#writing tiems

[unskilledpoint]

u should stop appropiating mental illness with this blog... its not cute. ur probably just some edgy white 12 year old who calls themselves "depressed" and posts gacha life edits on youtube with a channel name like Depressingeditzxoxo. its literally disgusting how u treat depression like an aesthetic and character trait. be better and make better characters. u know i could literally ruin u, my blog has 50 followers which is probably more than whatever this dinky little roleplay thing is. i could make a callout post on u rn but i wont bc im trying to be nice here. im giving u a second chance. dont wast it.

[inf3ct3dd]

me getting a oneshot idea w a full plot

[ineffablymanic]

imma join the "crowley's not gonna be a miserable cunt" bandwagon.

It's fun to meme about the Last 15 Minutes as the ineffable divorce, but they're both smarter than that. They both know they love each other, they've both indirectly confessed to one another. Even if during their last moments there were tons of misunderstandings in their "talk" when they just spoke towards one another instead of listening to what the other one had to say. And they for sure hurt each other in the process.

Sure, in the series Crowley mourns his dead best friend drunk in a bar, but the scene was supposed to originally happen in the St. James Park. This time, Aziraphale isn't dead, he's just gone upstairs. Crowley might despise his reasoning, but I think he'd connect the dots and understand them, even if he condemns them. Hell still wants its war that Aziraphale started. Crowley knows the Second Coming is underway from his infiltration into Heaven.

Crowley's precious, peaceful, fragile existence he/they carved out for himself/them is gone. I dunno am I gonna be the only one thinking this, but I think it’s a good thing! Crowley didn’t seem to be too happy with his current state, tired of living in his car, questioning the meaning to it all to Shax. Series!Crowley has been running all this time, he’s been living in a limbo and something needed to happen for him to wake up from his stupor. I think S3 is going to force both Aziraphale and Crowley to mature to the beings they were in the book. Aziraphale was So Done with Heaven. Crowley was an optimist.

If there was one rock-hard certainty that had sustained him through the bad times— he thought briefly of the fourteenth century— then it was utter surety that he would come out on top; that the universe would look after him.

Crowley's lived amongst humans for 6000 years and he's seen the shit they live through time and time again. He's gone local. Families lost to war/plague/other horror, diseases riddling their fragile bodies, misfortune after misfortune can pour down on these miserable creatures... and they somehow always get up and live on. They hope. They've got no choice but to. They heal, they'll remarry, get more kids. They'll love again and again. Their love isn't vanquished. Grief is, after all, love's natural continuation.

Even if it’s always Too Late, he has to stop running and start trying. And hoping. That’s the human way. That’s the Us way.

So no, I don’t think Crowley’s gonna waste time being sad. What Crowley's gonna be is MAD. Mad at Heaven (maybe a teensy bit mad at Aziraphale but that's besides the point) for their schemes. He'd love to get away from it all, but now that the other half of his group has been dragged back into the shitshow, I think he's going to start scheming on his own. Planning how to save his angel, the other half of his group, yet again.

[reshramlove1ob]

"Your dream knight in shining armor is just that, a dream. It's time to let him go."

[faarkas]

WIP CHOICE AWARDS

i was tagged by @nuclearstorms and @morvaris ty both so much!! <3 tagging @vilkaas @malefiicarum @eviefrie @cptcassian @faerune @necroticpetals @ladyshar @swordcoasts @halsin @setaflow @jillvalentinesday @reaperkiller and anyone else who wants to do this!! rules: make a 24-hour poll with (the names of) your wips, let it run, then write one sentence for every vote the winner received!

[zuzusexytiems]

lmao this was so self indulgent but have a little something from a future OOML chapter

[rhymezoneyes]

and it drove him mad. the thought of it alone made his breathing hitch and his skin itch. no, crawl. all at once, no controlling it. all he was, was because of her. it's no wonder all she ever did was run, it's what she'd been doing before she could remember.

and all she was, well there's no denying, it was because of him. a lifetime ago, sure, but him nonetheless. back when he was a proper time lady. its sickening, really.

she was nothing more than a pet. a faithful and loyal companion to the one who ran. a human. that's all she was, that's all he'd planned for. a clever, hopeful one, easily compulsed to save all of her lives, over and over. and all because he'd given them a proper push back then. a push that was hard enough to cause his oldest friend to kill himself for the duration of half the universe's existence. all for a human.

but she was much more than that now. all that time, all that space, all that life and the lack of a-

heartbeat.

it'd be a damned mistake to call her a human anymore.

no.

she was more than that, and she's lived longer than he could possibly assume. a product of his own actions and she's just as strong as he was. just as mad. just as reckless and just as hopeless.

she was truly an impossible girl.

and he was nothing, if not tempted, to see just how impossible she could be.

[bunnygirl678]

brb gonna go cuddle in bed with the girls and reread my own fics

when i say i self-indulgent i mean self indulgent

[commanderfreddy]

i never remember to explain shit anymore i just vaguepost and expect people to catch up but i finally have good news, we've made a lot of progress with my parents' estate (they both ran their own businesses and you know those images of nightmare cable management? well imagine that with bank accounts) and i actually have money now - im taking a trip to Aotearoa NZ with my mate Jules next week (dark sky reserve! lotr filming locations! snow! FOOD!) and then in august i will be moving to nyc to pursue a 2 year masters degree in library science with a focus on rare materials archival studies!! shits happening in my life!! im not just sitting in my house doing nothing all day!! and like i said i have money!! if you're taking commissions lmk bc while im focused on my getaway for the next few weeks i wanna support my friends and their art and when i get back i wanna throw u cash to draw my ocs!!

[nostalgia-tblr]

when i finish the Sylki Adultery AU thing THEN i shall allow myself actually make a start on the Loki-rules-Jotunheim AU, where my goal is to top 10k words in a fic that doesn't have even a single baby in it.

[tallbluelady]

11. - heartbeat

"Pray indulge me once more, beloved," Urianger said, resting his ear on Rowan's stomach.

He could practically hear her eyes roll as she said, "You know they're fine, darling. Nothing's changed since the last time you checked yesterday."

But as she made no move to stop him, Urianger closed his eyes and focused on the aether of the loved ones next to him. His wife's strong and soothing aether filled most of his senses, but he found the heartbeats of the twins fluttering in the sea of their mother's. From what he had learned as a healer, they were healthy and growing. There were touches of his aether that made his heart swell to see, and above that they were growing more and more distinct from each other.

Urianger rose back to the physical world feeling Rowan's fingers in his hair. He kissed her stomach before moving back to lay next to her.

"How are they?" she asked softly.

"Same as ever - wondrous, glorious, growing." He kissed her cheek. "The sight rendereth me to awe of thee."

Rowan chuckled. "Darling, most women have the capacity for carrying children."

"Aye, that fact remaineth true, but thou art the only woman carrying mine. I can find nary a word to express my gratitude to thee."

"I couldn't imagine carrying any other's, love."

Thanks for the prompt!

[cootcutebatkat]

The Memory Gun and How Memory Works on a Physical Level

I'm an undergrad psychology major.

I talked about something that was bothering me with my Cognitive Psychology professor yesterday who also teaches how the brain works on a physical level (I wanna call it neurology but that feels incorrect).

I was wondering how memory works since our brain is just a bunch of neuron cells firing off electrical signals. The more you use a part of the brain, the more electricity there is in that area. It becomes a highway.

When you're not using that part, there's no electricity and it's essentially "dead." Now, I don't know how big that part is, but I'm certain it's situational.

But generally speaking, your brain is always active, always alive. It's constantly firing off electrical pulses, always on the go, because it has to.

As for memories, they're not physical files. They're just the result of a bunch of neuron cells creating paths between them, firing off all at once to reconstruct a memory. People typically think of "episodic" memories, but memory can be applied to about anything, such as knowing what a dog is, what the word looks like, how it sounds, what counts as a dog, what they sound like, how to move your arm, how to eat, anything!

So why did Fiddleford and Stanley regain their memories? They reconstructed them, but how?

When you remember something, it's like a puzzle. You put it together in a matter of seconds (neurons creating paths) and when you don't remember them, you disassemble the puzzle. This happens over and over every time you remember something. That's why it's easy to create "false" memories, especially if you have nothing to argue with the falsehood.

(personally, though I acknowledge that false memories are real and happen all the time, it's also important to remember that reconstructed memories can be real with sufficient evidence from other memories of ANY kind. This statement applies to trauma and dissociation the most.)

So how does the memory gun work? Cartoon laws can overcome anything, even the laws of physics! But it's fun to think about they could work in real life.

WARNING: JUST BECAUSE IT COULD BE BUILT DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULD!! THERE IS A REASON WHY THE BOARD OF ETHICS EXISTS!!!

Okay, now that we got that out of the way, how would it work??? Well, it's already established that it fires off electricity towards the brain, so that's handy. Electric circuits in the brain is nothing new. Look at Mary Shelley's Frankenstein! (Good book :3)

For the gun to work properly, you pick out some letters and spell out a word. The computer inside the gun (Fiddleford's computer-majigs!!) interprets the letters as an actual word, probably through a dictionary, and locates different parts of the brain that holds the associations of that word. With the electricity, it blocks the neurons from sending/receiving electrical inputs.

If it doesn't block, it still needs to redirect the electric signals to other parts of the brain. Either way, those old parts are essentially dead, no longer used, and will stay that way if the person avoids associations of the old memory.

HOWEVER!! Memories can be reconstructed, remember?? (Hehe remember)

And for reconstruction, I'm assuming that the blockage, if that's how it works, is temporary, just enough to force some rewiring. So the pathways can be reused!

Another thing about memories, Fidds, and Stan, and you know what? Frankenstein too! This post is also about identity!

Identity and memory tend to go hand-in-hand. Memories are like an identity's building blocks. With no memory, no identity!

And with a dead brain without any sort of electrical signals helping each other, it's a blank canvas. That's why Frankenstein's monster acted a like a giant baby. The old brain, though it's possible to have a specific construction, some form of Neurodivergency that can influence paths of the brain, the old brain is dead. The monster is a brand new person!

For Fidds, he rewired his brain CONSTANTLY! For how long? Who knows, but it's gotta be years! But as we've seen, it wasn't healthy. Not to mention, the effects of electricity on yourself.

But it's how he went from Fiddleford McGucket to Old Man McGucket. But thanks to the memory tubes (how THOSE work is a mystery to me. Cartoons, amirite?), and probably through other sources of information, he went back to being Fiddleford again!

And that's also how Stan became Stan again! Especially since when Ford erased him, he chose the words "Stan Pines," blasting away all associations of himself from his mind.

"But he also erased his identity, right? Which is the culmination of memories?" Well, not all of your memories are about you, are they? And certainly not with Stan, who had to change identities!

But Ford probably had the same idea about memory and identity, which is why he chose Stan Pines as the association. It's the whole of him, so it'll also erase the whole of Bill.

But even so, Stan was still able to reconstruct his memories, starting with simple things that aren't entirely related to him. Hell, we saw that was still "Stan" since he woke up after the erasing. His reaction to Mabel? His reaction to the chair? His tendency for jokes?

He didn't really act like a baby, did he? He just acted confused, but also friendly, curious, and laid-back. Pretty Stan-like if you ask me.

Maybe not all of the synapses in his brain were firing. Maybe they had to recreate memories that may even feel off. But he was able to become Stan again.

(also, this kinda supports the theory of Bill coming back in some lesser form, doesn't it? I wasn't onboard with it for a while, but this changes things for me)

[wolfcamellias]

I love the character analysis sm,, like I very loudly had a weird noise erupt from me out of pure happiness from reading. You amaze me with the character analysis and I will be re-reading it again

[happy excited noises]

[sleephearts]

n . new theme incoming....? mayb????? ; w ;

[astrumocs]

seifer would be woobified but in the way that removes his trauma and very very capable fighting skills and also the fact that he was a former fleet soldier

I forgot to answer these yesterday when u sent them bc I deleted the meme and didn't think to look in my ask box dshjfksgadfj

But yeah his competent fleet background would be forgotten except by people trying to prove he sucked and you shouldn't like him

and ppl would otherwise probably treat him as a pathetic baby tbh,

[relicghost]

I'm semi around, I have been super sleby and not finished my stuff, but if anyone wants to plot hmu in the IMs or sumthin'.