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#without it being applicable to anything personal. but like. can u rlly just say ‘explain ur mental disorder to me’ 😭
poppyseed799 · 6 months
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My favorite pastime: roleplaying characters and just making them soso weird and then pulling up the DSM-5 to try to diagnose them
#every time it’s like ‘did I invent a fake mental disorder or are these symptoms applicable to something’#unironically it’s been pretty helpful over the years in making me more aware of all the different kinds of mental illness and such out there#oftentimes I’ll see someone say they have a disorder and I’ll think ‘I remember researching that for my OC’ lol#HONESTLY roleplaying characters with certain issues has been SO helpful in keeping me open minded#and reassuring me that I’m not a horrible person once I started to have more issues like intrusive thoughts#when my intrusive thoughts started to get bad I remembered ‘my oc has those and nobody blames him for it’ then suddenly I was better LOL#it’s so stupid I feel like ppl will say ‘that is NOT how you should be learning about this stuff’ but like idk it’s kinda been working#it’s like how representation is important except I’m making the representation myself…? so… idk. but it inspires me to do research.#anyways I’m currently stumped on one of my characters and how to diagnose him. I’m beginning to think he perhaps experiences delusions.#but I’ll have to do more research.#I haven’t even begun my research so I’m sorry if I’m totally wrong.#also I’m aware many sources might be biased against certain illnesses and such. I already faced that problem searching NPD 😭 I always take#the things I see in top results with a grain of salt. I know people will say ‘talk to ppl who have these disorders!’ but like. how do I tell#them I want to try to diagnose a fictional character that I play. I mean I guess I’m curious anyways? good to know about all this stuff even#without it being applicable to anything personal. but like. can u rlly just say ‘explain ur mental disorder to me’ 😭
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channiekyun · 6 years
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flowering//wanna one//daehwi
pairing: lee daehwi/reader genres: pure fluff, bullet point, high school au word count: 1344 summary: ‘chance happens when someone walks into a room when the other person doesn’t expect it. in this case, he walked into an empty classroom, late to the gardening club.’ a/n: i debated on jihoon or daehwi but settled on daehwi bc I feel like this fit better. and this is so SLOPPy im sorry it's been months since I wrote
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mind you, but I actually lovity LOVE wanna one’s maknae line sO MUCH
like actual unappreciated talent if i’m being real honest here
have I ever said that before
no?well shit boi here u go
you were pres of the gardening club
gardening? why you ask?
plants are the only things that you can’t kill
your math grades? dead
that souffle you tried to make? dead 
your friends? well, you see, not dead but they’re the ones trying to make sure you don’t die
people say it’s a gift, but you know they only say that bc you rlly don't have a gift
you were known around your high school as a flower girl for 2 reasons: 1) your charm +  2) your actual love for flowers and plants 
but also you were known as
wait for it,,
a freak of for nature
you were asked out more than often
and maybe too much for your liking??
like;; you would be walking and this guy would pop out of this fckn plant pot holding some flowers or somethin
like fite me m8, that’s the sixth time that’s happened this week
to top this off you were pres for the gardening club which seemed to hold more members each week, and every single time when the club meeting ended and you cleaned up there was always someone waiting to confess 
and you would lose it
but you’re kinda an asshole at the same time and “if you clean up I’ll consider it”
*evil laughter*
you’re kinda an asshole
this type of arrangement would go on for weeks until it got routine
and you got tired of it
so at the meeting, you came up to the front of the classroom filled with guys with pots of flowers 
“listen up u little shits I know most of you aren’t interested in actual plants and just me. So I’ll give you all this challenge: if you can keep these flowers without killing them, I’ll give you a chance. If the flowers die in a month, you’re out”
they can’t complain, and they wouldn’t anyway
and so you pass the plants out and you’re left to clean up by yourself again
and you’re putting some of the pots back until you felt a tap on your shoulder
you turn around and see him
woah***~
someone pls collect their boy bc if they aren’t I will
and you feel all weird and awkward for not knowing him so you just act all cold 
“Are you here to confess to me too? Because if you are, just leave please.”
and you suddenly feel all shitty saying that to him like whyyy did I do that
“Um, no. I’m asking for applications for the gardening club and I was told you were president for it.”
dammit. he also seems sweet????
‘...’
‘....;;;’
“Are you any good at gardening by chance?” you asked quizzingly
he scratched his head
“Well yeah. why else would I join the gardening club?” 
“No reason, no reason” you shook your hands
wow, someone who has some actual interest?
what a new species I discovered
“Okay, you’re hired!” you smiled at the boy. “actually, I gave an assignment to all members! you are guaranteed a stay in this club if you can keep this plant from dying!” 
*you say as you shove a flower in a pot into his hands*
“Woah, isn’t this a gardenia?” his eyes as wide as the moon
and you’re shooken off your feet
“It’s good that you know what a gardenia is. Everyone else called it a white rose.”
“What? Really? I would’ve jumped out of a window if someone called it that.”
You shared some good laughs and he even helped clean.
Apparently, his name was Lee Daehwi and his mom owned the flower shop nearby with the pretty display windows
Yeah, Daehwi set them up every morning before school
how dedicated is he???? i’m curious
You and Daehwi met up after school for the rest of the month just because
But sometimes he would just have to wait for you because a bunch of people were asking for another chance with the plants
And Daewhi would always just stand at the back while you sat at the front desk
You mouthing to him “I’m sorry” and him mouthing back “It’s fine, I can wait” is such a scene omg
Lee Daehwi is legit perfection okay
like you’re still shooken off your feet 
You would come over to the flower shop and sleepover at his house which wasn’t rlly far
Because you slept over, you had to follow daehwi to the flower shop at like 6 in the morning to set up the display window
mind you, but daewhi skipped the ENTIRE way from his house to the shop
whatta man whatta boy
You got introduced to ‘sassy LA boy daehwi™’ that morning 
like just imagine: Hearing like stomping out of nowhere and ignoring it but it was actually daehwi stomping up behind you. You really didn’t expect him to do anything but he snatched the flowers out of your hands. 
“nO No NO. (Y/N) THOSE FLOWERS DON’T LOOK AESTHETICALLY PLEASING OR GO WITH THE THEME.” ((in his friggin accent you know what accent))
“THERE WAS A THEME??!??”
what a scene eh?
sometimes you would check up on his gardenia flower which was in his room just to make sure it wasn’t going to die
and Daehwi didn’t know about this so...
sure, this may be considered cheating but you told yourself if anyone had a chance with you already it was Daehwi
a month passed and it was a Monday, there was a meeting today
you sat at the front of the room, waiting for members to come flowing through the door
but no one came
‘wait, did everyone’s plant just die or what?’ 
that thought spun through your head as you waited
You were getting ready to leave and the door opened,
to Daewhi panting
and he suddenly got confused bc it was only you and him in the room
“Am I that late for the meeting? I’m so sorry (Y/N), I had to make up a test for math and you know how much I hate maths.”
You laughed, “Yeah, it took you awhile to find the square root of 4.”
“Shut up, I even brought the gardenia here.” He showed you the gardenia
You sighed, “You’re the only one who kept it alive.”
“Wait, what?” (((that part in boomerang when he says that is my anthem now)))
And you began to explain, excluding the part that the people who keep it alive had a chance with you
“So we’re the only people in the club now?” he asked
“Everyone else’s plants died, so I guess we are.”
“Does that also mean I have a chance with you?”
and you were all like: ?????????huh??
“So you knew?”
“I heard when some of the boys in the hall talk about it, but I only heard it last week. I took better care of it this week so..” Daehwi trailed off, a light pink dust growing on his face
you found a new side of Daehwi, and it was cute
also, he just happened to confess by saying he took better care of it when he heard what the assignment was rlly for so
“Wanna go out for coffee?” He ended up asking in his scramble of words
“No, I just want to sleep over tonight.”
And, yes, you ended up sleeping over
And in the morning, you had coffee while fixing the flower shop’s display case
And this time you got to choose the theme
and you guys just had a grand ol’ time 
aw
isn’t that cute
this love was like a garden
it has never stopped flowering, just like you guys
SMALL ENDNOTES: **gardenias are actually pretty hard to maintain ****gardenias in flower language mean purity and love (aw)
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