thinking thoughts™️ again about another fic that’s way too real, and pictured eddie giving steve that understanding smile, saying , “yeah, changing the world gets a little old, doesn’t it, when the cost is your sanity.”
and steve mirrors him with a slight nod, “and when you realise you just wanna live your own life, not change everyone else’s. i feel like people shouldn’t need to take this long to realise that.”
“it’s the system, steve-o.” eddie fishes a cigarette from the pack, offering one to steve, who shakes his head with a polite smile. “people living their lives. what a rebellious thing to ask.”
steve watches him for a second, and it’s like he’s piecing together some kind of picture around him. eddie lets him; somehow he trusts steve not to get it all wrong. “you going to rehab to stick it to the man, hm?”
eddie takes a long drag of his cigarette, his eyes far away as he lets the smoke fall from his lips. “no. ‘m going to rehab because it took me too long to realise that i just wanna live my life. and because i think… because i think i’m actually ready. sounds so dumb, doesn’t it?”
“nah.” and steve sounds like he means it. eddie gets the feeling that he does. steve strikes him as someone who’s too genuine for his own good. maybe that’s his own way to keep changing the world even without that job. “sounds like you actually know what you’re talking about. that’s a good quality, you know? to get better. wanting to get better. for no one but yourself.”
“now you’re the one who sounds like he knows what he’s talking about.”
steve huffs and stuffs his hands into his pocket. “nah, man. i’m just the homeless guy who’s hot for your apartment and wants you out of the house asap so i can start my life. with your cat.”
eddie laughs as he snuffs out the cigarette beneath his boot. the keys dangle in his hand as he holds them out to steve, who looks at him, surprised.
“well, she’s yours, then.”
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If you think you’ve seen my peak insanity over analyzing canon I want you all to know that at some point before I write any of my aus I plan to go thru most wxs events/mixed events with wxs members that are on eng AGAIN specifically to make a massive google doc on everyone’s speech patterns and how they react to certain types of situations. Not to share (although I’m not opposed to it). But for myself. I’m not like this by choice either there’s just a weird fucking creature in my head that says I (& only myself) need to be as close to canon wrt personality as possible if I do serious writing or else it’s literally garbage and not worth posting. & this is normal behavior. It says nothing about any mental illnesses or syndromes I might have.
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Holy FUCK I have selective mutism
I never really let myself claim anything like that because it takes a lot to reach a point where I CAN’T talk, but it doesn’t take much at all for talking to become a struggle for me, and situations in which I have to talk for extended periods of time stress me out because, the more I talk, the harder it gets. I only recently let myself say that I go nonverbal sometimes. In presenting my thoughts to my girlfriend, she said it sounds an awful lot like selective mutism.
…what now??
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ok so idk if anyone has rlly thought of this, but for a modern au of nevermore i feel like lenore would have a mobilty aid (either a cane or wheelchair) (or even both tbh). this is just a way i imagine a way to still include lenore’s accident while still making it fit a modern setting.
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I'm sorry, but how was Seth allowed into US if they were from Russia and the cold war was still going on?
I am honestly not sure.
I had thought of the fact that the Cold War was going on, and how that would affect Seth, but I’m honestly not completely sure of the details. I can only imagine it was. Not Easy
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Which myths would you be particulary excited about working into the superfox verse
Greek myths are always a classic. I’ve already mentioned things like centaurs, harpies, sirens, and dryads. But tbh them in a modern setting has already been thoroughly explored by stories like Percy Jackson so they’re not the most exciting to explore.
I think what I’m most anticipating is Celtic folklore. It’s always been one of my favorite mythos. I kind of want to include Kelpies somehow because I love those murder horses but I’m not sure how. I just love how many of their creatures are just slightly inhuman like with the fae, leprechauns, werewolves, bodach, the dullahan, vampires, and a bunch of unique ghosts like the banshee. It would be fun to find ways to integrate them into modern society.
I think I just have a weakness for myths about tricksters
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👑for Cala?
tagging @sirotras and @i-mybrunettelady who requested the same thing, thank you!
okay all i could think of when i got these was “cala and hien get married and she wears traditional fancy clothing sometimes”
also i was indecisive on which era i should use as inspiration so i decided to be extra and made two outfits 😂
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So for some reason, I thought I would not have to do specialty-specific research to match pulm/crit, and that I could get away with exclusively having medical education scholarly projects. This was probably dumb of me, but I am nevertheless really unhappy to find out I was wrong. I just hate research man. I love science, I love digging into the literature and coming up with good questions and synthesizing information, but I hate performing analysis myself. I especially hate churning out shitty chart reviews and case reports just to pack my resume, and the thought of having to keep doing that during residency makes me wanna throw up. The vast majority of research done by physicians is utter trash (we do not have the time or training to complete meaningful research on our own most of the time!), it doesn’t improve physicians’ scientific literacy, it is just chasing prestige. I hate it. Please please let me work on a project that is actually meaningful.
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