you ever just think about. “You are diseased, albeit a disease of our own making. No more.” you ever just. oh, they made him and they discarded him. it’s never going to be quiet again for him, and that’s just collateral. they let the sound rot through his whole life, his whole timeline. because that’s the kind of easy sacrifice you can make when you want to save yourself above everything else, one that doesn’t ask anything of you. you dig open a child’s mind and you bury your survival inside him and when he follows the noise back home, when he does exactly what you groomed him for, you call him ruined for it. that’s. you ever just think about that.
hi!! <3 thank u for the ask, these questions were so cute and fun!!
2. show us a picture of your handwriting?
i don’t want to jump scare anyone so i will be including a pic under the cut… prepare urself
6. what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?
hmmm. i would say the best (and sappiest) part is finding a community u rlly vibe with/just finding ur niche in general. and then not to be negative but i feel like people who are online too much get way too comfortable with being sorta mean. like sometimes i think im online too much and then i see someone hating a lil too hard and its like oh yeah no… im fine
24. what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?
writing-wise im so proud of completing the odesta longfic!! personal-wise… well… i recently developed a pretty fierce backbone B)
ok here is my handwriting reveal. i didn’t know what to write so obv i went w the name ive probably written more than my own (and by written i mean typed… just to be clear)
i always thought i was a very typical enemies to lovers girlie but i think i just realized my actual taste in ships is the dynamic where the two are supposedly equal rivals/enemies who represent diametrically opposed themes (for the Aesthetic), but in actuality it’s just one of them yanking the other around on a chain while the other whines and rages and protests and ultimately makes an absolute spectacle of themselves
we could be really cute roller skating besties who jam to vaporwave and mallsoft in the city at sunset but nobody i know wants to leAVE THEIR FUCKING HOUSE & TRY NEW THINGS
I hate school so fucking much lol and I always just thought I was taking too many credits but this semester I finally took a normal amount of credits and it doesn’t matter. It’s not the amount of classes, it’s just having any classes at all. I feel like there was definitely a time where I could handle it but not anymore lmfao… this place was crazy. Sent me into my first real and scary panic attack, broke me out in stress hives, ruined my sleep, turned me into a mega hater…. smh. I know it could be a million times worse so I feel bad for complaining but it was not cool. All I can hope for is that my degree and good grades that I damn near died trying to get for literally no reason do me some good in real society tho I doubt it lmao
ANYWAY. so one every break i had this dude was on as well which for my company there’s no set like times so u take ur breaks when u want so i was like oh. he’s noticing when i get up and not coming back then leaves to take his as well. word. mf starts talking to me while i have WIRED headphones in and even commented on them 😭😭😭 anyway fast forward to my lunch and i have to cut it short bc im cooked as far as work but i get my shit in the micro BAM. he’s there. so anyway he asks if he can sit and chat and there no way to be like no ❤️ politely so i’m like sure but i am gonna scroll on my phone so do that and he asked yesterday and he asks again today like oh what are ur weekend plans and then he’s like do u want to go to this show with me and im like no i have plans which i do then hes like wanna grab sushi since we both like seafood so i point blank say like a date? bc i dont want to date a coworker and he back tracks like WOAH. did you think i was hitting on you my bad i really need to change my charisma bc like everyone thinks im hitting on you which is why i stopped talking to you for a minute and im like no dont worry just usually when people ask me to dinner and a show it’s a date also damn im fr in the rumor mill already and he’s like no more me and im like well im by proxy and he’s like 😳 anyway im like i don’t wanna shit where i eat and he agrees and talks about a girl he got with who works here and hows it awkward and then leaves shortly after and it’s like RAHHHHHHHHH I JUST WNAN FUCKIN WORKKKKKKKKKKKK
why is it so hard for me to just not be jealous of my former classmates like girl u made ur life this way 😐 idk just realizing why i quit insta 3 yrs ago
i’ve never been able to truly get into the summer i turned pretty because i actually refuse to read “two siblings married to the same person” threesome stories bc like,,,, i have to draw the line somewhere okay but even as a teenager i read the series and went “this one actually would have worked if they just both were with belly” and how dare jenny han make me think that thought!!!!