#why wont my irl friends watch it with me?

[bittersqxtch]

man I miss Duan Jiaxu...just might rewatch Hidden Love tomorrow

[omanu]

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[dnpbeats]

Do u think one of them has ever wanted to hard launch and the other one was like nah? I feel like they must have had that conversation at some point!

hmm. i mean yeah i'm certain they had the conversation. even in 2009 when they were really open about things, they never actually explicitly said they were together (i mean obvs everyone could guess and i don't think they cared, but like they must have made the decision to have a sliver of plausible deniability left*). and then i'm sure they continued to have many conversations about it, it's not really a one and done type of convo espc with their careers

i'd say, do i think one of them has wanted to hard launch when the other hasn't? no. do i think one of them would have been neutral about hard launching when the other hasn't? honestly... also no. like we all know why dan didn't want to come out (generally and also in terms of his and phil's relationship, "what me and phil had was ours and personal and yet some people were trying to get access to it for their own satisfaction"). we also know that phil is super private (from dan, from phil himself, and just from observation). i think phil didn't (doesn't?) want to hard launch not bc of the gay relationship aspect but because of the "it's my personal life and 4 million people don't need to know about it" aspect. so yeah honestly from what i've seen and what they've said i feel like they've probably been on pretty much the same page about coming out? but ofc at the end of the day i only see what they present to us, so i could be totally way off base

*making this a footnote bc this is off topic but i just remembered phil's story about getting outed to his friends back home bc of the dating website. and then ofc dan's issue of not being out to his family/college friends. so i wonder if they in 2009 were fine with flirting online bc they didnt care if like random ppl on dailybooth and twitter knew they were together, but if anyone who knew them irl saw and like tried to out dan to his parents or some shit (as some ppl are wont to do), he could do some handwaving to explain it away :( like ok now i'm just making shit up but also dan was like. way more overtly flirty than phil was (though phil did his fair share himself) so do u think that phil had to sit 18 year old dan down and tell him how he got outed to irl ppl bc of the internet and how they had to watch what they said online 😭😭😭😭😭

[rachel-of-autumnbow]

Day 10 of @fanovember: Online Dating

Vax is surprising his online girlfriend by watching her performance (and her) for the first time irl.

Vaxleth. Fucking cute i almost died writing this shit. Soft Vax. Feat Korring being the best dad. Probably grammar mistakes. Enjoy.

10. Online Dating

Vax put his phone back in his inside pocket and straightened the jacket lapels for the millionth time. He hated formal robes in general, but suits were a special kind of hatred for him. He had a comfortable set of clothes back in the motorbike chest. “Only a couple of hours,” he thought. “Then back to moving freely.” He waited until the theater doors opened and tried to sneak inside. It would have been easy, if it wasn’t for the flowers he was holding.

Kiki: im so nervous i think im gonna puke 🤮

Vax: itll be fine, its not the first time you do this

Kiki: it’s not the same today, my dad came

Vax: im sure he’ll be very proud of you

Kiki: i hope i don’t mess this up

Vax: you wont you’re a great actress

Kiki: you never saw me on stage

Kiki: or ever

Vax: yet

Kiki: anyway, i should get ready

Vax: go break a leg

Kiki: thanks babe 💚

“Hey, you, I will need your ticket, please.”

“Oh, sorry.” Vax pretended to look for his entrance ticket he didn’t have in his pockets. “I must have left it at home.”

“Sorry, sir, no entrance, no show.”

Vax nodded. “Alright, at least could you make sure to give this to Keyleth by the end of the play? Please.”

The doorman sighed. “Fine, but get out.” Vax turned around and pouted as he examined the hall for a different way to get in.

“Excuse me, young man.”

Vax looked at the man behind him, “yes, sir, I was about to leave…”

“Oh, no, it’s not that. I couldn’t help but hear you’re an admirer of my daughter?”

Vax blinked. His mind quickly showed him the pictures he had seen him in. Pictures that Keyleth had sent him or posted. “Yes, that can be said.” The man smiled in the same way Keyleth did in their facetimes. ‘I can’t believe I’ve met my girlfriend’s father in real life before even seeing her’.

“May I know your name?”

“Vax’ildan, sir.” The man stared at him for a second as they shook hands and he ended up laughing.

“Oh, so you’re that Vax! It’s a pleasure to meet you. Keyleth talks a lot about you, and now I can see why.” Vax cleared his throat and felt a hand on his shoulder. “Does she know you’re here?”

“No, sir. I had a surprise planned.”

“And you left your ticket at home.”

“Actually… The gas and the flowers took all my savings. I was going to, well…”

“Sneak in?” Vax sighed and nodded. He never felt sorry or ashamed of the things he had to do due to his lack of money, but at that moment, he would rather Kiki’s dad not know any of it. “Then consider this your lucky day, come with me.”

“Sir?” The man didn’t say anything, just went to the doorman and gave him a ticket, pointing at Vax. The guy nodded and let them both in with a gesture. Vax followed Keyleth’s father through a corridor, then up a bunch of stairs and a door that led to a box, right in front of the stage. Probably the best seats in the theater.

The man invited him to sit in one of the front seats. “I always get two tickets for Keyleth’s performances, just in case me and my wife happen to be in town to come. I could make it this time, but she didn’t.”

“Thank you, sir.” Vax sat by his side. He had never been in a box before. He could see people under him moving like a sea of heads, slowly finding their place.

Keyleth’s father, Korrin, as it happened to be his name, talked to him while they waited for the play to start. They talked about their families, friends, and how he had met Keyleth. His pocket buzzed.

Kiki: i thought they were kidding about the sold out but they werent!

“Is that her?” Korrin asked.

Vax nodded. “Yes, she’s quite anxious about today.” He was tempted to say something like ‘yeah, i can see that’, but  he didn’t want to spoil the surprise.

In that moment, the lights faded as the off voice started saying the welcoming. The play was fun, all of the actors were indeed amazing. Vax knew some of them, he had made friends with Keyleth’s circle during their relationship. He was aware, although he didn’t really care, of how dumb faced he looked when Keyleth made her first appearance.

Vax: that means there are so many people that want to see your brilliance.

Kiki: most of these are Scanlan admirers.

Vax: i refuse to believe none of them came for you

Vax: its mathematically impossible

Kiki: i thought you hated math

Vax: thats not the point

Kiki: i know 😁

Kiki: i wish you were here 😞

Vax: be careful what you wish for, it could come true

He had seen her in pictures, he had heard her in voice notes and calls, but none of that did justice to her. He imagined himself jumping out that box, running to the stage and kissing her right that moment, but he didn’t want to mess the show. He stood there, mouth half open and heart pining and longing.

Vax didn’t part eyes from the stage until the end, when the doorman entered the scene during the final bows with his bouquet. He handed it to Keyleth, who read the note and started scanning the crowd. Vax stood up and thanked Korrin for everything before heading out.

He waited in the hall for quite some time, he saw everyone go out and half an hour later, even Korrin waved at him when he was heading out. “I didn’t tell her a word. She’ll be out soon.”

Vax smiled, although he has a bundle of nerves. “Thanks.”

Ten more minutes passed and he heard steps in the hall. "Vax?" He turned around and he felt his heart splutter.

"Hey, Kiki." He could only catch her and spin around in a hug. Her hair smelled like freshly cut grass and her laughter was probably the most beautiful sound he'd ever heard.

"I can't believe you're here." Keyleth pulled away to look at him.

Vax put a lock of her hair behind her ear. "I told you to be careful what you wish for."

Keyleth's smile became even brighter. "Did you watch the show too?"

Vax stroked her face, unable to believe he was actually doing what he had been dreaming of for so long. "Yeah, you're amazing, you know?"

"I-I mean… you came all the way to see me."

"Yeah… I also came to do something else."

"Really? Wha—"

Vax didn't hold the kiss anymore.

[saintbarou]

YES GIVE US THE JAVIERLAMB LORE PLS 🤲

JAVIERLAMB LORE DUMP UNDER THE TAG

(tw for themes of SA/CA, pregnancy, spoilers for rdr2/rdr1)

@sukunasstarlight @yinyuedijun -> u where in my replies so i hope its okay to tag u here

OKAY SO ME AND FANG HAVE VERY INTERWOVEN SELF INSERT LORE AND MY SELF INSERT HAS MY IRL NAME SO I WONT BE POSTING IT HERE.

my self insert comes from the recently established state of california and was taken in by a family that established itself off the californian gold rush and later through cattle + sheep farming to work as a maid/nanny. she is mexican as her family lived in “california” when it used to be a part of mexico and stayed when it was purchased by the united states.

her father died in an accident in the stables he worked at and then her mother died by wasting away after entering a huge depression when her husband died. somewhere in this time her older brother went missing. she was sent to a loosely established and assembled orphanage when this formerly mentioned rich family took her and made her a maid to work for them and to play nanny to the rich family’s daughter.

this life was very hard as this was a white family essentially uprooting a 12 grieving mexican girl and putting her in this position where the man of the house creeped on her (watched her bathe/watched her dress/etc) and as did other members of the staff (this undeveloped) and the lady of the manor did what she could to defend my self insert but it even that becomes incredibly toxic and twisted.

these years are very complicated but this is where my self insert learns many skills as she tries her best to stay out of the house where the abuse happens the most - she learns how to make hunting traps and forage (This Is A Mouseka Tool That Will Help Us Later.) she also has a childhood best friend named romeo who later on develops feelings for her and also becomes a painter of admired skill.

it’s important that i tell you that this self insert is a very kind and timid young lady - learning to keep herself hidden from other’s eyes BUT she is also incredibly vindictive (This Is Another Mouseka Tool That Will Help Us Later) and she has a sense of morality that is a little skewed, “take from me i take from you” is the name of her game so when she meets fang’s self insert they quickly plot to rob the family she serves BLIND.

remember how she learned how to forage? basically she excels at plant based knowledge and due to the library she has access to due to being a maid she would read and memorize a lot of poisonous plants/spores and begins to concoct numerous poisons. it is her main way of fighting (she coats her knifes with it, she laces people’s food/cosmetics/drinks with it) my self insert does not fight fair and fights only to win.

both her and fang’s self insert slowly but surely begin to rob the family of money, antiques and even gold bit by bit until the family heads to blackwater in 1899 (my self insert is 21 by this point) around the time the vander lin gang is there (coincidence?….I THINK NOT)

the reason why this family went from being in california to being in blackwater is because of how the daughter my self insert played nanny for is getting engaged to a rich family in the state of connecticut (where the man of the rich family is originally from) AND this is where my self insert and fang’s plan to steal the last bit of money the family has which is the daughter’s dowry.

this is pulled of successfully though due to fang’s own criminal shenanigans the do get SOME of the pinkerton’s attention which sets us off to go into the mountains inadvertently following the trail of the vander lin gang and coming into an alliance with them.

somewhere along the time she is spends working for this family she gets her horse -> a kiger mustang named artorius

IM SORRY FOR YAPPING ALL THIS TIME NOW ITS TIME FOR JAVIERLAMB

javierlamb is essentially love at first for both of them and they both fit into what it is they have been missing for the longest time. for javier it’s finding a sense of belonging in the world and for my self insert is finding a sense of safety in the world that for the most part has robbed her of identity and agency. their relationship is mostly smooth until chapter 6 where there are

TWO ENDINGS as by chapter 6 my self insert is pregnant and by the epilogue has a son. javier can either return to her side and they become a family -> this is the good ending.

OR javier abandons her completely following the collapse of the gang in chapter six and flees to mexico to follow the events of rdr1 -> this is the bad ending.

SONGS:

as pure as the driven snow -> off the a balland of songbirds and snakes soundtrack

and i loved her -> by kurt cobain

abrázame muy furete -> juan gabriel

[neonvqmpire]

thoughts about the good omens studio tour and screening of 2x01:

trying to comprehend and process that yesterday was actually real.

everything they did for us felt like a dream. it didn't feel like a fan event in that way because everyone was so happy to have us there and show us around. they were so so friendly and accommodating to my needs. the people that guided us around were the people that created the show. they knew stuff. they were so kind about our questions. you could tell that they really loved this show and working on it. they didn't over explain stuff to us (i mean except a few things) and seemed so interested in engaging with us fans. it was the greatest atmosphere and the set was breathtaking and magical.

i was so positively surprised with what they offered us and what we we're allowed to do. we were allowed to touch the official costumes for example. we saw the summoning circle in the book shop. and more that i wont say now.

im not sure they filmed our group but if they did you will see i was gagging and laughing and smiling and stimming almost the entire time.

it was a wild experience to have people who work on sth this official be so insanely friendly and caring. like why are not more people this kind irl? bless them all, they're doing an incredible job and you better not skip the credits when watching s2. you dont want to do that anyway, i can promise you that :).

i will get into depth about the screening on friday (i made a notes app list hehe) but for now i will tell you that you are in for a ride and you are going to love it. watch out for a detail at the end of the first scene is all i will tease.

i've never been to a fan event with people that i get to know online before and it was the best fucking experience. im so grateful i could take someone with me as my 1+ and spend time with some others before and after the tour. ive never talked to other autistic fans irl (and it's been a while since i met up with adhd ppl irl) and i honestly dont have words for how easy and empowering it felt to socialise with autistic people.

i just cant believe it happened and i was in the bookshop and on that set.

i still can barely believe that season 2 is even real and coming out THIS FUCKING FRIDAY LIKE WHAT WITCHERY IS THAT.

please watch it when it comes out. tell your friends and family to watch it. spread the word so we can get a third season.

thank you.

[magical-oppas]

I was tagged by @481boxboxbaby thanks bestie <3

Who is your favorite driver?

Ohhh I can't really pick between Max or Carlos but if you put a gun to my head right at this moment my answer would probably be Carlos.

Do you have other favorite drivers?

Oh yes, I am very bad at "solo stanning" (that's a kpop term but you get what I mean)

My faves are Max, Carlos, Charles, Lando, Oscar and Yuki

Who is your least favorite driver?

Its just my personal preference to never answer this question because I just find it unnecessary to put it out into the world. Of course there are drivers I do not like and I do occasionally bitch about them, I just prefer to that privately to my friends :)

Do you pull for drivers or do you like teams as well?

Both, its just in the nature of the sport isn't it? You have a team but there is so much talent on the grid that I feel like one does oneself a disservice by limiting it to only the two drivers on the team one cheers for.

If you like teams what teams do you pull for?

Ferrari. I'm really basic.

How long have you been into F1?

I have been properly aware of it since 2022 but I didn't start following it, as in watching every race, before 2023.

What got you into F1?

I have always loved sports. I'm a big football fan (the real one, not the American one) and I absolutely ADORE figureskating so I was already primed to love it.

The story is basically that me and my fiancé, then boyfriend, really wanted to have something to root for together. We both love football but I'm a Barcelona fan and he is a Real Madrid fan, you see the issue. So he said

"Babe, I think you would love F1. Check out this Netflix show so you are up to speed and then we can watch it together. I wont tell you what team we like, you will see that there really is only one correct team and driver to root for."

So I did. I gathered all my snacks and prepared myself for a binge watch. I fell in love with the sport around halfway into the first episode. I finished it and happily went to report back to my love. This is the exact conversation we had

"So, you picked the correct team and driver right?"

"Ofc! You were right it was so obvious. How can one NOT like Max? He is fantastic!"

"...Babe"

"...Yeah?"

"I like Lewis Hamilton."

"Fuck."

"Fuck."

The end<3

Do you enjoy fic/rpf?

I don't mind it. As long as people are not weird about it, like actually believe that their ships are true or tell drivers about ao3, I don't see the issue.

How do you view new fans?

I mean, I'm new. Can I really have an opinion on this?

If I can have one then it is that you are born knowing nothing. You have been new to everything in life at some point. It is just part of our journey as humans. Stop being mean to people for not knowing things.

If you could take over as team principal for any team, who would it be and why?

HAAS. For shits and gigs you know.

Are your friends and family into F1?

Other than my fiancé I have two irl friends who really love it. My poor mother is forced to listen to my ramblings so she knows a lot but she finds the sport pointless.

And then obviously all of my online friends and my F1 mutuals on tumblr<3

Are you open to talking to other fans/making friends?

ALWAYS

There is not a single question, opinion or random thought someone has sent me here on tumblr that I haven't cherished. If you are hesitating about becoming my friend here is your sign. Send me the message. Send me the ask. I promise you, I will never EVER find it annoying. If you can't tell by the length of this post, I really love to yap, and I really love to yap about F1<3

Tagging @1337wtfomgbbq @norribobs @charlalos

And if this just happens to be on your dash, you are now tagged by me<3

Of course there is no pressure to do this

[casualavocados]

talking about ep6 and how much it means to me is...hard actually. sometimes. because there are so many reasons. reasons that feel silly to me on occassion and reasons that have all been said before but i have to say again because it will never not get to me, how rare it is to see any of this. rare in a bl and rare in entertainment in general tbh.

i can’t believe this show is allowed to have lines like “when there are other people around, talking to you feels like a matter of life and death.” / “what can we do? we’re just born this way.” and have the context not be about homophobia. the way pat and pran get to go out to the market and get groceries together like it’s nothing, be told they look cute together in passing without consequences, experiencing those things they missed out on in high school - which alludes to the way queer ppl irl share many of those domestic moments later in life. the way pran comes downstairs when pat rings his doorbell and hangs back and watches their parents confront is explicitly a metaphor for wanting and being drawn to something you know you should not or cannot have, mixed with the feelings of being something “different” than what your parents want for you.

these moments just hit so hard. they are so small. and yet they mean so much. 

then ofc there’s the huge focus on communication this episode - the way pat hurts and struggles and tries over and over to reach out to pran, slowly learning to meet pran where he is, all along respecting pran’s boundaries enough to not cause a scene himself but also not backing down from his own needs. it’s simply something i dont see often enough in romantic relationships in television. so much that’s portrayed to the world focuses on miscommunication and dishonesty rather than how worth it vulnerability can be. 

something that also stands out to me that started in this ep in particular (that’s why im bringing it up), is the way any sexual implications that arise are never used for jokes that play off the fact that pat and pran are a mlm couple. they’re taken seriously instead. like i’m not sure how to say this right, but the sexual tension feels so real because attention isn’t called to it. it’s just something that happens. and a lot of this also has to do with the fact that neither pat nor pran ever devolve into heteronormative, misogynistic gender roles as well (which i could talk about forever especially in the context of bl but i wont here). there are no onlookers pushing their own agendas onto the main characters ever in this series, not romantically, and not sexually. 

(not even korn in ep9 feels that way to me, because he comes across as a goofball who wants the best for his friend(s), an observer rather than someone trying to push his way into business that isn’t his. also imo he’s speedrunning his bi realization in that ep as well so he gets a pass and a pat on the head). 

and because of all that, to my astonishment, i have never once felt any second hand embarrassment watching pat and pran. whether it's a serious scene like the newspaper game in ep6 or a silly scene like the one in pat’s room in ep7 - everything feels like it’s just for them. not catering to the audience. they’re allowed to be goofy, they’re allowed to be serious, they’re allowed to be visibly attracted to each other - without the show making a big deal out of it. and to me, that makes it a big deal. the fact that it is so normal. and ofc so much meta has been written about the casual physical intimacy in this show - the fact how on the other hand, not every touch between them has sexual undertones. that they can just exist in each other’s space and it be normal.

(and i feel like that’s where a lot of disagreement comes from, from a minority of audience members. i’ve seen takes where people thought pat and pran acted more like friends than lovers once their relationship actually became romantic - and i feel like not only does that point to the twisted societal pressure to differentiate between what classifies as “romantic” and “platonic”, but also the stigma that every act between same sex couples is inherently sexual, and therefore “dirty”. so simply put, the people who have those takes just don’t understand what this series has done.)

because for real, any other bl would have shown the physicality of pat and pran’s affection and interest in each other very differently. 

idk it just really gets to me. it’s spread throughout the rest of the show ofc but i specifically remember watching ep6 for the first time and being so shocked by how subtle the difference i saw in this series was - and also shocked by how much it meant to me to see it.

so yeah, this is just a silly romcom. but also no, it’s so much more than that. and episode 5 might be the ep that began that shift, but episode 6, for me at least, is the one that solidified it. and the rest of the show just continued to do the work to prove that.

[cinnamostar]

hello~!! o//u///o I'm new to you're blog and I'm already loving it ! I want to ask if u allow any requests, cuz if so! do you do ot8 of stray kids? I was watching SKZ family and GODDAMN, there's a lot of drama ToT I was thinking, how would reader fit into this? it can either be platonic or romantic, I just really want to see what dynamic they would all share if reader was a 9th member lol! It's no pressure if u don't want to!! Please stay hydrated and take as much break if u want~

hi there!! thank you so much for the compliment :') it means a lot to me! i don't usually do requests bc im pretty busy irl and ive never written anything for ot8/9th member bc it sounds hard to write accurately :o but ill try lol

this wont be a fic but rather just discussing the dynamic :3

hmm, skz in general is a vey close, tight-knit group of friends, they definitely have more of a familial bond and are very comfortable around each other. i think a ninth member reader would probably mix in the same way, so i want to say it would probably be a very much sibling-like relationship! which is why i stray away from any romantic ninth member content bc i dooo think it would most likely just be purely platonic. sure, romantic relations could play out, but in my mind, the kind of bond the have is so ... brotherly that i'd like to think a ninth member wouldn't change that and only add to that.

the way this dynamic would play out would depend on the reader themselves :') i wanna say regardless, they'd be quite loving and protective just how they are with each other, but you know, age, personality, and interests do affect how these relationships play out.

if you're on the younger end of the group, they'd def take care of you and dote on you like a younger sibling! kinda like how we see everyone tease jeongin, they'd probably do the same with the reader and be annoying older brothers, but still be as protective as necessary. iii think each member would have their own style of interacting with a younger ninth member? each have their own love language, so it will vary. for exampleee, i think changbin would be incredibly affectionate

if you’re older, then there’s probably some level or respect they will all have for you, but you might be someone they go to for advice more often than not!

IM SORRY ANONNIE THAT THIS TOOK SO LONG 😭😭😭 I don’t do requests bc I know I’ll take forever (Liek this) and also idk this is as far my brain lets me think for this.. ngl I prob will never do ot8 x reader content bc I don’t know how to write that many characters usually LOL but I JUSY think it would be friendly and vibes

[starrrberry]

hii ash what is the phantom of the opera? ive heard of it and it sounds so fucking badass and i am Curious

okay. gonna write a rambly type essay. SUMMARY: so poto is originally a novel written by gaston leroux in 1909 set in france, centering a mysterious masked man, erik (aka the phantom, the opera ghost, angel of music) and a naive, kind girl who's ridiculously brave and selfless called christine. from now on ill be talking about the musical version as i am yet to read the book ! also, the pair have INCREDIBLE music ability - christine has the voice of an angel, and the phantom is incredibly skilled at many instruments as well as have the kinda voice that probably wouldve awoken smth in me when i was ten. -christine is an orphan, her father died when she was.. eight? ish. and shes just very sad and lonely. -when her dad died, he said he'll send a angrl of music to her -erik is super super obsessed with christine and kinda stalks her. but -shes like kinda chill with it at the beginning and she even follows him into his lair? which like okay you go girl or smth. -but then she finds out oh shit !!! hes kinda freaky man. and she faints <3 -if erik had his way he'd probably just force her to marry him, but problem! -another man, raoul, who is christines childhood bestie, is here. and -hes in love with her! christines also in love with him, but imo its only because he reminds her of her father (woop woop daddy issues) -THINGS HAPPEN and i cried. just trust me on this idk how to do summaries. CHARACTERS: erik - MY BOY !!!!!! hes so traumatised and he was abused a lot because he was born with a facial deformity and nobody ever touched him ever. so he just grew into this really angry, resentful but also strangely hot dude. he gets a MILD mild redemption at the end of the movie/musical, and hes the most pathetic silliest sewer man in the world im so so obsessed with him. hes a really complex character and i could get into it but i wont because its 12am. christine - in the musical/kinda movie, shes portrayed as very meek and mild. however shes really brave and kind of a badass! like "this haunted face holds no horror for me now. its your soul in which the true distortion lies" um okay?? callout i love that. shes not wrong, his soul is fuuuucked. poor boy. her mother died in childbirth, her father died when she was young, shes alone in the world apart from a scarily hot stalker whos teaching her to sing, and shes a ballet rat in the opera populaire. ill delve more into different interpretations of her in different media. raoul - pretty rich boy. also christines childhood best friend and suitor. my boy has no thoughts in his head i was him for world book day.

meg giry - christines current best friend! shes so cool in the movie shes a side but shes loyal, brave, and probably a lesbian. also shes cares so sososo much for christine im just. ough. la carlotta - they hate to see a girlboss winning :( shes literally done nothing wrong ever i adore her shes so extra and such a bitch aa <3 there are more but the first three are the most important

DIFFERENT MEDIA: theres a movie (2004) which stars gerard butler as erik and emmy rossum as christine who are both SO OSOSOSOSOOSO PRETTY !!!!!

in the movies, erik is portrayed as quite suave and dramatic, as well as agressive and fiercely obsessive. basically, the same as how he's portrayed in the rest of the media. also ! his name isnt included in both the movies or the musical. its also very aesthetically pleasing speaking of ! theres also a musical which is pretty well known, written by andrew lloyd webber. i would say my favourite actors, but it may be a little doxxy, so i'll refrain. however, i will say that sierra boggess, one of favourite christines is WOW ! she's fiesty and seductive, not as mild as the other portrayals. thats why i love the musical version, one because it is MAGICAL to watch irl and two becuase you can play around witht the characters to fit your eye. theres a book, which gives more insight into erik's past, and also several adaptations of the novel, the most notable being susan kay;s "phantom" CONTROVERSY: i will say that the toxic relationship between christine and erik is heavily romanticised, christine experiences a lot of stockholm syndrome (shes also swedish!) and she just has a Bad Time. however. its fiction and my taste in men is fucked up beyond belief! but many people dont see it that way since erik is a kidnapper/murderer, people are NOT happy that he is shipped and loved by so many people. but like man we know ! if this happened in real life we'd be outta there like a shot, if this was a REAL PERSON we would NOT be doing this! its ridiculous to me that so many people cannot grasp that this is fiction, an escape from the rules of the real world. CONCLUSION: its more than just a romance, its a study of so many different things, like how trauma can affect different people, how growing up in certain types of environments can shape a persons life. its more of a tragedy really, not a romance as much, so if you like media which leaves a hole in you only fanfic can fix this is def for you. if you want to get into it, i recommend starting with the musical or movie, probably the musical. i didnt do it justice with this ramble, honestly its incredible and theres endless interpretations and endings (i havent even mentioned the book!)

also all the songs slap and theyre majority operatic but modern!!!!!!!

[silverxcristal]

Why do you still use twitter if you hate it so much /genq

It is still has some use to me, mainly for fast news soucre, some friends and artists i like only having that website active, and recently I can trespass my photos and videos from my switch to pc via Twitter.

The algorithm doesn't benefict me, I don't get involved in fights or drama but can observe quietly and be aware of it, and want it or not connection with brands or irl topics and whats going on have to happen one way or the other for me, I refuse to watch TV or get in newspaper websites

If twitter die i wont care, if it stops being useful to me with this new uploads ill 100% abandon it and let it rot like my 14 y/o DA account. But as now I'm just tossing things there and wait for nothing, if the algorithm ever benefict me and tracks people my way the main social media I have displayed is always Tumblr first

[lets-talk-spirituality]

hi there. i love your blog, ive been on my spiritual journey for a few years now but i dont have community or anyone to talk about these things with irl or ask questions. my family doesnt understand and my friends wont either. i wanted some advice if thats okay with you.... i am not the personality type to try and "wake up" others. im very interested in what some may call 'conspiracies' and uncovering truths but in the spiritual community i feel a great pressure to wake up others and try to get them to see truth. if someone asks me my opinion on something or i am a conversation i will gladly share. but i am not the type to go to a friend or someone i know and tell them "hey you should really not watch the news" or "you know celebs are puppets right?" or things like this. i prefer to lead by example and live my life and if someone is willing to talk than i will share. i dont get angry and argue with others for being "sheep". im not a loud rebellious revolutionary, and i think telling others what to do or force truth on them will turn them away even more especially with this kind of topics. but should i be doing more? should i be trying to wake people up and sharing the truth with them? i feel guilty at times because im not like this but i feel like i have a responsibility. what can i do?

Hi and welcome! I want to say that I think a lot of people forget that doing work on the self is still collective work. By going on your own spiritual journey and learning you are awakening others. I think you will know when you are meant to share because you will have unique contributions to add. I personally have been spiritual most my life and only felt like I should speak out this past year and only a few months ago opened this blog. What I would say you should do is follow your own inner guidance and if you don’t feel called to behave in that way then don’t. A lot of the spiritual community is still wrapped up a lot in ego and I think that shows up a lot in this savior complex thing of like I need to help or awaken people. I think the best route is to live your life to your truth which encourages others to live their truth and one day you find out you helped all these people awaken by having been you. You never know who’s watching. When I stopped eating meat I had some random family member tell me I inspired them to try being vegetarian. You never know who you’re impacting just by your presence. Let’s not forget that showing up and reflecting and trying to be your best you is the most important pursuit and all other things give to the universe. All you can control is you anyway.

I’d also encourage you to examine your guilt and trace that root. Why do you feel you need to perform spirituality and why do you feel like inaction is inherently more shameful? Really examine those type of feelings when they show up.

[leonloser-is-insane]

my roommate @cookicatisdistorted-thsc / @they-wont-know-imemerald (if they won't know you're emerald why did you set your pfp as emerald????)

Keeps asking me if he..uh she..i don't know emeralds/cookis pronouns they're a very confusing depressed thing.

They keep asking if I think they can strangle themselves with a bobble (hair tie) and I'm like "What the fu-" so then they go "she's watching me" like girl who's watching you? The flies??? Like I swear she/he needs some therapy or help. Or just someone to talk to who isn't me because they tend to..get a bit feisty. (They can attack sometimes usually when they're like lonely or something because they don't want people to approach because they think they deserve to be lonely)

So emeralds depressed.

@kafruitpunch-kat is focusing on irl stuff so they don't post anymore really.

@thatcatloser-ruby is panicked about writing stories because she's writing like 5 at a time

@fluff-the-marshmallowcat I think is also depressedier but is also better then emerald??

@yappachino-the-cappuchino is missing. Sorta.

@gravy-gemstoneleader001 (who isn't just cooking they're actually ran by another friend but it's cooking who does the ideas and designs so like.. ehhh) is just dancing. Literally right now.

And I'm the only who mentally stable at the moment which is ironic because I USED TO BE IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL. Okay. I lied. I'm not mentally stable with medical conditions but I'm emotionally stable.. also this was just random. I wasn't expecting it to be this long.

Also if you're curious about the mental hospital then I'm not crazy insane like my reg in @theinsanereg-1 au but you can ask from DMS or something if youre curious.

[sheikahwarriork]

Also, after re-reading your author note, you should really give CF another shot if you got the time! It's a very solid route and when looking more deeply in it, especially with the context of Hopes that showed directly many indirect important CF element ( Edelgard lack of vengeful mindset with stuff like not wanting to kill Rhea or Duc Aegir, why her alliance with TWSITD is not entirely a choice, all the difficulties with talking, etc )

The game is dialog heavy and rely a lot on subtext ( and that's not even accounting for all the translation error ) so it's a drag, but if you want the website fedatamine is a really good ressources to check all the dialog more easily!

hi anon!! you're right, after all i played CF only two times. the first time it was my first route, so i didnt quite understand a lot of things! then, after playing all the routes, i played CF again- and things made sense finally xD

my only problem with re-playing CF is... yes, i have to kill dimitri. i know it sounds silly and stupid, but man, the angst is a lot, and faerghus is my happy videogame-place so having to beat dimitri and dedue and then go and watch fhirdiad burning... YES I AM NOT NORMAL please dont judge me 😭😭 (and thats the real reason i've never played it again lmao)

but your advice about the datamine is very good, thank you!!

despite all the angst that CF brings in my heart, it's still my second fav route of the game. so yeah, i should really check out the fedatamine so to "live" it again i wont have to kill dimitri again RIP

thank you so much for the advice and the message!! i love talking with other fe3h fans, none of my irl current friends has ever played the game and i'm lonely lol

[dayhaunts]

last night i had a dream where this guy i don’t like at my school was at this party with me. and it was him and his friends (who i dont know so my brain made them up) and my friends (who i do know) and some random people from my school. (more under cut obvs)

so anyway we’re watching this movie and he’s sitting on this bed and i’m in front of the tv because i’m using the edge of the bed to balance myself becausw im putting on shoes?? for some reason??

and then he like pushed me away and i was like oh hey!! sorry i wont be in fromt of the tv for long im just fixing my shoes :) and he was like siiigghhh. ok.

so i got on my shoes and then i went up to sit on the bed and he was like “i heard you hate me” or smth like that i cant remember the exact words and i was like yeah. i do. also whered you hear that from. because i was thinking like the only people i’ve told about my hatred for this guy are my friends so either my friends are telling him shit behind my back or hes been spying on me.

so like thirty minutes goes by and he looks over to me and hes like i dont know why youre so affected by what i do

and im like ???? IM NOT AFFECTED???? i just hate you!!!! also why would you care if i hate you we aren’t even friends and i think you hate me too???

and hes like jesus christ….. calm down….. and im like I AM CALM. YOURE JUST BEING A DOUCHEBAG 🤬🤬🤬 LETS GO RIGHT NOW AND ILL SHOW YOU HOW AFFECTED I AM

which is totally unrealistic bc i would never challenge anyone to a fight irl. bc i would lose.

so we go out of the room with the movie and suddenly we’re in like. the cafeteria of my school but its not the cafeteria bc it looks like a roman colosseum. and we start fighting!!

so i rip out some of his hair but i also lose?? sort of?? i can’t remember. and then we end up fighting in like a laser tag arena??? like with laser guns?????? and then i fell in a pool. and then i woke up.

im not sure what the moral of this dream is but maybe i should buff up in case i ever do fight that guy

[leejihoonownsmyheart]

🫨 anon if u see this we can cry together when we see that theres no brie updates😭 and pls i am not getting enougb sleep somehow im sleeping less

'#SHUA STANS ARE EITHER COMPLETELY VANILLA OR ABSOLUTE FREAKS' i think its racist to judge me based on my man💔

OKAY BUT NO PLEASE HEAR ME OUT IM NOT KINKY LIKE THE ONLY REASON WHY I READ PATHETIC OR UR FANFICS IS BECAUSE THEYRE WELL WRITTEN BUT IM NOT KINKY

like the jeonghan fanfic u made recently w anal i literally acted like it wasnt anal while reading it bc i hate anal IM NOT KINKY I JS LIKE UR FANFICS BECAUSE YOURE GOOD AT WRITING

taking bdsm quiz while writing this bc i need to prove im not kinky

94% Switch 91% Brat 75% Submissive 71% Dominant 70% Masochist 65% Experimentalist 59% Degradee 50% Vanilla 49% Degrader 47% Brat tamer 38% Sadist 36% Master/Mistress (me personally i dont like this) 35% Slave 35% Primal (Prey) 26% Primal (Hunter) 25% Owner 18% Rigger (me personally i dont like this) 9% Pet 8% Daddy/Mommy (me personally i dont like this) 8% Rope bunny (me personally i dont like this)

i didnt paste the ones i got 0 on but i dont think these are kinky 😭 im gna make irl A do this test bc i have to prove shes kinky

okay but me personally i hate the terms daddy/mommy n the master/mistress shit i js hate it AND I HATE I MEAN HATE PET SHIT LIKE PLS IDK HOW THATS EVEN ON THERE and lowk i dont like bondage so rigger and rope bunny gotta be a nono for me

`#EXPERIMENTALISM = EVENTUAL KINKY BASTARD` TRUST ME ITS ONLY BC IM OKAY W TRYING THINGS BUT I USUALLY HATE THEM AND WONT DO IT AGAIN

PLS ALSO I HAD TO EXPLAIN MY RESULTS TO MY IRL😭 shes a little slow okay so i had to explain all of them but shes taking the test rn so ill write her results down here too pls shes taking so long so this ask is taking a lot longer than it should😭 she did the longer ver and i did the short one but here it finally is

95% Submissive 76% Masochist 71% Vanilla 66% Brat 56% Rope bunny 55% Boy/Girl 51% Experimentalist 44% Primal (Prey) 27% Slave 26% Master/Mistress 24% Degradee 19% Switch 19% Pet 14% Sadist 12% Rigger 10% Degrader 8% Dominant 7% Owner 6% Daddy/Mommy 4% Primal (Hunter) 2% Ageplayer she says that she thinks masochist should be lower, shes def not an experimentalist (i think she lowk is tho) and shes 100% not ageplayer, pet, rigger, or rope bunny and i can stand w her on that bc ik fs shes none of those 4

BUT LOWK IM DEF LESS KINKIER THAN HER SO 🔥🔥

- 🤤 anon pls this ask actually took an hour to do sincde i had to take the test then wait for my irl to do the test😭

I'm glad that at the very least... You two have each other :) AND PLEASE HOW ARE YOU SLEEPING LESS!!

Call me racist for judging you based on your man and I will wear that badge with pride. I will 100% of the time judge someone based on their bias IM SORRY BUT IF THE SHOE FITS-

UH HUH OKAY SUREEEE.... I will give you the anal thing too, I used to watch hella hentai with anal and I just smiled and pretended that wasn't what it was.... So.... I get it actually BUT I STILL THINK YOU ARE KINKY

There's something that should be studied about brats... Like... There's something about wanting to defy your partner for fun... There's SOMETHING THERE AND YOU AT 91% BRAT.... I gotta say. I GOTTA SAY these days I'm thinking about bdsm charts as if they're natal charts... what's wrong with me...

SOME PARTS OF THE TEST I FEEL DON'T WORK SUPER WELL BECAUSE OKAY YES HELLO makemegetonmykneesputmeinacollarandmakemebarkandcrawl BUT I don't want to eat food out of a bowl on the floor... uh yeah i stand by that

ILL BE CHECKING BACK WITH YOU ON THIS KINKY THING IN A FEW YEARS BECAUSE WHILE THIS WON'T BE EVERYONE'S EXPERIENCE MY BFF IN HIGH SCHOOL WENT FROM VANILLA ASS RESULTS TO FULL KINKY BASTARD AFTER HER FIRST BOYFRIEND...

What I think is funniest about you telling me your results is that you FULL BLASTED YOUR FRIENDS RESULTS TO ME AND THANK YOU FOR DOING SO I FEEL LIKE I AM ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS AND WE ARE AT A SLEEPOVER AND WE'RE SHOWING TEST RESULTS HAHA

and you know what, people often judge bdsm test results by the amount of green, yellow, and red, so like people tend to see like three green thinks and everything else is yellow and red and think that person is less kinky and lowkey.... those low percentages from your friend.... kinda seeming like you are the most kinky one IM SORRY TO SAY IT.