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stinkrascal · 1 year

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humans in fantasy worlds can be so special bc they are always the most bland in comparison witj other fantasy racds but dammit they keep going anyways !!!!

okay yeah thats fair! but then i raise you this question, how do you have fun pointy ears if you play as a human :(

#jade answers #anonymous #you can't! that's the cruel part #therefore i'll never play as a human in any game unless it forces me #i've never played a human character in dai and i have almost 500 hours in that game ha #i think that's why i dislike da2 so much. bc it forces me to be a human. tbh i dislike da2 for a lot of reasons actually #i am always so shocked when people say that one is their favorite bc that game is objectively the worst one in the da series #i literally beat da2 in two days. i think my playthrough was maybe 40 hours long lmfao that is NOTHING!#my first dao gameplay took me 100 HOURS TO COMPLETE!!!!! dao has soooooo much to do in it!#da2 i hate you so much i wish you were good so bad but you're just not. UGH anyways i went on a tangent sorry i just hate that game

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stil-lindigo · 3 months

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PALESTINIAN FAMILY FORCED TO RESTART FUNDRAISING - PLEASE DONATE!

PROGRESS: £520 / £35,000

a little while ago, I was contacted by Amal Abushaban, a Palestinian mother of 5, for help regarding her Gofundme campaign.

In summary, after spending months raising over $13,000 for her family, she attempted to withdraw the money. She did everything right, she answered Gofundme's questions, she provided the details of her beneficiary and she contacted their support team - only to be left in the dark until an email came one day, notifying her that her campaign had been closed and all donations were now in the process of being refunded.

I tried kicking up a major fuss about it online, as well as trying to pester Gofundme Support on my own account, but all it did was send me in circles as I desperately pleaded for the Gofundme Support person I was assigned to at least re-instate the damn fund. Even worse, Amal got her first email today about refunds going through.

Regrettably, Amal is being forced to start over completely in her fundraising efforts. Her beneficiary has started this Paypal fund for her. Please donate and share!

PROGRESS: £520 / £35,000

#with my whole chest. fuck gofundme #the way that their support page has a pre-made response encouraging people to donate to ukraine #while theyre actively sabotaging palestinian gofundmes and intentionally cancelling them or holding up funds for banal reasons #fuck you to fucking hell #the hypocrisy is astounding #or do a genocided people only deserve support when theyre white #the way that i know for a fact this has happened MULTIPLE TIMES BEFORE #fuck gofundme and their zionist bullshit asses #sucking up to genocidal entity of the US. fucking cowards.#the one place where palestinians might gain a semblance of hope for escape and even they fail them.#please donate to amal. i really can't imagine this kind of desperation #the worst part of it is that there isnt even a workable alternative #they know they hold all the power here and they use it to be unimaginably cruel #palestine #free palestine #free gaza #donations #free west bank #fundraiser

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child-of-hurin · 1 year

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Part of what charms and compels me in Jeyne Poole's arc is her reaction to her predicament. All the female POVs in this book are dealing with a lot of gendered violence, and they all deal in different but dignified forms... Jeyne is not a POV character and she is absolutely not dignified lol. She cries and begs, she is utterly helpless. But unlike most women in this book who are utterly helpless, she survives. It's frustrating how fans refuse to celebrate that, simply because there is no glory in it.

#Sometimes I wonder if that's part of why fandom is so uncharitable towards her #like if she had some self-sacrificing sense of dignity maybe people would like her more... if she were resourceful or proud #boo!#she's perfect #i also think the absurd notion of arya 'mercy killing' her stems from this too? tbh #like - you think this woman is too pathetic to live? that even if she escaped bluebeard's castle her life is better over?#people will call grrm a grimdark author but this shit you see in fandom is 100000% more cruel than anything this man wrote #her pain is too real to her for games of honor to hold any meaning! she tears the veil she ruins the veneer #she has no noble bearing no honor no ambition no wolf no lover no knight she will not rise from this taller and wiser #none of the ways in which she'll change will be for the better and her pain will only reward her with more pain - the pain is worthless!#here is a child-bride suffering and nothing about that suffering can be made beautiful or meaningful- besides her escape #which theon instantly romanticizes.... what a moment #we flew!#i can't wait to read about her again #jeyne poole

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greenerteacups · 9 days

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Hi GT,

Forgive me if this is a stupid question, but I absolutely love the recs you've given (you've introduced me to tomione, and I love it!) and I was wondering if it's possible to give you some recs in return? There are some books and fics that definitely have dramione / got vibes, and I was wondering if I could share them with you!

So glad you've enjoyed them! Feel free to rec me anything you want. I've read most of the classic recs in terms of fic and adjacent content (Cruel Prince et al), but I'll try anything that's well-written. My tastes run towards weird and/or audaciously creative stuff, and I can forgive a lot of weaknesses in plot on the grounds of (1) ambition or (2) character work. My turnoffs are instalove, protagonists who can't fail, and most Y/A (I'm not a hater, I swear, I just need characters who can say "fuck" when their leg gets chopped off.)

I'm also a fan of weird and fucked-up dynamics.(Wuthering Heights was my favorite book for a while, and as a teenager I wrote an AU in which the book ends on a long sex scene where Heathcliff fucks Cathy's ghost and then immediately gets murdered by Catherine 2.) Obviously, I am very normal.

#greenteacup asks #my beef with Y/A is mostly expressed in a dissonance between tone and content #LOVE the content. dystopia fantasy horror sex and blood — awesome. but question. why are they all saying 'darn'?#like in the vampire diaries where they'll watch people get eaten and then 2 episodes later be like 'omg SCHOOL DANCE'#(EDIT: actually in fairness. on the vampire diaries. it was mostly just caroline that did that. unfair example my apologies)#& i distinguish this critique from a common bitch-and-moan complaint about tv shows being interested in 'girly' things #like relationships and social standing. that is not my complaint. that shit is delicious. i will chomp that shit for days #my issue is that when the stakes oscillate wildly from episode to episode and i can't tell what the main thing is #like sorry. a story with murder in it is always going to be about murder. you can't make it not about murder #unfortunately! many have tried.#and in general i have difficulty reading about teenagers bc—#(she says having written 600k words about them OKAY I KNOW. i contain multitudes.)#because they're either mini-adults (preferred flavor. jude in the cruel prince nails this) or like leetol babies to me #and unless it's something like the hunger games where the Leetol Baby thing is part of the story #i'm like. hang on. you're 12 what are you doing here #percy jackson was hard for me to re-read as an adult for this reason #which is why they're enjoyable for teenagers! because as a teenager you DO feel like an adult #and you like reading books that treat you like one! nothing wrong with that! healthy even!#only then you get past the teenage years (mashallah) and you get stuff like twilight #where of COURSE bella doesn't think twice about 117 year old man falling in love with her #because he looks like a rich mysterious 17-year-old hottie #but you reread it later and it's like um well. that. could be explored a little more maybe.#i'm not even necessarily opposed to it. candidly. still team edward. i just think the dynamic should be more fucked up and juicy.#which Y/A authors are often reluctant to do. like. COWARDS! face the nasty consequences of your narrative decisions!#anyhow. you didn't ask for any of this. please give me your recs lovely person you seem very nice.

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mayasaura · 2 years

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I just want to talk about the nursery being painted and the purpose of the Tomb to be without a door. Anastasia had a family - and putting to the side the pact with Alecto there's some implicit symbolism to John asking for the workers of the Ninth to die constructing the Tomb with that image of new life. (Still can't articulate my disbelief that he went and didn't think that asking Anastasia of all people, The one who lost her cavalier to him, would have problems)

Yeah. Especially finding this out about the Ninth, where nurseries becoming tombs is a thing we're sensitive about.

On one level we've always known Anastasia had a family. Like, we know she's Harrow's direct ancestor. You can't be heir to the line of someone who never had children. But the nursery.... Yeah. It really hammers it in. Her friends painted a nursery mint green for her children.

And now it's a tomb.

#that's what the Anastasian is now after all #you're right there's really Something there #I've noticed something in John I think ties into this thematically that I really hope Kiriona is going to help us explore #John doesn't believe in a future #I said in my last Anastasia meta that Anastasia outsmarted John by making herself immortal in a way he couldn't understand #she left behind something she created to outlast her #John hasn't built anything to outlast himself and he doesn't think of the future at all #he mourns the past and fights like hell to live in an eternal present where nothing ever ends #you know #immortality #and a part of that—maybe most of that—is about despair #even way back before the world ended even before he had magic powers he didn't think of a future #I think he couldn't imagine one #and like. I get it dude #don't imagine the future and maybe it can't hurt you #how many people have you heard saying they don't want children because it seems cruel or irresponsible #they can't imagine forcing someone to live in the world they see coming #climate anxiety is fucking everywhere and for a lot of people in our generation—John's generation—it's coalesced into despair #but Anastasia did imagine a future #she had a family #and now John has a daughter but he still can't imagine a future for her #she's just as dead and eternal as the world he loved so deeply he killed it rather than watch it die #what did Gideon say when she saw the First? it had the look of a picked-over body but hot damn what a beautiful corpse #that's gonna be you baby girl #the final expression of the art of the nine houses #John gave up on hope ages ago #so it doesn't really surprise me at all that he still asked the builders to die in the tomb #the locked tomb #ntn spoilers #nona the ninth

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buttercupshands · 4 months

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wait a minute

stop.

stop it.

#bnha #bnha manga spoilers #mha spoilers #mha 423 #I didn't hate this chapter before that #but now I am #because this is just cruel level of REMEMBER THIS?????#yes. I do remember this. I rewatched and reread this arc VERY recently #so... he killed Kurogiri with a punch like the one he did in USJ and again to save Izuku #I don't care honestly.#I reread this chapter and I cried again bc I REALLY refused to believe that Kurogiri died then #but he did with a death words to Shirakumo's friends and recall of old chapters #even if people want Tenko alive I doubt that Kurogiri will ever materialize again #and I'm deadly serious when I say that this is the worst part of this chapter #I worried for Kurogiri's existence ever since it was revealed that Shirakumo is in there #but that literally took FIVE YEARS TO APPEAR AGAIN HAVING AN IMPORTANT ROLE #and he left while crumbling just like Tomura's body before Katsuki hit him #and the last thing he thought about was about protecting Tomura even though he was partly Shirakumo's dead corpse appearing more and more #even Mic now understood that it's really is him in a way ending his arc from back in Tartarus with Aizawa #and you know what's worse??? TOMURA KNOWS THIS #the way he used “...........” with Kurogiri's name while the page literally showed his black smoke disappearing was heartbreaking before #it's worse now #like... okay he's dying too and he doesn't even know if spinner is ALIVE or not and he saw Kurogiri disappear #all while protecting him from harm one last time #AND WE STILL HAVE NO FUCKING FLASHBACKS OF HIS TIME WITH TOMURA OUTSIDE OF WHAT WE HAD IN MANGA #I'm getting more and more furious by the minute HAHA #I need to find that one sketch I did way back in 2019 with them after spoilers of Kurogiri in Tartarus #I NEED SOMETHING LIKE THAT NOW AND I CAN'T DRAW #I want to just curl up and cry myself to sleep like a 13 y.o that found out the bird that she looked after died while she was sleeping #kurogiri

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jewishvitya · 16 days

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חודש אלול. מה שאומר שנראה אנשים יום אחד מסיתים לרצח עם וחוגגים כי ילדים מתים בעזה, וביום הבא עושים תשליך ומתפללים עבור מחילה.

מנחם אותי לדעת שעל עבירות שבין האדם לחברו יום כיפור לא מכפר.

#riki babbles #God can't offer you forgiveness for harm you caused another person #no matter how much you pray #how much you try to open your cruel heart to the sound of the Shofar #how perfectly you fast on Yom Kippur #everyone who found joy in Palestinian suffering and took part in the violence #none of it will do you any good

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yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit · 24 days

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Of my 2% capacity to be attracted to anyone, my type is like 90% women, 5% pretty men and 5% men you would swear are super fucking manly, and never questioned being straight and cis, but are now suddenly *stressed* that they can't figure out why their attraction to me [fully socially interpreted as a woman and labelled that way up until relatively recently] feels incredibly fucking gay

#you are a straight man correct? Yes. Attracted to someone you view as a woman correct? Yes... But you are afraid that makes you gay?#Afraid is a strong word but also stop asking stupid questions #The end result is I tend to date a lot of men who either then realize they are women or bi or gay and I am there when they are taking out #the messiest parts of that on whoever they are with at the time #and on one hand it means I created a space that made them feel safe enough to self examine #but on the other hand I'm their last stop when the fallout hits #OR they just realize they find the expectations put on them for masculinity to be really oppressive even negligent or abusive #I would say I need to adjust my strategy and stop trying to 'woo' men the same way I don't actually -flirt- with women #but I have already solved this problem by refusing to date ever again #The retrospective is funny though #The problem is I am attracted to men in a gay way and to women in a gay way but no one tells you the consequence of that and looking #like a pretty butch is that it really confuses the straight guys #Like why is this guy who's usually hmmm... as dom and masc as you would imagine suddenly in my lap and red and having entire feelings #about the way I am holding his hip? He doesn't knoww either and he's really pressed about it #And that thing messy lesbians do where they act jealous of you and also like they want to fuck you at the same time that looks like a red #flag from hell? Imagine dragging that out of unsuspecting straight guys -menTM-#They don't know why they are acting like that around me either but it's going to go one of two ways #either it will seem overtly threatening and aggressive to everyone involved including themselves or they'll have enough social sense #and tact to be playful about it but still not be sure if they are flirting or whether they like me at all #I have patience for one of those and unfortunately[?] it's the guy who's in my lap looks like he's being tortured and can't find his footin #not the guy telling me how much he's going to beat my ass at some game and I am going to like it or some macho bullshit #And I will be oblivious for the first 50% of it #because if there are gods they are cruel #He never realized he's actually the little spoon be nice and give him a minute #He can't tell me he likes me if he doesn't know he likes me but I opened a jar for him and asked him about his feelings and now he's warm #I actually ended up never dating many women at all because of weird lesbian mixed signals and things #At least not while they were women #I don't flirt or make friends I just decide that people are mine and start taking care of them [while respecting their autonomy and shit]#and I am starting to think this is how I make problems for myself #yes I am playing 5-d chess with gender and am now a he/they but it is not what it is cracked up to be

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shannonsketches · 3 months

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lays on the floor do you guys ever think about how in ResF Bulma falls for Vegeta's fake-out with Freeza and both she and Yamcha are worried about Vegeta's villain fake-out strategy in Champa and Beerus' mini tournament and how it's only been a couple of years since the Buu saga and how Vegeta straight up stopped using that strategy after that tournament

#i do #do you think he noticed it upset her twice in a row and was like 'oh I haven't earned the trust back yet i'll retire this strat'#'it's fun to scare people but i do not like my wife being scared we can put this one up on the shelf for emergencies only'#because like bulma can consciously trust him and I'm sure she does but one can still have The Fear if you've seen your spouse relapse befor #And he probably thinks it's very amusing but it is also almost certainly very not funny for her no matter how much she trusts him #and the next arc is Trunks and she's so worried about the way he left she ignored the PDA rules and squished him when she saw him alive #Because Geets determination can be self destructive when it comes to Bulma and Trunks and he killed himself to protect them once before #and knowing how connected they've been for so long some part of her probably Knew he would opt to stay behind and die like he was going to #And I love the idea that between those two events and all of the things Trunks tells him about Bulma during the GB arc Geets has to really #really be confronted with how loved he is -- and it's not that he wasn't aware before but knowing she even missed him at his worst #and loved him maybe even before she was pregnant -- means the cruel part of his mind can't make excuses for why she stayed with him #I also like to think that being confronted with the idea that Bulma is still scared for him getting his worst wires tripped #wouldn't be offensive to him. Knowing he's still got work to do if his wife is worried about those things happening to him again #is just proof that she loves him with his flaws and was still thinking about it and supporting his recovery when he didn't #even notice he was recovering -- which has always been true of her -- and now he has the chance to support her recovery in return #and being in a place where he can still put that work in to make her feel secure in his priorities is a privilege and a gift #and man I just really like how casually comfortably close they are in Super's manga I love them a lot they worked so hard #to make each other feel safe and secure for the past decade+ that it's Easy for them both now and they're SUCH a confident couple #and I am once again shaking the anime by the shoulders WHY didn't you give us that they are SO the team's Mom and Dad in the manga #until Goku riles Vegeta up -- then Piccolo is the team Dad. Bc Piccolo is the team Grandpa aksjda The Z-Fighter's locker room judge #dbtag #vegebul #putting the whole essay in the tags again oops #happy pride i am gay for a whole married couple

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lemurblog · 3 months

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The irony being Crimson would have left in the morning if Julien HAD married her. girl does not give a single fuk about being queen either. sure she enjoyed the perks, but in a "is it that sweet? i guess so" way

#5am crimson thots #i say this as someone who initially thought crimson wanted to be queen!#bc why did she want to marry him after ditching every other bf right?#but the more we learn about crimson #i see too much proof she could not give less of shit about being anyone's queen #i always knew she was dating kj to get clover's goat but what's so funny and weird is that's really ALL there is to it #the ONLY thing that made julien different from her other bfs (before the wedding fiasco)#is that clover liked him.#(the fact that clover has to be the target of crimson's most toxic brainworms yet can't talk about it #bc crimson pretends the insanity is not happening while making silent 'i know YOU know' faces at her the whole time #... SICK!)#and the horrendous irony that kj created new worse problems by choosing not to compromise himself any longer #life is cruel.... :(#part of why she gets obsessed w kj is she was unable to complete her pattern / close the loop #txt #lemur thoughts #crimson #crimju #crimclo

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crabussy · 1 year

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I want to take a bite out of someone's arm but I'm too shy

#it's ok to reblog this post and ignore the rant in the tags I don't mind at all /gen #hi guys #got another load of trauma from school #and I am not dealing with it well at all my legs have been shaking so badly for 4 hours now #had a panic attack so bad that my face went numb and the edges of my vision went black and my legs gave way #I hate my teacher she's horrible god I can't even go into it here there's so much #I'm tired of getting abused at school I've been to half a dozen schools and have not gotten traumatised at ONLY ONE OF THEM #I have no adults I can go to about this #whenever I try to talk with her and the head teacher about the situation and why I'm fucking terrified of her she acts so patient and kind #whenever I'm alone with her she will yell at me about everything I'm doing wrong and continue yelling even when I'm in tears #she will berate me and put me down and insult me directly #when she gives feedback she always puts effort into making it hurt #the language she uses for negative feedback is never what a teacher should say it's always personal and uses your weaknesses to hurt you #I get really bad intrusive thoughts about her hurting me physically because of how terrified I am of her #the worst part is she acts nice and sweet whenever she's not picking apart my weaknesses and being cruel about my disabilities #I felt so sick after that I haven't eaten since #vent tw #trauma tw #listen to my gibberish boy #ggod I hate this school

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slumbergoblin · 2 years

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Mock comic panel my beloved

#pmatga #my art #pac #betrayus #timelapse #this is also what I was working on yesterday along with all the doodles I posted :)#and no I didn't have dialogue in my head for this! I just made speech bubbles and called it a day! :')#coloring this took 2 hours but I don't remember how long the actual panel part took because It wasn't it's own separate thing #could I tell you why Pac is running through one of the Nether cities? maybe #am I going to? no <3 #(I only say no because I barely have an idea ready for this^^;;)#there are several things I could have done better in this but hey! that's for me to remember next time!#hopefully #I lied the only main thing I have for this in my head is that Pac gives hope to the ghosts living in the Ghost City #he saves an elderly ghost from being eaten by a Gargoyle that was sent in by this more (financially) powerful ghost lady #because that higher up-in-the-ranks ghost lady is this nasty. greedy. and cruel woman who torments those who live below her #and since this City is on the outskirts of Betrayus's land #Betrayus can't just waltz in and go “Stop right there!"#Ghost Rulers can't meddle in the affairs of other territories that don't belong to them #h o w e v e r. that's where Pac comes in to play #which. it was not in Betrayus's plan to get involved in city stuff but Pac said otherwise #it's everywhere but maybe I'll try to write it all out #I just need to friggin figure out *why* Betrayus is taking Pac to this ghost city in the first place >:/

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medicinemane · 18 days

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Honestly a lot of the time, it's not even about people having to agree with me, it's about needing to know that they actually heard and listened to what I had to say even if it didn't persuade them

Just... some basic indication that there's enough respect to give a shit about what I said, and also to make sure that they disagree because they actually disagree and not cause they just didn't bother listening

It's all I really ask

#I forgot what this was about part way through writing about it; but then I remembered it's about Ukraine #like I just need to know that you actually understand what's happening there and what people are going through #you want me to care about your thing? show me you have any any any grasp of what's going on in Ukraine #it's uh... it's too many friends where if I'm just honest... this is about them #people I adore but people where... I don't know if they ever even once listen to what I have to say #...though maybe it's better this way... at least if they just ignore me I can say they just don't understand what's going on #that they're just being fed lines by other people or don't care #...if... they... knew the shit Ukrainians go through and still didn't care... would be a lot harder to respect them #would take a certain level of callous to do that and... these are people I care about very much so #...but I don't know; eats at me... you know #...and even on less serious topics... boy I wish you'd ever listen to me #if it weren't for the fact you say you like me... I'd be pretty damn sure you can't fucking stand me and I do nothing but annoy you #...I don't know if you've... ever... listened to anything I've said on any subject #when you do; you usually correct me... even though; brilliant as you are... you're erm... not always right #I don't get it... I don't get you... every word I say seems to be wrong... I'm so stupid and you're so smart #and yet you get real upset when I want to die... so you must actually like me and our communication styles don't match up #thank god you never seem to read my tags... or... much of anything else I say #truthfully I'd follow you anywhere; and you can treat me any way you want #but man I don't think my thoughts or opinions matter to you even a little... I think I just exist to be your rubber duck #...that's how it feels anyway #but all that aside... just wish you'd listen to me on Ukraine cause it actually matters #this post started out about some other people too... and sure... I like them well enough; and they're maddeningly wrong #like sputnik levels or wrong #drives me nuts; like you're not stupid and you're not cruel so why do you act so stupid and cruel?... turn you brain on #but uh... I actually just don't care about them that much #where as you... I could put it into words... but I won't #it's just a shame... like forget any of the stuff about me; it's just you're so kind... wish you'd care about what's going on in Ukraine #...I gotta stop or I'll go on all night; and I'm already too tired #mm tag so i can find things later

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nobodieshero-main · 1 year

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playing around with one of the final scenes, not because i'm anywhere close to it but bc i enjoy exploring the idea of Keika not just losing a bit of himself, but actively giving it up just because Atlas asked it of him.

#especially knowing that this moment is one that haunts atlas for the rest of his life #he's not thinking of the long term consequences in the moment #he's just thinking that something needs to be done and he can't do it anymore #and cecily can't do it because she's trying to keep atlas from dying #and ahria can't do it because she's trying to keep ALL OF THEM from dying #so the natural conclusion was to ask keika. because someone had to do it and why not pit the most powerful of them against the dragon??#never mind the fact that keika has never taken a life with his own hands. never mind the fact that keika has only ever killed in defence.#but later. when it's quiet and keika is gone and atlas is at home in his childhood bed he will wallow in his self-loathing #for having done something so cruel to the man he loves. for having made his last moments /torment/#for having sent him to his death #and then when he finds out keika is alive? alive and changed beyond measure? it's worse because he still killed him didn't he?#AND THEN HE DOES IT AGAIN-#but yeah a probably-not-that-subtle part of keika's character is his habit of living for other people?#like. if he loves you enough all you have to do is call and he'd drop everything to be there #it's not that he's a pushover or can't live just for himself (he's a selfish person) it's just. to him it's the simplest thing in the world #to give what he can when the right people ask it of him.#anyway #the library keeper #snippets

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nightacquainted · 2 months

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Fan video for the episode "Arabesque" from the 80s TV show Beauty and the Beast

#beauty and the beast 80s #{this video shows some important parts of the ep and the description the poster wrote is useful for those who haven't seen it at all}#{this episode was one of the rougher ones for me for sure}#{because there are no two ways about it... vincent definitely assaulted lisa}#{and it was so out of character for him but it also fit so well with these instincts he sometimes can't control}#{this was one of those times where you couldn't quite feel as sorry for him as you wanted to because... nah dude what you did was wrong}#{but at the same time it was such a deviance from his normal behavior}#{and lisa's behavior was odd as well}#{she seemed to like vincent's attention and to keep him interested but didn't have the same feelings for him and kept him at arm's length}#{which was kindof cruel to keep stringing him along}#{then she came back years later as if nothing had happened and everything was the same between them while he's actively keeping distance}#{i honestly found that as uncomfortable as what he did to her}#{lisa was a weird chick for me i dunno heh}#{but regardless... the way vincent internalized this incident and let it define him as a person for so many years was heartbreaking}#{the way he steps back away from lisa in that one scene starting at 2:24... ugh my heart... he's trying so hard not to repeat his past}#{i love that healing moment when he's finally telling catherine about this shame he's held for years}#{and she responds with no fear and no judgement... just encouragement and love... kissing his hands that he feels can give only pain}#{and she says “these are *my* hands” as she holds his in hers... MY HEART}#{an emotional rollercoaster this ep was heh}

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shopcat · 2 months

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grain of salt but the ppl who act like the actual act of disliking something about your OWN transition is morally wrong bc it puts it on Other Trans People who have those things too are so annoyinggg like we are all big enough to say hey your experience in life is unique and your gender identity and self expression is your own even if it fits into a certain label you are not the same as every other person under that label and you all have different wants and needs and likes and dislikes and insecurities and euphorias and etc. and we can be big enough to say Hey don't project your own personal dysphoria onto others through misplaced jealousy but the very second someone actually goes hey i dislike this part of being on hrt suddenly they're ungrateful cunts who don't deserve to be on it + transphobic + hate all trans people with those features. GET A GRIP oh i'm tired... ppl r so ridiculous it drives me crazy

#and the grain of salt is there's a difference between personally sharing your own feelings about something to do with YOURSELF #or insecurities or worries abojt something you're UNSURE OF. and being outright cruel / nasty / actually transphobic / implying something #is actually bad or you shouldn't want it #like yeah what comes to mind rn is when everyone was crying about bottom growth but guess what man 😭 some ppl can not like it #it's not moral... u can't be like treat everybody and every Body with respect and then turn around and be like no not you though #like i did see people being rude but i also saw a lot of people especially young people just expressing incredibly valid worries or doubts #people can feel however the fuck they want to feel about their own bodies. it doesn't escape me that a vast majority of ppl who were being #cruel and blanketly condemning everyone in the other direction ALLLLL expressed that they have bottom dysphoria too #like okay since when has someone else's dysphoria supposed to impact literallt anyone else #also with something like this it feels EXTRA cruel on both ''sides'' bc like. it's not just a random change #it's an intimate part of your body that i'm sure we all have some sort of complicated feeling over at some point or another. not to mention #victims of csa/sa having a complicated relationship w sexuality to begin with #ughhh i just wish people had more compassion all round 😑😑#and then like yeah obviously you can't just sweepingly condemn a normal part of what t can do #and not to be tmi but people SOOO totally spread misinfo a lot too bc like sure i had it but it's also nothing #i noticed bc it's on my fucking Me but literally no one else would or have or could bc everyone is FUCKING DIFFERENTT #and another thing i was ACTUALLY thinking of is dude i HATE my facial hair #i don't want it at all i think it looks stupid i hate the physical sensation of it i don't like shaving i don't like any of it #it acruallt drives me crazy. that doesn't mean ppl who want facial hair are suddenly invalid or i'm rubbing it in their face or smth #😑😑😑 it's all just sooo ...#minors dni

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