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Turn ∀ Gundam - Nuclear waste warning quotes.
#AUGH#ive been thinking about turn a again#this art sucks im tired and its late at night#who cares i only make art for myself#gundam#turn a gundam#SORRY if my hand writing is barely legible i have the skills of a kindergartedern#my art
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Finally back, with a lil more of Chill's Artist Admiration Sketchbook; making fanart for blogs I like :D
@kingspacebar
Accessoires and colours my beloved <3 <3 <3
#(The tags are gonna be a bit of an essay I apologize :P )#I only realized late that I was mixing the designs of different references that all had slightly diff accessoires#So I just decided to add them all#I always say I want to draw more bright colours because I love them so much and then I never do because I'm bad at colour palettes#I'm always super impressed with artists who can make them all work SO well together#With that out of the way OMG I LOVE THESE CHARACTER DESIGNS SO MUCH!!!!#Had to stop myself from going into the askbox multiple times to gush about them; because I wanted to wait until now#The colours are so good! AND THE CLOTHES!!! I wish I looked like that fr fr#I also just love the way the eyes and the faces look (you don't wanna know *how* often I changed the size/position of those eyes /lh)#Of course; rhythm games my beloved! Couldn't not include a little Osu! in the background#But srs going back to colours I had to compose myself multiple times while drawing this because I loved them so much#This character did smth to my brain /pos#(I forgot what Tumblr's tag limit is and I still have to add stuff so I'll stop here but aaaaaah)#no id#other's ocs#fursona#fanart#cw eyestrain#<- just in case; maybe I'm a bit over-careful with this tag lol#chill's art#chill's artist admiration sketchbook
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“white mourning.”
#‘‘A white mourning. A modern death. Divorce or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you & him. make him smaller.’’#jean is a very easy character to hate if you know nothing about him. & you know what they say. easy target doesn’t make for a good practice#judit literally compares harry to intellectually disabled man yet you don’t see ppl hating her because she is outwardly nice.#she’s polite yes but she doesn’t care as much as jean cares for harry#he is not perfect. he is mean. but loyal. if he truly didn't care he wouldn't hab come back to martinaise & coulda just reported harry’s as#he put up with du bois’ bullshit for years and built a toxic (totally straight) relationship with him yet always comes back.#he says he will leave you in the village to die but please understand harry isn't exactly a great person. especially pre-bender hdb.#planned a make up joke & put on a wig for hdb even tho he wasn’t the who started the whole fiasco#you can hate him all you want for leaving harry before & during tribunal but how could he have foreseen all this bullshit would have happen#his second leaving is kinda bullshit writing but#jv is dealing with his own demons too. clinical depression. partner almost died. job is shit. case spiraling out control#i do not blame the DE staff either. sometimes shit just happens. not everything needs a grand explanation.#but it definitely coulda been handled better. but i understand. resources were sparse.#i relate to jv. as someone with temper issues & attention problems i have to remove myself from the scene or i'll say shit i'd regret late#my man is having the worst week of his life. leave him alone.#kim is great but have u heard of a man who thinks he's old when he is only 30 & luvs horses & his commie boyfriend that he's divorcin' soon#disco elysium#de fanart#jean vicquemare#disco elysium fanart#jean heron vicquemare#jean posting#illustration#de#artists on tumblr#I WANTED TO DRAW THIS FOR MONTHSSS YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE. HE LITERALLY HAUNTED ME IN MY SLEEP!!!#i love him normal amount. very healthy. much feelings#my little maiu maiu#cryptiduni#my art
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don’t be a coward
*aroaces your rottmnt leo*
#it’s pride month I’m allowed to do whatever I wanttttttt#Now for hcs no one asked for:#Donnie’s demiromantic aegobisexual#They’re the only one who actually has a concrete label bc they like finding words (hence the micro labels lol they dissect their identity)#Leo knows he’s aroace spec but hasn’t bothered finding a micro label bc he’s vibing he’s also trans and finds men aesthetically attractive#Bc I say so#Mikey and raph don’t really bother with that stuff but Mikey cares more about his family and art and having fun than romance#And raph thinks women are really prettyyyyyy but hes okay not dating for now bc he’s like 17 and has bigger concerns#Like keeping her idiot siblings from accidentally killing themselves /aff /hj#did I just aspec all of ur turtles??? Yes#yes I did.#I’m very proud of myself#listen leo and usagi are cute#Now hear me out: make that queerplatonic#(I have a problem with making relationships queerplatonic lol)#Tbh most of this is a joke/light hearted I don’t really care about their orientations bc they’re just a fun turtle family!!!#Romance has never been anywhere near a draw to rottmnt for me#So maybe that’s why I subconsciously decided they were all aspec lol#I need them being siblings and having fun they can date when they’re 40 (I bet splinter agrees with me)#/j#rottmnt#tmnt 2018#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt Leo#leonardo#tmnt leonardo#leonardo hamato
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character design is driving me insane
#pixel art#aseprite#my art#wip art#i really shot myself in the foot by only giving them 1 facial feature#and then deciding they should be really expressive anyway#who cares ill make it work
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been able to keep both my fear and hype about totk in check by watching nothing but elden ring videos for weeks but now i read something on accident and my anxiety is going through the roof again
#ganondoodles talks#pls nintendy#dont do this#it was only a sentence with no clear spoilers or anything#but by god its put fear in my heart again#pls let totk be its own game#id even be willing to spoil myself on some stuff just to know my fear isnt based on truth#i hate that i feel like this#even if im better able to stop panic attacks before they happen#i still feel so silly for feeling so strongly about a game and its lore#but no matter what i try i cant help it#its been my thing of comfort for so long i wouldnt know what else i would focus on if i were to lose it#and it would be so much work - years of work- basically wasted#plus i would feel so bad having made people be interested only to abandon it before its even really started#the only thing giving me comfort if this was the case is knowing id just post all lore -concept art -drafts and scripts#as a sort of -this is what i had been working on for all these years- so at least the people who cared could get an idea of it#and in the unlikely case that it would be liked by alot of people#i would keep working on it despite it making no sense anymore#im rambling on trying to calm myself down#sorry#gotta be exhausting reading my anxious ass tags over and over#;__;
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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is
#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And#make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not#saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was#going to say#like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so#bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the#winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000#other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless 😭 like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but#i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its#been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody#responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple#muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it#but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like#im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good#solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start#all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the#punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4#im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but#even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think#avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is#like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they#hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be#the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors 💯 like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO#difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15#minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case#it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel#stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and#tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i#tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction#like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint
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Okay I need to speak my truth: being into character TF for fandoms that rarely get attention from TF artists feels like this
#it's the fucking best but also agonizing#like YES as an artist i get to make the first things i get to make friends sometimes that connect really well i get this all to myself#but it's also partly the thing of SO I HAVE TO DO FUCKING EVERYTHING AROUND HERE????#and partly sharing the art i make for these things in larger TF communities i frequent and being Very very aware of like.#Yeah I'm the only one here who cares about this.#having like three people at the Most to share these things with and ricochet ideas between us isn't even that bad. best part of it even#it's just hard to FIND those people in particular to bounce around with#the D20 in the pic here stands for dimension 20 btw. just to make clear where I stand#i fucking live for dimension 20 character TF so fucking much like holy shit. might MIGHTY need with all the moods i get watching this show#this is tf
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spectacularly bad idea today to try to finally go through / organize / "deal with" the crate in my closet where i've stored everything related to the ~10 years of my life i spent as a teacher
i only managed about 1/3 of it. turns out the process goes like this: in order to answer the question "do i want to keep this [art/letter/photo/journal] for sentimental or posterity reasons" i have to put one of my feet into a hole labeled THE PAST, & to answer the question "should i keep this [lesson plan/handout/resource] in case i want to use it again" i have to put the other foot into another hole called THE FUTURE
& both of these holes are bottomless pits of trauma, disability & COVID grief
#it's bad#the world i planned for doesn't exist anymore#i'm a different person in a different body#i cared very deeply about & was good at a thing that shaped my life & identity for over a decade#& then it just stopped!#i sometimes refer to myself as an ex-teacher & idk if that's really true. i've started teaching workshops very occasionally again#but now i'm an artist who only sometimes teaches#rather than a teacher who only sometimes makes art#i don't want to trade back. i just wish the transition hadn't been so fucked up#i wish i didn't somehow feel like i failed at being an educator. but that feeling is old too
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bad astrology by flower face
#yellowjackets#jackieshauna#ITS DONE OMG ITS FINISHED#what do I do now. with my life (ranking)#also ive decided i am gonna do literary analysis. on all of em#literally i have NO idea if anyone cares. well. i do bc I care and tbh that's enough to me#<- guys look im living so healthy#anyways this was a blast#hope somebody has at least discovered flower face trhu me bc its one of my fav artists#mitos incredible life#mine art tag#also im sorry the like long scenes 3 and 4 arent on beat :/ i love that song but it has so long instrumental stuff and idk what to do there#ALSO!! i had it all planned out like at least half in my docs (like always)#and then in the middle i was like 'omg what if I only show jackie-after-the-argument and shauna-after-jackies-dead'#(excluding the argument and the flashbacks (they used to hear us thru the floor))#which was. restricting. very much#also meaning was changed (originally wanted jackie to have the line 'idc if ure not made for me' but the only scene i could think of was th#ure hungry for and that was the next scene already so.)#anyways this was originally gonna be lottienat before i started with The Shark In Your Water#bc I thiught it fit them SO well. (still do) but now I like have to get away from the jackieshauna thought and then ill do the lottienat#probably#omg also I want everyone (who has read this far. whoever would do that) to know i was running on like 25 screen#recordings and 3 jackieshauna scene packs form yt#that's why. I dknt have that many clips alright im not using like 10 scenes over n over on purpose#gotta go but im gonna make a wrap post thingy once im back slay#no actually I get like average 7 notes (<- that's a lie Idk bc I didnt count) but im proud of myself this is amazing#ive wanted to do smth similiar alr#but it was some album by alec benjamin and a different thing for every song (like a poem‚ a painting or a play)#but I lost motivation this is the first thing that i actually pulled though all the way I think#jackieshauna: The Shark In Your Water
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I've seen other people posting their art summaries, unfortunately I have never drawn anything in my life,
#lately I've started feeling like whatever the fuck I do doesn't qualify as 'art'#everyone seems to agree that what defines art is if it's used as a form of expression. it needs to have emotion. it needs to be meaningful.#the only reason I do art is because there are fucking characters in my head and that's the only way I can get them out#and ok sure maybe people like them? but i'm still not sure if it actually means anything#and idk if it's fair to group myself with 'artists' who actually make real art that means something. i just draw fucking memes lbr#on the bright side maybe that means that it doesn't matter if my 'art' can never be good if it's not actually art at all!#I'm just doing what the fuck ever no one even cares if it's good or not#anyway here's to another year of never improving <3
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also re looking at the laptops of ppl in front of you in lectures, its actually doing wonders for my perceptions of the average computer user's tech literacy. im so used to circles on here being like 'and of course we're all on firefox with these 6 extensions and digging the algorithms out of our operating systems' meanwhile today in a lecture i saw someone with a lenovo driver pinned to their taskbar. ???
#im establishing myself as tech-proficient-enough-to-stand-out-in-an-arts-class by making my laptop look fucking stupid#they dont even know you can put the taskbar to the right instead of the bottom of the screen#or that u can turn off font smoothing to make everything look worse#oh also i finally got around to backing up all my files so the linuxification is impending#like my problem is that i look at people on here who like specialise in computers n shit n im like#aw jeez i only kind of know what a bios is... im such a poser....#meanwhile my family are enraptured by me bcos i can type fast and press buttons#like dgmw having the intuition to figure shit out by pressing buttons is a learned skill in and of itself that many people r lacking#but it always feels a bit bullshit to pull out of my back pocket. oh yeah im just smart#basically when it comes to my computer i say that my MO is that i care about privacy and open source shit#but really i just like having control. and sometimes control means making things worse on purpose just bcos u can
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HAPPY (late) BIRTHDAY @zu-is-here!!!!
i can't believe i missed your b-day again!! i had to make you something this year and so why not draw the bean the legend, the sweetest baby ever as a gift!!! >:Dc
thank you so much for all of your sweet words and making your blog one of the most comforting places to be at!! hope you're having an amazing day<3333
#art#my art#my gif#my animation#fanart#gift#aim#sorry i'm a lil late! school has been a lil crazy with assignments and group projects lately and i only get some spare time the weekends#that and i didn't know how to draw something big and that doesn't need much time with a mouse hh :'Dc#i guess i went with a small gif because i've been waiting to make one with lil baby aim for sO LONG!!! look at him being so cuuute >:'Dc#(i technically had a whole different idea last year but i'll wait until i have a tablet again-#i wouldn't wanna limit myself when it's supposed to be a big surprise project >;)c )#you're like- one of my biggest inspiration ever on this site so you know i had to doodle something at least!!#don't think i forgot about your amazing gift last year either!!! if you were so kind to draw me something and brighten up my day like that-#then you can BET i'll repay the favor!!! >:'Dc thank you so much again for your supportive comments and your sweet words#your presence is beloved by so many people around the world!!! no matter who passes by you always treat them with so much care#and respect!! your works have only improved throughout the years at an insanely rapid pace and i can't believe it's been 3 years now#you deserve all the praise and support and i wish you the best of luck in your future projects!!! have a nice day/night<3333
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Its really late but i just keep thinking about how Deena never interacts with her siblings in the entirety of both the nexomon games
Like-WE WERE ROBBED!!!!!!
SO YOUR TELLING ME-everytime the MC encounters one of the Champions with Deena around they DIDNT NOTICE HER??????
NOT EVEN A PASSING GLANCE OR GREETING??????
BLASHEMY
No heres MY personal crackpot headcannon
So during the War between Humans and Nexomon when Deena began to sympathise with humanity Omnicron began to notice and got angry (ObViOuSlY) and actually kicked her out of the group and disowned her, and then made everyone else reject her as well-OR EVEN BETTER tricked them to think she left of her own volition
And because most of the champions are just being revived in N1 thats why they act like they dont know her
#fuck you im gonna fill in canon myself#AND ALSO GRUNDA Or ULRICH was the ONLY ONE WHO DIDNT WANT TO COMPLETELY CUT CONTACT WITH HER#And after N1 they would get in contact again♡ somehow#and around that time he decides to work for that orphanage caring for kids#AND ALSO#i also have a theory-more like a headcanon honestly#that Metta was made directly after Nara was run out by the champions cause i think its funny#like he doesnt even KNOW he has a sister-and thats why he never makes any attempts to make her join the champions during N1#like-dont you think he would try to harness her power to help resurrect omnicron? AND THAT MEANS THAT OMNICRON WOULD HAVE BEEN MUCH STRONGER#IF SHE ALSO GAVE UP HER POWER >:]#<- that last point is unrelated to whatever im talking abt i just like making badguys stronger :>#AND ALSO THE CHAMPIONS WERE REALLY HURT BY HER LEAVING cause they used to be close♡#and when she left they stopped talking about her cause it hurt too bad andALSO THATS ANOTHER REASON AS TO WHY METTA WOULDNT TRY TO RECRUTE H#<- sorry guys im kinda going insane#nexomon#nexomon deena#nexomon nara#My Headcanons♡#not art
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Addicule my beloved,,,,,, where are you,,,,,,
#IT'S SUCH A GOOD SHIP BUT LIKE 4 PEOPLE SHIP IT MYSELF INCLUDED#and the few people who made art related to it NO LONGER CARE ABOUT DELTARUNE#AAUUUGHH I JUST WANT ALL MY FAVOURITE GUYS TO KISS IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK#djfhdhddhsjsjhfjd#Ok so Loki ships Addicule and Zarla ships addicule they are the only two content creators that come to mind fjhffhdhdgg#you can blame defrag for this btw#story based uh addicule is a bit out of place but i still love it#you know what my addison lore doesnt need to make sense 👍#i think the only addison of mine that has “lore” is blue#but to be honest they don't even have proper names fhdhjsh#i need to flesh out my addisons a lot lol#“youre an artist why dont you make your own addicule content” I DON'T WANNAAAAAAAAA#THATS WORRKKKK
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i would be so powerful if I wasn’t full of anxiety. btw.
#I JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN fuck anxiety!!#I literally can’t even post art during the day I like HAVE to post it at night before bed otherwise I will be so nervous and MORE prone to#deleting it and shit.. idk I haven’t posted in a bit because it genuinely causes me like. such bad anxiety like it literally makes me#want to cry sometimes!! Like I really want to enjoy myself but I have this debilitating fear of being considered a cringey child#using my favorite character names instead of coming up with my own is enough embarrassment for me#i literally feel jealous of people who confidently talk about their ocs and do things like oc x canon or selfshipping like I can’t even#talk about a HEADCANON without freaking out about it. I only have self indulgent fandom fun in my silly brain if I could let go of#my anxiety I would be having SO much more fun idk.. I care too much about how people perceive me
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