you know disco elysium is a good game because i'm willing to play through the exact same plot and side quests and puzzles over and over and over again. not to solve a murder mystery but because i'm fascinated with trying out alternate universe versions of harry du bois
what if he was a centrist honor cop that is also an outspoken feminist that chainsmokes. what if he was a sloppy sloppy party boy drunk doing every drug he sees, and he thinks the world is going to end. what if he was a horribly bigoted fascist - how does he exist in this world with a gay partner of color, how does he reconcile his white supremacist beliefs with that of measurehead's black supremacist beliefs (which he ends up adopting)? what if he was an outspoken communist bisexual that actively hates being a police officer at every single step and is going to resign the second the game ends, and he's been sober the entire time? what if he has 1 in every skill and spends his entire time crying, throwing up, apologizing, and passing out.
and also... do any of these men know their own name? what do they prioritize, in terms of memory recall? how do they choose to dress and present themselves to the world? does he shave? why or why not?
if they all pick the same dialogue option, are they saying it and meaning it in the same way? our protagonist is not voiced. he could be sincere, sarcastic, bitter, manic, bureaucratic, empathetic.
it's such a good study in people and ideology. regardless of beliefs, all of my characters have taken bribes. they've helped the union leader. they cozy up to the ultraliberal. even the cop trying to be the most Ethical. the most Fuck The Police. ends up abusing his own power. ends up killing people. ends up stealing. invades privacy. because its what is dictated by the job. by the narrative.
when you try to be apolitical, you still do all of those things. and, in fact, if you're apolitical enough you can abandon martinaise entirely and you get assassinated by the moralintern for Knowing Too Much about the pale.
if you play a communist you still have dros at the end telling you that you're not a real communist because you haven't fought for revolution. you're a wannabe
if you play a fascist dros even tells you that you're not a real fascist because you haven't enacted enough fascist violence. you're a wannabe
if you're a liberal you're shielding the fascists
you cannot be "a good guy" in disco elysium and you cannot "win." a "good" ending is getting recruited back to the force, and you can still manage to do that if you don't drink and kim is by your side. you can be brutal and awful and violent to everyone and everything. and they let you back.
even "good cops" cannot choose to resign. you must be kicked out of the force. which you do by hurting yourself and letting others get hurt
you can only resign if you take enough Morale Damage that you abandon not just the force but the entire community. and you get a game over screen
man. this fucking game....
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I've been struggling so much to write lately, I'm pretty sure it's because of some family drama that's been causing stress the past few weeks. About to go no-contact with some nosy ass cousins who can't mind their own fucking business and are trying to trash talk me to other family now.
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I forgot how fun it is to just go on dates
Had a great dinner, got all touchy at a show. Heard some ghost stories. Made out in this guys truck and then he walked me in and I told him I only wanted to makeout and he was like Omg yeah of course? And then we made out for literally 2 hours lmao I got the pg 13 evening of my dreamz
He’s 6’5 and I had to stand on my tippy toes and also HE PICKED ME UP wtf like i was sitting on top of him and he grabbed me around my ass and literally lifted me up????? I am a big bitch like I’m 5’10 and I’ve never felt so little it ruled hahahahaha
fun second date with him. Goodnight
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