#you go i go ugh I’m like it’s literally them

[bigtreefest]

Ugh, mini rant about work so it’s going below the cut

You ever feel like coworkers put you down because idk, maybe they’re jealous? Intimidated? I just feel like at work, no one really knows me. And it’s fine, because tbh, I don’t want them to. But like, everyone around here is so odd.

My bosses think I can take on a thousand things at once, but also think I’m never doing anything.

My coworkers think they’re the only ones with crazy schedules.

And people who have more education than me (aka pharmacist coworker) think that I’m spacey?

Like, sorry my concentration was in inorganic chemistry, not radioactivity. You’ve literally been in this field for half my life!! How dare you think I’m not smart because this is all new to me and I’m learning.

And then I essentially get accused of not learning because I don’t pay attention by another coworker. She’s asking me to take over a responsibility she’s shown me twice in the multiple months I’ve been here. And it’s everyone in the lab’s responsibility, so why isn’t she asking anyone else in the lab to help!?!?

This all really just made me peeved yesterday to the point I cried the more I thought about it. Like, I know a lot, but this is literally so far off what I’ve learned. Haven’t I proven my wide breadth of knowledge from cooking to entertainment, to general trivia!? Well, no, I guess, because no one bothers to ask me or talk to me. No one knows about my life, the things I did growing up. It just sucks sometimes.

Ps. I was there for ELEVEN HOURS yesterday. No one really knows. No one really cares or sees what I do. Like, I’m not asking for overwhelming praise, just some sort of acknowledgment that I’m having to make something when it wasn’t all handed to me like some other coworkers. I really wish I had friends around here. Truly in Misery.

[i-have-two-dogs]

Y’all. This song is SO Dina coded. I can’t stop thinking about it. Please someone agree with me.

I found a reason to wake up

Coffee in my cup, start a new day

Wish we could do this forever

And never remember mistakes that we make

I told you I loved you when we were just friends

You kept me waiting and I hated you then

Gave it a few years, you settled your debts

But I never got over the secrets I kept

It all works out in the end

Wherever you go, that's where I am

Boulders turn into sand

Wherever you go, that's where I am

Now when I wait in your doorway

Covered in flowers, I think of her

The woman that you once dated

I couldn't relate to her glitter and furs

Who were you then, and who is she now?

Did she know we were together, somehow?

You never touched me, but I felt you everywhere

It all works out in the end

Wherever you go, that's where I am

Even boulders turn into sand

Wherever you go, that's where I am

That's where I am

That's where I am

No, I'll never find another

No one else can do it better

When we're together, it feels like heaven

You're the only one I ever wanted

All I ever really wanted was you

No, I'll never find another

No one else can do it better

When we're together, it feels like heaven

You're the only one I ever wanted

All I ever really wanted was you

It all works out in the end

Wherever you go, that's where I am

Even boulders turn into sand

Wherever you go, that's where I am

That's where I am

You're the only one I ever wanted

All I ever really wanted was you (that's where I am)

You're the only one I ever wanted

All I ever really wanted was you (that's where I am)

You're the only one I ever wanted

All I ever really wanted was you (that's where I am)

You're the only one I ever wanted

All I ever really wanted was you (that's where I am)

[cinnamonsly]

i don’t think there is anything worse in this entire world than desperately clinging onto a hyperfixation you’ve had forever that you know is slowly fading away from you

[alluralater]

super long rant incoming:

the joegoldbergification is super weird. like please please if you’re obsessed with me to an unhealthy and dangerous degree, just keep it to yourself. just don’t tell me, please. the amount of times someone has gotten like this with me and escalated things when i’ve told them to stop is seriously wild. and like wtf is this about saying how you didn’t want to have parasocial interactions like hello?? is my existence a performance to you? am i content created to be fed and consumed by you? and why WHY would you ever think it’s alright to take my kindness as an avenue to then start talking shit about femmes you had falling outs with?? what do you gain from that? certainly not respect from me and that’s why i called you out repeatedly on that shit. so so fucking weird. do you think you gain my pity or my sympathy?? you’re not a beaten dog so please stop. like oh my god the dog metaphor makes me wanna slam my head into a wall. like as someone who has literally been forced to watch animal cruelty take place, shut the fuck up. shut the hell up. your relationship ended and now you wanna demonize people and rewrite history thinking that if certain people don’t know the full story that they’ll just believe you. legitimately how the fuck and why the fuck would i do that when you position yourself as a blameless victim?? it’s so weird and odd. and on top of aaaaaall of that, to obsessively text me and try to like corral me into a corner and say all of this weird stuff like as if you’re spiraling about me when we’d only texted for three days (two of which i wasn’t even responding to you for) is seriously bonkers. like seriously thank fuck something told me not to sext you because i just know things would have gotten awful. it’s not normal and it’s not okay and it’s not healthy. please stop idolizing me. i’m just a person and i am no more interesting than the next person. your obsession is not my responsibility! to try and manipulate me with the way you talk about your ex is super super weird. like extremely weird. i have a mind of my own?? hello?? i make my own judgments myself and i use intuition for a great deal of that. took me all of five seconds after blocking you to check the femme discord and see that i should have already done so but i haven’t because i’ve been busy with family emergencies for like two months. very uncool. very weird, very strange behavior. not my job, not my problem. i am not all of these weird deified titles you like to call me. i don’t have to be ‘omnipotent’ to know that you are trying to bury her and scream your lungs out into the fucking grave as if she deserves it. god i fucking hate when people do this shit. like can toxic mutuals maybe just instead leave me alone?? ‘why are you mutuals with them if they’re toxic” BECAUSE I DIDNT KNOW AND I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO BE SOCIAL AND FIND OUT UNTIL NOW. like fuck dude i hate it here sometimes. if you’re just haha obsessed with me, GREAT. but please don’t start dumping all this weird shit about how i *make* you feel when im not doing anything and i’ve stated that im not encouraging anything and ive communicated that’s a you thing. i literally told you to focus on yourself and stop talking shit about her and you just kept doing it. the whole obsessed with me thing can be what it is, at this point it’s so normal irl and on here that i’m too exhausted to try and do it all, but the decision to keep going and keep talking shit about her and demonizing them and making yourself a blameless victim is fucking gross and no i actually won’t just sit there and listen to it in exchange for your attention or some weird shit like that. i find it super super weird your constant asking of me to tell you what i think about you and what i think about ANYTHING and everything about you. what the actual fuck?? and then to be like ‘i want to take accountability’ after i’ve already told you everything you’re doing wrong and locked my boundaries and said how uncomfortable i am?? that’s hilarious. anyways ugh okay that’s it bye

[lyssa-ohno]

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[raeofgayshine]

Kind of fucked up they’re making a new natm movie and just

Not including Ahkmenrah in it.

Like at all, not even in the lazy way two included him just in the intro.

He’s just

Not there

Even though the tablet, His Tablet, is there and is literally essential to the entire plot of the movie (as it is every movie and yet Ahk never gets the love and development he deserves but anyway)

They just decided to cut him out completely this time as far as the trailer shows??? Which like, what the fuck my dude.

They continue to rob of us of the excellent comedy of putting Ahk and Kah in the same movie and frankly I’m sick of it

[lucysweatslove]

I don’t know what I expected today, but I most definitely did not expect to be told, in Russian, that I deserve to die by strangulation bc I’m not “fulfilling my destiny” by choosing not to have kids.

[ookaookaooka]

i LOVE first contact with aliens stories, seriously it’s one of my favorite tropes, but authors writing it really need to understand that there’s no writing it without engaging with the colonial history behind it whether you intend to or not, and if your story is about humans settling on another planet you’re gonna look stupid if you don’t

[aceofstars16]

Ugh, I am trying not to think about stuff cause it’s not *that* big of a deal but I’m also like…I should’ve just drawn on a bigger canvas, but there were no directions on how big of a canvas to use so I just decided to go with square cause I thought that would work best…😑

[dashiellqvverty]

would love to try fallout 4 sometime for the sole reason that it’s set in boston. even tho it im not even that familiar with boston i’m like omgggg massachusetts 💖💖💖 however i was only able to play fnv because of a mod that replaces all the insects with other monsters and there is no mod for fallout 4 that replaced EVERY bug

[lesbiansanemi]

I need to Get Out of the Midwest. I think it’s draining me of all life and energy like some kind of regional soul-sucking vampire

[starlit-roses-ships]

don’t you love it when you just burst into tears in front of someone and basically have an anxiety attack over something that is not even a big deal in the slightest 🙃🙃🙃

[itsdelicate]

if i go out with my parents and i get separated it’s next to impossible to find them again unless i bump into them because neither of them looks at their phone?? 😭

[enigma-the-anomaly]

So I’m just not allowed to have single happy moment huh? Not even for a fucking second?

[mrburnsnuclearpussy]

[floral-hex]

lol as soon as I match with someone on tinder, I delete the app because I’m a scaredy cat and don’t want to go through the mortifying ordeal of being known 😅