a load of this guy" laugh). he sees straight through vito's naivety, he doesn't even remember his name in the slaughterhouse, and he makes both joe and henry visibly uneasy (the way henry shrinks in on himself when luca approaches their table in ch 4...telling). he's honestly kind of hilarious ("what, is captain shitbag here to save the day?") and whatever he had going on with clemente was super interesting. idk. i wish they'd done more where he was still on the player's side despite being obviously horrible.

tommy angelo my friend tommy angelo from the computer screen...he was my intro to the series, he's very calming, he's gender tbh, he's a good friend to paulie and a good husband to sarah (and no doubt a good father to his daughter).

paulie's just a funny little guy how could you not like paulie. he's a genuinely caring best friend to tommy and MDE gave him a lot of depth in terms of motivation and being haunted by his decisions (including, imo, bringing tommy into a life of crime). his plans are well thought out and he has a lot of big ideas but still no one takes him seriously, and his friendship with tommy is so strong bc tommy does listen to him. anyway. tommy angelo's malewife honestly

lincoln is a super well written protag and he strikes a good balance between being ruthless to his enemies and caring to his friends (and even to strangers). he has a lot of the same "violence (whether inflicting it or enduring it) as an act of service/love" stuff going on as vito does, but i think he handles it better. teddy bear that could kill you. the whole angel/devil on the shoulder dynamic going on with father james & donovan is super interesting too.

nicki...gay, rough relationship with father, hardass with a heart, the whole "fuck this town" thing...of course i love her. and fuck burke but that one quote where he mentions nicki being out quail hunting and says "for her kind they're always in season," idk...i think i see what he means and i like that about her.

alma's a badass tbh and her shirt is awesome (and she's funny; "do you think i could fit a shotgun under my pillow?") it's also touching that she definitely cares about vito despite complaining about him a lot.

[otomates-a]

🌺 (Abby/Sam? Your Haley/one of my SDV brood? My Candace or Calvin/one of your AP bois? Some RF crossover? Literally any SDV/HM/RF crossover???? THERE'S OPTIONS, OKAY) (not opposed to 🌹 either, listen)

LET ME KNOW YOUR SHIP IDEAS, I’LL RAMBLE ABOUT THEM.

↪ accepting / @voiceofmany.

🌺 — platonic ship & 🌹 — romantic ship inputs !

u gave me many options so u get many rambles, come @ me for anything that interests u i’m crying 😂

ABIGAIL & SAM

WOW i love sam & abby !!! everyone always talks about seb & abby’s friendship but henlo they’re SLEEPING on this combo?? conceptually they have such differing aesthetics and in some ways their personalities kind of clash. like even though they’re both silly, sam is way more outgoing and friendly and easy to talk to whereas abigail is a little bit of a shut in … hard to have a convo with at first … doesn’t have the highest confidence in the world … lowkey stage fright … etc. IT MAKES THEIR DYNAMIC SO INTERESTING bc they get along so well.

i can see sam being ??? so supportive of abby’s insecurities and def pushing her out of her comfort zone. & prob being a big part of the reason why she’s part of his band w/ seb despite usually wanting to sink into the background.

also abby ??? getting sam to like ??? slow down a little bit… enjoy quiet moments… take a break from the skateboard, take a seat, chill… watch the stars bro they’re breathtaking… then we can go beat up losers in video games u know KJNMH

romantically their aesthetic would literally be “shut up and dance with me” except sam is the one dragging abby onto the metaphorical dance floor while she freaks out bc what if she stomps on his toes or falls on her face or breaks her foot idk 😂

abigail voice “you saw me when i was invisible” cliche

FRIENDS 👏 TO 👏 LOVERS 👏 IS WHOLESOME

HALEY & ELLIOT???? HEAR ME OUT???

me, gently tapping a mic: why didn’t these two interact more tf. OKAY BUT LISTEN they’re actually so … wildly different BUT LIKE IN A GOOD WAY ??? elliot is literally chilling on the beach trying to get in touch with his creative spirit meanwhile haley (at first) is trapped in this town kicking at dirt bc she’d rather die than live there literally WHAT is the appeal. elliot is chasing his dreams and is very emotional and open with himself, whereas haley is too scared to HAVE substantial dreams and doesn’t know … wtf she’s doing… elliot is a good person and easily approachable… haley is……… NOT THE GREATEST HUMAN BEING EVER (at first glance) so like,

can u imagine the slowburn between these two. LIKE be it platonic oR romantic, bc either way it’d be a slowburn. haley doesn’t trust people and thinks they’re kinda beneath her in pelican town, whereas elliot is more of an open book who gets along with the other residents? he’d prob be perceptive enough to pick up rather early on that haley is kind of lost and actively just looking for reasons to hate where she is instead of trying to find smth to be happy about… which means her attitude would be likely go right over his head and he’d be able to put up with her, which means… very slowly… she’d start to warm up to him and the more he reached out to her, the more she’d start reaching back

HALEY READING ELLIOT’S WORK AFTER THEY GET CLOSER BUT REFUSING TO ADMIT IT I’M CRYING

elliot’s dedication to his writing ending up inspiring haley… to start actively finding her passion for photography… which she will admit. eventually.

elliot in general just helping haley become a better person. which in turn means she reaches out to more people, and they also help her grow into a better person.

CANDACE & CHASE?

ok i’ll be honest shy girl / jerk guy is a bias … esp since chase isn’t REALLY an actual jerk so much as he’s just a sarcastic deadpanned dead inside daydreamer i’m sobbing. with someone like candace, he’d actually have a bit soft spot like. he’s mean to girls like maya because they constantly tap dance on the last good nerve he has, but with how nice and Soft™ candace is, i can see chase literally being SCARED OF UPSETTING HER LIKE KJHNMKHJNM. there’s a line he won’t cross when it comes to being rude to people, and candace is on that line

platonic or romantic, after they start interacting, chase would likely go out of his way to make nice gestures towards her bc like ??? candace is??? an angel and deserves it lmao. he’d actually literally try to bring her flowers as gifts every now and again or make her and her grandmother lunch … etc …  avoids luna like the plague tho that girl is scary KJNHKJHNM

concept : chase speaking to her in whispers so she’s not the only one who’s talking like that until she gets used to speaking to him normally.

honestly this is just a very soft combo like. candace is someone chase would probably see as very delicate and comparative to a flower … like not in the sense that he’d mother hen her or think she can’t handle her own day to day life, but in the sense that he’s always gentle with her ?? chase isn’t the type to censor himself, necessarily, so it’s not like he’d never be honest or speak his mind or be … HIMSELF but unlike with other people he wouldn’t actively seek out annoying her and if he ever did heck up, he’d immediately back pedal and try to fix things as opposed to being like “lol idc perish”

candace making chase clothes. please. he is. a fashion disaster. help him.

BONUS ROUND: CROSSOVER IDEAS U COULD MULL OVER

sofia / vishnal. because she would. probably make him feel awful about himself until he figures out the truth about how she talks and then can you imagine the shedding of light on every interaction they’ve ever had. she would feel so guilty every time she looked at him and it’d take some coercing on his part to make her stop thinking he hates her i’m sobbing…

pia / carlos. not actually a crossover but. carlos, meet your greatest enemy … a literal fucking fish mermaid who has no goddamn idea what flirting is and won’t understand the concept of romance unless you literally fall so deeply in love with her that ur willing to sit her oblivious ass down and have a 6 hour conversation about #LOVE. his entire character goes over her head. which is hilarious. alternatively on this line of thought but with an actual crossover: pia / elliot or pia / calvin lmao she pairs well with a lot of muses.

selphy / penny. because their dynamics would probably go really well together, especially with penny having such a difficult history. selphy is so upbeat and positive even when she’s feeling down, she’d actively reach out to penny no matter the circumstances. she’ll talk to her for 983475983475 hours about books too it’s fine. come work in her library, penny.

gale / haley. i have no explanation for this beyond beauty and the beast aesthetic except the beast is a grumpy af wizard who just wants to be left alone to enjoy the wildlife and magic of the world and beauty is a seemingly shallow spoiled brat who probably thinks staring at flowers all day and chanting spells is the dumbest thing in the entire world but also Hm

I’LL LEAVE IT AT THAT TBH if you throw literally any pairing at me i CAN come up with ideas about either friendship or romance between them, this is my weakness & my specialty so 😂😂😂 GESTURES VAGUELY TAKE FROM THIS ALL AS YOU PLEASE.

[spectraspecs-writes]

Original Writing! And part of a LOVE SPAM

Girlfriend, I got stuff for days.

Tag list @skelelexiunderlord , @procrastinatorpresents , @auruncushd (I remembered, Kevin), and @the-peculiar-bi-tch bc it’s for her LOVE SPAM

Chapter 1: The Invisible Staircase

Monday, January 16, 2012, 11:23:14 AM, New York City, New York:

Open eyes. Breathe in, breathe out. Okay, he thought to himself, I’m alive.

Wait a minute…

Who am I?

He sat up – it hurt a little, hurt his side, but it was just a twinge and it quickly passed, so he moved on – and looked around, for someone, anyone, who might know something. About anything. Who was he? What was going on? Where was he? At this point he was pretty sure that anyone would know more than he did about anything. Because every time he asked himself a question, he couldn’t remember any of the answers, or even whether or not he knew them. And that was certainly a bit scary. But there was nobody around, no one near him that he could ask. Guess I’m on my own then.

He looked down around himself. Okay, he concluded, seeing the floor below him, I’m up on something. Maybe I should get down. He swung his legs over the side of the table (apparently he was on a table. Apparently he knew what a table was. Certainly very comforting in these confusing times), setting his feet down on the floor. He stood up to his full height, then thought, no, something’s missing. Something’s off. He looked around again: On the far wall opposite himself, he saw a long tan trench coat and a matching fedora. For some reason he felt the hat was not his, but the coat – that was his, that’s what was missing. He walked over to the coat and pulled it on. I love this coat, I’m not me without my coat, he thought (and again, he didn’t know why.) He put his hands in his pants pockets and grinned a little, feeling like himself.

Then he felt something in his pockets: a folded up piece of paper. He pulled it out and gently unfolded it. There were characters all over the small piece of paper, but most of them were concentrated near the center. A note. It read (and apparently he could read), “Run. Get out. You’re not safe. Go to the city. Run!” Suspicious and confused, he turned it over, examining it further. The other side read, “You’ll know what you’re looking for when you find it. Hurry. You are being watched.”

Suddenly the room around him felt less friendly, and that was saying something because it felt pretty uncomfortable from the get-go. He pulled the hat on and over his eyes, and quickly – but calmly – left the room.

Whenever he passed by someone, they glanced at him curiously, but no one tried to stop him. One of them, when he passed, said to the person he was talking to, “Yeah, that’s what I thought.” But maybe this wasn’t a reaction to him, exactly, he tried to think optimistically, and still a part of their prior conversation. I mean, he thought to himself, what do you do when someone walks by when you’re having a conversation at work? You look, to make sure they’re not the boss. Right? (He didn’t know this for sure, of course, it was just speculation. A man who doesn’t even know his own name isn’t too sure about anything, after all.)

It was obvious to him, though, that in order to exit any place, you first had to find a door to take you out. And as far as finding that, he was at a loss. How could he possibly know which one of the many doors he passed would be the one to lead him outside? He didn’t even know if he was on the inside of the building or the outside. He didn’t even know which floor he was on. There were no windows around to even tell him where he was. At the present moment he was doing his best to convince himself that he wasn’t lost. He was probably walking in circles, the hallway kept curving. He was pretty sure that he’d eventually end up back where he started. 

He passed by a stairwell. Okay, if I’m not already on the first floor, I should get there. He peeked inside the stairwell. It only went up. Well at least I know something now. I know what floor I’m on. Given that he didn’t know much of anything, having that information was really satisfying. Probably way more satisfying than it would be for anyone else. Time to keep going the way he had been, to focus back on the original problem of how to get out of here. Even though it was starting to feel like even the people who worked here weren’t supposed to get out that easily. 

But then all his problems were miraculously solved. An older man opened a door, and the man with no name happened to see through it. Outside. It led outside, into a smelly alley. Well, beggars can’t be choosers. He got the feeling that he wasn’t the sort of man who would take coincidence so easily, but at this point he wasn’t about to look this beautiful gift horse squarely in the mouth. So he quickly moved past the gentleman – who nodded at him as if in salutation to an old friend, but the man with no name didn’t pay it a great amount of attention, as he was far more focused on getting out the door before it closed – and he slunk through the door before anyone could notice him.

He may not have remembered his name, his life, his family, or literally anything else about himself, but he knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that the smell he smelled was the smell of New York, and he therefore knew that this was undeniably that, specifically, the city of the same name. Or maybe he knew all that because there was a watch on his right hand that told him where he was. Whatever, either one. But he couldn’t dwell on all that for long. He could not dwell on the fact that he knew this was New York, no matter how he knew it. He didn’t know anything else, but he knew that there was no time to worry about that or much of anything when there were people after him. And he definitely knew that there were people after him. Otherwise why would that note in his pocket have told him to run twice? Why would the note have told him that he wasn’t safe? Why would it have said that he was being watched? Either it was all an elaborate joke that really wasn’t funny or his life was legitimately in danger. For the time being he chose to believe the latter. Because if it were the former, then, among other things, he’d feel really stupid. But, life in danger, he didn’t have time to even consider that the note he’d found in his pocket wasn’t trustworthy, there were people after him. So he took off down the street, in the direction that he somehow knew was the right one. Or hoped, at least.

Cities can be big places, and especially this city. The buildings towered over him and all the sounds of the great metropolis bounced off of them, as well as the little bit of heat that the sun released. It was mid-January, cloudy and cold, the air biting. It was a surprised to him that there were as many people out and about as there were. He didn’t know how he knew this, but he knew that he generally tended to avoid urban New York in this time period. It was a bit too busy, too hectic. He also knew that he preferred smaller, more remote locations. But for this this circumstance, he had to commend himself for choosing this location. No one would notice just another person in New York City. It was a city full of people full of mundane thoughts that went something along the lines of, “Go forward. What am I going to do about such and such? Ah, yes, I’ll do that. Turn left. What about such and such about the money? There’s always something wrong with that. Blah, blah, blah.” So predictable. So dull and monotonous, it was a wonder that the entire populous didn’t go mad with the back and forth of it all. All the same. All day, every day. 

The man turned his head right, then left, then right again, standing at a street corner. His tan trench coat moved with the breeze, revealing his socks to the people standing next to him. One red, one green. Not that they cared to look. His white sneakers, which had been colored on with colored marker, were torn and worn from overuse. The fedora covered his face. No one could see what he looked like.

Which was good.

Very good.

The light changed, allowing him and everyone around him to cross the street. They all walked swiftly, heads down, holding their own coats closed against the bitter January wind. Some of them talked on cell phones, or Bluetooth, or quietly to themselves. Some of them didn’t talk at all. None of them talked to each other. However, that was of little interest to him. All that concerned him was keeping his coat closed, keeping his eyes down, keeping himself secret. Hidden away from the prying eyes of the people looking for him. Blending in with the crowd. Looking no more out of place than the business man dictating to someone over his Bluetooth. Than the girl with the pink cat Laplander hat, texting her friends through fingerless gloves. Than the woman clutching her coffee between shivering hands, her only defense against the cruel wind and world. The people that saw him quickly forgot him. He was nothing special. Just a man who kept to himself, and they were a dime a dozen. And no one would ever think twice about the man with the socks that didn’t match and the tan trench coat, or his search for the object he couldn’t identify.

But he’d know it when he saw it. And he somehow knew where he was going, too, like he was being drawn to something he couldn’t consciously feel. And there was sort of a smell, a faint smell, that he couldn’t put his finger on, but it was familiar, and it made him feel secure to smell it. And he knew, an unexplainable knowledge, that the smell and the thing he was looking for were connected somehow. And just as the smell was ordinary, yet out of the ordinary, he was such that the object, too, was just that. Ordinary, yet out of the ordinary. He had left it for himself. Apparently.

He turned onto the sidewalk and stopped. A butterfly had landed in front of him. That’s not possible, came a voice from the back of his head, There are no insects in New York in January. He didn’t know why there were no insects in New York in January, but the voice was convincing, it felt right. He bent down, curiously holding out his hand for the insect. The butterfly flew and landed on his hand, flapping its brightly colored wings slowly. Somehow this was wrong. But he didn’t know how. So he stood back up and went back on his way, the butterfly in his hand. From his hand to his shoulder.

He looked down an alley, and stopped again. This was it. Somehow he was certain, this was it. He saw it. To anyone else, it would just look like a piece of trash. It was just a wood plank in an alley. An old rotting wood plank that, if closely examined, would have an engraving on it that made no sense. But it made sense to him. Though his memory was more or less gone, he remembered spending the early years of his life learning how to read and write in this language. Somehow he knew that, but when he searched his mind for anything else – his name, his life, his family, anything about himself – there was nothing. Not a glimmer of a word, not an old funny feeling. Just a blank book, upon which the words of his life should have been written. But now there was nothing. As though the pages had been torn out. 

“Find the hidden staircase,” the wood plank read. A different language than the one on the note, different characters. The characters that were on the fringes of the note, but not the center. But that didn’t really matter right now. So he turned into the alley and began to feel along the wall. Feeling a little bit ridiculous, looking for a hidden staircase. But it would be along the wall, wouldn’t it? That’s where a staircase would be, hidden or not. Then something stopped his hand. Cold metal, but there was nothing there. Nothing visible, anyway. He reached out to grasp the metal, watching his hand. Upon gripping the metal, wrapping his fingers around its frigid surface, his hand vanished. He lifted up his leg tentatively, trying to find the first step, and when he found it, he set his foot down, watching it vanish before his eyes. He smiled, and continued cautiously to walk up the invisible staircase. When he got far enough that his entire body was under the influence of the invisibility that cloaked the staircase, that was when he could finally see his hand again, his foot. He could see the entire staircase. It was as though someone had cloaked the entire fire escape. God help anyone who lived there if there was a fire. Was the fire escape invisible all the time? Probably not, that would be irresponsible.

As the man with no name stepped into the alley, read the plank, searched for the invisible staircase, a small grey cat with large eyes peered at him. Followed in his every footstep, watched his every move. From the moment he left the building he’d woken up in until this moment, right now. It tilted its head curiously and followed now to where the man with no name had found the invisible staircase. Sniffed around to where the metal had to be, and stepped with a tentative paw onto the first step. Seeing that the staircase was secure, it continued to follow him up the invisible staircase. No one would have heard it, as it was too quiet, but with each step the cat took, there was a slight whirring sound. Like machinery at its joints. No one would have noticed it, as it was too subtle, but the cat’s eyes were too perfect, unnatural. Like a computer had designed them. No one would have thought it, as it was unthinkable, but the man with no name didn’t have to worry about the people after him. He should have been worried about this cat. The cat was an enemy of the unnoticeable man with no name. But even if he had looked back and seen the cat, he would not know why. It was just a cat, after all. What harm could a little grey cat do to him? Had he noticed, he might have even welcomed the cat inside with him, and played right into the hands of his enemies. Who better than a cat to spy?

The man with no name stopped at a door at the top of the invisible staircase. He had expected a window, like was all along the rest of the outer wall. At his feet was a small flap. He poked his shoe in, but no reaction came from the other side. At eye level there was an eyehole that had been put in the wrong way. He placed his eye up to the hole curiously, and the hole scanned his eye. A pretty terrifying thing if you weren’t expecting it, which he wasn’t. And if that wasn’t enough, the door spoke: “Eye imprint recognized. Access granted.”

Still a bit stunned from having his eye scanned, he wasn’t really sure what to think of the talking door, but it opened, and so he entered. The small grey cat tried to get to the door in time, but it was closed a second before it could squeeze through. It tried to enter through the flap, but it was stuck.

[briteboy]

okay i’m gonna be real with you. i have...a LOT...of messages. going as far back as like...january? probably? i know...i’m so bad...don’t crucify me. i tried to get through all of them but there were a lot that i didn’t have a worthwhile reply for so i’m sorry if i didn’t answer something you sent :{

so here we have: a lot of nice things, a lot of santisms, reactions to the lou and cillian punchout, a few responses to my portfolio and other stuffs...i wanted to put astrology asks in at the end but it’s...a lot more than i thought it was and it’s 3 am so i’d rather die than answer all of those LMAO sorry. i’ll get to it next time

Anonymous said:

u can delete the snorting cum asks but it will still follow you for eternity

okay so I saw the ask about snorting cum and it reminded me of a time that cum came out of my nose. It was gross but my boyfriend and I laughed it off. idk. I thought it would be a funny thing to share!! i'd understand if you didn't want this on your blog!! (maybe it makes you laugh!!)

wELL. WE’RE OFF TO A GOOD START HERE. i’m screaming at this...i hope nothing EVER comes out of my nose ever in life...i hate this but ur right it did make me laugh

(Winry anon again) Also, did you get her name from FMA Winry Rockbell because if so I love it

hehe...yes...

hornybodies

this is what bartsim calls me and i hate her for it

whats the truth bitch

I DON’T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT THIS IS ABOUT BUT I’M LAUGHIGN

i never realised how much i actually missed santi but now im CRYING AND I WANT HIM BACK IN EVERY SINGLE POST WITH LOU BY HIS SIDE LIVING HAPPILY EVER AFTER PLEASE

I missed santirat's beautiful face there are literal tears rn

me too...i hate that i miss him so much it’s so freaking dumb...i haven’t cried to my own story in a while but i bet i’m gonna once santi’s comeback rolls around. i’m already bracing myself

nvm u can have the lovely rat back, that way my heart wouldn’t be hurting like it is now

honestly yeah that’s fair

Been silently following your blog and though I'm more of a "ghost"(? What does that even mean¿) follower, I can't help but express just how chocked I am to see Santi again OMG. Gutted Lou has had a flashback, she does not deserve this. :'(

hello casper the friendly ghost...i love having santi pop up with surprise flashbacks hehe...ur right though she DOES NOT NEED THIS in her life, but it will get better for her soon do not fret my ghoulish friend

I need more pics of Lou and Santi together I’m not satisfied, thankssss

ELI AND MIYU GETTING SO EXCIted WHEN LOU TOLD THEM SHE LIKES GIRLS MY HEART :’)

HEHEH i love it cause that’s literally how my friends and i act, it was fun to write in a scene :~} i’m glad you liked it :’}}

Yeah when I cut my hair short everyone assumed I liked girls I found it kind of odd, but I didn't care too much. It mostly just made me end up realizing all the shit lgbt people go through, one time a guy literally went up to me and my friend, my bff who no one really knew was a lesbian was terrified because he said "oh dont worry lesbians are hot, but gay guys are just disgusting" it ended up he was talking to me, i just rolled up a piece of paper as tight as I could and smacked him on the head

EWW first of all that guy can take his weird fetishization and homophobia elsewhere thanks...i’m glad you threw a paper ball at him LMAO. but yeah on one hand, coming from ignorant/straight people it’s like “uhhhh why would you assume that about me”, within the lgbt community it’s like...common ground...an inside joke...i guess? so it’s weird. the link between hair, clothes and sexuality is can definitely be harmful in certain circumstances

fiona is my spirit animal and i love her ok thanks for coming to my TED Talk

that was illuminating thank you

i re-read santis story and i s2g i've read it so many times idk, but like its so easy to read i dont mean like emotionally but it flows really well. and like its not too confusing i hate when people make overly convoluted stories in an excuse for being deep its some good shit good job my dude

AKJSDKGKSJD THAT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i never expected anyone to read it oNCE let alone REPEATEDLY...that really makes me so happy though because it’s definitely something you have to go back and read to catch all the details. ahhhhh thank you so much, i never ever want my story to be too complicated so i’m glad you don’t think it is!!

im crying because your recent post reminds me so much of my relationship with my mom when i was younger... she was always out of a job and sometimes we had to resort to living with other family members, it was all really hard on her and especially with having a kid she had to take care of at the same time. even though these are fictional characters, it’s comforting to know that other people have gone through the same situations i have. i love fiona and lou so much, they’re my heart and soul <3

OMG ;_________; i’m crying i’m so glad it resonates with you...i had a lot of friends growing up who were in similar situations and i think i kinda based lou and fi’s relationship on that, so you’re definitely not alone <33 i’m so glad you love them i love u

basically what I’ve learned from these asks is that Gianni is a perfect god-like human and I want one

he is. one time an anon told me they were like santi but they wanted to be rooney and i was like “i’m both santi and rooney on different days and i want to be gianni.” now u know why

hi, i just wanted to pop in and say that i really, really love your blog and i admire your editing skills SO much, i think you are EXTREMELY talented and i don't think you get told that enough. i've been following you for awhile now and i am in love with ALL of your stories, characters and edits you've put out! you're really an inspiration to me and i hope someday my edits can turn out as good as yours!! i don't have reshade so it's harder for me, but i'm trying to learn!! ok have a good day :-)

OMFG ;-; I DO GET TOLD IT A LOT AND IT STILL SEEMS FAKE...you don’t have to go out of your way to compliment me ;___; but thank you so so so much i’m crying...it makes me so giddy that i might inspire someone like WHAT...i don’t even know what i’m doing half the time i edit so u will definitely be able to catch up to me one day even if you don’t have reshade, i know it. i edited without reshade for like 2 and a half years on this blog so you can do it i promise!! have a good day/night/life i love u

fuck my succ

I'm in need of some giannti in my life

we all need some gianti in our lives

Hey! I just wanted to say that ur an amazing writer. You portray everything so well, it’s insane. I want to be a writer someday and I hope my writing is at least somewhat close to yours. Have an awesome day my dude💕

WOW I’M CRYING...i still have a lot of room to grow and so do you, i hope you are able to become the writer you want to be :’} and thank you so much for the wonderful compliment i’m emo have a great day as well

aver is my queen, confirmed.

avey is everyone’s queen confirmed

oksy but listen, look up the model Charlotte Ray Spencer

i did but i couldn’t find her?? all that came up was ray spencer obituaries in charlotte, SC LMFAO...charlotte spencer is an actress tho it seems, is that...who...? omfg

MAY I JUST OFFER THIS NEW SONG OF THE NEIGHBOURHOOD CALLED VOID BC I HAVE A FEELING SANTI WOULD LOVE IT (it's also meant for my aggressive sadboi oc)

OH I LOVE THIS IT FITS PERFECTLY WITH THE PLAYLIST I’M MAKING FOR THE NEW ERA OF SANTI...THANK YOU I’M TOTALLY ADDING IT

I had a ectopic pregnancy when I was seventeen but I feel like I got off lightly compared to Molly. Your story is so beautiful in so many ways, I think it’s incredible how much character development you’ve managed to pull off honestly I’m amazed. Thank you ❤️

omg ;_______; i don’t even know what to say to this, but it means so much to me i can’t even put it into words. thank you thank you thank you so much, and i’m so sorry you had to go through that as well. molly was an extreme case and i hope no one has to go through what she went through. i’m glad you’re okay now, and thank you so much for reaching out to me and reading my story at all ;-; <3333

just a heads up: the links button on your ccfinds blog goes to the femmefinds url still

oh yeah i know i’m gonna be real with you...i’m too lazy to fix it lmAO

Luv your stick n poke tats u posted!!! Could u do more? Maybe on diff places on the bod?? Ur so talented. Xx

omg that was FOREVER ago...maaaaaybe in the future...we shall see...but thank you <33

Can u do a family portrait for all ur characters like u did w Lou!!!

oooooh hehe i probably will in the future!!

Kill v maim is one of my favorite songs of all time omg it makes me wanna wear ripped jeans and a leather jacket and cover myself in glitter and smash some windows with a baseball bat MMMMMM

HELL yeah me too...i become a cyber punk alien vampire when i hear that song

maybe do a casting call posted here ? u have many followers and im sure a good chunk live in ur area and would be willing to model ^_^

omg SCARY...i probably could tho tbh that’s a good idea, thank you!

hi sunny, what program do you use to merge your cc and what do you use to detect and remove broken cc that just doesn't work in game anymore? thanks!

i actually haven’t merged on my new laptop yet but i used s4s for merging and there’s the mod conflict detector!!

My game hasn't been working since the first Cats and Dogs patch but I uninstalled and reinstalled and it finally works again 😭

sunny!! would you recommend your computer to play ts4 on? has it good graphics, can handle the highest settings and so? i really need a new computer but i have no idea which one to go for

yes i would recommend it!! i have reshade, ultra settings and like 8 gb of cc.

thanks for answering my ask eee ur story is probably the best ive read on here and yeah. i love how everything connects and everyones just so real. you dont have to post this i just wanted to thank you for being my inspiration and making me smile, laugh, cry, and scream in the middle of the night with your characters.

I LOVE U...it still sounds so fake to me when people say i inspire them, i don’t even know how to respond to all this ;-; just thank you for sparing a glance my way and resonating with my creations. <3 we scream and cry 2gether

I listened to Separator by Radiohead on repeat whilst reading Santi’s story and now that song just reminds me of him and Lou. I’d totally suggest listening to it’s so good! As is your story :3 xxx

oh radiohead that’s good sh*t...i’m listening to it now and i feel the santou vibes...especially when santi’s feeling out of his mind and she’s the only one who can calm him...haha cool..anyways THANK YOU!!!!

how do you make poses for the roof? i'm not sure how i can know if the sims will clip into the roof or float

honestly i just...eyeball it...because all roofs are different and you can’t put them into blender so. i just winged it lmao...i just made a pose that looked like it could’ve been lou climbing out the window, only the rig was still ground level, and then i used alt + 9 to lift the teleporter onto the roof as best as i could. that’s why it probably wouldn’t be a very practical pose to release, because i have no way of making it easy to use 

Lou punched him and I knew it would happen. 😀👌 nice, nice I like Lou whopping ass.

hehe i’m glad you enjoyed it...who knew she had a freaking hook like that

ok a theory... santi went to look for molly's mother and yea

omg tell me cillian sings every other freckle at some point

OMFG well...that song came out in 2013 and the current flashback year is 2008 so. i would personally murder cillian myself if he was still in lou’s life 5 years after this honestly

hey kitty girl! i was wondering if you could answer this teensy lil question i got. im writing a "story" anddd i was trying to figure out how to make some parts not cliche. like i hate reading about whatever and being like girll ive done seen this before so i just needs to know. kisses

i absolutely love how this is worded and the fact that u called me kitty, very cute. anyway...this is pretty broad, perhaps you could clarify what kinda cliches you want to steer clear from? a lot of the time when i know something is gonna be cliche and there’s no avoiding it, i just kinda own up to it and try to subtly point out how cliche it is and somehow that makes it work out better...like being self aware somehow adds another more realistic element to the story that makes it better? idk...anyway dm me if you need help!!

so.... lou can remember more of what happened? this is good! go 2 the police bitch! tell them!!!!!!!

she should!! but the only problem is she doesn’t have proof. so... 🤔

how do you write your stories in a way that everything is organized and you're certain and not confused with everything? i mean, do you have any way for writing that let you develop your stories with not so much difficults? i'm trying to write an story for months but i only have a few of the most important events on my mind, i don't know how to develop another important details, i always feel that everything is confuse or crap

hmmmmm well my mind is very ah convoluted so it’s a wonder any of this comes out even somewhat cohesive? but basically i have a very good memory and utilize google docs a lot hahaha. i’ve gone in depth about my writing process here!

whats a good way when it comes to starting a sims story? i mean like the first post? :/

ummmmmm maybe test the waters a bit and just make a post introducing your character(s) first? or dive right in and get sh*t started. it could go either way tbh

boyish by japanese breakfast is a santixlou bop

oh sh*t!!!!!! i love japanese breakfast!! and i love this thank you!

So is lou like into cillian in a way? Making him kinda be in her type

as of right now (in the flashbacks)? HELL fucking no. but you’re right, she did say those things in the future to santi. so 🤔

Everyone guessing shit stupidly annoys me haha. I'M UNOBSERVANT AND I DON'T WANNA GO BACK AND CHECK SHIT, LET ME LIVE. *Like* if you a ~dum~ reader who doesn't want every bit of foreshadowing called out. lol

i respect this honestly whenever i drop the hottest foreshadowing of 2018 i never expect my inbox to flood like it does but here we are and i am amazed

CILLIAN NEEDS TO FUCKING FIGHT ME (TYPING THIS ON MY COMPUTER BC I SAW HIS DINOSAUR ASS AND CHUCKED MY PHONE OUT THE WINDOW)

i’m screaming...i’m so sorry it’s my fault about your phone but like also i’m poor i can’t pay for that

i'm studying your latest posts because they're beautiful and my hatred for that long necked bitch is intensifying -- what makes me burn even more is that he's still wearing her necklace, can we say let the bitch burn?

burn babey burn

Why don't you use quick tags?

i’m dumb is why

CILLIAN IS SUCH A SHITASS I HATE HIS FACE WHY R U DOING THIS TO ME

BRUHHHHH THE DINOSAUR LOOKIN ASS BOY IS B A C K run

WAIT THE NECKLACE. HE STOLE THE MCFUCKING NECKLACE BROOOOO

What if Fi's blue eyes are from... Cillian..?

wHY did you have to make him cute and fucking cool though? I still hate him but it's harder.

NVM I JUST LOOKED AT THE POST AGAIN HES WEARING HER NECKLACE INHOPE SHE CHOKES HIMS WOTH IT THIS TIME

I SCREAMED AT THIS SERIES OF QUESTIONS OISDFNGJKDSKJN yeah sorry he’s conventionally attractive but unsettlingly so and i feel uneasy when i look at him and plus the fact that he’s literally evil so .

im like, to 90% sure that cillian is in ace joker. so that song might have reminded lou of him...

this was sent right after that scene of lou hearing the song at pippin’s, so

My conspiracy theory is that cillian is Lou's father. Speakimg of which are we gonna get to that soon, I'm dying of curiosity;.;

I’M LAUGHING I THINK U MEANT FIONA’S FATHER AKSJDKJGDSJ but yeah well. You’ll See

what do u resize ur photos to?

whatever 33% of 1920x1080 is i forget. i have a resizing + sharpening action so i just run that

im about to kill those kids if they keep fucking with my baby

THESE BITCHES BULLYING MY BABY LOU? CATCH THESE HANDS

me @ these ugly kids:

Who are the best creators for mens clothing? I struggle so much to find good cc creators with men specifically!

badabing badaboom

I’m not sure if you’ve converted things before but do you know any good sims 3 cc to sims 4 tutorials? Or your followers?

errrrrr i have no idea i’m sorry :x

would you consider making like a photoshop psd file with all the layers in your editing process?

omg...heck no it would be so unhelpful OMFG mostly because my editing is just my own action + shading and highlighting unique to that pic

would you ever do an editing timlapse of your gameplay pics? 💖💖

ahhhhh maybe!! probably in the future!

OMG HEATHERS WAS FILMED AT MY HIGH SCHOOL AND IM JUST HYPED UP SEEING IT BEING MENTIONED ON THIS ACCOUNT!!

OMFG THAT’S RAD...i’ve literally only seen it once tho i’m fake

I'M SHOOK. my friend kinda asked me out and I wanna say yes but my parents won't let me date. I'm 18! I need your advice! -signed 18 and alone anon

um UR 18 BUDDY UR AN ADULT...DATE WHOEVER THE F*CK U WANT HONESTLY

Can you pretty please link some photoshop tutorials you recommend? I really want to make my photos more cinematic and like your's without totally copying you or someone else. All I do right now is sharpen, color balance, and add some noise and then resize. I really need some more ways to get better looking photos such as yours.

ahhhhh the problem is i don’t know of any i’m sorry...lmao this is totally unhelpful :\ i have my own editing tutorial which is outdated but can probably help you out with the basics of lighting effects and shading n stuff?

Heyyy, I saw that you answered a question about making a ps action like your reshade, and I just wanted to say that I would love that! Unfortunately Mac users like me, can’t use reshade unless boot camping Windows onto our computers...☹️ and your reshade is just soooo pretty...

i don’t know if i’ll be able to replicate the reshade effect totally but i could release the action i’ve made for myself? it warms up screenshots but is totally adjustable to your liking for different color tones so in that way it’s kinda similar to the reshade. i’ll seeeeee what i can do...i know the woes of mac users all too well, my friend

i just wanna give lou a big ol cozy hug :o((( pls

pls hug her she needs it.

Do you post on tumblr from your phome or from your computer? Just curious.

mostly from my computer, sometimes i answer messages on my phone while i’m out and you can tell because autocorrect actually makes me use proper capitalization for once in my life

how many hours have you played the sims? for me i have 4,070 hours. haha help

OMFG i think mine is like...900 or something...i can’t tell if that’s too much or too little, but it’s definitely inaccurate

if i could only look at one person's tumblr from now on it would be yours. ur literally the queen of tumblr #shookaf and also i really hope i die before you ever say ur leaving tumblr cause when u do, i will legit die and bury my own grave. i really appreciate u and hope one day i can be on ur level but rn im at level 1.5 while ur up in the millions :D

I’M SCREAMING PLEASE I AM A PLEB.............i cry u flatter me too much ;-; i genuinely hope i never leave this place because it’s been so fun and it’s helped me evolve so much as an artist and a writer, plus i made some of my greatest friends on here. so i hope that day never comes!! but who knows life is wild. anyway i’m sure you’re actually like at level 578 and are just being modest. it’s okay you don’t have to be humble

i think its so cool that you and wanderlust and other simmers use multiple worlds to make your own town and stuff. idk why but thats just so cool to me and i would have never thought of it. love your blog and story <3

omg!!! well i couldn’t resist, i love a bunch of them and can’t limit myself to just one ya know. plus the more i thought about it, the more my gen 2 story kinda centers around these kids from this one town and the town itself is very relevant. so i felt like i had to make my own!! and i’m very excited to get started with that hehe

I just met a guy named Rodrigo Santiago and I sCREAMED HOLY SHIT

Update (tho idk of you got the first one): I just got a text from a classmate named Rodrigo Santiago. I'm sCREECHING

no freaking way. there’s no way i don’t believe...i want proof...

YOU SO FUCKIN PRECIOUS WHEN U SMILE

dont worry about posting this or do idc but i just wanted to say you should write about whatever you want and not care about whether people think you condone it or not. if i (a gay male) were to write about lesbians its not like im saying YOU HAVE TO BE LESBIANS BLAH BLAH BLAH you know what i mean? or if im writing about a robbery doesnt mean im like condoning robbery so like idk you do you boo and keep it coming ;D ilysm btw

OMFG no yeah i get it, i mean i think now especially in this online environment, people are hyper aware of Problematique things and so they’re a little too quick to point fingers without looking deeper than the surface. and whatever it’s fine people are always gonna be like that because people are mostly inherently judgmental, especially when it comes to consuming media. artists/writers face stuff like this all the time because people refuse to look past the surface, hence why works have gotten misconstrued all the time. but yeah i really appreciate this sentiment, thank u i love u

hope this isnt a weird question but what is the image size that u used for your character page?? thnk u 💕

omg it’s 300x300

have u listened to visions of gideon by sufjan stevens i was listening to it while reading ur stories and it made me so :(

oh my boy sufjan aka gianni’s personality claim i love him...and this song is :{ but i love even if it’s from the nasty age gap peach fucking movie

If i was married to Jamie and he treatin’ our daughter like that… oh I swear HES GOT TO GO!

it’s 2 am i’m so tired answering all of these i forgot who jaime was for a sec i was like um why are we talking about GoT anyways good night

how does alpha hair work with reshade? it seems so good in your screenshots and i’ve seen that in others screenshots it looks bad? whats the secret?

well good morning haha jk i never went to sleep anyway here u go

hooow do you make adorable toddlers in ts4?? teach me, gimme some advice please :(((

chubby cheeks! big eyes! small faces! little but plump lips! a good skin! dats all

how did u get ur sim onto the fire escapes?

ze teleporter mod, that’s it

I snickered at the, THE RETURN OF SANTI. Like I imagine it written in red horror lettering and santi just busts down the door and says ho ho ho im back bench, Did U miss me?

honestly i own a calendar and if i knew a definite date u already fucking kNOW it would be up there

ahhh im sorry for asking but im wondering how you find voice claims?? i'm looking for some for my sims, but it's tough to find one that's *right*, you know?? and your voice claims are great!! thank you <3

OMG voice claims are HARD, i literally just like “collect” them over time...i have a list in my phone of voices i like/may use in the future lmao, but try to think of actors or musicians and search interviews/movie or tv scenes with them speaking!!

i don't even read your story but i still follow you because i love your personality, sim style and just your whole entire tumblr

u follow me for ME? UM...what are u doing here...i’m so sorry (i love u...)

do you have a different reshade preset for flashback screenshots and for the present ones?

i do not!! i just edit differently

what happened to the honeycomb?

OMFG it’s still there...but we legit haven’t seen it since girooni’s wedding so um...it’s gonna have to get a makeover. i’m gonna do it when girooni come back home so i can finally show rupi working there like...wow...she deserves to be seen

lou's dad is the biggest asshole and i am waiting for the day that bitch dies

us when he dies

shit theory: caroline goes to find and confront cillian about what he did in teen lou timeline. care ends up forming a crush on cillian and goes back to meet him several more times, but cillian ends up liking lou more which makes caroline jealous. and that's why they don't speak currently, 'cause cillian ruined lou's life in more ways than one.

uM holy fuck that’s all i got to say

pls tell me that Caro killed the dude that choked Lou (or beat his ass)

god i hope so !

how many people do you follow? are you “strict” with who you follow?

i follow 264 people and yeah i’ve gotten a bit stricter with it just cause like...i only want to follow people whose content i truly care about/will actually notice on my dash

would you ever do a sim dump?

probably in the future, it seems like people want more male and female sims from me SO

ramona got some moves tf

the girl is out here bobbing to the chicken dance like nobody’s business

have u seen the end of the fucking world? if u did what are your #thots

UM......................i watched the first episode ‘cause i heard so much about it and um.............................it was so bad OMFG i hated it. way too edgy for me. completely missed the mark. not into it at all. hard pass

CAN LOU PLEASE HAVE A MAN IN HER LIFE WHO IS NOT A COMPLETE TWAT PLEASE

HOPEFULLY ezra will follow through with that and i don’t necessarily mean in a romantic way but like...as her new roommate MAYBE he will be a blessing we can HOPE

I'm not sure if you've been asked this or not, but your poses are so good and I was wondering if you have ever considered making a pose pack? Sorry if this came off as rude! I love your posts!

i will probably in the future!! but first i gotta figure out which ones i’d actually include

okay so this is random but I just wanted to say that I absolutely love your sims stories. Everything is so perfect and I'm forever shook because I can't believe the "sets" you use are actually the game. Your sims are so fleshed out and you are a huge inspiration to me. Anyways sorry if this was weird but I'm like obsessed with ur blog. bYe

AJHSDHJFSD THANK YOU!!!!!!! yes somehow we work miracles into this game can u believe it...ahh but thank you so much, it means everything that i would inspire you in any way...like what...omg

Santi is actually standing outside present Lou’s apartment wondering where the fuck he went wrong

he’s been there for 6 months just on the street standing there please someone let him in .

LOUUUU OH MY GODDD SKKDSNSJDH MY BABY. SO THATS HOW SHE GOT THE SCAR. WOW

there it is fellas. this message is sooooo old i’m so bad

Have you read/heard of The Lunar Chronicles

i have not!! but i’ll jot it down!

I was wondering if you’ve ever had any problems with skins? For me some on the palm side of the hand it’s noticeably darker than what the skin is supposed to be.. like the rest comes out find but the hands are darker.

hmm...that’s weird, i haven’t seen that. i think it probably depends on the skin? or maybe your sim detail settings?

santi my daddy, honeybodies my mommy, lou looking like a cutie when she saw dat tiny puppy. my name is rappin anon, and i just wanted to say, ur are my favorite simblr basically saving my day. rappin anon OUT

o...my god

i love u

i love u...