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satoru hates hates hates condoms so much ever since you both agreed to stop using them. he can't stand the idea of wearing one while inside of you, it makes his heart hurt so bad.
key words: wearing one while inside of you
he never said that he wouldn't wear one while not inside you...so that's how he finds himself in this position, his arms tied behind his back as he sits on the edge of the bed, eyes rolled back as tears and drool drip down his face.
you're sitting behind him, your front pressed against his back while your chin is hooked over his shoulder. one hand is resting on his chest, rubbing soothing circles into his skin while your other hand is working his cock, cooing into his ear. a condom was on his dick, the tip slowly filling with cum as he shot another thick load into the latex.
"such a good boy, toruuu, you're filling it up so fast, who knew you had s' much cum in you, baby!"
he just whines as another thick spurt fills the condom, the amount of cum weighing it down, slowly causing the condom to pull off his cock. "'s-'s gonna fall off, baby," he tries to warn you, his hips bucking in overstimulation.
"yeah? y' better catch it, torubaby. don't want it to spill all over the ground, right? then you'd have to lick all of your cum up like a lil' slut," you coo into his ear, knowing he could easily get out of the pretty pink ribbon you tied around his arms, wanting him to look pretty instead of feeling completely trapped.
but he doesn't, he doesn't move, doesn't snap the bindings off, no, he just throws his head back at the thought of you pressing his face into the puddle of his cum and making him lick it up as you praise him for doing such a good job of being his own cumslut.
"ooh, toru...you came too hard, baby, it fell off...poor baby, need a lil' break before you clean up for me?"
#yeah i dont have an excuse for this#gojo satoru x reader#gojo smut#gojo satoru smut#gojo x reader#đ ââ satoru.#ËËË â
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keeping score â˝ mingyu x reader.
hating mingyu is easy. seeing him in any other light takes work, and youâre tired of trying to figure that out.
â˝ uni soccer player!mingyu x reader. â˝ word count: 20.4k â˝ genre: alternate universe: non-idol, alternate universe: university. romance, light angst. offshoot of @xinganhao's soccer team!hhu verse. â˝ includes: mentions of food, alcohol consumption. cussing/swearing. frenemies to ???, looots of bickering, slowburn, pining!! yearning!! tension, idiots in love, feelings realization/denial. reader is a fashion major, mingyu is a goalkeeper. hhu ensemble (mingyuâs soccer teammates). other idols make a cameo. â˝ footnotes: this entire piece of workâ all 20k words of itâ is dedicated to @maplegyu. this couple is our magnum opus, and i owe so much of this vision to her; i can only hope iâve done them justice. my favorite gyuldaengie! iyong iyo âto. ily. <3 đľ the official keeping score s01 playlist.
⸠S01E01: THE ONE WITH THE MONTHLY FAMILY LUNCH.Â
The bane of your existence arrives like clockwork every month, complete with a three-course meal, polite conversation, and the insufferable presence of Kim fucking Mingyu.
You love the Kims. Really, you do.Â
His mother is an absolute angel, his father tells the best stories, and his sister is one of the few people in this world you can actually stand. But Mingyu?
Mingyu is a menace. A thorn in your side. A perpetual migraine dressed in a soccer jersey and an overinflated ego.
And yet, because your families are close, youâve had the misfortune of growing up with him. There has never been a time in your life when he wasnât there wreaking havoc, getting on your nerves, making these monthly lunches a test of patience and endurance.
You barely step through the Kimsâ front door before he spots you, and the smirk that spreads across his face already has you bracing for impact.
âYou spend all your money on clothes, donât you?â Mingyu drawls, gaze sweeping over your carefully chosen outfit. This monthâs best attempt at dressing to impress. âDo you ever buy anything useful, or is it just fabric and brand names at this point?â
You flash him a saccharine smile, one wide enough to make your cheeks hurt. âI would ask if you ever spend money on anything besides soccer cleats, but then I rememberedââ You snap your fingers. âYou donât. Trust fund baby, right? Still trying to deserve that, Kim?â
He clutches his chest dramatically, as if wounded. âLow blow.â
You step past him, muttering, âNot low enough.â
The act drops at the dining table, of course. Because despite the mutual irritation that fuels your every interaction, you both have the social awareness to play nice in front of your parents.Â
Mingyu is seated next to you, and it takes every ounce of willpower not to roll your eyes when he oh-so-helpfully pulls a serving dish closer. To himself, obviously.
âLet me guess,â you say, resting your chin on your hand. âYouâre carb-loading for a game?â
Mingyu, mid-scoop of mashed potatoes, doesnât even blink. âNah, just loading up so I donât wither away listening to you talk about⌠what was it last time? The âpsychological complexity of lipstick shadesâ?â
His mother lets out a dramatic sigh, though thereâs no real dismay behind it. âMingyu, be nice.â
âI am nice,â he says easily, flashing his mother an innocent smile before turning back to you, tone all too sweet. âAnd personally, I think youâre more of a soft pink girl than a red one.â
Itâs a direct dig at your choice of makeup for the day. You know heâs just speaking out of his ass; he doesnât know the first thing about shades, and red is definitely your color. You take a slow sip of your drink before matching his tone. âThatâs funny. I was just about to say youâre more of a benchwarmer than a starter.â
His father chuckles, far too used to this by now. âOh, come on,â he chuckles. âYou two have known each other since you were in diapers. When will you stop with the little jabs?â
âMaybe theyâll finally get along,â your mother says amusedly, ânow that theyâre graduating.âÂ
You and Mingyu exchange a look, one perfectly in sync despite how much you loathe the idea of ever being on the same wavelength.
Nose scrunch. Head shake.
Not in this lifetime.
There was a timeâ brief, fleeting, and foolishâ when you thought you might actually be friends with Mingyu.
You mustâve been, what, eight? Nine? Young enough to still believe that people could change overnight, that rivalries were just a phase, that some friendships took time to bloom.
Back then, it was silly competitions: Who could swing higher at the playground, who could run faster in the backyard, who could stack the tallest tower of Lego before the other knocked it over. It was childish, harmless, even fun at timesâ until you saw his real colors.
And now, over a decade later, nothing has changed.
He still finds new and inventive ways to drive you up the wall.Â
Case in point: Your familiesâ traditional group photo.
You donât know why you still expect him to behave. You shouldâve known better.
Just as the camera shutter is about to go off, you feel something tickle the back of your neck. You tense immediately, but itâs too late. Mingyu, standing behind you, has flicked the ribbon of your dress like an annoying schoolboy pulling on a pigtail.
You whirl around, shooting him a sharp glare.
âDonât,â you warn through gritted teeth.
He gives you a wide, infuriatingly innocent grin. âDonât what?â
You turn back, forcing a pleasant smile for the next shot. And yetâ there it is again. A slight tug, barely noticeable, but just enough to let you know heâs doing it on purpose.
The camera clicks.
This time, you whip around so fast he actually takes half a step back.
âI swear to God, Kim Mingyuââ
âKids,â your mother calls, barely looking up from her phone. âLet it go.â
âWeâre not kids,â you shoot back.
Mingyu nudges your side with his elbow, leaning down ever so slightly to murmur, âYouâre right. Weâre adults now. Which means you can use your words instead of glaring at me like youâre trying to set me on fire with your mind.â
You retaliate by elbowing him in the ribs. He squeaks and begins to whine to his mother.Â
There is no universe in which you and Mingyu will ever get along. No amount of family lunches, no shared childhood history, no forced photo ops can change that.
And youâre perfectly fine with that.
⸠S01E02: THE ONE WITH SOCCER PRACTICE.Â
Mingyu is having a good practice sessionâ until Seungcheol ruins it.
âYo, loverboy,â the team captain calls out, grinning as he jogs up beside him. âYouâve got an audience today.â
Mingyu frowns, breath still heavy from his last sprint across the field. âHuh?â
Seungcheol subtly tilts his head towards the stands.
And there you areâ looking as out of place as a flamingo in a snowstorm.
Youâre sitting as far from the field as possible, like being too close might infect you with âsportsâ. Your arms are crossed, your pink-clad form nearly swallowed by the ridiculous sun hat and oversized sunglasses shielding you from the very concept of nature. A frilly umbrella is propped up beside you, even though there isnât a single drop of rain in sight.
The sheer disgruntlement on your face is almost impressive.
Mingyu groans. âOh, come on.â
âWhoâs that?â Vernon asks casually, appearing beside Mingyu and Seungcheol like a curious puppy. Heâs the newest, youngest guy on the team, so he canât be blamed for knowing the semi-constant fixture in Mingyuâs life.Â
Wonwoo, stretching nearby, lets out a knowing hum. âThat,â he responds, âis Mingyuâs one true love.â
Vernon blinks. âOh.âÂ
Seungcheol laughs, slinging an arm around Mingyuâs shoulders in a way that always ticked the latter off. âThe love of his life. His childhood sweetheart. The Juliet to his Romeo,â the older boy sing-songs.Â
Mingyu scowls. âShut up.â
Vernon looks at you again. The way your expression barely changes as you sip from an offensively fuschia thermos makes him squint in confusion.
âShe doesnât seem too happy to be here,â the youngest notes, and Mingyu holds back the urge to snort.Â
Youâre fidgeting now, glaring at a single blade of grass thatâs found its way onto your lap, as if deeply offended by its existence. Heâs half-tempted to dump an entire barrel of dried leaves on you, just to see you screech.Â
For now, though, Mingyu settles with shoving Seungcheolâs arm off him. âYou guys are so annoying,â Mingyu grumbles.Â
Wonwoo pushes his glasses further up his face. âWeâre just stating facts.â
âTheyâre not facts,â Mingyu snaps. âAnd sheâs not here because of me. Trust me, if she had any choice, sheâd be anywhere but here.â
Vernon looks between Mingyu and you again, then back at Mingyu. ââŚSo?âÂ
âSo, what?â
The younger player shrugs. âWhy is she here?â
Mingyu rolls his eyes. âSheâs waiting for me.â
Seungcheol lets out a dramatic gasp. âOh? Waiting for you? Just how deeply are you entangled with this woman, Kim Mingyu?â
Itâs a story that Seungcheol and Wonwoo already know. Mingyu knows theyâre just being difficult for the hell of it, trying to goad him into reacting. He focuses on indulging Vernon, knowing the longer he avoids it, the longer heâll be picked on.Â
âI owe her family,â Mingyu says through his teeth. âItâs not some stupid love storyâ her parents basically helped raise me when mine were busy working. You think I want to drive her places? I donât. But my mom guilt-trips me into it every time.â
Seungcheol and Wonwoo share an unimpressed look.
âUh-huh,â Wonwoo says. âPoor you. Forced to chauffeur a beautiful girl around in your nice car. Sounds awful.â
Mingyu fights the urge to sulk. âIt is. Sheâs unbearable.âÂ
âShe seems pretty quiet,â Vernon grunts as he adjusts his cleats.Â
âThatâs because sheâs sulking.â Mingyu isnât sure why, but once the explanation starts, it just keeps going. âNormally, she never shuts upâalways going on about useless crap, complaining about things normal people donât even think about. Like, oh no, her new nail set doesnât match the vibe of her outfit, or God forbid a restaurant uses the wrong kind of parmesan.â
He realizes heâs said too much when he notices Wonwoo fighting back a smirk, and Seungcheol biting the inside of his cheek. The latter pushes it further with a drawl of, âSo, what Iâm hearing is⌠you listen to her. A lot.â
Mingyu groans, rubbing his temples. He really had to learn how to keep his mouth shut. âNo, I suffer through her,â he insists. âThereâs a difference.â
Wonwoo folds his arms. âYou know, itâs funny. You talk all this smack, but I donât think Iâve ever heard her rant about you.â
âThatâs just because sheâs stuck-up. Always has been,â scoffs Mingyu.Â
His mind flashes back to childhoodâ when he was seven and you were six, and you turned your nose up at his scraped knees, saying, Only boys who donât know how to run properly get hurt like that.
When he was ten and you were nine, and you refused to eat a slice of pizza at his birthday party because you only liked the fancy kind with real mozzarella, not whatever that was.Â
When he was fifteen and you were fourteen, and he caught you scoffing at his old sneakers, telling your mom some people just have no concept of âaesthetics.â
And yet, despite everything, your families had always forced you together.
Mingyu was never given the option to just avoid you. Your parents and his were practically inseparable, and since childhood, heâs had to deal with your high standards and exasperated sighs and perpetual disapproval over whatever nonsense you deemed worth being mad about that day.
âI promise you, sheâs the worst,â Mingyu mutters, stretching his arms behind his head.
Vernon, still watching you, tilts his head. âSo, what does she think of you?â
That oneâs easy.Â
âShe hates me,â Mingyu says simply. Like itâs a fact. The sun is warm, the sky is blue, and you hate Kim Mingyu.Â
Seungcheol grins, his smile a little too sharp and knowing for Mingyuâs liking. âOh, well. At least thatâs mutual, right?â
Mingyu doesnât answer, but he does glance back at you just in time to see you struggling to shove your umbrella back into its case. You catch his eye and stick your tongue out at him, the act so childish that Mingyu can only roll his eyes and flip you off.Â
The feeling was most definitely mutual.Â
The practice goes as usualâ drills, passing exercises, a scrimmage where Mingyu manages to nutmeg Wonwoo (which earns him a half-hearted shove after the play). By the time theyâre finishing up with cool-down stretches, the sun is dipping low in the sky, casting the field in warm golds and oranges.
Mingyu runs a hand through his sweat-dampened hair and chugs the last of his water bottle before chucking it at Seungcheolâs back. âCaptain,â he calls mockingly, âwe done?â
Seungcheol catches the bottle before it can hit him. âYeah, yeah. Go, be free.â
Mingyu doesnât need to be told twice. He grabs his bag from the bench and jogs off the field, presumably heading toward you, who is still seated cross-armed, looking thoroughly unimpressed with the entire practice.
The three boys watch the interaction from a distance. Mingyu says something; you scowl. He nudges your knee with his foot; you swat at him.
Wonwoo rolls his shoulders. âYou think todayâs the day?â
Seungcheol lets out a low chuckle, shaking his head. âNot yet. Give it another few months.â
Vernon furrows his brows. âWhat?â
âThe bet,â Wonwoo says simply.Â
Vernon blinks. âWhat bet?â
âWeâve had a running bet for years about how long itâll take those two to get together,â supplies Seungcheol.Â
Vernon looks between them, then at you and Mingyu again. The two of you now seem to be engaged in some sort of bickering match. Mingyu pulls at the edge of your pink cardigan, and you swat his hand away with increasing irritation.
How long itâll take the two of you to get together?Â
âYou guys are insane,â Vernon says flatly.
Wonwoo snorts. âTell me something I donât know.â
âI mean, look at them.â Vernon gestures vaguely in your direction. At this point, youâre looking like youâre five seconds away from pouncing Mingyu. âThey hate each other.â
Seungcheol and Wonwoo do it again. That shared look, that quiet understanding.Â
âLook again,â the team captain urges, and Vernon does.Â
He watches as Mingyu steps back, laughingly avoiding your physical assault. Youâ despite your obvious frustrationâ fight a smile before rolling your eyes.
Thereâs something there. Some spark of familiarity, of knowing each other too well, of a connection that might just be a little too deep for pure hatred.
Huh.Â
A beat. And then Vernon digs through his pocket and procures a couple of loose bills.Â
âBefore the year ends,â he declares, making Seungcheol and Wonwoo chuckle.Â
⸠S01E03: THE ONE WITH THE JANKY ELEVATOR.Â
You donât know why you always end up here.
Actually, no. You do know why. Because your parents insist you wait at Mingyuâs place whenever theyâre running late to pick you up, since apparently his apartment is safer than a cafĂŠ or a mall. Nevermind that the biggest threat to your wellbeing is standing right beside you, scrolling through his phone with a self-satisfied smirk.
âWas a functioning lift too much to ask for when you were looking for apartments?â you say, eyeing the rickety metal doors of his apartment buildingâs elevators.Â
Mingyu doesnât even look up. âOh, sorry, princess. Next time, Iâll make sure to move into a high-rise penthouse with gold-plated buttons just for you.â
You make a noise of disgust, jabbing at the button with unnecessary force. âAs if Iâd ever step foot in your place again after today.â
âYou say that every time.â
You open your mouth for a comeback, but the elevator doors groan open just then. The lights flicker ominously. Thereâs a suspicious stain on the corner of the floor. You step in with a sigh, Mingyu following behind you.
The doors shut. The elevator lurches upwards with a wheeze.
âYou know,â Mingyu says, âif you hate coming here so much, you could always just Uber home.â
âOh, believe me, if I didnât have to be here, I wouldnât. But my mom insists youâreââ You pause, making air quotes, âââtrustworthy.ââ
He smiles like heâs some God-given gift. âI am trustworthy.â
âYou once stole my fries in front of my face and claimed I was hallucinating.â
âOkay, butââ
Before he can finish, the elevator gives a violent jolt.
And then everything goes black.
For a moment, thereâs silence. Just the quiet hum of the emergency light kicking in, the faint creak of metal settling.
Then, Mingyu takes a sharp inhale.
âUh.â His voice is suddenly tight. âNo. Nope. No way.â
You blink, eyes adjusting to the dim lighting. âOh, great,â you grumble. âFantastic. This is what I get for stepping into this death trap of a building.â
âI thinkâ I think I need to sit down,â Mingyu mutters, lowering himself to the floor.
You huff. âBe so for real right now, you lumbering idiot.â
But then you actually look at him.
The usual cocky tilt of his head is gone. His fingers are gripping the fabric of his joggers, his breathing coming in short, uneven bursts. His eyes are darting around the elevator, as if checking for an exit that isnât there.
Oh.
Oh.
Heâs genuinely scared.
A new, unfamiliar kind of concern settles in your chest. âWait,â you say, kneeling beside him. âYouâre not actuallyââ
âI justââ Mingyu gulps. âI hate elevators. And small spaces. And, you know, the whole getting stuck thing.â
And then it clicks.
You remember being kids, when the power went out at the Kimâs summer house during a thunderstorm. You remember little Mingyu, barely taller than you, sitting stiffly on the couch with his knees pulled to his chest, tryingâ and failingâ not to let his fear show. You remember the way his face twisted when the room was swallowed by darkness, how his mother had to light candles and sit beside him until the power returned.
He never admitted he was scared, of course. Mingyu never admitted anything.
But you knew.
Looking at him nowâ his face pale, his jaw tightâ you realize some things donât change.
Without thinking, you place a hand on his arm. âHey. Breathe, okay? Itâs fine.â
Mingyu exhales shakily. âI am breathing.â
âYeah, like a terrified chihuahua,â you mutter. âDeep breaths. In through your nose, out through your mouth.â
He gives you a look, squinting at you through the darkness, but he obeys. Inhale, exhale.
You squeeze his arm. âSee? Not so bad.â
He closes his eyes, focusing on his breathing. You sit beside him, fingers still on his arm, grounding him. After a few beats, his breathing evens out. His shoulders relax.Â
â⌠Donât tell anyone,â he finally says, voice barely above a whisper.
âOh, Iâm definitely telling the team.â
âI will murder you.â
An unbidden laugh escapes you. You nudge his knee with yours. âSee? Youâre fine.â
âStill hate this,â Mingyu exhales, rubbing his face.Â
âYou are kind of pathetic.â
âYeah, yeah.â He leans back against the wall. Then, like it pains him to say it, he adds, âThanks, though.â
You roll your eyes, but you donât remove your hand from his arm.
With a sudden jolt, the elevator whirs back to life. The overhead lights flicker before settling into a steady glow, and the quiet hum of movement returns beneath your feet.
Mingyu exhales the biggest sigh of relief youâve ever heard. âOh, thank God.â
Heâs on his feet before the doors have even fully opened, practically leaping into the hallway like heâs just escaped certain death. You follow him with a disbelieving huff.Â
It isnât until youâre several paces into the hallway that you realize youâre still holding onto him.Â
Your fingers are curled around his forearm, right where theyâd been when you were calming him down. Mingyu, ever the opportunist, notices right before you can subtly let go.
He tilts his head. âAww, you care about me,â he coos, but thereâs a hint of something in his tone. You think it might be genuine appreciation; youâre not about to dwell on it, though.Â
âShut up,â you snipe. You want to shove him back in the elevator and see just how cocky he can be when it crashes out again.Â
âAdmit it,â he sing-songs, trailing after you toward his apartment. âYou were worried about me.â
âI was trapped in an elevator. I was worried about myself.â
âUh-huh. Sure.â
You choose not to dignify him with a response, striding ahead until you reach his door. Mingyu unlocks it with a beep, stepping aside to let you in.
As soon as you enter, you do what you always doâ make yourself at home. You toe off your shoes, toss your bag onto his couch, and march straight to his kitchen. The years of forced proximity have made this something as good as a routine.Â
âYou got anything to eat?â you ask. The question is rhetorical; youâre already prepared to rob him of whatever he has in his pantry.
Mingyu scoffs as he kicks off his sneakers. âThis is not a restaurant.â
âClearly,â you huff, swinging open his fridge. The contents are bleak. A few eggs, a half-empty carton of orange juice, a suspiciously old container of takeout, and at least three protein shakes.
You make a face. âBe serious.â
He sprawls onto the couch. âWhat?â
âYou live like a caveman.â You shut the fridge with an exasperated sigh, turning to scan the apartment. Your gaze lands on a new decorative shelf against the wall, filled with an assortment of mismatched trinkets. Theyâre all atrocious and generic.Â
Youâre inclined to tease him that itâs why heâs bitchless, this sheer lack of consideration for aesthetics. You reel that in, though, opting instead for a lighter, âSince when did you care about home decor?â
Mingyu props his feet on the coffee table. âItâs called having taste,â he shoots back.Â
âYou donât have taste.â
âExcuse youââ
âThis,â you gesture at the shelf, âis ugly.â
Mingyu grabs the nearest throw pillow and chucks it at you.
You barely dodge it. It whizzes past your head, and once again, you think this is exactly one of those things you shouldâve expected from Mingyu. Heâs immature, and obnoxious, and unbelievably rude.Â
âDid you justââ youâre gaping, but then another pillow flies your way.Â
You snatch it out of the air, and then you catch the way heâs already scrambling for another âweaponâ. âYou are such a child!â you screech, except youâre not above retaliation.Â
What follows is a semi-violent pillow war that neither of you are willing to concede. Itâs ridiculous, and loud, and it feels exactly like every argument youâve ever had with him. Full of unnecessary dramatics and zero real malice.
Just like that, the moment in the elevatorâ the quiet, vulnerable, human side of him youâd glimpsedâ disappears into the back of your mind. A moment of weakness, never to happen again.
Because Kim Mingyu is still the same as heâs always been.
⸠S01E04: THE ONE WITH THE NIGHT OUT.Â
Mingyu swears heâs going to kill you.Â
Heâs probably made that threat dozens of times in the past years, but tonight, heâs fairly sure heâll actually do it.Â
He should be in bed right now, getting some much-needed shut-eye for tomorrowâs game. Itâs the type of do-or-die match where scouts will be in the audience, after all, and while Mingyu doesnât really give two damns about going pro, he wouldnât mind the validation.
Alas, instead of being in his bed, heâs stuck in traffic en route to wherever the hell youâve gone drinking tonight.Â
If it had just been you that asked to be picked up, Mingyu wouldâve ended the call without question. Probably would have told you to get off his case and book a cab yourself.Â
But itâs your mother whoâs asking, who has entrusted your safety and well-being in Mingyuâs allegedly capable hands. Heâs not about to turn down the woman who practically helped raise him.Â
Disgruntled, Mingyu pulls into the parking lot of where you said youâd be drinking. Some swanky club with thumping music and neon lights.Â
âSo help me, God,â Mingyu grumbles underneath his breath as he stomps out of his car and toward the establishment. When the bouncer charges him an entrance feeâ an entrance fee!â Mingyuâs urge to cause you bodily harm only triples. He coughs up the fee and marches into the club, fully prepared to give you grief for this little stunt.Â
The club is alive, full of sweaty bodies pressing against each other and questionable house remixes that everyone is pretending to like. Itâs an assault on the senses, and Mingyu absolutely loathes it.
He wasnât about to act holier-than-thou. Heâs had his fair share of drinking escapades, had even been to this very club himself once or twice. Still, itâs different when youâre ready for a night out and when youâve been forced out of your restful evening because of a person you can barely even consider a friend.Â
It takes him all of three minutes to find you.Â
Take away the history, the tension, and fine. Mingyu would willingly admit: Youâre gorgeous. Sometimes. When you tried.Â
Itâs more than the sinfully short dress, more than the ankle-length boots that no one else would pull off. Itâs that laugh of yours, so bright and open and loud as you let one of your friends twirl you around on the dance floor. The sound reaches Mingyu over the din of debauchery, and he feels a muscle in his jaw tick.Â
He hates it. He hates you.Â
He wants to be home, back in his bed, instead of standing five paces away from a stunning you. A you that he will have to drag down because of responsibility, because of his blasted pride. Whether or not he cares to admit it, he hates that, too.Â
Mingyu weaves through the crowds of dancing people until heâs reached you. Heâs just about to call your name when the DJ plays a song that you seem to like, because you let out a loud squeal and try to jump.Â
Key word: Try. Youâre just a little off-balance from your choice of shoewear and the alcohol running through your veins, because your attempt has you stumbling.Â
Instinctively, Mingyu reaches out to catch you. His palms land on your waist as your back falls against his chest, and it nearly kills himâ the sound of your drunken giggle. You tilt your head back to look up at him.
It starts off as a half-lidded, hazy expression, one that shows off just how intoxicated you already are. But thereâs something different there, too. A heat. A hunger. One that shows youâre out for something, someone tonight. Mingyu hates that the most.Â
He hates how that look on your face disappears when you realize who caught you. Immediately, your unchaste expression gives way to something more akin to sulky discontent, like Mingyu is the bearer of bad news.Â
And he is, really, because his fingers squeeze at your waist as he glares down at you.Â
âItâs past midnight, Cinderella,â he says, pitching his voice just loud enough above the music. âTime to head home.â
Your reaction to him is always a good litmus test of how intoxicated you are. When you jut out your lower lip and whine out a petulant âMingyu!â, that gives him the idea that youâre pretty damn gone.Â
âYouâre no fun,â you whine, trying to wriggle free from his grip. âThis is my favorite songââÂ
âAnd itâs one in the fucking morning. Letâs go.â
Somehow, you manage to peel away from him. One of your friends links arms with you, the two of you bursting into laughter of giggles. Mingyu is tempted to leave you then and there. Thereâs nothing funny about this situation, and heâs already planning to tell you off for how this might affect how he plays tomorrow.Â
âOne more song!â You put up one finger, practically shoving it up to Mingyuâs face. âPleaseee?âÂ
Heâs only halfway through saying something like no, letâs go before your friend is dragging you further into the throng of dancing people. Mingyu can already feel a headache blossoming beneath his temple.Â
Resigned to his fate, he steps to the fringes of the crowd. He isnât in the mood to scream to All I Do Is Win with all of these strangers; the least he can do is keep an eye on you.Â
You, scream-singing the lyrics. You, whose dress rides up with every little sway. Youâ laughing, dancing, still several paces away from Mingyu.Â
He crosses his arms over his chest and briefly closes his eyes, exhaling through his nose. A voice snaps him out of his reverie.
âHey, handsome. Want a drink?âÂ
Mingyuâs eyes flutter open. He hadnât noticed the girl sidling up to his side. Sheâs a bombshell, sure, with a lecherous gaze and a barely-there dress, but Mingyu trips up over the fact that the two of you kind of smile the same.Â
âNo, thank you,â he says curtly. âIâm driving.âÂ
The girl throws her head back and laughs. Mingyuâs headache feels like itâs worsening.
âYouâre too good-looking to be the designated driver,â the stranger purrs. When she reaches out to run an innocent finger over Mingyuâs crossed arms, his lips tug into a slight frown. Heâs no stranger to girls coming on to him. Heâs entertained a couple, even, in settings exactly like this.Â
Tonight, heâs not in the mood. Thatâs it. Thatâs all there is to it, he thinksâ as if heâs trying to convince himself.Â
Thatâs how he builds the courage to lie through his teeth.Â
âIâm here to drive my girlfriend home, actually.â
In the morning, he will justify it like this: He wanted the stranger to leave him alone. He wasnât exactly lying. You were a girl, and you were⌠kind of his friend. And he was driving you home. That much was true.Â
In that very moment, though, his heartâ the treacherous fool that it isâ skips a single, infinitesimal beat at the prospect of calling you his âgirlfriendâ.Â
The stranger is undeterred. Itâs a common throw-off, after all. The lie about having a significant other.Â
âWhereâs this girlfriend of yours?â she asks, one eyebrow cocked upward in amusement.Â
Mingyuâs eyes flick over the throng of dancers. Right. He had been watching for you. He opens his mouth, about to mention some notable feature of yours, when the words stick in his throat. Because heâs looking right at youâÂ
You, with your arms over the shoulders of some guy. You, tilting your face upward to kiss said stranger.Â
The strobe lights cut Mingyuâs vision into strips. He sees each moment like a flashbulb blinking on and off: Your eyes fluttering close. The strangerâs hand slipping to the small of your back, right over the curve of your ass. Your body, arching upward a little bit more.
Mingyu, still paces away.Â
By the time youâre pulling away from the man, Mingyu is already at your side. Heâs still ever so gentle as he yanks you away from the strangerâs grasp.
âWeâre going,â he announces.
The guy you had just been kissing lets out some strangled sound, something to the effect of âwhat the hell, man,â but Mingyu canât be bothered to stick around and clarify. He focuses on hauling your ass away, even as you begin to kick up a fuss.Â
âBut he said I was prettyââ youâre whining, the tone of your voice grating on every single one of Mingyuâs nerves.Â
âBecause you are pretty!â he snaps as he guides you through the crowd. âDonât go around making out with anyone who compliments you. Jesus!â
Somehow, the two of you manage to spill out of the club. Mingyu has a white-knuckled grip on your shoulders as he attempts to push you forward, towards his car.Â
You only add to his mounting annoyance when you dig the heels of your boots into the ground, keeping him from going any further.Â
âFor fuckâs sakeââ Mingyu grumbles. âI swear to God, I will leave you. Iâm going to leave you to your own devices in this parking lot, you leech.âÂ
âYou wouldnât,â you say shrilly. âYou would never leave me!â
âI would,â he shoots back. He contemplates just throwing you over his shoulder and being done with it.Â
That train of thought is swiftly interrupted by you spinning around to face him. You plant your hands on your hips, speaking surprisingly evenly for someone who looks drunk out of their mind. âI was having fun,â you sniffle.Â
âAnd I was supposed to be asleep four hours ago,â he seethes. âInstead, Iâm dealing with your bratty assââÂ
âI didnât ask you toââÂ
âYour mother asked me toââÂ
âWell, she can go andââ
âPlease!â
Mingyu huffs out the word with his whole chest. Honestly, at this point? Heâs not above begging. He runs his hands over his face before wringing them together.Â
âCan we just go home already?â he pleads. âI have to be up by six, and the student manager will have my neck if Iâm late one more time. Please, please, please just get in my car already.âÂ
You only stare him down with that steely expression of yours. Once again, Mingyu toys with the idea of manhandling you into his backseat, until you speak up.Â
âHe said I was pretty,â you repeat, like thatâs somehow the most important fact of the night.Â
âYou are,â he responds exasperatedly.Â
âYouâre lying,â you insist. It might be a trick of the light, a fleeting moment in the darkness of the otherwise empty parking lot, but Mingyu swears he sees a flicker of insecurity in your eyes.
You go on, âYouâre just saying that. Unlike the guy back there, you donât actually thinkââÂ
âOh my God. Fine. Fine. I donât think youâre pretty!â Mingyu throws his hands up in the air in a gesture of defeat.Â
You look like youâre about to deflate, but then he barrels on, going absolutely insane over this whole stupid affair. âI think youâre breathtaking. I think youâre the most gorgeous girl in the world,â he bites out. âBut, holy shit, are you the most annoying one, too!â
If youâre surprised, thereâs no indication of it in your expression. But your hands do drop from your sides, and youâre looking at Mingyu with a little less disdain than a couple of seconds ago.Â
A beat. And thenâ
âYou think Iâm breathtaking?â you ask, the ghost of a smirk on your lips.Â
To hell with it. Mingyu surges forward and wraps his arms around your waist, hauling you off the ground.Â
Youâre squealing and raining punches down his back the entire way to his car.Â
⸠S01E05: THE ONE WITH THE MORNING AFTER.Â
You wake up to the distinct smell of something warm and buttery wafting through the air, the scent tugging you out of your heavy slumber.Â
Your head is pounding, and your throat feels like you swallowed a gallon of sandpaper, but worst of all, thereâs a familiar sense of displacementâ the kind that comes with waking up somewhere that isnât your own bed.
Cracking one eye open, youâre met with the soft glow of morning light filtering through unfamiliar curtains. It takes you a second, but then you recognize the room instantly: Mingyuâs apartment.
The realization doesnât startle you as much as it should. In fact, you sigh, rolling onto your back and rubbing at your temple. It isnât the first time youâve found yourself here after a night out, though itâs usually because of some family event that went on too long rather than Mingyu being forced to drag your inebriated ass home.
Still, the headache and vague memories of last night are enough to sour your mood. You groan, sitting up and taking in your surroundings. Your shoes are neatly placed by the door. A bottle of water and a pack of painkillers sit on the nightstand, which youâre quick to grab.Â
And then, thereâs the smell. The one that pulled you out of sleep in the first place.
You shuffle out of bed and into the kitchen, where you find an actual, plated breakfast waiting for you on the counter. A plate of eggs, toast, andâ because you assume Mingyu is still an insufferable health nutâ a side of fruit. Stuck to the rim of the plate, a bright yellow Post-it with the worst handwriting known to mankind.
Stop drinking. -KMG
You find yourself staring at the plate longer than necessary. No matter how crude the note is, the fact remains: Mingyu cooked this. For you. Before his game.
Thereâs an uncomfortable flutter in your chest that you quickly stomp out.
Because sure, Mingyu cooked for you. Sure, he bought you medicine. But he also had the gall to leave you a rude Post-it note like the patronizing asshole that he is. You grab the note and crumple it in your fist before popping one of the painkillers in your mouth. You mutter âfuckinâ bitchâ to no one in particular, but it lacks real venom.
Your thoughts are interrupted by your phone ringing. You frown before spotting Mingyuâs charger plugged into the wall, your phone attached to it. You donât have time to unpack whatever that means, because your motherâs name flashes across the screen.
With a sigh, you answer. âHello?â
âWhere are you?â she asks, voice sharp with concern. âI tried calling last night, but your phone was off.â
âI wasâŚâ You hesitate, glancing at the breakfast on the counter. âWith Mingyu.â
Thereâs no need for your mother to know where you really were dancing, who youâd spent the night flirting with. Hell, all of that is pretty much a blur at this point. The only thing left in your alcohol-addled mind is Mingyu calling you Cinderella, Mingyuâs hands on your shoulders, and⌠Did he carry you to his car? Youâll have to wheedle that information out of him later.Â
Your motherâs reaction to your white lie is immediate. Her sigh of relief is so loud you have to pull the phone away from your ear. âOh. Thatâs good,â she breathes. âAt least I know you were in good hands.â The food in front of you suddenly looks much less appealing. Of course. Of course thatâs all it takes for her to drop her interrogation. You could have told her you spent the night at any of your friendsâ places, and she still would have had a million questions. But mention Mingyu, and suddenly sheâs appeased.
âYeah,â you say flatly. âGreat hands.â
You donât like it. You donât like feeling indebted to him. You donât like that he has that effectâ not just on your mother, but on you, too.
As much as you want to brush it off, you canât help but glance at the plate again, at the neatly arranged breakfast that he didnât have to make, at the medicine he didnât have to buy.
And that flutter? That stupid, tiny, treacherous flutter in your chest?
You shove it deep down where it belongs.
Meanwhile, Mingyu fights his own battles. On the field, heâs a wall. A force of nature.
His muscles burn. His mind is sharp. Every time the ball nears his goal, heâs already two steps ahead. The opposing team is relentless, throwing every tactic they can at him, but it doesnât matter. Not today.
Today, Mingyu is untouchable.
The scouts on the sidelines are nodding, murmuring to each other with increasing interest. His teammates are exhilarated, feeding off his energy. Seungcheol is the first to voice it, panting as he jogs past the goal. âYouâre playing like a fucking monster.â
Mingyu doesnât answer, just adjusts his gloves and keeps his gaze locked on the field. Wonwoo watches him a beat longer, brow furrowed. âYouâre not usually this aggressive.â
Mingyu exhales sharply. âGotta keep the scouts entertained, donât I?â
Itâs a good enough excuse. No one questions him after that.
But the truth is, he knows exactly why heâs playing like this.
Because across the field is himâ the guy from last night. The guy who got to kiss you, to touch you while Mingyu watched.
And the jerk looks perfectly fine. Well-rested, even. Ready to play.
Mingyuâs jaw tightens.Â
When the next shot comes, he doesnât just block it. He slaps it out of the air with enough force to send it soaring toward midfield. The sound of his palm meeting the ball echoes across the stadium. The forward who took the shot looks stunned; the murmurs from the scouts grow louder.
Seungcheol lets out a low whistle. âI donât know whatâs gotten into you, but I like it.â
Mingyu exhales, flexing his fingers inside his gloves. His heartbeat pounds in his ears, but heâs locked in, focused. He doesnât care how many more shots they take. None of them are getting past him today.
Youâre not even here, but you might as well be by the way Mingyu thinks of you the entire damn time.
And if, after the final whistle blows and his team secures the win, he happens to walk past him with just a little too much shoulder in his stride? Well.
Thatâs just the cherry on top.
He feels proud. Vindicated. He revels in it for a full minute beforeâ much like youâ shoving the feeling as far away from him as possible.Â
Now itâs even. Now, he doesnât owe you a thing.Â
⸠S01E06: THE ONE WITH THE PERFUME.Â
Mingyu isnât sure how he ended up in the fragrance section.Â
The trip to the mall had a purposeâ find a birthday gift for their student manager, someone patient enough to handle their chaos. Seungcheol was atrociously down bad for the girl, and was still trying to prove himself worthy of her time.Â
Seungcheol, Wonwoo, and Vernon debate between a sleek planner and a wireless charger.
âThe planner will help her deal with us,â Wonwoo pushes, âweâre always bombarding her with our schedules, anyway.âÂ
Vernon butts in. âGetting her a gift that benefits us is a shitty thing to do.âÂ
The man of the hourâ Seungcheol, who is balancing the two gifts in his handsâ gives the worldâs shittiest suggestion. âLetâs just get both!â
As the three try to argue the merits of the gifts, Mingyu wanders off. For some reason, he finds himself drawn by the gleam of glass bottles and the faint hum of different scents in the air.
He has no business being here. Cologne isnât something he puts much thought into; he has his one bottle, the same one heâs used for years, and it does the job.Â
Still, his fingers ghost over the display, picking up a tester bottle without much thought. The label is understated. Minimalist design, black serif lettering against a frosted background. Expensive-looking. He presses down on the nozzle, sending a fine mist into the air.
The scent unfurls slowly. First, thereâs a burst of something citrusyâ bright, crisp, and fleeting. Then it settles into softer notes, something warm and clean, like white musk and fresh linen.Â
But underneath, lingering just at the edge, is something else. Something vaguely floral, but not overpowering. A hint of jasmine, maybe, softened by vanilla.
His grip tightens around the tester. Heâs suffered through this scent before.
It clings to his couch cushions, stubborn even after airing out his apartment. It lingers in his car, filling the spaces between his words when you're in the passenger seat. Itâs in his hoodie the morning after you crash at his place, making his head turn before he remembers youâre already gone.
Mingyu frowns, inhaling again, as if the scent will offer up an explanation for why it pulls at something deep in his memory.Â
Could it be your own perfume? Could your shampoo have the same notes?Â
He debates it for a second. Buying the bottle, testing if it really does smell the same. If it would fade the same way, settle the same way. If it would remind him of you just as much.
And thenâ what the hell is he doing?Â
Mingyu sets down the tester bottle, clicking the cap back on. He tries to chalk it up to curiosity. That has to be it. Heâs a man of logic, someone who likes to confirm hypotheses like whether this inconspicuous bottle of perfume is the same as his arch rivalâs.Â
Thatâs all there is to it, he thinks, as he stalks back over to his teammates. A verdict has been reached: Seungcheol will get her the planner. The charger will be halved three-way by Mingyu, Vernon, and Wonwoo.Â
âWhereâd you go?â Wonwoo inquires.Â
âNowhere,â Mingyu answers, even though his mind is still on the stupid smell.Â
He wipes at his wrist like that might help him get rid of the thought of you.Â
(In the other side of the mallâ)Â
⸠S01E07: THE ONE WITH THE SHOPPING TRIP.Â
You love shopping.Â
Not just for the thrill of it or the satisfaction of walking out of a store with a new find, but because itâs part of your studies. As a business major with a minor in fashion design, you donât just see clothes. You see craftsmanship, marketability, trends, and the little details that separate the exceptional from the ordinary.
Which is why you donât take it lightly when a saleslady looks down on you.
It starts with the way she barely glances at you when you step into the boutique, her gaze flickering from your casual outfit to the more expensively dressed customers lingering by the racks. She doesnât offer a greeting, doesnât ask if you need help, just wrongly assumes that youâre not worth her time.
You brush it off at first. Itâs not the first time someone has made a snap judgment about you, and it wonât be the last. But then, as you pull a dress from the rack, inspecting the stitching along the seams, you hear her scoff.
âThat oneâs a little out of budget, donât you think?â she says, her voice coated in artificial sweetness.
You arch a brow, turning the dress over in your hands. Itâs a designer piece, sure, but itâs not about the price. Itâs about the construction, and this one? Overpriced for what it offers. You could name at least three brands that do a better job at a fraction of the cost.
Instead of rising to the bait, you hum thoughtfully. âThe stitching here is uneven,â you muse, holding the fabric up to the light. âAnd the lining? They cut costs with synthetic blends when they should have used silk. The structure wonât hold up after a few wears.â
The saleslady falters, clearly unprepared for an actual critique. You donât stop there.
âFor the price, Iâd expect better craftsmanship. If youâre going to charge this much, at least make sure the dress can justify it.â
A beat of silence. Then, another voice chimes inâ a stranger, another customer, who suddenly looks interested in what you have to say. âThatâs actually a good point,â she murmurs, inspecting her own dress more closely.
The salesladyâs expression tightens, and she suddenly looks less inclined to speak. You hide a smirk, setting the dress back on the rack.
You love shopping. But more than that, you love knowing exactly what youâre talking about.
The next store is quieter, more minimalist, with racks of clothing spaced out deliberately to give each piece a sense of importance. You skim through them idly until something catches your eye.
A shirt. Simple, well-tailored, the kind of thing that would sit well on broad shoulders.Â
Mingyuâs shoulders.
You wrinkle your nose at the thought. The idea of picking something out for him makes your stomach turn, and yet⌠you keep looking at it. Itâs a nice color, something that would complement his skin tone. The fit would be flattering. Itâs practical, stylish, something he could wear effortlessly.
You chalk it up to habit. Itâs the same as when you find a cute piece that would suit a mannequin perfectly. Just another exercise in styling. Nothing more.
Besides, if you bought it, it wouldnât be for him. It would be for the sake of aesthetics. Like dressing up a doll. Orâ better yetâ like charity.
Yes. Thatâs all it is. You like knowing what youâre talking about, and this is just a manifestation of it.Â
You grab the shirt, holding it up for a final once-over before tossing it into your basket. If anything, you can pass it off as a Christmas gift. Thatâs reasonable. Normal, even. No big deal.
But then you see a sweater that would pair well with it. And a jacket thatâs undeniably his style. And before you know it, your basket is full.
Itâs only when youâre standing in line to pay that it truly hits you.
What the hell are you doing?
Your grip tightens around the handle of the basket, heart hammering in your chest. You stare at the pile of clothesâ clothes for Mingyuâ and feel a wave of unease creep up your spine. This is not normal. This is not something you do.
You were supposed to get one thing. One. Now youâre standing here like some deranged personal shopper, about to spend money on a man you claim to tolerate at best.
No. Absolutely not.
You step out of the line, return to the racks, and unceremoniously dump the basketâs contents back where they belong. One by one, you rid yourself of every last piece until thereâs nothing left.
Your heart is still racing by the time you exit the store. You need a spa day. Desperately.
⸠S01E08: THE ONE WITH THE GAME.Â
âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me.â
Mingyu stares from across the field, frozen in place as his teammates jog past him. The pregame warmups blur into the background because there you are, sitting in the stands. Willingly.
It shouldnât be a big deal, shouldnât mean anything, but it does. Because in all the years heâs known you, youâve never voluntarily attended one of his games. Not without some level of coercion. Not without at least thirty minutes of complaining.
And yet, here you are.
Unfortunately, you also stick out like a sore thumb.
He sees you draped in obnoxiously bright colors, layered in mismatched school merch like someone who got dressed in the darkâ or someone trying too hard to look like they belong. The cap, the oversized hoodie, the scarf, all of it is excessive.
The worst part? It works.
Because even from across the field, even as his teammates stretch and the crowd chatters, Mingyu sees you. And now he canât unsee you.
He ignores the cheerleaders calling his name. Ignores the people waving at him, the fans holding up banners with his number. Ignores the way his coach is probably going to yell at him later for getting distracted before the game.
Instead, he heads straight for you.
âWhat the hell are you doing here?â he demands, stopping just short of the stands.
You lower your phone, where youâd clearly been snapping photos, and peer down at him like heâs the one acting weird. âYour mom asked me to take photos of you,â you reply, voice maddeningly nonchalant. âDonât lose.â
Mingyu scoffs. âDonât tell me what to do.â Then, a beat later, he petulantly adds, âAlso, I never lose.â
You roll your eyes, already angling your phone for another shot, but Mingyu doesnât move just yet. The fact remains; youâre here, looking infuriatingly good, and heâs going to spend the next 90 minutes fighting for his life. He canât decide if thatâs a good or bad thing.Â
Either way, he knows one thing for sure: He really, really canât afford to lose.
But he does.
Itâs a hard-fought game, and Mingyu plays like a man possessed. He dives for impossible saves, yells orders at his defenders, and shuts down shot after shot. The crowd roars every time he denies the other team, and for most of the match, it looks like his team might just scrape by with a win.
Then, in the final minutes, everything falls apart.
A miscalculated pass. A stolen ball. A breakaway that happens too fast.
Mingyu sees it unfold in real-time, feels the moment slip through his fingers before it even happens. He charges forward, determined to cut off the angle, to make himself big, to stop the shot. But the ball soars past him, hitting the back of the net with a deafening thud.
The stadium erupts. The other team celebrates. And Mingyu, chest heaving, fists clenched, can only stare as the scoreboard confirms it.
A one-point lead. Game over.
He barely hears the whistle. Barely registers his teammates patting his back, muttering things like You did great and Weâll get them next time. None of it matters. Because he lost. Because he let that shot in.Â
Because somewhere in the stands, you saw him fail.
He drags his gloves off, jaw tight, shoulders tense. He doesnât want to look up. Doesnât want to see if youâre still watching.Â
Against his better judgment, his gaze lifts toward the stands anyway.
There you are, camera in hand, expression unreadable. Of all his losses that day, that was the one that inexplicably ticked him off the most. The fact that you werenât smiling, werenât frowning. You were just⌠watching. Heâs never been able to read your mind, but he despises that inability the most today.Â
Mingyu exhales sharply, looks away, and storms off the field.
He doesnât expect you to wait for him outside the locker room. Youâre there anyway when he steps out, your arms crossed and your lips pursed. He doesnât slow down, doesnât acknowledge you beyond the look he shoots your way; you have to take large steps in your ridiculous heels just to keep up with his pace. He feels like a hurricaneâ one thatâs about to sweep through your stoicism, about to leave significant collateral damage.Â
âCome on, then,â he mutters, shoving his duffel strap higher onto his shoulder. âTell me just how shitty I am.â
âExcuse me?â
He lets out a humorless laugh, shaking his head. âYou must be dying to rub it in my face. Go ahead. Get it over with.â
You frown. âWhat the hell is your problem?â
That sets him off.
âMy problem?â he snaps, finally stopping in his tracks to glare at you properly. You follow suit, and it amuses him for a fraction of a secondâ just how easily he towers over you. âI just lost a game, in case you missed that part while taking your stupid pictures.â
You scoff, fully displeased now. âAre you serious? You think I came here just to laugh at you?âÂ
âWouldnât be the first time.â His voice is sharp, low. âYouâve never had a problem making fun of me before.â
Your jaw clenches.Â
âNo need to make me your punching bag, Kim.â In turnâ your tone is piercing, almost hurt. âI came here to comfort you. Iâm not the fucking devil you make me out to be.â
The words hit harder than they should.
The weight of the loss still clings to him, frustration simmering beneath his skin. His hands are still balled into fists, his shoulders locked up so tight they ache. But the way you say it, the unexpected offense in your voice, makes something in him falter.
He rubs a hand over his face. The hurricane in him quiets, runs out of rain. âYeah.â His voice is quieter now. âSorry.â
You roll your eyes. Really, you have every right to give him more shit; he knows he deserves it. âI should just leave you here to wallow.â You make a grand show of turning awayâ really, you have every right to give him more shit; he knows he deserves it.Â
But then you glance at him over your shoulder. âSince Iâm feeling benevolent, Iâll treat you to a meal.â
Mingyu stares at you like youâve lost your mind. âYou?â He gestures vaguely between the two of you. âTreating me? Are you dying?â
âMaybe,â you deadpan. âFrom secondhand embarrassment.â
He lets out a sharp exhale, something between a huff and a chuckle. âWow. Real comforting.â
You shrug. âI never said I was good at comfort,â you snipe, and he knows that much is true.
Somehow, thatâs how he finds himself behind the wheel of his car, hands gripping the steering wheel. Heâs still mildly dazed as he glances over at you in his passenger seat. He doesnât remember actually agreeing to this. He doesnât remember deciding to take you to his favorite restaurant. And yet here you are, scrolling through your phone like this is the most normal thing in the world.
For the first five minutes, the drive is quiet. Mingyu fiddles with the AC, rolls his shoulders, frowns at the road ahead. But the longer you sit there, humming under your breath, mindlessly playing with the hem of your sleeve, the more it starts to sink in.
This is the first time the two of you have willingly shared a meal together.
Not because of mutual friends. Not because of a group project or an event neither of you could get out of. Not because your parents forced you into it.
Just⌠because.
Itâs the strangest possible way for Mingyu to have possibly ended the night.Â
He spares you another glance as he pulls into the parking lot. âYou better not complain about the food,â he warns, âor Iâm leaving you here.â
Of course, that gives you the leeway to complain, bitching about things like sanitation and standards for cuisine. He tunes it out like he often does, instead trying to figure out how the hell he ended up here.Â
Here, sitting across from you in a restaurant that he usually only visits with his teammates. It felt like a fever dream to approach the host stand and ask for a table for two; his voice had come out a little too uncertain, like he couldnât quite believe the words himself.
The host had seated you without question, handing you both menus before disappearing, leaving Mingyu to sit there and take in the absurdity of the situation. You, sitting across from him, elbows on the table, flipping through the menu like this is any other meal with any other person.
His mind flickers, unbidden, to a thought: Are you like this on all dates?
Then, he scowls. No. This is not a date.
âAlright, what am I getting?â you ask, still scanning the menu. âYouâre the one who dragged me here, might as well give me a solid recommendation.â
Mingyu raises a brow. âI dragged you here? You were the one who insisted on treating me.â
âTomato, tomahto.â You shoot him a sharp glare, as if his insolence was something that caused offense. âJust tell me whatâs good.â
He studies you for a second like heâs waiting for the punchline. When you just blink back expectantly, he sighs, resigning himself to whatever surreal alternate reality this is. âGet the beef stew,â he finally says. âAnd the garlic rice. Youâll thank me later.â
To his surprise, you actually listen. He half-expected you to ignore him just to be difficult.
The conversation that follows is easy in a way that confuses him. You bicker, naturally, but itâs mostly over trivial thingsâ your tragic lack of appreciation for his taste in sports documentaries, the way he insists that pineapple on pizza is a crime against humanity. Nothing about the game, nothing about his loss, nothing about the way frustration still lingers in the tightness of his jaw.
Instead, you seem content commenting on the restaurant itself, mentioning how you like the warm lighting, how the playlist is surprisingly good. And then thereâs the way you eat. Without rush, without any of the absentmindedness he sometimes sees when youâre multitasking with your phone. You actually appreciate the food, nodding approvingly after each bite like youâre mentally scoring it.
Somewhere between your satisfied hums and the way you swipe an extra spoonful of his rice when you think heâs not looking, Mingyu realizes something strange: Youâre actually enjoying this.
And, maybe, so is he.
Itâs disorienting, how quickly the irritation from earlier has faded.
He tries to remind himself of the reasons youâre infuriating. That youâre picky about things that donât matter, that you have a bad habit of being late, that you roll your eyes too much, thatâ
But every thought is immediately met with another. That you actually care about things enough to be picky. That you only run late when youâve lost track of time doing something you love. That you roll your eyes, sure, but you also laugh, also banter, also make things more interesting.
Mingyu stares at you for a moment, something warm settling into his chest.
By the end of the dinner, heâs forgotten why he was so upset in the first place.
⸠S01E09: THE ONE WITH THE HIGH SCHOOL REUNION.Â
The party is already in full swing by the time you and Mingyu arrive.Â
Itâs the usual reunion sceneâ too many people packed into a house slightly too small for the occasion, music loud enough to drown out the conversations but not enough to stop them altogether, and a lingering smell of something fried mixed with overpriced cologne.
Youâre still annoyed. Annoyed because Mingyu had, with all the grace of a wrecking ball, insulted your outfit on the drive here. Something about how your skirt was too short and your heels were impractical for a house party. As if he was some kind of fashion authority.
âThanks for the unsolicited advice, asswipe,â you had snapped back, crossing your arms and staring out the window. He only scoffed in response, muttering something about not wanting to be responsible if you tripped and broke your ankle.
Now, hours later, youâre still disgruntled about it. You refuse to think about how, deep down, it had been less about disapproval and more about the way his gaze had lingered.Â
That would be a problem for another time. Maybe never.
You make your way to the kitchen, eyeing the assortment of drinks lined up on the counter. A bottle of something expensive-looking catches your attention. You grab it, twisting the cap with determination, but it refuses to budge. You try again, gripping it tighter, but all you manage is an embarrassing squeak of effort.
âSeriously?â you mutter under your breath, frustration bubbling up.
Before you can attempt another futile try, a large hand appears in your periphery. The bottle is plucked effortlessly from your grip. In one swift motion, Mingyu twists the cap open like it was nothing. No struggle, no hesitation, no unnecessary flexing. Just pure efficiency.
He doesnât even smirk. Doesnât gloat or tease you like you expect him to. He just hands the bottle back to you before turning away as if it had never happened.
You blink. Then blink again.
The room suddenly feels a little warmer. Must be the alcohol in the air. Or the heater. Orâ
Oh, God.
With absolute horror, you realize Mingyu was kind of hot for that.
You take a generous swig from the bottle, hoping it burns away whatever ridiculous thought just took root in your brain. Unfortunately, the warmth spreading through you has absolutely nothing to do with the alcohol.
You take another sip, then another, letting the burn of the drink ground you. Itâs fine. Itâs whatever. Youâll drink and have fun and not think about the way Mingyuâs hand had so easily dwarfed yours when he took the bottle from you.
You wander back toward the living room, where clusters of people are chatting, laughing, reliving the glory days. Just as you settle into the buzz of the atmosphere, you catch Mingyuâs name being thrown around in a conversation nearby. You donât mean to eavesdropâ okay, maybe you do a littleâ but something about the way his voice carries through the room makes you pause.
âNot drinking tonight?â You hear someone ask him.
âNah,â Mingyu replies, nonchalant. âIâm her designated driver.â
Your stomach does a weird little flip.
Well, then.
If thatâs the case, if Mingyuâs already consigned himself to the role of responsibility, then thereâs absolutely no reason for you to hold back.
You tilt your head back, take another sip. Then another.
A warmth spreads through your limbs, but whether itâs from the alcohol or the fact that you now have free rein to drink without consequence, youâre not sure. You tell yourself itâs definitely the alcohol, though. Because the alternativeâ the thought that it has anything to do with Mingyuâ just isnât an option. Not tonight.
The alcohol has settled comfortably in your veins by the time the dancing starts. The living room has been cleared to make space, furniture pushed against the walls. Now the music pulses louder, the bass vibrating through the floor.Â
Youâre laughing with old friends, moving with the rhythm, when you feel a sharp tug at the hem of your skirt.
You whirl around, already prepared to snap at whoever dared, only to come face-to-face with Mingyu. Heâs standing there, a frown on his face. He leans in slightly, voice low but clear over the music. âI told you it was too short.â
You blink at him, thrown off by the way his fingers had just been on you, tugging fabric downward like it was some sort of personal mission. Something fizzes beneath your skin, something that has nothing to do with the alcohol and everything to do with the fact that Mingyuâ annoying, overbearing Kim Mingyuâ is looking at you like that.
Itâd been such a boyfriend move. You force yourself not to dwell on it.Â
You donât know what compels you, but maybe youâre just tipsy enough. Maybe you want to make him suffer.Â
You suddenly reach out, looping your arms around Mingyuâs neck. His whole body goes stiff, his eyes widening in immediate suspicion.
âDance with me,â you say, tilting your head, voice syrupy with tipsiness and mischief.
Mingyu shakes his head, already taking a step back. âAbsolutely not.â
You grin and pull him right back in. âYou sure? âCause I know things, Kim. Lots of things.â
âAre you blackmailing me?â he squeaks.Â
You sway closer, pretending to consider it. âItâs more of a⌠strategic incentive.â
A battle wars in his eyes. But then, with a low âtchâ and a mutter of âYouâre insufferable,â Mingyu lets your grip pull him in.Â
The moment is bizarre.Â
His hands find their placeâ one cautiously at your waist, the other hovering near your shoulder like heâs afraid to touch too much. You move to the beat, feeling the heat of him through his shirt, the solid press of his frame against yours.Â
Itâs ridiculous. Itâs stupid.
Itâs also the best decision youâve made all night.
The song shifts into something heavier, the bass thrumming through your chest, the kind of music meant for bad decisions and blurred memories. Mingyu hasnât bolted yet, which is a miracle in itself. Heâs actually keeping up with you, moving in sync, matching your rhythm with ease. Itâs unexpected, the way he doesnât seem like he hates this, like heâs maybeâ God forbidâ having fun.
You scoff at the thought, but the amusement lingers. The insults come easy, natural, tossed between the two of you like a ball neither wants to drop.
âYou dance like an old man,â you tease, voice warm with liquor.
âAnd you dance like youâre trying to summon a demon,â he shoots back.
You laugh, tilting your head up to meet his eyes. Maybe itâs the dim lighting or maybe itâs the alcohol, but Mingyuâs gaze doesnât seem as sharp as it usually does. His grip on your waist is firm but not forceful, like heâs not entirely opposed to being here, to this, to you.
Itâs too easy to forget that this is Mingyu, that this is the same guy who has made a sport out of getting under your skin. Because right now, heâs just a tall, ridiculously handsome man who happens to be an unfairly good dancer.
The thought sneaks up on you before you can fight it. If he wasnât Mingyu...
The words slip out before you register them. âI wonder what Iâd do if you werenât you.â
Mingyuâs eyebrows raise. âWhat?â His voice is a little rough around the edges, and far too sober.
Shit.Â
You blink rapidly, force a laugh, and shake your head as if you can brush it off. âNothing. Ignore me.â
But the thing isâ you canât ignore it.Â
Because somewhere, in the back of your mind, youâre already picturing it. A world where Mingyu isnât Mingyu, where heâs just some stranger with sharp eyes and broad shoulders who smells good and dances well, who looks at you like heâs actually seeing you.
A world where you wouldnât have to fight every instinct telling you to lean in.
Eventually, your feet start to protest. Youâre wearing heels that were never meant for this much standing, much less dancing. You havenât even said anything about it, but your expression must be reflecting your discomfort and your frustration. Mingyu sighs like youâve personally ruined his night before crouching down and unlacing his sneakers.
âWhat are you doing?â you ask laughingly as he kicks them off, right there on the fringes of the dance floor.Â
âGiving you my shoes,â he says, like itâs obvious, shoving them toward you. âIâm not carrying you to the car.â
You snort. âYouâd probably drop me anyway.â
âExactly.â He watches as you swap out your heels for his much-too-big sneakers, which make you feel ridiculous but are, admittedly, a godsend.
You donât realize until youâre halfway to the car that Mingyu is walking in only his socks, completely unbothered. You slide into the passenger seat, tipsy and warm and just self-aware enough to realize something terrible is happening.
You are warming up to Mingyu.
It hits you like a truck.
Mingyu, your mortal enemy. Mingyu, who has annoyed you since childhood. Mingyu, who insults your outfits and steals your food and opens your drinks without a second thought.
Your head lolls against the seat as you stare at him in horror, combing through the memories, trying to pinpoint exactly when this started going wrong.
By the time he pulls up in front of your house, youâve made a decision.
You need to stop being too nice to him.
⸠S01E10: THE ONE WITH THE TEAM LUNCH.Â
Mingyu is halfway through his second helping of rice when he hears itâ the unmistakable sound of his personal hell approaching.Â
He doesnât even have to look up to know itâs you. The dramatic click of your heels, the way the conversation at the cafeteria table shifts just slightly, the exasperated sigh that escapes Wonwoo before you even arrive.
And then, as expectedâ
âKim.â
Mingyu exhales sharply through his nose. He doesnât know what you want, but if the past few weeks have been anything to go by, itâs nothing good. Ever since the high school reunion, youâve been nothing short of a menace.
He still doesnât know what changed that night, but suddenly, youâve taken it upon yourself to be the most irksome person in his life. There was the time you texted him an obnoxious amount of links to ugly sneakers after heâd lent you his at the party. The time you âaccidentallyâ swapped his shampoo for some floral-scented one that lingered in his hair for days. The time you sent him a video of him losing his last match, edited with clown music in the background.
He finally looks up from his food, expression already set in a scowl. Youâre standing at the edge of their table, arms crossed, a shit-eating grin plastered on your face. Seungcheol, Vernon, and Wonwoo all look between the two of you like theyâre watching a horror movie unfold in real-time.
âWhat do you want?â Mingyu asks, voice flat.
You feign offense, placing a hand over your chest. âCanât I just stop by to say hello?â
âNo.â
Vernon snorts, covering his mouth with his hand. Seungcheol nudges him under the table, but heâs grinning, too.
âYou wound me, Kim.â You pull out the chair beside him and sit down like you belong there. âBut fine, I do need something.â
Mingyu rolls his eyes, shoving another bite of food into his mouth before jerking his chin at you. âThen spit it out already.â
âI need a favor.â
Mingyu groans. âNo. Absolutely not.â
âYou donât even know what it is yet!â
âI donât need to know what it is.â He glares at you. âItâs a no.â
Wonwoo sighs, setting his chopsticks down. âJust let her talk, Mingyu. Weâd like to finish our meal in peace.â
Mingyu gestures wildly. âI would like to finish my meal in peace!â
You pat his shoulder condescendingly. âThis is more important than your third bowl of rice.â
He swats your hand away. âItâs my second bowlââ
âNot the point,â you cut in. âListen, I just needââ
Mingyu groans again, slumping back in his chair, already regretting every choice that led to this moment. He knows, deep in his soul, that whatever youâre about to ask is going to be something ridiculous.
And yet, for some godforsaken reason, he doesnât immediately tell you to leave.
âI need help moving some furniture.â
Mingyu blinks. âThatâs it?â
âYes, thatâs it,â you deadpan. âAre you going to help or not?â
He stares at you. Itâs one of those things thatâd be a given for anybody else. Mingyu was the type of friend who would drive someone to the airport, would help someone move, would cook if someone was sick. Those were things heâd do for someone he was friends withâ something the two of you were decisively not.
âAnd why, exactly, would I do that?â he challenges.Â
âBecause you owe me?â
He lets out a laugh. âI owe you?â
âYes, forââ you flounder for a reason, ââfor existing, Kim Mingyu. Do you know how exhausting that is?â
Unconvincing to a fault. Mingyu is half-tempted to call you out for being a spoiled brat, but heâs not interested in escalating this argument in front of his team.Â
âNot my problem,â he settles on saying.Â
âYouâre the fucking worst.â
âAnd yet, here you are.â
The two of you go back and forth like that, the jabs mostly inoffensive and subjective. Mingyu is vaguely aware of Seungcheol pinching his nose like heâs nursing a headache, Vernon sipping his drink as if watching a spectacle, and Wonwoo calmly chewing his food, unfazed.
Finally, Seungcheol decides heâs had enough.Â
âBoth of you,â he interjects, voice firm. âCan you stop fighting for five minutes?â
To Mingyuâs shock, you actually fall silent. You roll your eyes but begrudgingly listen, arms still tightly crossed.Â
Mingyu scoffs. âOh, so you can listen to people,â he mutters. âDidnât know you were capable of being nice.â
Your head snaps toward him. âI am capable of being nice. Just not to you.â
âRight, because youâre a little devil sent from hell just to ruin my life.â
âYour life was already in shambles before I showed up. Donât blame me.â
The bickering immediately picks back up, much to the dismay of Mingyuâs teammates. Vernon exhales dramatically. âMamma mia,â he sing-songs jokingly to Wonwoo, âhere we go again.âÂ
You suddenly reach out, snatch a piece of Mingyuâs pork right off his plate, and pop it into your mouth as you ready to leave. His jaw drops; heâs stolen your food a fair amount, but youâve never done it to him. âHeyââ
Youâre already turning on your heel and walking away, not sparing him another glance. âThanks for absolutely nothing,â you chirp.
Mingyu watches, speechless at the petulant display.
âDid sheââ he starts, then stops. His grip tightens around his chopsticks. None of his teammates push, all too wary of the dark look that passes over his expression. Seungcheol promptly tries to change the topic.Â
Mingyu finishes his meal in a foul mood, stabbing at his food with unnecessary force.
He doesnât understand why youâve gotten so absurd with him lately. Every interaction with you feels like a new test of patience, like one day you just woke up and decided to amp up all the ways you could make him miserable. He had almost started to believe, for one fleeting second, that maybe, maybe you werenât that bad.
But no. The night at the reunion was just a flukeâ when youâd danced together and heâd privately thought it was something he could get used to.
You were always meant to be his worst nightmare, and he resolves that heâs not waking up any time soon.Â
⸠S01E11: THE ONE WITH THE REASON.Â
The joint family meal is as lively as ever, voices overlapping in conversation, laughter ringing between bites of food. You, as always, have taken it upon yourself to make Mingyuâs life difficult today.
âWow, even you managed to show up on time for once,â you remark as he slides into the seat across from you. âDid hell freeze over?â
Mingyu shoots you a deadpan look, clearly not in the mood for your antics. âNot today, Satan.â
You grin, but thereâs something off about him. He doesnât come back with anything more biting, doesnât engage in the usual back-and-forth. His shoulders are tense, and thereâs a blankness to his gaze that makes you wonder.
Your mother places a generous serving of food onto your plate, and you idly push some rice around with your chopsticks, gaze flickering toward him again. âWhat, got scolded for being too slow on the field?â
Mingyu finally looks at you properly. His frustration is clear. âCan you not today?â His voice is quieter than you expect, worn at the edges. âI had a shitty day at training, and I really donât have the energy for you right now.â
The words catch you off guard. You could leave it at that, let him have his peace for once. A part of youâ one you stubbornly refuse to acknowledgeâ almost wants to ask why, wants to pry into whatâs bothering him and offer something resembling comfort.
Instead, you shove that impulse down. Whatever this is, whatever softening that night at the reunion did to you, needs to be stomped out immediately.Â
So you double down.
You spear a piece of your meat a little too forcefully. âRight, because Iâm the problem here. You always find a way to suck at things all on your own.â
Mingyuâs expression shutters. For the first time everâ in all of your interactions with himâ you feel something unpleasant coil in your stomach. He shakes his head and then goes back to eating without another word.
Thereâs a small, screeching voice in the back of your head that wants to demand an explanation. Not for Mingyuâs dismal mood, no, but for that flicker of disappointment thatâd passed his face when he shook his head.Â
Why would he be disappointed over your cruelty? Why would he expect anything else from you?Â
The rest of the meal passes without his usual jabs in return, and you tell yourself thatâs a victory. It feels like anything but.
As dessert is doled out, your mother calls out to the pair of you. âYou two, go somewhere else for a while. The adults need to discuss business.â
You open your mouth to protest. Youâre both adults already; surely you and Mingyu could sit in, rather than be forced into yet another awkward situation neither of you can run from.
But Mingyu is already pushing his chair back with a grumbled âfine.â The look your mother shoots you indicates that this is not about to be up for debate. You follow Mingyu out, both of you stepping into the cool evening air.Â
The restaurantâs outdoor area has an old playgroundâ rusting swing sets, a chipped slide, and monkey bars that have seen better days. You walk ahead and hop onto a swing, the chains creaking slightly as you push off the ground.
Mingyu stands nearby, watching you for a moment. âDidnât take you for the type to get sentimental,â he snorts, and that slight edge in his tone gives you just a bit of hope that he doesnât completely despise you.Â
âIâm not. I just need somewhere to sit thatâs far away from you,â you say matter-of-factly.Â
He huffs but doesnât argue. Instead, he heads towards the monkey bars. He grips one, testing his weight against the metal. âRemember when you got stuck on these in second grade?â he asks as he free-hangs.Â
âI wasnât stuck,â you sniffle in protest. âI was strategizing.â
Mingyu lets out a bark of laughter. âStrategizing how to fall on your ass?â
You drag the tip of your shoe against the dirt, narrowing your eyes. âIf I recall correctly, you werenât any help. You just laughed at me until my dad had to come pull me down.â
âHey, in my defense, it was funny.â He swings himself onto the lowest bar, legs dangling. âYou had snot running down your face and everything.â
You lunge half-heartedly to kick at his shin, but he pulls his leg away just in time. Thereâs a beat of silence, the air filled with the distant chatter of your families inside. Itâs strange, this reminiscing. The usual bite to your exchanges is still there, but itâs smooth around the edges, tinged with something dangerously close to fondness.
Mingyu exhales, gaze fixed on some nondescript point in the distance. You think heâs gearing up for his next jab about something. Probably your embarrassing high school days, or that one summer vacation you hate talking about. InsteadâÂ
âWhy arenât we friends?â he asks. His voice is quiet, thoughtful.Â
You blink. The question is so absurd it momentarily stuns you. âWhat?â
âI mean,â he shifts, âweâve known each other our whole lives. Shouldnât weâ I donât knowâ be close?â
If you didnât know any better, youâd think he was teasing. But the question doesnât sound rhetorical, and he seems almost wistful.Â
You hate it.Â
You hate him.Â
Your chest tightens, unbidden memories surfacing. There were plenty of reasons. The bickering, the competition. But at the core of it, there was one moment. One day that cemented everything in place, whether Mingyu realized it or not.
You were seven. It was summer, the sun blazing high as the neighborhood kids gathered for a game of soccer. Everyone had been split into teams, and you had waited, jittery with anticipation, as Mingyuâ the fastest, the strongest, the boy everyone wanted to followâ started picking players.Â
One by one, he called out names, grinning as kids ran to his side. You had stood there, heart pounding, willing him to say your name next. You were family friends! Sure, you were a girl, but surely Mingyu could see how fast and strong you were, too.Â
In the end, Mingyu had picked everyone but you. When there was no one left, you had been shuffled onto the other team by default. You still remembered the sting of it. The two of you were already acquainted, and yet he hadnât even seen you as an option.Â
It was stupid. It was petty. And yet, that wound had never quite healed. Everything that came after was just a domino effect after that.Â
If you were a little meaner to Mingyu than you had to be, if you were much more curt and snappy with him than you were with anyone else? It all came back to that. That moment where Mingyu hadnât seen youâ worse.Â
He had pretended not to.Â
You swallow, dragging yourself back to the present. Mingyu is watching you expectantly, waiting for an answer.
âBecause you didnât pick me,â you say at last, the words slipping out before you can stop them. âThat one time.âÂ
Mingyuâs brows knit together. âWhat?â he asks, and it feels like a punch in the gut.Â
The look of confusion on Mingyuâs faceâ you donât know if itâs a curse or a blessing. He doesnât remember. Of course he doesnât. Why would he?Â
But you do. You remember, and you hold on to it for the lack of a better thing to hold on to.Â
Hating Mingyu is easy. Seeing him in any other light takes work, and youâre tired of trying to figure that out.Â
Mingyu opens his mouth. For a second, it looks like he might protest. His brows pull together, his lips part, and thereâs something foreign in his expressionâ something that makes your stomach twist uncomfortably. But before he can say anything, you hear your mother beckoning for you from the restaurant.Â
You stand up and brush nonexistent dust off your clothes. âWell, thatâs my cue,â you say airily, praying to any higher power at all that Mingyu wonât call out the way your voice shakes. Just a little bit.Â
Instead, he remains by the monkey bars, watching you with an impassive look on his face. You can feel the weight of his stare even as you turn away.Â
You hesitate for half a second before glancing back at him. âWeâre probably better off this way,â you say, because you always have to have the last word.Â
His grip tightens around the swingâs chains, knuckles going white. Thereâs a pause.Â
Then, finally, he nods. A jerky, forced thing.
âYeah,â he says, voice strangely even. âProbably.â
You donât acknowledge the way the word sits heavy between you, donât let yourself linger on the way it sounds more like reluctant acceptance than agreement. Instead, you pretend not to hear it at all, turning on your heel and walking back toward the restaurant.Â
Hating Mingyu is easy. Itâs all youâre good for. As you leave him standing alone, you hope it feels a little bit like that day in your childhoodâ when youâd been the name he hadnât called.Â
⸠S01E12: THE ONE WITH THE SMILE.Â
Mingyu doesnât get it.
Heâs been off his game for days.Â
Itâs not an injury. Itâs not exhaustion. Heâs been training the same way, eating the same meals, sleeping the same hours. And yet his shots donât land the same. His passes are sloppy. He misses easy blocks he could have made blindfolded.
It pisses him off.
The ball soars past him yet again, hitting the back of the net with a dull thud. Vernon cheers and Wonwoo does a victory lap. Mingyu just stands there, hands on his hips, jaw locked tight. His fingers twitch at his sides, itching to punch the goalpost out of sheer frustration.
Seungcheol, ever the captain, jogs over. âThatâs enough,â he barks, voice edged with authority.Â
Mingyu bites the inside of his cheek. He knows whatâs coming for him, and yet he still tries to protest. âOne more round.â
âNo. Youâre done.â Seungcheolâs tone leaves no room for argument. âGo home. Figure out whateverâs got you playing like shit and come back when your headâs on straight.â
Mingyu has to bite back the retort that heâs not playing like shit, that he does have his head on straight. The numbers donât lie. Thereâs no talking his way out of this one. With a sharp exhale, he yanks off his gloves and stalks off the field, muttering curses under his breath.
As he grabs his bag and heads toward the exit, he runs through every possible reason for his sudden slump.Â
Training? No. Diet? No. Stress? Maybe, but itâs never affected him like this before.
You?
Youâve been distant ever since that night at the playground. The constant quips, the snarky remarks, the way you always seemed to find a reason to pester himâ itâs all dialed down to nearly nothing.Â
It should be a relief. He should be thriving with all this newfound peace and quiet.
Instead, heâs a goddamn mess.Â
Mingyu kicks a stray rock on the pavement as he walks to his car. He doesnât get it. He doesnât get you. And worse, he doesnât get why it bothers him so damn much.
Itâs entirely by accident, how he ends up spotting you. Maybe itâs some form of twisted divine intervention, some cruel twist of fate.Â
Heâs at a red light, drumming his fingers against the steering wheel, when he happens to glance to the side. And there you are, ripped right out of his scrambled brain, standing outside a cafĂŠ with a group of friends.
Youâre wearing one of those preppy outfits he always mocks you for, all pristine pleats and crisp collars. Itâs the kind of thing heâd usually say makes you look like you stepped straight out of some rich kid catalog. He tucks away the insult in his mind, filed for the next time you annoy him.
But thenâ
Youâre laughing. Your head tilts back; your eyes crinkle at the corners. The street lights catch on the soft highlights in your hair, the gentle slope of your nose, the flush on your cheeks from whatever ridiculous joke was just told.Â
You look light. At ease. So effortlessly happy.
Mingyu watches, unseen, his grip tightening on the steering wheel.
Heâs seen you smirk, seen you grin in that infuriating, self-satisfied way when you get under his skin. Heâs seen you scoff, roll your eyes, pout. But he doesnât think heâs ever seen you smile like that in front of him.
And whatâs worseâ
Why does he want it?
He presses on the gas pedal once the light turns green. By the time he pulls into his parking lot, his mind is still spinning. He kills the engine but doesnât move, just sits there, glaring at the wall in front of him.
Then, out of the corner of his eye, he sees it. A stray hair tie, wedged between the seats. One of yours.
He stares at it, his brain stalling. The last time you sat in his passenger seat⌠when was that? His mind scrambles, trying to pinpoint the moment, but he comes up empty. The fact that he doesnât know unsettles him more than it should.
Something else comes, too. A stupid, fleeting burst of happiness. An excuse to message you, to return it, to say something anything just to get you talking to him again.
The realization slams into him all at once.
His frustration. His inability to focus. The way your absence has been gnawing at him. The way your happiness without him made his chest ache.
Mingyu slumps forward in his seat, his forehead resting against his steering wheel.Â
Not even the screeching sound of his horn is able to drag him out of the horrific realization that heâs off his game because he likes you.
He likes you, the one person in the world he shouldnât. The one person in the world he canât have.Â
âFuuuck,â he grouses, banging his head on the steering wheel so that the beeps come in sporadic bursts. âFuck, fuck, fuck!â
Heâs fucked.Â
⸠S01E13: THE ONE WITH THE PLANNING.Â
You don't know when it startedâ this weird, drawn-out awkwardness with Mingyu.
Itâs not like youâve stopped arguing. You're still giving him shit for his stupid hair, his dumb socks, his loud chewing habits. But lately, heâs... off. Slower to snap back. Not quite meeting your eyes.Â
Worst of all? Heâs barely even tried to make fun of your outfit today.
Itâs part of the Mingyu playbook. Some wisecrack about your clothes, some comment about how you should be running hell in Satanâs place. If heâs feeling particularly inventive, he even deigns to bring your course into it.Â
Today, though, itâs all painfully polite. Curt answers and absentminded nods. You know youâve frozen him out since that night on the playground, but you didnât expect to get the same chill in return.Â
âSo what Iâm hearing is,â you say, tapping something into your phone, âyouâre fine with anywhere as long as thereâs pasta. Are you five?â
Mingyu squints at you like he's struggling to come up with a comeback. He opens his mouth. Closes it. Shrugs.
You narrow your eyes at him. âWow. Riveting. Have you always been this dull or did I finally break you?â
He laughs, but there's no real bite to it. âIâm just being agreeable,â he offers. Even the snark in that is half-hearted, hesitant. âYou should try it some time.â
âOh, don't get all mature on me now,â you scoff, scrolling through the list of local restaurants your parents emailed. âGod forbid you grow a personality overnight and forget how to argue.â
Mingyu mutters something under his breath that sounds suspiciously like âstill better than yours.â He seems distracted, for the lack of a better term. The two of you have the unfortunate task of deciding on the next joint family mealâs venue, and heâs been uncharacteristically civil throughout it all.
Somehow, it unnerves you more than when heâs being an insufferable asshole.Â
âSeriously, are you okay?â you press, a touch of concern making its way into your tone. âYou're kinda giving... robot with a mild software glitch."
âYeah, âm fine,â he grumbles. âJust tired."
âTired or scared Iâll beat you in the battle of wits today?â
âNot scared. Letting you have the spotlight for once.â
âTouching. Very generous.â You know a lost battle when you see one, so you scroll down the list again before turning your phone so he can see it. âOkay, vote: Overpriced fusion place with truffle everything or rustic hipster cafĂŠ that serves lattes with art so complicated it should be in a museum?â
Mingyu squints. âThe second one has better lighting.â
â... Lighting?â
He raises his shoulders in a shrug. âFor your parentsâ photos. You know how your mom gets.â
Something twists in your stomach.Â
The fact that Mingyu is considering your motherâs happiness, that he knows how she is and heâs not complainingâ instead accommodating?Â
You feel almost grateful, almost admiring, but you shake it off with a dramatic sigh. âFine. Hipster cafĂŠ it is. Letâs go, then.â
âIâm literally only here because you begged me to come.â
âYeah, but I begged louder. So I win.â
There it isâ the ghost of a smile tugging at the corner of his lips. Not quite a comeback. But closer.
It doesnât quite explain why his ears have turned pink, but thatâs a can of worms you decide youâre not ready to open up just yet. Instead, the two of you go to scope the venue, lest your parents call you out for not fulfilling your duty-bound obligation to this godforsaken tradition.Â
The cafĂŠ is aggressively quaint. All pastel walls and potted plants and menus printed in cursive. A waitress greets you at the door with a bright smile and a clipboard in hand.
âTable for two?â
âYeah,â Mingyu says.
She glances between the two of you, then beams. âPerfect! You're just in time for our coupleâs lunch special. It comes with two entrees, a shared appetizer, and dessert for only half the price.â
For a moment, you wish you could see yourself through the waitressâ eyes. You canât imagine a single thing that might give off the impression that you and Mingyu were a couple. Thereâs too much space between the two of you, and the look you two share is enough for you to gleam that heâs equally flabbergasted.Â
He turns to look back to the unassuming waitress. âOh, weâre notââ
The worldâs most brilliant idea strikes you then. You act on it before you can develop a semblance of shame.
âWe'll take it,â you cut in smoothly, linking your arm through Mingyuâs before he can ruin it. You smile sweetly at the waitress, completely ignoring the way Mingyu goes rigid beside you.
As youâre led to a corner table by the window, he leans down to frantically whisper, âWhat the hell was that?â
âA good deal,â you respond cheerfully. âUnless you want to pay full price just to protect your ego.â
He glares. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âYou knew that when you got in the car.â
The waitress sets down your menus and tells you sheâll be back shortly for your order. Mingyu slumps in his seat, looking very much like youâve told him he can never play soccer ever again.Â
âCheer up,â you say, nudging his shin under the table. âIf you play your cards right, I might even feed you.â
His eyes narrow. "You wouldnât dare."
Ah, but you would dare. The moment the pasta arrives, youâre already grinning. You twirl the noodles with your fork; he tries to communicate with his gaze that he wants you dead.Â
âSay ahhh, loverboy,â you sing-song.Â
âAbsolutely not.â
You kick him again. He hisses mid-sip of water. âJust pretend, Mingyu,â you say through the teeth of your smile. âGod, have you never faked a relationship for free food before?âÂ
âI have not, actually,â he retorts. âFuckinâ cheapskate.âÂ
Begrudgingly, he opens his mouth. He at least seems to know that youâre not about to let up. You shove the fork into his mouth; he retaliates by âfeedingâ you some chicken piccata, though itâs more of him forcing the bite into your mouth even after youâve protested the presence of peas.Â
The next half hour is full of increasingly absurd couple behavior. You fake gasp when he offers you water. He pretends to be offended when you steal his garlic bread. You stage-whisper pet names across the table just loud enough for the waitress to hear, coos of baby and sweetheart in between eye rolls and grimaces.Â
And through it all, there are momentsâ brief, fleetingâ when his eyes linger on yours just a second too long. When his smile is a little too soft. When his hand brushes yours and he doesnât pull away immediately.
You tell yourself itâs all part of the act.
But maybe thatâs not the whole truth.
The meal ends as it should. Mingyu foots the bill, and he does it without complaint. On your way out, the waitress smiles at the two of you like youâre some couple to be revered.Â
Pride sparks like a flint in your chest. You douse it as quickly as you can manage.Â
Outside, the sun is bright and the sidewalk smells like coffee and car exhaust. With your joint scoping done, the two of you walk a little slower than usual. Youâre unsure why youâre not rushing to get back to the car.
âWell,â you say casually, âyou make a convincing boyfriend. Color me shocked.â
Mingyu gives you a flat look. âGlad to know my fake relationship skills impress you.â
âWhat can I say? Low expectations,â you chirp, then jab him lightly with your elbow. âNow that I think about itâ you're pretty single, huh. Why is that, again?â
Itâs a jab that youâve delivered far better in the past. Jokes about him being unable to pull. Remarks of him not knowing the first thing about romance or women.Â
Today, though, it comes out as a query of genuine curiosity. One you typically might throw at someone you wanted to gauge interest in, and my God, how damning was that?
Mingyu doesnât make a big deal out of it. He answers your question with frustrating casualness, toying with his car keys as he drags his feet. âBusy. Not looking. The usual.â
You raise an eyebrow. âLame excuse. Try again.â
âWhat about you?â he counters, the attempt at evasion only driving you a little more crazy. âStill turning down anyone who doesnât meet your god-tier standards?â
You tilt your chin up, mock-offended. âAbsolutely. Only the best for me.â
âYeah? What does that even mean?â
Itâs obvious. You know the answer to this.
âSomeone whoâs funny. Smart. A little annoying but not, like, murder-worthy,â you ramble. âTall, but not weird-tall. Knows how to argue without being a total asshole. Kind to animals. Can cook. Probably has nice hands.â
The words come out easily, too easily. You mean to keep it jokey, casual, but the list tumbles out before you can really filter it. Itâs only when you hear it out loud that it hits you.
You know someone like that.
Your mouth goes dry. A beat passes.
You realize, too late, that you've gone quiet. That the silence between you has shifted. Itâs not awkward, but itâs charged.Â
Mingyu bumps your shoulder with his, snapping you out of your reverie. âThatâs oddly specific,â he taunts. âAnyone I know?â
You scoff and shove him away. âShut up.â
From the corner of your eye, you can see him fighting down a teasing grin. You can feel your pulse thudding in your ears, can feel the heat creeping up the back of your neck.
You donât dare look at him.
You hope Mingyu doesnât know. You hope he doesnât realize you just described someone that sounds suspiciously likeâÂ
⸠S01E14: THE ONE WITH THE WORST SEVEN MINUTES OF MINGYUâS LIFE.Â
Mingyu knows better than anyone, just how true the platitude every second counts is.Â
He plays soccer. Of course he knows the value of a ticking clock, of a last-minute save, of seconds that tick by arduously slow.
The clock has always been his enemy. But, today, itâs his friend.
Every second that ticks by moves the hands on the clock. Every movement on the clock will end this game faster.
He had this coming, really. When Ryujin dared him to kiss a girlâ any girlâ in the circle, he had known he was being baited. They all wanted him to choose you, to confirm whatever stupid assumptions theyâd made about your complicated relationship.
Mingyu lived to defy expectations, so he leaned over and pulled Chaeyoung into his lap, and he kissed her like it meant something. Did his eyes briefly flicker open to check if you were watching? Did he feel some sort of sick, perverse triumph when he saw that you looked annoyed?
He should have known that karma would bite him back fast. You had the tendency to do thatâ knowing just how to piss him off right back.
Itâs been two minutes and thirty-five seconds since you stepped into that goddamn pantry with Yugyeom.
âSeven minutes in heaven,â Jinyoung had teased when the bottle landed on you, giving you free rein to choose anyone.
And Mingyu knew immediately that it wouldnât be him.Â
Your high school friend group had jeered and laughed and teased when you reached for Yugyeom. Mingyu was not an inherently violent person, but he wanted so badly, in that moment, to wipe the smug smirk off the other manâs face.
You didnât even look at Mingyu as you slinked away with Yugyeom.Â
Mingyu is nursing a new bottle now.Â
Trying to focus on the game. Trying to ignore the empty spaces in the circle. Someoneâs daring something scandalous, a strip tease of some sortsâ
Youâre wearing his jacket, Mingyu realizes. From the little spat earlier this night when youâd spilled rum down the front of your shirt. Before you could throw a hissy fit, heâd shoved his varsity jacket in your arms and told you to suck it up.
The thought of Yugyeom unbuttoning that piece of clothingâ that one thing on your body that might mark you as Mingyuâs, if it mattered at allâ has the keeper clenching his beer bottle a little tighter.Â
Itâs been three minutes and twelve seconds. Mingyu doesnât know why heâs counting it down, but he also doesnât know how to keep his cool.
His brain keeps supplying him with images of what he might do if he were in Yugyeomâs place.
The realistic answer: Youâd sulk, probably. Find a way to blame him for the situation. The two of you would bicker the entire seven minutes and then come out of the secluded pantry in foul moods. Seven minutes in hell, he would say sarcastically, when asked, and youâd flip him off.Â
Underneath the realistic answer, though, is something thatâs close to a fantasy. His hands resting at your sides, his touch warm over yourâ hisâ jacket. Your fingers entangled in his hair. The way he'd have to lean down, to tilt his head.
Would you taste like all the alcohol youâd drank that night?
Would you taste like everything heâs ever dreamed of?
Mingyu shakes his head and takes a sip of his beer, his fingers trembling around the bottle. Eunwoo is stripping as part of a dare; Mingyu tries to focus on that, and not on the fact that itâs been five minutes and fifty-two seconds.
Jungkook lets out a loud squeal. The sound pierces through the pre-drunk migraine that Mingyu already feels coming on. The soundâ
What would you sound like?
In his arms. Against his mouth. Underneathâ
âFuck,â Mingyu cusses lowly, the word spoken mostly to himself.Â
Heâs drunk. Heâs riled up. And youâre just so pretty tonightâ
âOi, lovebirds!â Jinyoung calls out in the direction of the pantry. âSeven minutes are up!â
Mingyu barely registers the sharp ring of the seven-minute alarm going off, or the jabs that everybody else throws out. His gaze is now fixed on the pantry door, the one he has to fight every urge to approach. Every second that ticks past the required mark has his head spinning with thoughts, with ideas that he would rather not dwell on.
Yugyeom emerges first, that smirk of his still in place. You come out right after, looking unruffled as you smooth out the front of your shirt.
You donât waste a single beat. Your eyes find Mingyuâs face, where heâs poorly concealed just how much more intoxicated he's gotten in your absence.
A corner of your mouth tilts upward in a vicious smile. The action you give him next is so brief, he could have imagined it.Â
You pucker your lips.
A flying kiss.
Mingyu has never wanted you so badly.
⸠S01E15: THE ONE WITH THE WORST SEVEN MINUTES OF YOUR LIFE.Â
Seven minutes.
You could do anything in seven minutes.
Say something stupid. Say something brave. Let someone kiss you. Let someone else go.
You step into the pantry and it smells like cinnamon and dust and maybe a little bit of regret. Yugyeomâs behind you, grinning like this is just another game. And maybe to him, it is. A dare. A kiss. A story to laugh about later.
The second the door shuts, the world dulls. Muffled cheers and drunken cackles blur into the walls, and itâs just the two of you in this cramped little time capsule. His hand grazes your arm. Your breath catches, but not for the reason itâs supposed to.
âHey, pretty,â Yugyeom greets, and thereâs some sort of vindication in knowing he actually does think youâre pretty.Â
This was an evening of unepic proportions, of high school friends coming together for a birthday party and bad decisions. In your head, thereâs some small consolation to the fact that thereâs not much light in the pantry.
Just the hint of fluorescence flooding through the door crack, reminding you of a loose circle where Mingyu is seated.Â
The thought of him makes your skin crawl. Itâs bad enough that you donât know how to act around him anymore. But then he went in to make out with Chaeyoung of all fucking peopleâÂ
âLetâs get on with this, Kim,â you tell Yugyeom, trying to sound convincing, sultry.
Your voice wavers just a bit on the surname. Wrong Kim.Â
To give Yugyeom some credit, he laughs softly before leaning in. His lips are warm. Kind. And you think, briefly, that he must be good at this. The kind of guy who gets picked in these games a lot. The kind of guy who smiles and means it.
You wonder if youâll feel anything when he kisses you.
You donât.
Itâs not bad. Itâs just not⌠anything.
You try. You really, really do. Your fingers curl at the front of Yugyeomâs shirt; his own hands dance over your sides. Over the jacket, over Mingyuâs jacket, and you wince because youâre thinking of him, of the way heâd introduced himself to the unfamiliar faces with that winning smile and that nickname of his, the stupid Gyu you never get to call himâÂ
âMmm,â Yugyeom hums against your lips. He pulls back, eyes still closed, a lazy grin on his face. âDid you just say âGyuâ?â
Fuck.
You blink at Yugyeom, your brain slow to catch up. âNo, I didnât,â you sputter.Â
He opens one eye. âYou totally did.â
You could say you said Gyeom. You could simply shut Yugyeom up with a fiercer kiss, maybe a little more action.
But itâs there, out in the open, curling in the space between you two like something dangerous and damagingÂ
The slip wasnât just a slip. It was your heart showing its cards. A royal fucking flush you canât even begin to run from.
Your hand falls to your side. Yugyeom steps back.Â
No annoyance, no dramaticsâ just something soft in his smile that makes it worse. âYou wanna try that again? With the right guyâs name this time?â
You cover your face with your hands. âYugyeom,â you groan, because while you canât bring yourself to try making out again, you can at least say the right name. âPlease donât make fun of me.â
âNever,â he chirps. He shifts to lean on one of the pantryâs low shelves, hands tucked in his hoodie. âSo. Mingyu, huh?â
You donât answer right away.
Because what is there to say? That youâve spent more than half your life wrapped in arguments and almosts and the kind of tension that shouldâve burned out by now but hasnât? That the sound of your name in Mingyuâs mouth makes you want to scream or kiss him or both? That he gave you his stupid jacket and youâre still wearing it like it means something?
âItâs complicated,â you gripe.Â
Yugyeom cackles. âThatâs the most girl-whoâs-in-love thing Iâve ever heard.â
âShut up.â
He doesnât. âYou know he was watching the door like a lovesick puppy, right?â
That shouldnât make your heart flutter. It does anyway. âHe was?â you ask, and you could kick yourself for just how giddy you sound.Â
Itâs as close to a direct confirmation that Yugyeom is going to get. You think that he might be grinning, but itâs not something you can be sure of in the darkness. Itâs something you hear instead, bleeding into his words. âPretty sure he was ready to fight me.âÂ
You sit beside Yugyeom. The shelf creaks. Your hands are cold in your lap, but your face is burning.
âDo you love him?â he asks, and itâs so straightforward you want to laugh.
You donât say a thing. Itâs one of those silence-means-yes moments, one of those things that should go unsaid.Â
The sun is warm, the sky is blue, and youâre in love with Kim Mingyu. Â
Despite how much the fact has simmered underneath your skin, itâs something you canât bring yourself to say out loud. Because itâs not that easy. Because itâs him. Because you know the way he isâ impulsive and stubborn and so good at pretending he doesnât care when really, he cares too much.
And so you donât answer Yugyeom. The two of you kill the remaining minutes in silence; itâs almost like your friend is letting you sit with the truth, the realization.
After a long moment, he leans in to press a chaste, friendly kiss to the top of your head.
âWhatever it is,â he mumbles into your hair, âheâs one lucky bastard.âÂ
You let out a watery laugh. You hadnât even realized you were tearing upâ the sheer fear of the reality overwhelming you.Â
Jinyoungâs voice echoes from outside. âOi, lovebirds! Seven minutes are up!â
âCome on. Gotta act like we had some fun in here,â Yugyeom urges. âYou picked me to make him jealous, right? Letâs make it look like that.âÂ
âI owe you my first born child,â you respond, genuinely grateful despite everything.Â
âHopefully the one youâll have with MingââÂ
âLetâs not go there.âÂ
He messes with your hair. You rumple up his shirt. Itâs all a farce, a show, and Yugyeom is kind enough to play along. He throws you a conspiratorial wink as he steps out, that smirk of his slotting right back on to his barely-swollen lips.Â
You take a deep breath, and then you follow.Â
Itâs almost like a magnet, how your eyes seek out Mingyu. He looks just a little more drunk; a feat, considering the fact youâve been gone for only seven minutes.Â
You canât help it. Your mouth twitches in a fond grin. The way his gaze is burning into you, the way heâs clutching his beer bottle just a little too tightly?Â
That might be what compels you. Itâs a flicker of an action, a ghost of a tease. You throw him a flying kiss, giggling to yourself when his face flushes a shade of red.Â
You have never wanted Mingyu so badly.Â
⸠S01E16: THE ONE WITH THE âMISTAKEâ.Â
He doesn't want to be mad.
Truly. Logically. On paperâ whatever. Mingyu knows he started it.Â
He kissed Chaeyoung first. He played the game. He played you. And now here you are, sitting cross-legged on his couch in your usual over-the-top family dinner outfit. Like that one night at the party didnât end with him counting down seconds that felt like drowning.
Youâre humming some song under your breath. Youâre so calm, so nonchalant.Â
Mingyu is not. He stomps and clenches his hands into fists and slams his drawer with more force than necessary.
You glance up from your phone. âDamn,â you say with a low whistler. âDid the closet offend you or something?âÂ
He doesnât answer. Heâs pulling clothes out of his dresser like they all personally insulted him. Button-down, slacks, watch, socks. All too formal for something thatâs supposed to be casual, but tonight everything feels like a performance.
He ducks into his room and dresses quickly. By the time he emerges, youâre already standing by the front door. It shoots a momentary panic through him, the thought of you leaving.
But then youâre quipping, âYou said we had to leave at seven. Itâs 6:55. Just reminding you before you start blaming me for being late.â
âIâm not blaming you,â he grunts, padding across his living room in search of his wallet.Â
He can see you looking skeptical in his peripheral vision. âSure feels like it,â you huff.
âCan you not?â
âCan I not what? Breathe in your general direction?â
Mingyu exhales sharply. He should stop. He should apologize. He should not make this worse.
He does.
âYeah?â His tone drips with derision as he finally shoves his essentials into the pocket of his trousers. âMaybe if you werenât so good at pretending nothing ever touches you, I wouldnât have to.â
You laugh; the sound is incredulous, sharp. Offended?Â
âRight, because clearly youâre the one whoâs been suffering,â you jeer. And then, completely out of the left fieldâ
âI forgot how hard it mustâve been for you, kissing Chaeyoung like your life depended on it.â
Thereâs so much to unpack. The way youâre bringing this whole thing up days after it happened, even after you and Mingyu have just kind of⌠bristled at each other a lot more. Mingyu wanted to think your patience was just a lot thinner than usualâ as was hisâ but he hadnât imagined it would be related to that night. Or to Chaeyoung.Â
It makes his heart, the traitor that it is, practically stop in his chest.Â
He knows where youâre getting at. He knows what this could mean. He just has to make sure, and itâs in the way he tries to keep up with his rage when he snaps, âWhat does that have to doââÂ
âWhy didnât you kiss me?â
And there it is.Â
The question cuts through everything. Your voiceâ loud at first, angryâ is suddenly small. Wounded.
Mingyuâs head spins.Â
You wanted him to kiss you.Â
You wanted him to kiss you.Â
His mouth opens then closes. Your face is incandescent, burning with shame. He knows this about you, knows youâve never been able to deny yourself a thing. Youâre an open book, a heart-on-the-platter type of girl. As badly as he wants to try and figure out all the signs he might have missed, heâs more concerned with the fact that youâre already trying to take it back.
Your hand is on the door handle. Youâre about to make a run for it, Mingyu realizes, and thatâs not something heâs going to let happen.Â
Before you can get too far, his fingers are wrapping around your wrist and tugging you back.
When you look up at him, his expression is contorted into a mix of torment and want. Youâre not looking any better yourself; you look caught between desire and fear, like all the years youâve shared are bearing down on the two of you.Â
You look as crazy as Mingyu feels.Â
âI was waiting,â Mingyu breathes, his eyes wide and wild. âI was waitingââ
âFor what?â you bite out. âWhat were you waiting for?â
His sharp response is softened by the desperation edging his tone. âFor the perfect moment,â he snaps.
Mingyu tugs you into his space. Heâs gentle, still, as he snakes an arm around your waist and pulls you closer until youâre chest to chest. He has to tuck his head to press his forehead against yours, and he canât breathe.Â
Youâre holding your breath, too, like youâre fighting every instinct to kick up a fuss at how patient heâs being. He has to be. He has to be, or else heâs going to give you everything when the two of you have to meet your families for the night.Â
His breath ghosts over your lips, which are already parted so beautifully for him.
âBut I guess,â he whispers, his heart in his throat, at your feet, in your hands, âmy shitty apartment is as good as any for a first kiss, huh?â
Mingyu doesnât even wait for you to answer.Â
He closes the distance and presses down into you, enough that you end up taking a step back. When your nails sink into Mingyuâs shoulders to hold yourself steady, he lets out a low hiss against your mouth but refuses to pull away.
He kisses you like heâs thought about doing it for years.Â
And maybe he has. Maybe itâs always been thereâ this prospect, this possibility, and he couldâve gone his whole life just wondering what it might be like.
Now that he has it, has you, he doesnât know if he can go without it.
It might be a mistake. He knows that.Â
Heâs crossed a line youâve both danced around for too long. There's a part of himâ rational and carefulâ that screams this could ruin everything.
But then you kiss him back.
You kiss him back like you mean it, like youâre angry about all the years wasted not doing this. Like you want to climb into the marrow of him and stay there.Â
Mingyu doesnât know how long it lasts. Doesnât care. Eventually, the space between you pulls taut again, and you're both left staring, dazed, stunned, as if the world has shifted under your feet.
His fingers ghost over his lips. Theyâre swollen, just like yours, and he knows thereâs no going back from this. Thereâs no way heâll ever be able to convince himself that youâre some annoying pest instead of the love of his goddamn life.Â
âWeâ we should go,â Mingyu says hoarsely, barely above a whisper. Itâs all he can manage.
And for once, you donât fight him.
⸠S01E17: THE ONE WITH THE PROMISE.Â
The bane of your existence drives you to your familyâs monthly dinner in his car with its one working speaker, and a half-eaten protein bar wedged into the cupholder.
You complain about the lack of legroom. He snarks back about your giant tote bag taking up all the space. Itâs almost impressive how easily the two of you slip back into the familiar routine of bickering.Â
If someone were to eavesdrop, theyâd never guess youâd made out half an hour ago. That heâd kissed you like you were the only thing keeping him breathing; that youâd kissed him like he had all the answers to the questions youâve been afraid to ask.Â
Mingyu parallel parks like an assholeâ too far from the curbâ and you mutter something under your breath as you slam the door shut behind you.
âYou could say thank you,â he says, locking the car.
âThank you,â you echo. âFor the trauma.â
He almost smiles. The sight of him fighting that back reminds you of his lips, how theyâd been so soft against yours despite the heated, desperate way he moved.Â
Your brain is going to be in the gutter the whole evening. Youâre sure of it.Â
Your families are already there at the vouchsafed hipster cafĂŠ when the two of you walk through the door. For a treacherous moment, everything feels like clockwork again. The smell of garlic bread wafts through the air. His mother greets you with a warm hug. His dad already has a story locked and loaded. Your parents give him the same doting affection.Â
Itâs so normal you almost forget whatâs changed.
Almost.
Mingyu sits next to you instead of across from you. He offers you the breadbasket first, tops your glass when nobody else is looking.Â
At one point, you arch a brow at him, suspicious. He says nothing.
Itâs all suspicious.
Conversation flows easily enough. Your families are familiar, loud, opinionated. Thereâs some rapport between you and Mingyu; if your parents notice that itâs not as scathing as usual, they donât point it out.Â
Under the table, something changes.
You feel it before you see it. Mingyuâs hand, careful and tentative, resting on your knee. His touch is featherlight, like heâs giving you a chance to move away.
You donât.
Itâs hidden by the table cloth, and you think you might be imagining it until you glance at him.
Heâs already looking at you.
His expression is half-agony, half-hope.
And thatâs the thing about Kim Mingyu. Heâs always been too much and never enough. Too loud, too cocky, too frustrating. Never thoughtful enough, never serious enough, never willing to make the first move until now.Â
Youâre done keeping score. This isnât a battle of wits, a challenge of who can hold out better. This is a game neither of you will win.Â
No. This is a game you no longer have to play.Â
You lace your fingers through his.Â
Mingyuâs shoulders drop like heâs been holding that breath for years. He squeezes your hand, and you think you could get used to this, to him. Youâll have to talk about it later, to decide; for now, though, the promise of it is more than enough.
You used to think there was no universe in which you and Kim Mingyu could ever get along.
But maybeâ just maybeâ this one will do.
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"This is what you asked for
Heavy is the crown
Fire in the sun
As ash is raining down"
Arcane, Season Two, Act One
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EDIT: since people keep liking this im gonna make it my intro post now HAH
This is old, anyone who viewed my blog before Sawnoob got raptured knows it did.
Sawnoob tr:ud ask blog. automatically
#HCS below VV
um. ok how do i do this
Ace and like slightly aro
NOT trans
still remembers what he did and is trying to forget it ever happened
#how do you post hcs
hangs out in the deep dark woods when it's day because the sunlight hurts his eyes like hell
He HAS to have eyebags if he stays up talking to people (anons and just. Blogs) a bunch
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autistic but like only the sensory issues and thats it
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Shouting out Red and the Tft Buntoine drawing đŞ
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You're so so so so so so silly! Oh, Silly-Vanilly!
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KARINA for PUSS PUSS Magazine (April 2025)
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HAPPY FATHERâS DAY TO THE ULTIMATE DADDY đđđ
#currently working on the 13th baby thank you for asking đĽ°đĽ°đĽ°#levi ackerman#levi ackerman x reader#levi x reader#attack on titan#shingeki no kyojin#aot#snk#aphroditaeon.txt#đ
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is this what they mean when they say your dash "does a thing" am i doing it?
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g. satoru who is a massive pervert and constantly whines for you to let him touch you all the time, even when you're both around others. you've lost count of how many times he grabs you and pulls you into his lap, his warm hands slipping under your shirt while sitting next to g. suguru, who's attention is no longer on the tv.
'he doesn't mind,' satoru always comforts you, grinning into the skin of your neck. 'sugu's my best friend, he knows i can't help but touch you, baby.'
best friend or not, that doesn't explain how you always ended up with your legs spread open wide in satoru's lap, your jeans and panties discarded somewhere on the floor as suguru kisses all over your thighs. the two of them talk like you aren't even there, as if you aren't growing wetter as each second passes.
"satoru," suguru purrs, his fingers running up and down your soft lips, parting them open to watch slick slowly drip out of you. "you must be doing something else to her. i've never seen it get wet so quickly." the way he speaks so calmly makes you dizzy. it's unfair, so fucking unfair how calm and collected suguru is when he's inches away from your pussy, those pretty purple eyes focused on it.
"yeah? 's wet?" it's also unfair how riled up it gets satoru, seeing his pretty baby getting shy because his best friend is rubbing his fingers up and down her slick folds. "she's so messy, isn't she? she's the prettiest little pussy," he coos into your ear. that gets a chuckle from suguru, his eyes finally looking at you. "always the one to talk to the pussy and not about it, aren't you, satoru?"
his fingers finally focus on your clit, rubbing little circles into it. both you and satoru look pretty from this angle, suguru notices. the pure need and shyness on your face paired with that manic desperation on satoru's...it's a perfect picture, one he wants saved forever. maybe next time you'll let him take some pictures...after all, he needs a new background for his phone.
"c'mooon, sugu...give her a kiss? c'mon, c'mon, give that cunt a kiss, tell me how sticky 'n' wet she is," satoru fucking begs, acting as if he's the one spread open and dripping. but you second the thought, giving suguru the prettiest little puppy eyes.
"anything for you, princess," he coos softly, leaning down and pressing a little kiss on your clit. it's so light you barely feel it but then he's peppering kisses on it, your wetness starting to get on his lips and making each press of his lips sticker and wetter. "s-sugu-!" before you can even beg for more, his mouth is on you. his tongue is so wet and hot on your cunt, it feels like he was drooling for you.
"does she taste good? how wet is she, suguru, c'mon, tell me, tell me how that pussy tastes, pretty please?"
"mm, satoru, it's almost as if you wanted to be between her legs."
"who wouldn't? she's so pretty, she's squirmin' so cutely, my pretty baby, my needy little mochi, her pussy's always so creamy and warm and messy, god, i miss it right now."
"shit...stop talking like that, you're gettin' me flustered, should i-"
"s-sugu, please, keep going," you so politely ask. it's unbearable how cute you are, it's taking everything in him to keep being nice, to keep treating your cunt nicely. he knows satoru is mean and practically bullies your pretty slit almost every day, but he wants to be the nice one, the one who you go to when your 'toru' is being too mean. yet, you're making it so fucking hard when you look at him with lidded eyes that beg him to be rougher with you...
but he knows he's done for when satoru whispers something in your ear that has your eyes fluttering a bit and gets a pretty little gasp from you. those gorgeous eyesâoh, do you have little tears in them too?âconnect with his and he's fucked.
"s-suguuu, please," you coo to him, moving your legs to hook over his shoulders and pull him closer to the apex of your thighs. "i need your mouth on my pussy r-really bad, please don't tease me." you take a pause and squeeze your eyes shut, whining a little as satoru coos for you to keep going. "g-give my...my messy cunt attention, suguru..."
suguru shakily sighs and the next thing you know, his mouth is smushed against your pussy, his tongue hungrily swirling against your clit as his hands grab onto the fat of your thighs. he doesn't know what gojo told you in order to hear you say that, but he's silently thanking him as he messily sucks and slurps at your juicy cunt.
it's so hot, all it takes is a few swipes of his tongue and you're gushing everywhere. suguru lowers his head to dip into your hole and he moans. he missed this, missed the sweet taste of your juices on his tongue as you squirmed and moaned for him, your boyfriend's best friend.
"fuck, i-i can hear how wet she is," comes satoru's pitiful whine, his hand dipping down to swipe at your clit as suguru focused on lapping up everything that dripped out of you. "lemme help, lemme help, wanna help you get her creamy, sugu." the feeling of suguru groaning into your puffy folds has you keening, arching your back against satoru's chest. oh, he's in heaven watching you both. "yeah, you didn't know she could cream, didya? put your fingers in her, sugu, put 'em in that sticky little pussy 'n' angle up."
reluctantly pulling his mouth off you with a wet sound, suguru slips two of his fingers in you. he doesn't miss the cry of his name, but he really doesn't miss the delirious giggle and moan when he angles his fingers up, rubbing against that spongy spot.
"f-fuck, she's dripping..."
"go on, fuck her with your fingers, you know you wanna see her make a mess. make her fucking cream, suguru, get her prepped. maybe t'day she'll let you put it in...oh, based on your face, she just clenched on your fingers, yeah?"
his fingers are still swirling around your clit, his other coming down to press on your abdomen. he can hear you getting wetter, your little whimpers turning to moans as you slur their names desperately. he wants you to lose all thoughts, only able to think about him and suguru...yeah, he wants you all soft and sweet so he and his best friend can try and slip into those warm, slick walls.
"mmn...she's really creaming...god, pretty girl, can you cum for me? i wanna see you cum on my fingers. satoru, move your fingers, the poor thing needs my mouth on her."
"hmmm, suddenly you know what she needs? ehehehe, you're learninggg, suguruuuu!" if you had turned to look at satoru, you'd see the charged look in his eye, blue eyes practically glowing with insanity. his hand grabs a fistful of suguru's hair and pulls his face directly into your cunt, unable to handle any more of this. he wanted to see you cum on suguru's face.
"c'mon, c'mon, kiss it, suguru, make it messy for the both of us. mmh, fuck, listen to you making out with her pussy, s' wet and sticky, isn't it? oohmygod, both of you sound so good, she's gonna cum, sugu, she's gonna cum in your mouth...fuck, i love you both so much, can't wait to see you both fucking each other."
#geto suguru smut#gojo satoru smut#gojo smut#suguru smut#geto smut#geto suguru x reader#geto x reader#gojo x reader#gojo satoru x you#gojo satoru x reader#jjk smut#jjk x you#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen smut#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen x you#đ ââ satoru.#đŽ ââ suguru.#i am insane !!#ËËË â
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in good faith đŻď¸ seungcheol x reader.
âbecause angels are beautiful.â he pauses for a beat. âmore than thatâ theyâre obedient.â
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genre/warnings: 18+ content. smut. alternate universe: non-idol, religious themes and references, blasphemy, corruption kink. morally gray/manipulative csc, inexperienced reader, oral (m), fingering. let me know if i missed anything. not proofread. â
footnotes: this is not the first fic that will be written about these photos. it will also not be the last. dedicated to @cxffecoupx, who so generously let me play with her idea and add a bit of my spin to it. love you dearly, ris; i hope this lives up even the teensiest bit to what you had in mind! âšđš
The first time you meet Seungcheol again, itâs in the dimly lit corner of your parish hall. Your mother drags you over to him like an offering, her fingers biting into your wrist as she beams up at him.
âThis is my daughter,â she says, voice brimming with pride. âYou remember her, donât you?â
Seungcheolâs smile is gentle, his head dipping in a slight bow. âOf course,â he says, steady as a psalm. âItâs been a long time.â
It has. You barely remember himâ just a vague recollection of a boy with scraped knees and a perpetual grin. Someone who always stood too close to the altar, staring up at the crucifix like he wanted to be swallowed whole by it.
This man before you is different. He stands taller now, his shoulders broad. His dark hair is neatly trimmed; his white button-down, pristine. A silver cross dangles from a chain around his neck.Â
âSeungcheol is leading the youth ministry now,â your mother gushes. âIsnât that wonderful?â
âWonderful,â you echo, eyes flicking to the way his fingers curl around the spine of a leather-bound Bible.
Seungcheol chuckles. A low, rich sound that hums in your chest. âIâm just doing what I can,â he responds. âItâs a blessing to be able to serve.â
The conversation drifts around you. Talks of charity events, of how Seungcheol spends his weekends visiting the sick, of how he volunteers to clean the church after late-night vigils. Your mother calls him a godsend. A good man.Â
And he is. Seungcheol meets your gaze with the unwavering steadiness of a saint, the flickering candlelight casting soft shadows across his face. He offers to walk you home, and your mother all but shoves you toward him.
It should be safe. Seungcheol is good. Seungcheol is holy.
But something lingers in the air as he falls into step beside you.
âYou didnât say much back there,â he muses, glancing at you from the corner of his eye. âDo I make you nervous?â
You hesitate. ��No,â you lie.
He smiles. Not the same polite, tempered curve of his lips from earlier. This one is smaller, sharper. As if he knows something you donât.
âGood,â Seungcheol murmurs with a tone of velvet and smoke. âIâd hate to scare you away.â
The streetlights above you flicker, their glow dimming like a prolonged inhale. You wonder, briefly, if you should be afraid.
The walk home is quiet, save for the steady echo of your footsteps against the pavement. Seungcheol doesnât push for conversation, letting the silence stretch between you like an unspoken understanding. Every so often, he glances at you.Â
When you finally reach your doorstep, he lingers, his fingers slipping into his pockets as he rocks back on his heels. The porch light casts a warm halo over his head. For a moment, he looks almost ethereal. Like a painting of an angel, edges softened by the glow.
âYouâll be at mass on Sunday?â he asks conversationally.Â
You nod, your hand gripping the doorknob like a lifeline. âYeah.â
His grin returns. âItâs important to stay close to God,â he says.Â
Thereâs a beat of silence and you think he might finally leave. But Seungcheol steps closer instead, his presence looming; pressing against you without ever touching. His eyes dip to your hand on the doorknob before lifting back to meet your gaze.
âIf you ever need someone to talk to,â he says, âyou can call me.â
Your throat tightens. âOkay.â
Seungcheol tilts his head, studying you like heâs searching for something just beneath your skin. Then, he reaches out, fingers brushing lightly against your shoulder. Itâs supposed to be casual, supposed to be part of his carefully packaged goodbye.Â
Why does it burn, then? Why does it feel like some forbidden apple, hanging just within your reach?Â
âGood night,â Seungcheol says, voice dripping with something saccharine. Something final.
âGood night,â you say back as your heart hammers against your ribs.
He turns and disappears into the night, footsteps fading until you can no longer hear them. Even as you step inside and lock the door, the weight of him lingers.Â
That Sunday, Seungcheolâs presence bears down on you once more.Â
Families are packed into the wooden pews, the soft hum of hymns echoing against the stone walls. Candles flicker, drawing long shadows over stained glass windows. The air smells of incense and old wood.
You spot Seungcheol right away.
Heâs kneeling at the front of the church, head bowed in prayer, his fingers delicately clasped around his cross. The morning light catches in his hair, turning the dark strands golden at the edges. For a moment, he looks like he belongs in one of the frescoes above the altar.
You sit, try to focus on the mass, but itâs impossible. Not when he finally rises, turning to scan the crowd. His eyes find yours like a hook, and you swear he smiles before he looks away.
When itâs time for the sign of peace, heâs suddenly there, slipping into the pew beside you.
âPeace be with you,â Seungcheol murmurs, his hand reaching for yours.
It should be an innocent gesture. Everyone is doing itâ trading handshakes and wishes of peace. But when his fingers wrap around yours, his thumb drags over your knuckles, slow and deliberate. The touch is fleeting. It sears.Â
You donât even register your automatic response before he pulls away, stepping back as if nothing happened. His expression remains serene, respectful, as he nods politely and returns to his spot at the front.
Your heart pounds through the rest of the service.
Afterward, as the congregation drifts outside, you linger near the vestibule. You half hope and half dread that heâll seek you out.Â
In the end, he does.Â
âYouâre staying for fellowship?â he asks you smoothly.
âIâ no,â you stammer. âI was just leaving.â
Seungcheol tilts his head, considering. âIâm glad you came today.â The corner of his mouth lifts with the hint of a smirk. âItâs nice to see you.â
It shouldnât make your stomach twist the way it does. But as he steps back, joining the rest of the parishioners with effortless ease, you canât shake the feeling that heâs still watching youâ even when his back is turned.
You tell yourself youâre going to church for yourself. That the knot of anticipation in your stomach is just leftover nerves, not expectation. When you slip into a pew, your gaze flicking over the heads of the faithful, you know better.
Seungcheol finds you like he always does. He slides into the seat beside you just before the first reading, the scent of his sharp cologne mingling with the sharp tang of incense.
âYou came back,â he whispers, the hint of a praise just for you. Just for you.Â
You try not to balk. âOf course.â
His gaze lingers, dark and steady, before he turns back to the altar. His thigh presses against yours, just enough that you canât ignore it.
Through the homily, he doesnât move away. If anything, he shifts closer, his knee brushing yours every time you shift in your seat. Your skin sparks where he touches. The ache in your chest only deepens.
When mass ends, he doesnât let you slip away this time.
âCan I walk you home?â Seungcheol offers.Â
You should say no.Â
You donât.
As you head out together, the only sound initially is the crunch of gravel beneath your shoes and the distant toll of the church bells. Seungcheol walks beside you, his cross glinting in the late morning light.
âYouâve been on my mind,â he says after a couple of minutes, breaking the silence. The words are soft, carefully chosen.
Your pulse jumps. âWhat?â
He stops and turns to face you. For the first time, he makes no effort to hide itâ the way he looks at you, like heâs already made up his mind about what he wants.
âI think,â Seungcheol says, taking an infinitesimal step closer to you, âyou like when I pay attention to you.â
You step back, but he matches it. His hand lifts, fingers barely grazing your wrist. Not holding. Just enough to feel your pulse hammering beneath the skin.
âI shouldnât say things like that, should I?â His voice is low, nearly apologetic. âIâm sorry if Iâm wrong, angel.â
Angel. The choice of pet name settles over you like a second skin. This is the part where youâre supposed to agree that he shouldnât say things like this, that you deserve the apology heâs doling out. Instead, you find yourself willingly trapped in whatever dance Seungcheol has orchestrated.Â
And the smile he gives youâ all dimples and sharp teethâ tells you he notices.
He tilts his head, studying you as if youâre a puzzle heâs already halfway solved. âAngel,â Seungcheol repeats. âIs that alright with you?â
âWhy that?â you ask, voice quieter than youâd like.
His thumb grazes the inside of your wrist, the faintest touch, like heâs testing the weight of your reaction. âBecause angels are beautiful.â He pauses for a beat. âMore than thatâ theyâre obedient.â
The word lingers, heavy and deliberate, and the heat that rushes through you feels sinful. He waits, gaze unwavering. âDo you mind?â he asks again, and his concern would be genuine there werenât a dozen alarm bells going off in your brain.
Youâre a lamb being primed for slaughter, you think, as you give a jerky shake of your head. No, you donât mind, youâre saying, even though youâre not a hundred percent sure what youâre walking into.Â
âThatâs what I thought,â Seungcheol says, his hand sliding to entangle your fingers with his.
The satisfaction in his voice sounds a lot like benediction.
You hadnât expected to see Seungcheol waiting for you outside the parish hall.
The evening mass just ended, the lingering scent of incense clinging to the humid air. Most of the congregation had already filtered out, murmuring goodbyes and making their way home.Â
You should be among them, with your mother. Instead, you find yourself waiting with bated breath by the outside of the buildingâ watching Seungcheol shuffle toward you with slow, deliberate purpose.
His eyes drop to your dress. Itâs subtle, the way his expression changes, the slight shift in his stance. You feel his scrutiny like a weight.
âThis is new,â he says, gaze dragging over the delicate fabric. The way the hem flutters just above your knees.
You cross your arms over your chest, suddenly unsure if you should shrink under his stare or stand taller. âI wear dresses to church all the time.â
âMm.â Seungcheol hums, something unreadable in his tone. âNot like this.â
Itâs not a condemnation, not exactly. But it makes your skin prickle. Your pulse, too loud in your ears.
You exhale shakily, trying to maintain at least some composure. âIs there a problem?â
His answer comes slower this time, drawn out like heâs considering it carefully. âNot at all,â he says, though his voice has dropped to something quieter, rougher. âIt just makes it a little harder to behave.â
Your breath catches.
âDid you wear it for me?â He takes another step forward, crowding the space between you. The parish hall looms behind him, dark and quiet, as if holding its breath.
âNo,â you fib, but youâre not sure why you bother.
Seungcheol clicks his tongue and reaches out. His fingers graze the hem of your dress, barely a touch. Enough to send a shiver up your spine. âShame,â he murmurs. âItâs a pretty little thing.âÂ
His hand trails upward. Not far, just a few inches. The implication is there, hanging thick in the night air.
Your lips part, a protest or a prayerâ you donât know which. Then, Seungcheol lifts his other hand, cradling the side of your face. His thumb brushes over your cheek. Featherlight. Loving, in another lifetime.Â
Seungcheol leans in, his breath warm against your lips. âAngel,â he murmurs, âtell me if you want me to stop.â
You donât.Â
When he finally closes the distance, kissing you slowly and deliberately, you realizeâ he already knew that.
The gentleness from before fades quickly, replaced by something more desperate, more demanding. His hand slides from your cheek to the back of your neck, holding you in place as he deepens the kiss. His lips part against yours, tongue sweeping over the seam of your mouth until you give in and let him take more.
You whimper, and he swallows the sound like it belongs to him. Itâs recklessâ the way he presses you back against the stonewall of the parish hall, the way his body cages yours in. The silver cross hanging from his neck brushes against your chest. A cold contrast to the heat blooming between you.
His fingers ghost down your arm, trailing lower, lower, until heâs gripping your waist. His thumb rubs slow, deliberate circles against your ribs, inching dangerously close to the curve of your chest. He doesnât go further, but the tease of itâ the way he lingers right on the edge of proprietyâ makes your knees go weak.
This must be how it felt like, your brain screams, for Daniel in that lionâs den.Â
Seungcheol bites your bottom lip, sharp enough to make you gasp. He soothes it with a slow drag of his tongue. The shift in pace makes your head spin, your body leaning into him as if begging for more.
But just when you think he might give, he stops.
Seungcheol pulls away sharply, suddenly, his forehead resting against yours as he catches his breath. His lips are pink and kiss-bruised; he licks them absently, savoring the taste of you.
You try to chase after him, to bridge the distance, but his grip on your waist tightens. Not to pull you closer, but to hold you still.
âThatâs enough,â he whispers, voice rough.
Itâs not. Itâs nowhere near enough.
He must see the frustration on your face, because he laughs. The sound borders on cruel. Seungcheol lifts his hand, dragging his knuckles along your jaw in a gesture so unnecessarily tender it makes your chest cave.
He leans down, lips brushing the shell of your ear as he speaks. âWear a longer dress next Sunday,â he hisses, his voice low and filled with something dangerous, belying the softness of his touch, âunless you want me to forget my manners again.â
He steps back before you can respond, adjusting the collar of his shirt like he hasnât just unraveled you in the churchâs shadow. His silver cross catches the light as he walks away, gleaming like a promise. Or maybe a warning.
And youâre left standing there, heart pounding, lips swollen, with the taste of him still lingering in your mouth.Â
Wanting.
Your mother is practically glowing, flitting around the kitchen to refill side dishes and top off drinks, beaming every time Seungcheol so much as glances her way.Â
Across the table, Seungcheol's mother sits with perfect posture, hands folded in her lap, watching her son with quiet pride.
Your family reestablishing its presence back at church has made this a normal thing now. Having Seungcheol and his mother over is something you suppose you should expect a lot more frequently, especially with the way Seungcheol effortlessly charms your parents.Â
âThis is delicious, maâam,â Seungcheol says, flashing your mother that gentle, saintly smile. âAs good as I remember it. Maybe even better.â
âOh, youâre too kind!â your mother gushes, waving her hand. âItâs nothing special, really.â
âI donât know about that,â Seungcheol says, eyes flicking to you. âEverything here feels... special.â
You nearly choke on your water.
His mother, ever composed, laughs softly. âHeâs always been so gracious,â she says, glancing fondly at her son. âEven as a child.â
Seungcheol offers her a modest shrug. The perfect image of humility.Â
But beneath the table, his knee brushes against yours.Â
At first, you think itâs accidental. Then he presses closer. When you try to shift away, he followsâ his calf locking you in place.
âAre you seeing anyone, Seungcheol?â your mother asks conversationally.
He hums, considering. âNo one serious,â he replies, his free hand drifting under the table.
His fingers graze your knee, light as a prayer. He doesnât look at you, doesnât give any indication that heâs doing anything at all. Just keeps chatting like he isnât testing your composure in front of your families.
âIâve been focused on church,â he continues, his thumb brushing slow circles against your skin. âAnd helping the community where I can.â
Seungcheolâs mother nods approvingly. âHeâs very dedicated,â she says. âAlways has been.â
Your fingers tighten around your chopsticks, your heart pounding loud in your ears.
âWe need more young men like you these days,â your father adds as Seungcheolâs fingers creep higher.
âI just try to do whatâs right,â Seungcheol answers. His voice is steady, almost pious. But the way his touch trails higher, fingertips teasing the hem of your dressâ is anything but.
You shift in your seat, enough to have Seungcheolâs hand stilling. âAre you okay?â Seungcheolâs mother asks as she notices your supposed discomfort.
You nod quickly, your pulse hammering. âJust a little warm,â you say, grabbing your glass with a trembling hand.
By the grace of God, Seungcheol pulls away. He resumes his polite conversation, plays the role of a righteous man.Â
After dinner, your mothers settle in the living room with cups of tea, conversation flowing easily as it always does whenever they catch up.
Seungcheol lingers with you in the hallway. âGot any movies?â he asks almost casually. âWe could put something on while they talk.â
You blink, caught off guard. âIâ yeah, but my laptop is in my room.â
He tilts his head, eyes gleaming. âThat okay?â
You should find some excuse, any reason to keep him downstairs, but the way he looks at youâ patient, steady, like he knows youâll give inâ makes your resolve crumble.
âSure,â you breathe.
No one questions it. Your mothers send you off with twin simpers; your father barely looks up from the television. As you lead Seungcheol up the stairs, you realize just how much misplaced faith they have.
When you reach your room, Seungcheol steps inside, hands in his pockets as he surveys the space with quiet interest. The soft glow of your bedside lamp casts long shadows across his face, highlighting the sharp edge of his jaw, the silver glint of the cross around his neck.
He turns to you. âWhat do you feel like watching, angel?â he asks, just loud enough for your parents downstairs to catch.
But then the door clicks shut behind you.Â
All pretenses go up in smoke.Â
âWeâre not here to watch a movie,â Seungcheol says plainly.Â
A shiver runs down your spine as he closes the space between you, crowding you up against your door. Wordlessly, he cups your jaw, fingers resting just below your earlobe.
âDo you want to tell me what weâre here for, angel?â he prompts.Â
Your answer is a weak one. Itâs a trained response, similar to the way your body involuntarily melts against his whenever he touches you.Â
âPractice,â you say hoarsely, and Seungcheol hums with approval.Â
âPractice,â he confirmsâ and then he leans in to crash your lips against his.Â
Ever since that first kiss, the tension between the two of you have crackled like a livewire. Itâs only been making out so far. Heated sessions stolen every Sunday, in some dinky, dark corner of the parish where nobody might find either of you.Â
Practice, Seungcheol had told you about all your rendezvouses. Heâs helping you practice for the man youâre someday going to marry, the one youâre obligated to please under your archaic religion.Â
It had struck you, of course, that Seungcheol never referred to himself as that. He was not your future husband, not somebody who wanted to be shackled by the label âboyfriendâ. You were not that big of a fool to insist on that.Â
But you are enough of a fool to think that it will be the same thing this evening. That Seungcheol might exhibit some restraint, considering the fact your parents are a floor away.Â
He tips you back, one hand in your hair and the other wrapped around your waist. He pulls away from the heated kiss to survey the heat in your cheeks, the haze in your eyes. His breath is hot on your throat, and when he presses his lips to the sensitive skin there, they feel like fire. You shiver, unable to do anything except grip the front of his shirt in both hands, and Seungcheol laughs lowly.
âTrembling already?â he says as he nips at your pulse point, tongue licking over the indentations heâs left. It wonât leave any marks, but the threat of it thrills you enough.Â
Heâs everywhere. Hands roaming, lips mapping out the terrain of your body. When he kisses you, itâs like being consumed by something larger than life.Â
The hand in your hair tightens, forcing your head back. His other hand pushes your hips flush against his. Seungcheol swallows your gasp, tongue pushing past the barrier of your lips to meet yours. Itâs overwhelmingâ to be kissed so thoroughlyâ but youâre helpless to the rush of pleasure.Â
Seungcheol draws back, chest heaving. âYou make the prettiest noises, angel," he purrs. âBut keep it down, hm? We canât get caught.âÂ
âCanât get caught,â you repeat dumbly, still trying to catch your breath.Â
He seems pleased to see you unravelling. Hand still threaded in your hair, Seungcheol begins to guide your body away from the door. He acts like he has a right to navigate your room, like this isnât his first time in your private space.Â
Youâd expected him to guide you to your bed, and so youâre mildly surprised when he pulls you over to your work space instead. You stumble over your steps but he holds you upright, tugging at the roots of your hair in a way that borders on painful.
Seungcheol lets go of you as he sinks into your desk chair. Youâre dazed as you watch him settle inâ as if itâs his God-given right.Â
âHow far have you gone, pretty thing?â If you strained your ears, you might hear just how condescending he is underneath his curious facade. âHas anyone gotten a proper taste of you? Have you had a cock in your mouth?âÂ
Your face flushes at the filth that spills from Seungcheol's mouth. For a moment, you hesitate, your fingers nervously toying with the edges of your dress.
âNone of that,â you whimper, partially afraid that your inexperience will ruin the moment. âI haven't done... any of that. Just kissing.â
Itâs exactly what Seungcheol wants to hear.Â
He doesnât have to probe about any of the other boys you mightâve kissed. In his head, theyâre good as gone. Heâs the one in your bedroom right now; heâs the one who has you wrapped around his finger.Â
âWeâve got a lot more practicing to do, then,â he muses. He goes the extra mile, injecting a tinge of disappointment into his tone.Â
Panic flares in your chest like a firecracker. You resist the urge to clamber on to his lap and try to atone for your inexperience.Â
Seungcheol is quiet as he surveys your nervous expression. When he speaks, his tone has the blood in your veins running cold.Â
âOn your knees.âÂ
You donât immediately comply. The slowness of your uptake has Seungcheol arching one eyebrow upward, his fingers flexing over the armrest of your chair.Â
âCome on,â he coaxes, âyou go to church. You know how to kneel, donât you?âÂ
You feel pathetic, the way you scramble to prove him right. Youâve never been so grateful that your parents insisted you get a carpet. The plush materials press into your knees, and you gingerly shift until youâve got the skirt of your dress as an extra layer of protection.
Thereâs something demeaning about this, you think to yourself. About the way Seungcheolâs gaze is heavy-lidded, full of wicked intent. About his fingers finding their way back into your hair, threading through the strands in a way that verges on menacing.Â
But how could he be wicked, how could he be menacing? Heâs smiling down at you, urging you to rest your cheek against his knee. You followâ you always doâ and you lean against him, some of the tension in your body easing out.Â
âAre you uncomfortable?â he asks, and your foolish heart sings. Heâs concerned. Heâs worried.Â
âNo,â you say quickly. âIâmâ itâs okay.âÂ
Seungcheol makes a small hum of approval. His nails ghost over your scalp, lulling you into a sense of safety. You lay your head in his lap, reveling in the feeling.Â
A couple of moments pass like that. Just as your eyes flutter close, Seungcheolâs voice breaks through the silence.Â
âAngel,â he says softly, âdo you want to help me feel good?âÂ
He poses it like a question, like he doesnât already know what youâre going to say. You havenât denied Seungcheol a single thing up until this point. And now you feel indebted, now you have to repay all his guidance.Â
âYes,â you breathe, the word a cold, broken Hallelujah.Â
Seungcheol keeps his hand on your headâ holding you in place or comforting you, itâs not clear. His free hand works on the button of his slacks. You shift uneasily, your eyes taking in every movement.Â
His zipper being pulled. His boxers being pushed down, just enough for his semi-hard cock spring free.Â
He picks up on your trepidation immediately.Â
âItâs practice, angel,â he reminds you, his hold loosening in your hair. Heâs giving you the option to pull away, you realize.
Youâre not going to. You donât want to.Â
Desperate to prove yourself, you reach out. He gives a low hiss in response, his eyes darkening at the way your fingers wrap around his cock.Â
âSpit on it first.â His words arenât advice or a plea. Theyâre a command.Â
You do as youâre told. You note how the spit makes things easier; it lets your palm slide along him much better. Thereâs a hint of fascination on your expression as Seungcheol twitches and swells underneath your hold, belying the facade of nonchalance that heâs put on.Â
âDoes it feel good?â you ask, peering up at Seungcheol.Â
His gaze is half-lidded as he stares down at you. âIt does, angel,â he says, voice rough around the edges, âbut you can go a little faster for me, yeah?âÂ
You comply instantaneously, your hand running from tip to base and back up again with a little more intent. A part of you preens when Seungcheolâs head lolls backward, resting against the back of the arm chair. Heâs obviously trying to keep his sounds of pleasure at bay, and you chalk it up to the fact your families might clock you if they were to find anything suspicious.Â
âGood girl,â he grunts. âMy perfect angel.âÂ
The praise goes straight to your head. Youâre a little more enthusiastic as you pump his shaft at the pace he seems to like. After a couple of moments of Seungcheolâs quiet grunts, you ask the question that secures you a one-way ticket to hell.Â
âWill this be enough?âÂ
Blink and youâll miss it. The way Seungcheolâs jaw clenches. The millisecond where he looks contemplative, thoughtful. The moment he realizes what heâs going to say, what heâs going to ask of you.Â
âNo,â he answers. âItâs not enough.âÂ
You falter, but you keep your hand firmly wrapped around Seungcheol. So much about this situation is unfamiliar, from the coil in your stomach to the inexplicable need to gain Seungcheolâs approval.Â
âIâll need your mouth,â he says plainly.Â
It makes sense to you now, how easily Eve had succumbed to that apple. The original sin, they called it, and you think youâve learned a thing or two about sin as Seungcheol spreads his legs. You move until youâre positioned a little better over him, your breath warm against his cock.
Seungcheol grips your hair again. You can feel the reservation in his touch, the way heâs holding back with every fraying inch of his control. Letting you set the pace.
You lean forward, hesitantly licking a strike up Seungcheolâs cock. He masterfully keeps his expression under control. The lack of an enthusiastic reaction spurs you to take him in your mouth, to bob your head up and down experimentally.Â
Your movements are a bit awkward; the taste of Seungcheol, new to your senses. You grin and bear it as you start to see progressâ his fingers tightening in your hair, his breaths coming up a little more ragged.
Instinctively, Seungcheolâs hips buck upwards. You gag when you feel him hit the back of your throat. âSorry, angel,â he groans. âFeels like heaven.âÂ
You hum with approval, the sound reverberating around Seungcheolâs cock. He twitches underneath you and squeezes his eyes shut, like itâs taking every ounce of his control not to fuck into your mouth.
When you try to hollow your cheeks, Seungcheol tugs you off of him. You gaspâ for air, and in surpriseâ but heâs maneuvering you faster than you can properly react.Â
It happens so quickly. One moment, youâre sucking Seungcheol off. The next, he has you folded over your desk.Â
âThat was a little too good, angel,â he murmurs into your ear, his cock pressing into the curve of your ass through your dress. âIf I come, I want to do it inside of you.âÂ
A cold shiver runs down your spine. With his chest to your back, Seungcheol feels it; he chuckles lowly, wasting no time to flip over your dress.Â
âCute,â he says, fingers running along the hem of your underwear.Â
You feel weak-kneed, supported only by the table and the press of Seungcheolâs body. âWhat are youâ?â youâre asking, even as Seungcheol nudges your thighs apart to give himself a little more room to work with.Â
âSay âstopâ.â Seungcheolâs voice has taken on that quality again. That do-no-wrong reverence. âSay the word and Iâm off, angel.âÂ
The speed of your response surprises even you. âNo,â you blurt out, like youâre afraid heâll pull away if he sees even a momentâs hesitation. âNo, no. Iâ want this. Want you.âÂ
His smile is sharp against the side of your neck.Â
He pushes your underwear to the side. You hadnât realized how neglected youâd been feeling until the first brush of his fingers tears an unbidden gasp out of you. It feels almost cruel, the way he teases the slick gathered at your core.Â
âSeungâcheol,â you complain, and he breathes a soft âshhhâ into your ear.Â
âWhat did I say earlier?âÂ
You swallow. âToâ keep it down.âÂ
He rewards you by pressing the tip of his finger into your cunt. Your teeth sink into your lower lip in a futile attempt to bite back your moans. Seungcheolâs breaths are heavy as he slowly eases his finger into your heat, giving you time to adjust to the intrusion.Â
Youâve touched yourself before, but this is something new entirely. Seungcheolâs fingers are thick and he hits parts of you that you couldnât reach by yourself. Your jaw has gone slack, the sounds of pleasure catching in your throat as you try to keep yourself quiet.Â
Seungcheol must deem your efforts insufficient, because he lets out a âtchâ of disapproval. âThis wonât do,â he grunts.Â
His free hand abandons its hold of your hip. Youâre just about to ask what heâs going to do when he shows youâ tugging the necklace around his neck, leaning over your shoulder. The chain dangles in your peripheral for a second before heâs shoving the cross past your lips, the silver cold against your tongue.Â
âBite,â he hisses. âKeep quiet.âÂ
Your mouth clamps down on the cross. You have only a moment to feel like this is something damning, something sacrilegious, before Seungcheol fucks his finger into you a little faster.Â
It takes a mammoth effort to be the angel he wants you to be. Your legs are shaking; your forehead is slicking with sweat. Seungcheol deigns to slide another finger in, and it goes by without a hitch. Youâre so wet that you donât doubt itâll gather all over your underwear and the inside of your thighs.Â
âHear that?â Seungcheol coos, referring to the loud, obscene squelching echoing in your room. You can only pray that your parents are deaf to the world as Seungcheol goes on, âBetter than a fucking choir. Such a perfect pussy, angel.âÂ
He shifts from behind you. You can feel all of his hardness pressing up against youâ everything from the planes of his body to the shape of his cock. Thereâs a moment where you hesitate, where you worry that your inexperience and softness might turn him off.Â
If anything, it only seems to excite him more.Â
âThere are bad men out there,â he murmurs, âwho will want to take advantage of a pretty little thing like you.âÂ
You try to nod, but there isnât much room for you to move. Your brain feels like itâs melting, and it only worsens when Seungcheolâs thumb begins to rub tight circles over your clit. Thatâ paired with the two fingers heâs driving deep into your cuntâ is enough for you to see stars.Â
But itâs his words that threaten to do you over.Â
âNot me,â he says into the side of your neck. âNever me. Iâm going to take good care of you. And that starts with having you come all over my fingers, like the angel that you are. The next thing Iâm going to do is fill you up, make you feel it right hereââÂ
He presses into the gummy spot inside of you, and youâre done for. Your body slumps and you come with a soft cry, the cross in your mouth muffling the sound.Â
Youâre still riding the high of your orgasm when Seungcheol tugs his necklace free. The silver shines with your saliva, filling you with a sort of indignity that coils low in your stomach.Â
Seungcheolâs fingersâ still lazily fucking into youâ distract you from your shame. And when he kisses you hard, as if rewarding you for your compliance, you canât even think of things like sin.Â
There is only Seungcheol. There will only ever be Seungcheol.Â
âYou did so well for me,â he says against your lips. âI donât think they heard a thing, angel.âÂ
The bliss has made your head hazy, has robbed you of your coherency. You can only manage a breathless âThank God.âÂ
His smile returns. It makes him look like heâs about to swallow you whole.Â
âNo need to thank God,â he murmurs, âwhen you can thank me.âÂ
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Make It Right đ Part 1
Would you do anything different if you could?
PAIRING: Idol!Jungkook x (f) Reader
SUMMARY: After the last concert in Busan, Jungkook decides to stay at his parents' and make the best of that pause. He never dreamed he would have the chance to meet you again, but now that he has, he won't give up. This is his chance to make things right.
WORD COUNT: 13.6k
GENRE: Idol AU, childhood friends to lovers, reunions, angst
RATING: Explicit
WARNINGS: arguing, resentment, JK said stupid things as a teenager, heartache, angst, semi-public mutual masturbation, nipple play, dry humping, fingering, handjob, cum eating, reader calls Jungkook by his actual name (Jeongguk), reader has a nickname
A.N. I have so much to say!!! First, thank you so much for 1k followers đđ To think that there are one thousand people in this world who like my stories makes me very emotional, it's crazy, and I'm incredibly touched and grateful for all the positive interactions and love for my stories! A fun fact about this story is that I had the idea for it the day of the Yet To Come concert đĽ˛đ
Oh yes, am I late or what 𤣠It's been years and I miss them so... I think I needed to write this even more. I really like the dynamic in this fic... Try not to fall in love with JK ;) This is my entry for Bangtan Writers HQ's Second Quarter 2025 event: âHome Is Where The Heart Isâ, and a huge thank you to @downbad4yoongi Jasz for helping me fine-tune this one đ Now before you reach the end, remember there will be a part 2 đ Enjoy đ
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Jungkook woke up with a groan, hugging the pillow under him. Its perfume made him smile instantly, but his toes touching the footboard made him grin.
He rolled over, instantly sensing he was just on the edge of his childhood bed. Opening his eyes, he stayed still as the daylight scarcely lit up the room and just looked around. There were toys and medals on the shelves alongside childrenâs books and photos of him as a baby and a kid. The small desk in the corner was just as he remembered, prepared for him to do his homework. The fact that his legs wouldnât fit under it anymore made him chuckle and sit up.
His parents were rarely loud in the morning, even when he was a child. Still, it wasnât every day that he crashed here with no plans to leave immediately after. Actually, he realized that this hadnât happened in twelve years, give or take. He sighed, listening to his motherâs muffled voice as she spoke with someone outside.
His curiosity got him out of bed, taking a peek out of the window through a narrow gap between the heavy light-blue curtains. Instantly, pure delight curved his lips as he saw the neighbour in the garden. Twelve years may have passed, but nothing changed.
He found the closest pair of sweats and a t-shirt and got dressed in a flash, making his way downstairs. He could still hear his mother talking to the neighbor as he pushed the front door open quietly, hoping heâd get outside before the conversation ended.
He knew he succeeded when the neighbor gasped, âAigoo, Jungkook! Youâre so grown up!â
âImo-nim!â He exclaimed brazenly, making his mother sigh and try to snipe him once he was out the door with slippers. âYouâre visiting today?â
The woman, his motherâs age, laughed happily, bowing her head to his deep, full body bows while his mother whispered, âYouâre no longer a child!â
âNobody else calls me that!â She laughed, quickly telling his mother, âItâs fine! If not him, then who? Itâs so good to see you, your mother is so happy to have her baby boy home.â
Jungkook grinned at his mother, who easily pouted, then turned to the neighbor again. âAs soon as I heard you two talking, I knew I was home.â
His mother smacked his arm playfully while the neighbor, who was his motherâs lifelong best friend, laughed again.
âHe is as charming as he is on TV!â
He bowed again, his smile lingering, and promptly let his mother continue their conversation about his visit.
âOh, and I saw the concert on TV! Soooo cool,â she gave him a thumbs up as she went on about all of BTS looking so great in concert. âPutting Busan on the map for the whole country! I told your mother weâre all so proud of you! Now, on to the military, right? Tough, but an important duty.â
Jungkookâs smile held as he nodded, letting his mind wander. Not that he felt ready to go on to the military right away, especially after just announcing BTSâs hiatus.
Before he could gently tell her that, her phone rang. As her friend was distracted, his mother made sure to brush his hair out of his eyes properly.
âYou just woke up? You havenât even showered? Or ate?â Her tone and demeanor were just as sweet and caring as always. âJust so you know your father went to get more meat; canât have you starving while youâre home. Maybe you should go back inside? We donât want people to find out where you are.â
He quickly hugged his mom and squeezed her gently, lifting her so her feet wouldnât touch the ground for a second. âItâs fine. I want to be here without worries for just a little bit.â
âAhhh,â the neighbor interrupted them, putting the phone back inside her handbag. âMimi is here to pick me up.â
âMimi?â he asked out loud before he could help himself. He hadnât heard that name in a long time.
âYeah, thatâs right,â she smiled. âDo you remember her?â
âOf course, I do,â he confirmed quietly.
âCome say hi, then!â
She left his motherâs garden and made her way to the main road at the end of the driveway. Jungkook was frozen for a moment, but his mother beckoned him to follow along, and finally, his feet began to move. She probably didnât mean you, even though that was your nickname andâ
It was like a dream when he saw you getting out of the car. Your face had all the telltale signs that you were forced to personally get your mother if you wanted to have any chances of leaving with her today, and the way his mother greeted you made it even more apparent.
âIâm sorry for keeping you waiting, Mimi!â
Jungkookâs stomach somersaulted. Mimi. The name he gave you because he couldnât pronounce your name right when you were kids. And now, you were right there with long, luscious hair falling over your shoulders, and dressed in dark blue professional attire that made him wonder where you were going.
âItâs alright, Mrs Jeon. I already know the drill,â you said after you gave your cheerful mother a look. Then you bowed deeply, respectfully, and he kept waiting, anticipating the moment your eyes would meet. âWeâre going to be late,â you said as you raised an eyebrow at your mother.
âOh, come on,â your mother insisted playfully. âDonât you want to say hi?â
âIâm sorry, Mrs Jeon,â you bowed deeply by the waist again. âBut weâll be late.â
You didnât look at him, not once. You got back inside your car, and your mother quickly followed you after apologizing for the rush, and then you were gone. Like a mirage, like a product of his wildest imagination. And he stood there in silence, watching you disappear.Â
âItâs been a while, hasnât it?â his mother commented, next to him. He nodded.
âJungkook, stay with Mimi, okay?â
Jungkook looked up at his mom and nodded, staying next to you while she figured things out at the counter. He was so excited, he couldnât stop grinning. The sounds of the pins being knocked down, the bowling balls rolling along, and the music made it the best birthday party ever!
He could already see most of his classmates arriving, and so could you. Yet unlike him, you pursed your lips in an angry pout.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asked, confused about why youâd be angry. You had given him the idea and even helped him convince his mom.
You looked at him with watery eyes, your short hair cut just above them, much like his own hair. âThe whole class is here.â
âIsnât it cool?!â He wanted to jump around and go crazy, but when he looked at you, you looked sad. âWhat?â
âWell⌠Youngsook and Seohyeon said the prettiest girl and the most handsome boy in class should date.â
His face twisted in all sorts of ways. âWhat?â
âThey mean you,â you pointed out, teary-eyed, and he laughed.
âWhat are you talking about?âÂ
âJungkook, Mimi, come,â his mother called, reaching to grab his hand, and he impulsively started pulling her, eager to get his birthday party started as soon as possible.
Yet suddenly, his heart felt heavy. He forced himself to stay still and look beyond his mother, trying to see you, but you were looking away, out of reach.
Jungkook woke up with a start, pushing the covers away and spreading his legs to cool off as much as possible. His feet dangled from his childhood bed as he took deep breaths, annoyed that he was sweating.
His chest was suddenly filled with feelings he had long thought forgotten alongside memories he didnât even know he was still holding on to.
He closed his eyes; he remembered that birthday party. It was an amazing celebration; he seldom had as much fun as when he turned thirteen. That was his last party in Busan before leaving for Seoul, when everything changed.
He rubbed his eyes and got up, finding a set of clothes and a bucket hat so he could go out. His phone showed him it was 00:47, but he didnât care. He needed a bit of air, and walking around in the neighbourhood he grew up in had to be safe. He needed to believe he still had that piece of normalcy in his life.
He walked down the illuminated suburban street calmly. For the first time in over a decade, he had time. He could slow down, go down memory lane, and recall the streets he used to bike or walk almost every day. He could finally think about seeing you for the first time in over a decade.
It had to be why he was dreaming of you. Though perhaps it wasnât the only reason. He sometimes dreamed of you when he was really stressed, and paradoxically, this time, you were the cause of his stress. Why wouldnât you even look at him? He could understand you had lost touch, many years had gone by, and you didnât have to be best of friends again. But still. Your moms were still the closest friends, and your families were neighbours. The least you could have done was say hi. Or let him see the recognition in your eyes after so many years.
He chuckled when he saw a familiar playground on the street corner. He strolled idly in its direction and instantly made his way to the swings. Both your moms knew a lot about their children, but he doubted that even they knew you two sneaked out after bedtime to meet there, especially during school breaks. He sat on the swing, letting the quiet night soothe him. It was the only time you had, between school and cram schools, to play a bit and talk. Jungkook didnât remember most of it, but at least it gave his heart a fuzzy feeling.
Before he could reminisce further, he heard a quiet noise and turned on the swing to check. Everything looked empty until suddenly he heard rustling and saw someone crawling out of the nearby tunnel.
âYouâre kidding,â you grumbled, getting up, and he paused.
Not only were you hiding in the place that both of you used to hide in, but you looked⌠different. Your hair was still over your shoulders, but now you were wearing a sweater and sweatpants, much like his, in the same black color, but a different brand. For a split second, he thought he caught your eyes, but they instantly dodged to the side. It made him miss the first beat, but not a second one.
He got up, eager to take this opportunity, and bowed as respectfully as he could at the waist. Instead of bowing back, you huffed, and the first thing he noticed when he straightened up was that you werenât just avoiding looking at him. You didnât want to acknowledge him.
âIâm leaving first.â
âNo, wait.â He was firm, unlike when he had seen you earlier. The more this distance was confirmed between you, the more he needed to get to the bottom of it. âHow are you?â
He could see the way your jawline sharpened as you said, âAre you going to take off that stupid hat?â
His fingers moved automatically, taking off the bucket hat and running through his hair. And finally, he was able to lock eyes with yours. You didnât just look incredible, you looked breath-taking, like nothing his imagination could have made up. Your cheekbones were more defined, your lips fuller, your eyesâŚ
He got lost for a moment until you looked away.Â
âHow are you?â he asked again, unable to give up.
You licked your lips. âGood, and you?â
He smiled. âGood. I missed this.â
He raised his hand, meaning to include everything, the streets, the park, the quiet, the night, you⌠And you bristled.
âWell, then.â Your curt head nod was enough for him to know you wanted to leave, but he had to push for more.
âWait. Itâs been so long, IâI canât help being curious. How have you been? What have you been up to?â
You shrugged slightly. âNothing out of the ordinary.â
Your eyes werenât letting him see anything, and everything about you exuded stoicism. He couldnât help but chuckle âYouâre not going to tell me? Is it a secret?â
âI canât imagine why youâd need my credentials.â
âCredentials? Iâm just curious about an old friend.â
âIf youâre curious, you can ask your mom.â Your shoulders squared as you crossed your arms over your chest. âShe knows about as much as mine does.â
His brow furrowed. âWell⌠I have asked, of course. But I want to hear from you.â
âI have nothing to tell you,â you stated, bowing curtly and spinning around to leave.
âThis isnât right,â he voiced his thoughts out loud, and didnât even expect you to turn back to look at him, but you did. âYouâre treating me worse than you would a stranger.â
You didnât have to answer; rolling your eyes was enough.
âWhy?â he asked more sternly.
âI just donât want anything to do with you.â
âWhat?â He couldnât believe his ears. âWhy?â
âBecause.â
His expression sombered. âWhat did I ever do to you?â
âWhy do you think you did something?â Your arms crossed over your chest again.
âCall it a hunch.â
Jungkook didnât imagine something like this would ever happen. He wasnât just back home, retracing the steps of his childhood; he was reuniting with you. Facing you, confronting you, more like. His heart thumped, like it did when he was waiting to get on stage, eager but no longer restless. Like he wanted to do his best, and he was ready. And facing your harsh stare, he realized that was precisely what this was. Because one thing was to have lost you to time, another was to find out you hated him, and he didnât even know why.
You scoffed, shifting your weight from one foot to the other. âI donât see why youâd care.â
âIâm here, asking you.â
âRight, missing this. Well, then, do what you have to do and leave.â
âIs it hard seeing me or something?â He stepped forward, and you didnât flinch.Â
âPretending you care? Yeah, itâs hard!â
âPretending? Iâm notââ
You rolled your eyes again, cutting him off, âYou show up here after how many years, saying you miss this?â
âItâs been twelve years sinceââ
âTwelve! Well, forgive me for calling you out on your bullshit. If you want to be pampered, ask literally anyone else.â
âIâm not asking to be pampered, and there's no one else here,â he pointed out, now so close to you that he could finally see the freckles on your nose. It made his stomach flutter. âWhy would you doubt I miss this? You, of all people?â
Your eyes widened suddenly as though you were about to explode, but then you subsided. âYeah, me. Of all people, I would know that it's bullshit.â
A spark of anger took over the flutters in his stomach. âHow can you say that?â
You rolled your eyes. âOh, give me a break. Do you hear yourself? Perhaps you're so used to the sound of your voice that you forgot to think about what you're saying.â His eyes were sharp now as the anger you stirred up spread through his chest. âMaybe everyone else is so charmed by your face that you can never be wrong. Well, I'm here to tell you to your face that coming back here, pretending you give a fuck is comical at best, and hypocrisy at worst. So do what you have to do and leave.â
He could see the anger in your eyes, and he was starting to share the same feeling. And yet, it was just that. After seeing the spark in your gaze, the firmness of your belief, and finding you in your special hiding place, the way you thought he was self-centered and narcissistic didn't even bother him. Of course, he didn't want you to feel that way about him. He was eager to change your mind, but he was so happy you two were talking that he kinda just wanted to smile and hug you and ask so many questions.
He couldnât, though. âGood,â he muttered. âGood that you're here to tell me to my face why you'd think this way.â
Your cheeks gained the lightest hue, and he licked his lip ring.
âUsually, people's words match their actions,â you said. âThat's how you get them to believe you.â
âAnd mine don't?â
âNo, they don't.â
You lowered your eyes, and he couldnât let it end there. âHow do you know?â You scoffed, and he insisted, âHow would you know how I feel? Or how much I missed this place? Or how many times I came here in the middle of the night instead of sleeping, despite how packed my schedule was, just because I missed all of this.â
His heart shook with the words out of his mouth, only to be met with your angry expression. âI would have known.â
âYeah?â
âYes,â you stated, sure of yourself.
âYou live in this park, do you?â
You sneered, âI would have seen you. Crossed paths with you. Heard that you were in town orââ
âMy mom doesn't know half the time when I'm going to visit, since I don't know it myself,â he explained. âSo, unless you live here, how would you knowââ
âOh, shut up!â you snapped angrily. âYou were never here and you never cared!â
âWhy would you say that?!â
âBecause you never once reached out!â
âNeither did you!â
âYou left!â Your shout echoed in the night. âYou left, so why would I?â
He didn't let himself overthink. âBecause you wanted to talk to me again.â
His heart thumped at the possibility and skipped when you admitted, âSure, I did. Did you? Did you ever want to talk to me again?â
âYes,â he breathed.
âI don't believe you.â You shook your head. âEven when I think all the way back, you were already acting distant before you left. Too busy with your own things to notice anything or anyone else. You already didn't care back then.â
He frowned. âI always cared. But it's true I had a lot going on back then. I was stressing about getting into a good school, I wasnât paying attention.â
Your expression closed off as you nodded. Your voice was quiet, as though his admission settled it. âI'm happy you did, and that everything worked out for you.â
âThen why would you be so mad about this? I mean, Iâm not thrilled about it, but it happened like it happened.â
âOh for fucks sake, Jeongguk!â you blew up again, and he had to fist his hands at his sides not to impulsively grab you somehow. âYou left! And left everything and everyone behind!â
You were finally talking, and he was so eager to hear you that he was almost leaning toward you. âEverything? What are you talking about?â
âYou got into a good school in Seoul and moved, and everything was gone,â you insisted, with the strength behind your words waning. âWe were the closest friends, and then suddenly you left andâŚâ You visibly swallowed, then faced him again. âI wasâŚâ It must have been harder than you thought because you needed a second try to reveal, âI had a silly crush on you. You were my best friend. There were a lot of things I wanted us to do together. For a thirteen-year-old girl, it was all very new and at the center of everything. You didnât care about any of it until you did, and I didnât know how to deal with any of it, obviously. I honestly didn't even know what was happening. I thought Iâd have time to bring up those things, toââ You cut yourself short. âI never had the time.â
âWhat things?â He got even closer, searching in your eyes. âTell me what things.â
âIt doesnât matter,â you said, deflating a little bit as you stepped back. âIâm over it now.â
âYou donât sound over it.â He followed you with his eyes. âYou sound angry.â
âIâm not.â
Your eyes stayed low, and he pursed his lips, unable to believe you but wary to insist.
âWell, I obviously had no idea you had a crush on me.â Saying it out loud had a smile blossoming on his face that he immediately tried to tone down. Your eyes showed vulnerability again, and he licked his lip ring before continuing, âHonestly, those sorts of feelings took a while to appear. I only realized I had a crush on you so much later.â
Your eyes hardened as you scoffed. âWhy are you lying?â
âWhat? Iâm not.â He instantly frowned.Â
âYou are.â
âMimi,â he called, not knowing exactly why his heart felt so heavy. âIâm not lying.â
âWait, let me try to remember your exact wordsâŚâ You mused, tapping your chin. âSheâs just like a boy, with short hair and everything,â you said, looking so firmly into his eyes, he needed a moment to catch up. âI could have called her hyung and nobody would have noticed.â
His stomach instantly churned. âYouâ You heard me say that?â
âYes.â
âAt my momâs BTS debut party?â
âYes.â
âYou⌠heard us talk?â
âYes.â
He groaned, nervously raking his fingers through his hair to get it out of his eyes. âIs that why you left that day? And I never got to see you?â You stayed quiet, but now he knew the answer. âMy mom said you were so sick you were crying, I was so worried, and it was becauseââ
âWorried?â you interrupted with a sneer. âYouâre funny.â
âI was worried!â
âIf you really were, you would have come next door to say something!â
âI had to leave the next day and thought you didnât want to see me!â
âI went to your house, you were the one who couldn't bother to send a stupid message when you were worried that I was sick!â
âBecause my mom said you never once asked about me. When your mom said you were really sick, I thoughtââ He groaned. âI thought you had faked it just so that you wouldnât bother putting up with me.â
âThatâs ridiculous,â you said, and he scoffed. You insisted, âIt is.â
âAnd you never asking about me is normal?â
âYou left,â you deadpanned. âWith no goodbyes and no messages, I had to hear it from my mom.â
His stomach turned. âWait a minute.â
âThen three years later, that was what you had to say about me!â
âI was sixteen! And so stupid! My hyungs knew I had a crush before I did, and by then⌠I had nothing on my mind but work.â
You pursed your lips, and the way you moved away stung him. He could see that he was losing you, that everything had eroded and disintegrated much more than he thought. But he had a chance to tell you everything now and right his wrongs, and he would. No matter how much it hurt to reopen old wounds.
âWhen I said that, I had spent the last three years forgetting about you. I wasn't about to admit to Jimin that I still thought about you and missed you, not after working so hard to let go, and not when we were just debuting and everything was so hard.â
âWhat on earth are you talking about?â
âWhen I moved to Seoul, everything changed. I never had the chance to say goodbye, and it weighed on me a lot. Just a phone call all of a sudden about a school opening, and hours later, I was already there. I still remember crying in the car and my mom promising she'd talk to you.â His smile was painful as he shook his head. âBut she stayed with me for a while in Seoul, so I guess she just called your mom instead. A lot was going on; it just happened too fast.â
You stood quiet, just listening as you probably matched his words with what you knew, and he kept going.
âEverything was harder than I thought it would be. I knew nobody in Seoul, but it wasn't just that. You weren't there anymore, and I never knew how overwhelming it would all be. I'd ask about you, and you were doing well, with good grades and plenty of friends. You forgot all about me when I missed you every single day.â
âThat's not true.â
He couldnât help but scoff as he teared up with the memories. âSee how everything is a matter of perspective? It took me three years of working day and night to feel remotely confident. Without you, Iâ I had to learn to be confident and make friends without you.â
âYou were always the popular one,â you said cautiously.
âBecause I had you backing me up!â he affirmed, stepping closer to you. âEvery time I looked to the side, you'd give me that grin, and I knew that you had me, no matter what. That nothing could go wrong.â
He could see the pain in your eyes; maybe you were starting to get it.
âYou mean you were lonely?â
âFor a very long time,â he confirmed.
You shook your head, unsettled. âThat's crazy. If you needed me⌠why didn't you say something?â
âI did,â he confessed with a smile that surely revealed the ache he felt at the time. âI was under a lot of pressure not to waste that opportunity. I had no social media and trained day and night. Whenever I'd speak with my mom, she'd just tell me to work hard, that everyone was proud, and that she'd pass it on to you. Until the day I asked if you asked about me, and she said not really.â
âI didn't ask about anything!â You crossed your arms over your chest. âMy best friend left without a word. How do you think I felt?â
âLonely,â he replied, looking into your eyes. âThough probably not as much as me.â
Your lips trembled. âI⌠Shit, I⌠I was so angry that I just refused to talk about you, even when my mom or yours wanted to tell me things.â Your confession brought tears to your eyes, and it stung Jungkookâs chest. âI donât remember how things happened at school or anything, I just remember going to school and home alone every day and⌠coming here to be alone until I just⌠I was angry. I heard your mom telling mine you had changed, but I⌠I refused to ask when you clearly didnât care, so I justââ
You were holding back tears, and he just nodded, assuring you gently, âItâs okay. We were kids.â
âThen you debuted.â You managed to look at him, and he realized he couldnât stop breathing in your presence. Your every word. âAnd I thought, well, at least it was for something. I wanted to support you, even though I cried a lot.â
You chuckled to hide a snifle, and he was worried. âWhy did you cry?â he asked.
âI donât knowâŚâ Your gaze wandered, thinking back. âI donât know if I was proud or grieving. Because I felt left behind, but perhaps that was worth it, because you made it. You were on TV, being amazing, looking so cool,â your voice wavered as you wiped the tears from your cheeks. âOf course, you had to leave and go to Seoul and be amazing. A true friend wouldnât hold you back.â
Your shoulders trembled, and you turned around to hide the tears that kept falling despite your best attempts to keep them in. You didnât see him stepping forward or his fingers twitching. You couldnât know how much his heart ached at learning all this.
âI missed you every day,â was all he could say.
You chuckled, but he could hear the fragility in your voice. âItâs fine. Itâs good that everything turned out well.â After several sniffles, you took a deep breath and turned back to look at him. âI may have been angry, but I never wished for you to be unhappy. Iâm happy your dreams came true.â
He scanned your face in silence as you handled your tears. He had so much he wanted to say about how much he missed you, but it didnât feel right to insist. He could feel the distance between the two of you grow whenever he voiced his feelings, whether because you didnât believe him or it hurt too much.
So he didnât insist. âSo⌠you are our fan, then?â
He tried a light tone and was mesmerized when you laughed. âAbsolutely not!â
He smiled. âWhy not?â
âI mean, at first I was,â you explained with a faint smile. âI wanted to support my friend, or, well, you know.â You were embarrassed enough that you werenât looking at him. âUntil that time when your mom wanted to celebrate your debut, and I heard you saying those things about me. I was so upset, I threw away everything BTS-related and swore Iâd never look at anything related to you again.â
He groaned and rubbed his face. âAll because I said something so stupidâŚâ
You shrugged and looked away, and when he revealed his face, he licked his lip ring nervously.
âI said all manner of stupid things back then, especially about⌠I didnât know how to handle my feelings,â he hurriedly explained. âI wanted to come off strong and cool. To think you had a crush on me back then⌠Honestly, I was so blind to it all.â
You raised a skeptical eyebrow. âTo it all? No, you werenât.â
âWhat do you mean?â
You shrugged casually. âYou dated Seo Soyeon before you left.â
Jungkookâs eyes widened in bewilderment, as though he had no idea what you were talking about. Then, his eyebrows jumped. âSeo Soyeon? Oh myâ I had forgotten all about that. They pushed for it, the class couple or whatever. I didn't care.â
âShe was your first kiss.â
Your voice was small, and he shrugged with a small smile. âI didn't realize then what that meant. Now, it doesn't matter anymore, but for a while, I wished it had been different. More special.â
As he spoke, he remembered how he had revolted once he was mature enough to realize what had happened. He still remembered complaining about it to Jimin, frustrated that he had let it happen like that instead of realizing that whoever his lips touched should be memorable. Especially after Jimin asked if he had ever kissed you, since he assumed Jungkookâs best friend would have surely been his first.
âRight. You're right,â you agreed, still lost in your thoughts. âIt doesn't matter anymore.â
âWho was your first?â Jungkook could have kicked himself for asking you so directly, but your answer was automatic.
âYoon Jiryun.â
âAhhâŚâ Jungkook pressed his lips. He remembered the boy with the glasses who ran super fast. But he didnât know what to do with this information now that he had it, especially since it made his stomach feel funny. âI⌠hope it was nice.â
You nodded. âIt was nice.â
Your certainty made him smile. âYou mean it wasn't in front of the whole class by sheer peer pressure?â
He saw the second it dawned on you. âThat's⌠I'm so sorry, that must have been horrible!â
He shrugged. âIt wasn't great, but hey. It was a long time ago.â
You looked at him, still with worry on your light frown, then your eyes shifted behind him. Jungkook was so focused on looking at you and appreciating that newfound connection that he didnât expect you to step forward. His stomach instantly fluttered as he held his breath, but then you moved to the side. He saw you as you put your handbag down and sat on the swing next to the one he was on before.
âI dated him for a couple of years in high school,â you started, and Jungkook didnât hesitate to sit on the swing next to yours. âHe was very supportive of me when I was going through the worst of it.â
âYou had issues in high school?â
âWho doesn't?â
âFair.â
âHe was very patient and supportive, even when he knew I was pissed about⌠you know.â
âWhat?â
âMy former best friend saying stupid shit.â
âYou were dating him then?â he asked instantly, surprised.
âNo, a few months after that. I'm thankful for him. He made me feel pretty and special after my crush said I looked like a boy.â
He sighed. âYour crush was an idiot. A foolish idiot.â
âYou can stop that now.â
âIt's true,â he insisted, taking a look at you, even though you were staring ahead. It wasnât lost on him that you just implied you still had a crush on him at sixteen. If only he had seen you that day. He sighed again. âYou know, I don't remember when, but around when we graduated, my mother showed me a photo of our class, and I saw you. I was so shocked,â he breathed, remembering that moment. âYou had long hair,â he chuckled, glancing at you to find your eyes this time. âIn my mind, you looked and dressed the same, but at that moment, I realized we both had changed. I had my ears pierced, and you had long hair. I was happy. And sad.â
âSad? Why?â
âJust⌠because. I didn't see it happen. That made me think back, which at that time I couldn't handle.â He laced his arms around the swing chains and, looking into your eyes, he knew he didnât want to hide anything. âEverything related to before training is⌠clouded. I don't remember everything anymore. What I remember most are moments of us together. Like coming here to play at this hour after sneaking out.â
You smirked and looked around the park as though suddenly reminded it was probably almost two in the morning. âWe were crazy.â
âMaybe. But I liked it when it was just the two of us talking about⌠whatever we talked about at the time.â
âI can't remember either,â you confessed, and when you looked at him, he had the most amazing desire to laugh, and you both did quietly. âI thought you would have forgotten about all of that.â
He shook his head. âNot that. It makes me who I am.â
You nodded. âI get that. What you said that one time marked me so much, Iâve never cut my hair above my chest since.â
His heart dropped as he forced his swing to stand still, unlike you, who kept a gentle sway. âIâm so sorry!â You nodded but kept your back and forth, your eyes on the floor, and he didnât know why, but it felt like he was desperately trying to hold onto grains of sand slipping between his fingers. âI should never have said that, and your hair was beautiful back then, as it is now. I was just stupid!â
âItâs fine,â you assured him. âLike you said, we were kids, and it makes us who we are.â
His expression hardened. âI meant that in a positive way. To think that what you remember most about me is something stupid and harmful I said makes me sick to my stomach.â
âItâs fine,â you repeated, still looking at the floor absentmindedly. âIt was painful, but itâs in the past.â
Jungkook didnât feel like it was okay, much less in the past. Not when he could still see the traces of pain in your eyes or feel in his gut that his fate was sealed. All youâd ever see was the sixteen-year-old boy who needed to deny his feelings because he feared the alternative would block him even more. Who, by saying whatever stupid thing that came to mind, had inflicted a wound instead of being the one who looked after you. No wonder you hated him. He hadnât just left; he had actively made you feel less even when you meant the world to him.
âWould you do anything different if you could?â
Your voice was gentle and reflective, and he pushed away the tears. âDefinitely. Miscommunications can happen at all ages, but it wouldnât have happened like this if I had asked to talk to you directly. If we had talked, everything would have been easier for both of us. But I think it could have also been harder for you. Because the distance would always be there, and it took me way too long to figure out how much you meant to me.â
âMaybe⌠Well⌠It wasnât meant to be. Youâre right, youâre always in Seoul. We would have drifted apart anyway.â
âMaybe not⌠that wouldnât happen with the right person, right?â he asked quietly.
âIâm not sure. It was different then. Our lives were different and our worlds were small. Itâs all different now.â
Somehow, your words didnât make him feel any better, even while implying that you might have been the right person for him once. Because it also implied that he had missed that window. He had missed the opportunity to have you in his life, to be with you, to be the one who made you feel pretty and special.
He sighed. âYou still haven't told me what you've been up to,â he hinted, deciding a lighter topic would be best for his heart. âIt's unfair, you know about me.â
He said it payfully, and you chuckled. âWho doesn't? I tried to stay away, but you're everywhere.â
âYeah, I⌠get it.â
You glanced at him, and fortunately, your expression was light. âI've become an interpreter and a translator. Iâm mostly connected with the tourism department of Busan, but I also consult for other institutions.â
His eyes widened. He would have never guessed.
âYour concert really gave me a lot of work,â you teased, giving him a look, and he instantly bowed.
âThank you for your hard work.â
You bowed back. âThank you for doing this event in Busan.â
He had to grin after a few more head bows back and forth as though they were competing for who would bow last. âYou've become great at something I struggle with.â
You raised your eyebrows. âEnglish?â He nodded and saw the surprise on your face. Yet you quickly smirked. âAnd you? I sing horribly.â
He grinned. âYou were never easy on the earsâŚâ
You kicked his foot, and he chuckled, his grin bigger than ever.
âBut that's okay,â he assured. âI sing enough for us both.â
Your smile faltered ever so slightly, and so did his.
âWhat about Yoon Jiryun?â he asked, changing the subject. âDid you guys see each other after high school?â
âNo, he studied computer science in Seoul and got married last year.â
âWoah!â
âYeah, I don't know how he did it,â you voiced incredulously, and he raised a quizzical eyebrow. âI mean, getting married is expensive. The families turn the women into slaves, then they expect kids, but it's so competitive andââ You realized you were rambling. âAh, whatever. Even dating⌠It's hard enough as it is.â
Jungkook was listening carefully, trying not to give away how interested he was in hearing your thoughts. âMaybe he just found the right person.â
âYeah, I think he did,â you mused. âDid you?â
âMe? Nah. With what time?â He shook his head with a smile. âI'm taking time off now, but I want to focus on myself and my family for a bit. On my friends, too.â
You stopped your gentle swinging and eyed him. âDoesn't it get lonely?â
âIt does,â he admitted, stopping his back and forth to talk while looking directly at you. âI'll tell you a secret: it's like a vice. The highs are amazing, nothing feels close. But the lows are⌠soul-crushing. The lowest low. The silence and the absence are deadly.â
Your brow furrowed. âBut you can connect with your fans all the time.â
He shook his head firmly. âIt's not healthy. Life can't be lived through a camera or a screen. Disconnecting is important. I struggled with that in the beginning, but now⌠I'm living every day doing my best.â
âThat's good, I'm happy for you.â
Your tone was soft and your eyes sincere, and his stomach felt fuzzy again. Never in his wildest dreams did he imagine that break would start or even imply a chance to reconnect with you, but he wouldnât have wanted it any other way.
Yet as you looked away again, he licked his lip ring absentmindedly as he realized there was still one thing he didnât know.
âHave you? Found the right person?â
You chortled openly. âNope! I'm starting to think they don't exist, but it's fine.â
âWhat?! Why?â
You shrugged, too focused on scrunching up your nose while you thought of a reply to notice how agitated he had become, tapping his foot and nibbling his lip.
âI tried too long and now I think I'm just fatigued.â
His foot stopped as his voice became gentle. âWhat was the problem?â
âThe entitlement, or the need to be controlling, or the âmanâ,â you air quoted. It was as though you had a list on the tip of your tongue. âDating doesn't mean you can boss me around. Oh and the god-awful sex.â
He didnât realize the way his eyes widened, but you noticed the silence and looked at him. Your features contorted to hold back laughter, but in a second, you were both laughing quietly.
âWhat was worse,â you laughed. âWas the men trying to convince me it's good when it's justâ ah shit, justâ yeah, you get it.â
The way you both laughed and were at ease talking about it made him feel like you were back to the old days when you could talk about anything. When nothing could go wrong, and he could just be himself.
He hummed thoughtfully. âWell, some of it must have been good.â
You sighed. âSure. It can't all be bad.â You looked up at the night sky. âI guess I just remember the bad now.â
His eyes betrayed him and quickly took you in from head to toe while you werenât looking. Then, he looked ahead as he tried to sound nonchalant and pretend he wasnât curious or attracted to you. âI'm sure it will get better.â
You scoffed and glanced at him. âYeah, sure.â
He could only nibble his lip ring while stifling the promises he would have made in a heartbeat if he didnât believe that would make you slap him across the face and never speak to him again.
âCan I ask about what you meant earlier?â he asked casually. âYou said there were things you wanted us to do together, but you didnât have the time to talk to me about them.â
You glanced at him as though you could see right through his fake halo. âStop joking.â
And he was surprised. âI'm not.â
âYou're not?â
âNo. I have no idea what went through your mind at the time.âÂ
He was being sincere, yet you still gave him a look and a skeptical huff, and he fiddled with his lip ring.
âBut youâre bringing it up right now,â you underlined, eying him so fearlessly his knees were weak. Thankfully, he was sitting.
âI donât think you meant sex, butââ
âNo!! Of course not!â You flustered visibly, blushing and closing your eyes with embarrassment, and he had to bite his lip not to smile widely. âWhy would you say that?!â
He shrugged, although by the way you blushed and stirred, he instantly knew the answer. Teasing you was so much more fun than he remembered.
âI guess you have no way of remembering or imagining what a thirteen-year-old girl wonders about,â you acknowledged, then heaved a deep breath. âWell, I thought you were the cutest and coolest boy ever, and that it would have been perfect for our first kiss to be together. It sounds ridiculous now, but yeah.â Your eyes stayed glued to the floor. âJust dating, whatever that meant at the time. Holding hands, kissing, hugging, talking, I don't know.â
He bit his lip so hard he tasted blood, yet all he could do was swallow the torrent of heat climbing up his chest. âIt doesn't sound ridiculous,â he croaked, then cleared his throat. âSo that's what you thought at the timeâŚâ
âYeah, it's that phase,â you commented, and for the first time, he wondered if you really felt so casually about seeing him again. âOf entering our teens and becoming adults. For some reason, I was very confident we'd do all those firsts together. Meanwhile, you thought I was a boy.â
âI never thought that!!â he countered instinctively. âI hate that I ever said that. I said whatever came to mind, but I never thought that. Short or long hair, you were always cute and feminine. When I saw that photo of you when you graduated, it hit me hard. How dainty you had become. The same face Iâd recognize anywhere, but so much prettier and mature. Seeing you now, itâs one hundred times better. In-person and now as a woman, you'reâŚâ
He was finally able to breathe and realize the heat he had swallowed down had just gushed out uncontrollably.Â
âNot a boy?â
You had an amused spark in your eyes, and he couldnât think. âFuck no.â
You chuckled. âGo figure.â
Finally, he rubbed his face to hide the things that were all too clearly shown there. âI wish it had been different. It's not possible, but I wish I were able to tell you all this at the time.â
âGo back in time and call me through our moms,â you joked, kicking his foot.
âMom,â he pretended to talk on the phone. âCan you tell Mimi's mom that Mimi looks so pretty now? Someone needs to stay by her side to make sure she's not bothered.â
âBothered?â you laughed in disbelief, and he smirked.
âYeah, guys probably won't leave her alone,â he continued, then got up and put his fingers to his ear, pressing a non-existent earpiece. Then, he grabbed your hand and raised his other hand protectively, shielding you from invisible enemies coming from all angles. âNo, I need to protect her!â He pretended to struggle, then groaned with his palm to his stomach, raising it while trembling as if it were covered in blood. âNo!â He succumbed to his knees while you laughed and shook your head, still holding his hand. âOh no, they'll kidnap you. Nooo!â
He fell dramatically to the floor, keeping his hand tethered to yours while you laughed quietly. Although his eyes were closed, he gave your hand a slight squeeze to help him up, but you just kept laughing. So instead, he stayed put, listening to you laugh giddily. When he looked up at you from the floor, splayed like a star, he saw you smiling upside down, filling his heart. He couldnât even describe how complete he felt at that moment.
You stood up from the swing and faced him, raising your free hand to offer help, but he gave you a small shake of his head. Instead, he moved his free arm as though welcoming you to join him. In that split second, he braced for the coldness to return to your features and wash the happiness away. But it didnât.
You lay down next to him, resting your head on his bicep. He adjusted his arm around you, trying to increase your comfort, only to realize you snuggled up to him seamlessly. You fit in his arms so perfectly that he couldnât help but embrace you fully.
You hid in his chest, and he let his nose draw closer to the top of your head, letting every little detail relax him. He didnât remember ever holding you in his arms like this, and he knew he would have never forgotten if he had. To be there with you, alone, breathing you in while your legs tangled with his made him so fuzzy and happy, there was no holding back. There was nothing he wished to keep secret anymore.
âI wish we had our firsts together,â he whispered to the top of your head, and you raised your head to look up at him. âMaybe it wasnât meant to be, but youâll always be that one person.â
His heart felt heavy in his chest as you both observed each other so closely. He knew by the trajectory of your eyes that you were rediscovering his features, from the mole on his nose to the small scar on his cheek. His cheeks warmed under your attentive eyes, even as he tried to take advantage to memorize your face, from the freckles on your nose to your full lips.
But then you looked up at him as his breath caught with the sparkly stars in your eyes.
âEven now?â you whispered, and he had to try hard to remember what you were talking about.
Before he could think, his inked fingers traced your cheek. Your lashes fluttered as you looked at him, with warm cheeks and the sweetest expression that told him everything he needed to know. His eyes fell to your lips.
âNow,â he muttered, leaning in, and your eyelashes fluttered again. âAlways⌠Just rightâŚâ
He stopped mumbling in time before his lips pressed to yours, and time stopped. His breath caught as his sole focus became that moment, with you, on the cold rubber mat of the playground, having the only first that mattered.
You took a shaky breath, pressing your palm to his chest as you moved your lips, and he waited. He preferred to follow you, graze and taste your kiss with the same cadence and pressure you used, taking only what you gave him. And it quickly became everything he thought it would be.
Your lips touched tentatively at first, carefully making sure the other wanted this, but quickly things changed. He knew it wasnât just him free-falling and letting that incoming fever take over because he was following your lead. And you were not shy about following your instincts either.
The first kiss was a touch, the second a delicate brush, the third a firm press, the fourth the first taste, the fifth wet, and finally, it became impossible to count. He was already dizzy with what was happening, but the way you invaded his senses overcame him. He was eager to drink down every drop of your presence and attention, but he didnât realize it would come with such force. Your kiss became searing and brazen, unapologetically punishing him for the wait, and his body reacted in a flash.
It took him seconds to ignite for you, burning with a passion that he only ever dreamed possible. And then you pulled away, and everything dawned on himâyour kisses werenât innocent. He wanted you in every way possible, and heâd likely follow you to the end of the world now that he found you again and knew exactly what you tasted like.
But you sat up and faced away from him. âIâm sorry, that wasâŚâ
âDonât say sorry,â he croaked, sitting up behind you. He could tell you were panting; his heart was also racing. âYou donât⌠You didnât like it?â
In the silence, he raised his hand to touch you but gave up, fearing invading your space. He thought all he had to do was wait, but in a second, you were getting on your knees to reach your handbag ahead, on the ground, next to the swings.
âMimiâŚâ
You grabbed your handbag. âDonât call me that.â
âIâve always called you that. I gave you that name.â
You froze, still facing away from him. âWeâre not kids anymore.â
âNo, weâre adults.â
You stayed quiet, but at least you werenât moving further away. He didnât even know how he was so calm, but he embraced it.
âSo tell me,â he said quietly, hoping youâd turn around to look at him. âWas our kiss just now⌠weird to you?â
âNo.â
His lips curved in the most endearing smile. âThatâs a relief.â
You finally faced him. âBut we canât do this.â
Your eyes were big and glazed, and he focused. âWhy not?â
âBecause⌠Itâs not the same.â
Your voice shook, and he frowned ever so slightly. âThe same?â
âItâs not our firstâŚâ
âWho cares?!â he blurted out, but he couldnât help himself. He saw hesitation but also so much more in your eyes that he couldnât hold back. âMimi, who cares who our firsts were? Do you care that much about who weâve kissed before?â
âNo!â
âNo? You sure?â
âIâm sure!â you confirmed firmly. âItâs not that!â
âThen what is it?â
Your eyes met his, and he saw the moment you realized what you had just said. You admitted â insisted â that the past was not what was bothering you. He could only hope youâd be willing to tell him what the real problem was so he could help you. So he could fix it and never have to let you go.
âI thoughtââ Your voice wavered, so you whispered, âI thought I was over you.â
He couldnât help a knowing smile. âDitto.â
Did you notice you were leaning in again? Did you notice you were looking at him like nothing else existed? Or how you raised a curious yet shy hand to touch him, and he leaned forward, savoring the way you brushed his hair out of his face. When he opened his eyes again, you were much closer, and he had no qualms brushing his hand down your forearm and raising his other hand in an invitation for you to come closer.
Your handbag fell to the ground again as you took his hand, and he pulled you in. The objective was never for you to straddle him, but as soon as you did, his arm wrapped around you possessively. Anyone would have a hard time convincing him to let you go now, not when you were sitting so perfectly on his lap, looking at him like the world was that moment.
âAre we crazy?â you whispered, and his blood ran hot again.
âMaybe.â
His hands held you firmly, almost afraid of losing that moment somehow, yet there was no need to. You pushed forward, crashing your mouth to his, unabashedly picking up where you had left off. He was already not in his right mind, but the moment your tongue pushed through the seam of his lips, he felt his brakes disintegrate. There could be no inhibitions when you were pressing yourself like that to him, breathing heavy, sharing your air, taste, and visceral curiosity. It was too easy to become inebriated, relaxing while burning so intensely, it was hard to explain. It was as though he knew heâd be consumed by the desire, the lust, and the affection in his heart, all with your name so deeply rooted in him, it was more than inked, it was branded. Part of his DNA, his psyche, his soul. And to elevate it all, the way you showed him there was something inside you, too. Something that pushed you to kiss him harder, cup his cheek, and mold your bodies so closely that you ended up pushing him back until he was lying on the ground again.
As you dove into the kiss, the air dissipated from his lungs, and he surrendered completely. Kissing you and absorbing every little detail from the way you breathed or caressed his face was already enough to erase every thought that could try to interrupt that moment. But now, he felt everything. Your weight over him, the warmth, the way your chest expanded against him, letting him catch hints of your form above him. He couldnât help the hard-on in his pants more than he could help breathing in your perfume between fevered kisses, and it was divine.
He never pushed you or pressed for anything in any way. You'd undoubtedly realize his excitement, but he trusted you not to go further than you were comfortable with. No matter how curious he was to learn and explore every detail about you, he'd gladly kiss you all night long if that was what you wanted.
But he wouldnât push you away if you wanted more. He sighed when your hands felt the expanse of his shoulders and chest, feeling every inch of his body tingle and react under your touch. His fingers twitched on your waist, eager to feel more, but he reeled it in. One deep breath while your tongue licked against his could have easily flipped his mindset, but he was disciplined enough to stay put.
Until your fingers explored down at his sides, framing his waist until they reached your legs. Realizing your knees were pressing into his sides, you opened your legs further, and his brain turned to goo. Your weight shifted enough for you to sit straight on his hard-on while your fingers eagerly pulled his sweater so you could touch him, and he groaned into your kiss.
It was a visceral, unadulterated sound dripping with desire, and you paused. You pulled away to eye him, looking like sin incarnate with your swollen lips and blown pupils, and he licked his lips.
âKeep going,â he rasped, looking at you hungrily. âWhatever you want.â
You looked down at the hem of his sweater, crumpled in your hands, as he pulled on the fabric to reveal his lower abdomen. Dragging your hands along wasn't enough for you to break away from your hesitation, so he took them. Your eyes were locked with his as your fingers interlaced, making his heart flutter. You dropped your mouth back to his, pressing a chaste kiss, and he closed his eyes. Yes, his heart was singing, but he wanted you to keep going.
So he placed your hands on his lower stomach, instantly shuddering, and not from the night's October cold. Your fingers untangled from his, touching and feeling his warm skin, and he groaned again. This time, he didn't hold back from opening his mouth and searching to deepen your kiss, and his hands returned to your waist, squeezing it firmly.
You took everything he offered, no longer surprised when he groaned as you pressed and scratched lightly over his abs and sides. You reached his chest once, and his breath caught. He couldnât control his reaction; his dick throbbed under you and he nibbled your lip, so eager to eat you whole he didn't even know how he was holding back. But he knew then you had to know it. You had to feel how hard he was underneath you, and yet you didn't move to the side or pull away. As if you wanted to feel his excitement pressed to you, and it was maddening.
He felt his sanity pushed further when you grabbed his hands and guided him. He held his breath as you dragged his hands to your hips before making way underneath your sweater until you placed them back on your waist, directly on your soft skin.
He could barely breathe, and you knew it. You ghosted his lips the whole time as your eyes stayed locked with his, observing his reaction. He couldnât think, suddenly absolutely stiff and tense. If he moved and touched you, it would be like jumping off a cliff â wishing the untamed ocean would catch him while he would be completely at a loss.
âTouch me,â you whispered against his lips, and he heard it as both a command and a wish, so he did.
Your skin was so soft and warm, he wondered how it could be so perfect. Your curves instantly turned his legs to goo underneath you, so maddening they were, but something else almost made him choke.
Several times, he palmed your sides from your armpits to the hem of your sweatpants, and there was nothing but soft skin. No elastic, no other fabric, nothing but supple skin.
His eyes met yours again as you kept brushing his lips and skin without properly kissing him, as though you were waiting for something.
âDon't stop,â you whispered, nuzzling him, and he leaped.
His palms moved in, thumbs brushing the side of your chest, and your breath shook. He caressed the sensitive skin, feeling how warm and inviting it was, and as he did, you melted over him. You kissed him, then turned to the side to breathe, then pressed his lips again, then had to part them to moan softly, and by the time he realized what was happening, you were both too far gone.
You were moving over him at the cadence of his hands, and it felt too good for both of you. You rocked your hips as slowly as his hands, savoring every millimeter his fingers explored of your breasts little by little while you pressed your core to his hard cock. It was incredibly worth it to do it slowly and feel you falling apart over him, cracking his control as yours dissipated as well. The tension was so sweet and sublime, he let it develop to the last second. Brushing his fingers ever so slightly over your breasts without ever forming a hold. At least until you whimpered.Â
Then, he cupped your breasts in his hands and squeezed, and you moaned, grinding on his erection so perfectly, he throbbed. He did it again and again, reveling in the way you reacted and gave back to him. Until you hid in his neck to moan your pleasure, and he bit down on your exposed neck, rutting into you unapologetically.
You were just perfect. The sounds you breathed drove his sanity away, but the way you felt over him made him want to get lost in you. He was crazy, both about feeling you and driving you just as crazy, and for a moment, he thought it would work. He was teasing your nipples while groping your tits harshly, arriving at that point by the way you moaned and humped him harder with every touch in the right direction. He was listening to you attentively, so turned on by your excitement, he wondered if he could cum like this if you did.
But then you relented, stopping your hips despite the way you were moaning and breathing into his ear, messing him up.Â
His instincts roared, and he rolled over you, letting you stay hidden in his neck. Then he humped sharply into you to elicit that strong reaction out of you again and there it was, that sweet breathless moan in his ear. Your hands found their way to his lower back under his sweater, and the slightest push was enough to unleash him. He hid in your neck to suckle your skin while humping your core and squeezing your tits in his hands. Everything heated him unbearably, melting away any thoughts before they could form. Yet as you moaned into his ear and sank your nails into his lower back, moving with him, he pulled away to look at you. He was suddenly overwhelmed by curiosity â what did you look like at his exact moment?
His cock throbbed so painfully he had to slow down, making you whimper and open your eyes. It made it even worse, and he bit his lip to simmer down. Just seconds before, you were breathing heavily with your lips parted, shuddering underneath him. He could still feel your heart racing under his hands as your tongue peeked out to lick your lips, and he dove in.
He was fully inebriated, wholly converted, and ready to learn everything about you from A to Z. What he had learned so far was not enough; he couldn't stop now.
You tapped his back, and he let you breathe, pecking your cheek instead.
You rasped, âEveryone can see us.â
He raised his head to look at you, his heart pumping loudly. You didn't say stop, no, or that you should end it there. Your eyes showed as much desire as he felt drumming in his veins, and he kissed you hard. You wanted to be with him, and if he had somewhere to take you, he wouldn't have hesitated for a second.
He couldnât take you to his parents' place as it stood. So he guided your legs to lock behind him. âHang on.â
Once he was sure you could hold, he rose to his knees and crawled into the tunnel you had been hiding in earlier. When he laid you down gently, you giggled and instantly covered your mouth. He had to chuckle at the way you blushed, surprised by the echo.
âDon't you remember when we'd shout from one end to the other, pretending to be pirates and thieves?â
Your eyes crinkled. âIt's a miracle we were never caught and grounded.â
He let his body fall to yours gently. âIt's because there's nobody around at this hour.â
He pecked the tip of your nose, and you smiled, happily still holding onto him. It made him pause. He just looked at you, relishing that closeness and singular moment with none other than you. He couldn't see you as well, now hidden from the streetlights, but he could still distinguish the lines of your smile. You looked happy. He had to wonder if it was all a dream.
Your legs stayed laced around him, and as he felt the outlines of your body underneath him, he was reminded of just how turned on he was. His cock was so hard and swollen, and after humping you so crazily, his clothes were pressing on it uncomfortably.
He supported himself on one hand, feeling the tight tunnel frame his shoulders as he used his free hand to adjust his dick. His head was completely elsewhere, locked on how heâd touch you again under your sweater as soon as humanly possible, when he felt your hand over his.
His thoughts collapsed in on themselves as you looked up at him and followed his hand to his hard-on. His breath caught when you didnât just feel around, but purposefully found his length.
âMay I?â
His brain had to do backflips to articulate a simple, Yeah.
Worse than feeling like he was drooling all over you and unable to attach two words together was the way you looked at him. The more his eyes adjusted to the darkness, the more he saw the look on your face â of someone who knew what they wanted and werenât afraid to get it. It made him weak in the knees before your hand had the chance to grab his hard length.
You squeezed him over his sweatpants, learning the outline of his dick before moving beyond his hand and burrowing inside. He had no time to process, only to catch himself before he collapsed on top of you. He couldnât stop a deep groan, nor the precum from spilling over your hand, but there was no hiding it, not at this stage. Not when your fingers wrapped around him and felt him from base to tip, and not just once or twice.
He opened his eyes to look at you, and you almost blew him away. You werenât just sure you wanted to touch him; you had the most confident and sexy look on your face. Like you knew what you were doing to him and wanted exactly that to happen. Like you intended for his toes to curl as he stopped himself from rutting into your hand and kissing you desperately as he spilled all over you.
He had given up on stifling his groans or heavy breathing; the way you seemed to delightedly observe every reaction only made him more beside himself. He wanted you to look at him and want him as crazily as he wanted you, but he also didnât want to cum in two minutes.
His eyes flickered down to your stomach, and you whispered, âYou can pull it up.â
He met your eyes and supported himself on both his hands, pressing his thumbs to distract himself from your hand jerking him off steadily and perfectly. âNo,â he muttered, then tried again. âI donât want you to be cold.â
You definitely knew what you were doing when you used your free hand to pull your sweater so far up on one side that your breast showed. It was enough for him to groan and almost try to escape your hand, because it was too good. You felt too good and looked too perfect, and his instinct won again. In a split second, he wasnât just looking at the outline of your chest, trying to learn all the details in the dark, but diving in with his mouth latching onto a nipple he had teased relentlessly before.
You threw your head back and moaned, and his hand darted to stop yours. You couldnât have known how close he was to blowing, especially as he didnât relent from licking and nibbling on your perked nipple. He couldnât help himself, especially when you grabbed his hair and moaned softly like that.
The moment you moaned his name, his eyes closed as he felt it in his entire body. Heâd never forget that sound.
âCan you multitask?â
He opened his eyes, so utterly dazed he couldnât have heard you. âWhat?â
âCan you touch me, too?â you asked, batting your eyelashes at him, and he realized what you meant.
Your legs had loosened their hold around him, but were still open under him, molding to him in the perfect position for him to sink deeply into you.
He shook those thoughts away. âIf you let me, Iâd love to.â
You were quick to make space for him beside you while he tried to wrap his head around what was happening. He used to think it was unlikely that heâd ever meet you again. But now, not only were you kissing, but you were touching each other in ways that crossed lines like they were meant to be erased. Asserting what he instinctively knew but was never able to act upon.
He lay next to you, noticing how you adjusted to still be comfortable while you held onto his dick. Not that you had let it go, but at least you seemed okay with waiting for him to be comfortable before you restarted your strokes.
But first, he needed to touch you and brace himself for it. This was such an important moment that his heart started racing inside his chest. Not just because you were letting him touch you, but because of everything it meant. You trusted him, you wanted him, you had expectations that he could make you feel good, and suddenly, he wanted nothing more than to do exactly that while stressing like hell that heâd do everything wrong.
His hand moved in the dark, trembling, to find you, and it did. Your legs opened further as his palm settled on your inner thigh, firm and warm, and he opened his eyes. Instantly, he knew he was fucked and blessed. The streetlights somehow managed to shine on you, giving him a view he had only ever dared to dream of â you, lying next to him, with your sweater raised, exposing one side of you, stomach to breast, while one of your legs was open with his inked hand resting on it.
He was probably drooling, and once his eyes met yours, he guessed you knew.
âPlease,â you breathed, and the back of his neck burned. Your eyes were hungry as you moved your hips ever so slightly, and he didnât want to keep you waiting.
Still, his hand darted to your nipple first, pinching it softly. His dick throbbed in your hand as you moaned, and one glance was enough to know his next step. He brushed his fingers gently down your chest to your stomach on a sure path to where you wanted him, and in a second, his hand slipped inside your pants.
His eyes focused on you as your wetness guided him, and although he tried not to be rough, his fingers slipped. You instantly gasped and let your head fall back, and his curiosity became untamable. His fingers brushed up and down along your folds, a feather touch opposed to the first contact with your sensitive clit, but you enjoyed it. You squirmed ever so slightly, giving him even more space to touch you however he pleased, and he did.
He took in the way his hand disappeared inside your pants in the same way yours disappeared inside his, both stroking at a slow, exploratory rhythm. While you kept a firm, steady hand from head to base, almost as if not to distract him, he kept focused on your little eyelash flutters and gasps as he discovered every inch of you.
Despite your quiet whimpers, he retreated to your thighs, determined not to leave a single stone unturned. Only when your hand around his dick became impatient did he move back up and touched your slit again, having to close his eyes with how much wetter you were, if that was even possible.Â
Your whimpering moans caught him by surprise, and as you breathed heavily, he focused. You werenât a dream or a fantasy; you were so very real, and he wanted you to enjoy every second with him.
âTell me how,â he asked gently, grazing over your clit without staying there.
âYou donât know?â You were breathlessly surprised, and he chuckled.
âI don't know how you like it.â
You matched his smile as your hand slowed down around his length. He took that as a positive reaction â you wanted this to last, and so did he.
You bit your lip and turned your face closer to his, whispering, âCan you do it slowly in big circles?â
He instantly changed his touch to match your request, and your reaction was almost instantaneous. Your hips moved against his fingers, and in seconds, you were biting your lip, stifling your moans. He found it curious that you reacted so strongly to such a simple touch, but he knew it was more than that. Your hips were adding to the feeling, not to mention you had to be turned on by his hard dick in your hand. Being half-naked in a public playground might have also contributed, though he wasnât thinking about any of those details right now. For him, what mattered was how much wetter you were, trying not to squirm under his touch.
âA bit harder,â you breathed, looking at him, and he nibbled his lip ring.
He did as you asked, pressing more firmly, noticing how he wouldnât touch your clit directly unless when you wanted him to, and you controlled this by moving your hips. He was getting you off under your rules and by the way you were breathing and pumping his cock, he knew you were almost there. He himself would have been cumming soon if not for the fact that he wanted to learn every single detail about you while you felt like this.
Your chest heaved harder as your hand slid alongside his length perfectly, yet your eyes closed as you tried to hide. You turned your face down, bringing it closer to him. He pecked your forehead as you squirmed under his hand, stifling your moans, until you seemed to change your mind. You pressed your lips feverishly to his and he had to redouble his effort to not change the rhythm for you, sliding perfectly around your wet entrance and brushing your clit just like you liked it, again and again, until you gasped.
Your back arched violently, breaking apart your kiss, and letting him see everything as you climaxed. How you moaned softly, letting it echo around you two, as you trembled. Your hips slowed down, and so did his fingers, able to feel your clenching hole enticing the hard dick still in your hand that you were squeezing hard. Fortunately, not hard enough to hurt, but surely enough for you to know how ready he was to feel you closely. Not that he would, but not that he could help thinking about it now that he could imagine how youâd feel cumming around him.
Your whole body relaxed next to him as your hand lost its strength, and he understood. All the sexual tension was gone for you. He brought his lips to your forehead, pecking you as his hand slipped from your pants, hoping you wouldnât feel pressured to continue. Because if it were up to him, heâd be begging for more, but he hoped you were comfortable enough to do as you pleased.Â
You raised your head to meet his lips in a languid kiss, and that intimacy swayed him. He was ready to kiss you until the sun dawned, but you were quick to wrap your fingers firmly around him again, and with a renewed intent this time.
He opened his eyes, meaning to pull away and ask you if you really wanted to continue, but your gaze made his breath catch. You didnât want to just get him off; you were in charge of the way his pleasure developed, and it brought him straight back to the thick of it.
You were very close to each other, but no longer kissing, so he did something out of instinct â he brought his fingers, still covered in your slick, to his mouth. A small part of him feared heâd weird you out, but somehow he knew you were on the same wavelength.
He groaned with your taste, throbbing in your hand, turned on beyond belief, and your reaction was to pull his hand away and dive in tongue first into his mouth. You both moaned into the kiss, and Jungkook was so beside himself, he didnât last a minute with you assaulting his mouth like that. It was too much on top of your hand squeezing around the tip of his cock, edging him for all the precum he possibly he had.Â
He had to break your kiss apart. You were perfect for him, butâ âIâll cum.â
You smirked. âI hope so, I want to taste you, too.â
Every word sparked him, and looking into your eyes, he was certain you had thought of him before. At least once. In all those years, you had thought of doing this with him before, and it was the straw that broke the camel's back. He wrapped his hand around yours, squeezing your fingers into a fist, and spilled.
Instantly, warm spurts of cum had nowhere to go but to drip in between your fingers, but you didnât shy away. You pumped him for all he was worth, making him groan and squirm as he held you while you emptied him.
As soon as he was spent, his first instinct was to search for your kiss. Not consuming, not searing, just calming and soothing like the sigh that escaped his lips. Then, he let go of your hand and fell back, ready to bask in that peace when he noticed out the corner of his eye that you took your hand still dripping with his cum to your mouth and licked it.
You closed your eyes, savoring it, and he groaned, so euphoric at that moment, he couldnât describe it. He rose from the ground to kiss you again, temporarily overriding that newfound peace with his inextinguishable desire for you, until you squirmed and chuckled.
His cum was dripping down your wrist into your sweater and you quickly pulled on your sleeve. âWait.â
You crawled back out of the tunnel to reach your handbag, and he lay back, relaxedly, letting what just happened wash over him. You two together felt amazing, and it was no longer a fantasy or a dream of his teenage years. He didnât have to imagine that the two of you would work out together; you just did.Â
You sat down at the entrance of the tunnel next to his knees and passed him a tissue so he could clean his hand, which he did absentmindedly as he waited for you to join him again. He didnât know what the future held, but heâd start by holding you and go from there.
Except you werenât back yet, so he looked at his feet again. He could see your calves, immediately noticing that you were standing at the tunnel entrance with your handbag nowhere in sight.
âMimi?â
âI need to go.â
You instantly rushed away out of sight, and he sat up instinctively, hitting his head so hard that the whole plastic tunnel resonated. He rubbed his head as he tried to crawl outside, and when he finally managed to stand up, you were nowhere in sight.Â
He quickly shook off the dizziness and ran back to where both your parents lived. He didnât understand why you would just leave like that, but above all things, he didnât want any misunderstandings.
When he got on the right street, he ran through your motherâs garden all the way to the front door and raised his hand, but stopped before he knocked. If he did, heâd wake up your parents, and that would create more problems.Â
So he nibbled on his lip ring and walked away, throwing your parentsâ place a couple of glances before making his way to his parentsâ. You were safe there, and he knew just where to find you in the morning.
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2. Rafe x innocent (and kinda naive/ airhead?) reader where reader and rafe are dating (still very new) and reader keeps reminding him she wants to wait longer (when they are making out/feeling each other up) and he keeps trying to go further, so he tells/manipulates her that itâs not normal for girls to not want to go further and something could be wrong, so he âchecksâ her (rubbing her clit and fingering her) and asking things like âdoes that feel good?â âDoesnât that make you want more?â âSomething probably is wrong if you want me to stopâ, just so he can convince her to say she wants more (so then he fucks her). Â
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you and rafe had only been dating for a few weeks, relationships were pretty much a whole new thing for you since your upbringing hadnât really allowed it. you hadnât had sex before, ever. and rafe wasnât going to be patient for much longer, the furthest you two had went is making out, when it got heated you pulled back.. pushing him away and saying you didnât feel well.
rafe was getting desperate, you didnât even realise what you did to him. he was painfully hard most of the time since you were oblivious to how sexual you were being. such as bending over right infront of his face, showing him your cutesy pink panties or accidentally grinding against his cock when you squeezed past him in the kitchen. rafes frustration was at its peak and he couldnât take it any longer.
rafe stretched his arm around your waist as you both lay in bed watching tv, biting his lip in thought before reaching out to grip your jaw gently, turning you to face him. he leant forward, catching your lips in a deep kiss, it didnât take long knowing rafe before it got heated, as his tongue began battling your own for dominance you pulled away, taking deep breaths as you stared up at him with big innocent eyes.
âwhatâs wrong, pretty girl?â he muttered, lifting his thumb to wipe his drool from your mouth.
ân-nothing rafe, i just.. i donât⌠i canât go any further with you, i-i donât think iâm ready for that.â rafeâs patience was out of the window by now, all rational thoughts evaporating as his cock grew harder, straining against his pants, desperate to be inside your sweet cunt.
âbabyâŚâ he sighed. âthis isnât normal.â
you stared at him with a confused expression, your eyebrows knitted. âi-i donât understand, did i do something?â
he was quick to shut that thought down âno, no, no, my sweet girl, itâs more about what you didnât do. see, other girls your ageâŚthey love being good for their daddyâs, and i just donât think you are being good fâ me.â tears began to whell up in your eyes, his negative feedback not sitting right in your stomach. âdaddy?â you questioned gently, your bottom lip wobbling.
âyeah, iâm your daddy, baby. and i think itâs about time you start calling me that. itâs true, no? i take care of you, i feed you, pay for your clothes, hell, i even take you to the bathroom. i may aswell be your daddy, so thatâs what your gonnaâ call me from now on, you got that?â he speaks softly, not wanting to discourage you or push you further away but needing to be firm enough so you understand. heâs testing the waters. seeing how easy it is to control your sweet mind in ways only a man like him could.
âi mean.. yeah, that-that makes sense i guess.â
a sly smile appears on his face, his thumb wiping a salty tear from your cheek âgood girl.â he lifts your skirt with one hand, pushing into your panties and rubbing your clit, you gasp in surprise at the new sensation. âdaddy! w-what are you doing?â you ask in shock.
rafe sighs âdaddy needs to give you a check up baby, just to make sure nothinâs wrong. all i need to do is rub that sweet button of yours and fuck my fingers into your pretty pussy, mkay?â your cunt involuntarily clenches around nothing. âmkay, daddy.â you moan. rafes fingers stray from your clit to your entrance, his cock growing impeccably harder from the feel of your wetness, your pussy leaking around his hand.
âd-daddy, feels sâ good.â you whimper as he pushes his fingers into your hole, your walls clenching instinctively around his thick digits. âyeah? you like that? you like it when daddy fingers your sweet pussy?â he groan into your ear, sending shivers down your spine.
he picks up his pace, fingering you roughly until the knot in your stomach begins to tighten, you grab at his wrist, pushing him away, which doesnât really do much since your strength is no match for his own. âdaddy! stop, i-i think iâm gonnaâ pee.â you whine, embarrassment flooding through your veins. your cheeks flushed from the humiliation.
he lets out a small laugh, his famous smirk still painted across his face âno baby, your not gonnaâ pee.. your gonnaâ cum. your gonnaâ cum with my fingers deep inside your cunt. ask me. ask daddy for permission.â he growls, a flip switching inside his brain. âp-please daddy, make me cum, please can i cum? please please please.â you beg, tears streaming down your face as you try desperately to hold back.
âcum.â
he growls, watching as your legs begin to shake, your pussy sucking his fingers further into your cunt. you cry out as your body spasms, a thick creamy fluid leaking out of you and into rafes palm. âthatâs it, let it all out. dirty fuckinâ girl. creaming all over your daddyâs fingers.â
your breathing begins to slow as you come down from your orgasm although rafe keeps his fingers deep inside your pussy, catching you in a deep kiss. he takes your hand in his own and leads it down towards his cock, making you instantly recoil. rafe lets out a mixed groan of annoyance and sigh of disappointment under his breath. you look towards the bed, feeling guilty as ever. he turns you to face him again, his pretty blues simmering in darkness. âlisten. pretty baby, i was trying to be nice earlier but⌠i think there is something wrong with you. all the other girls your age wannaâ fuck daddy, so why donât you? iâve been so patient with you sweets but, the clockâs tickinâ.â
rafes fingers begin to fuck into you once again at a rapid pace, your whimpers and cries filling the room as he fucks you with his fingers. âsee? doesnât that feel good? doesnât that make you want more?â you nod your head, dazed with pleasure. not even fully understanding his questions. âgood girl.â he mutters before taking his cock out of his pants, before you even realise whats happening, rafe had removed his fingers and crawled on top of you, pushing the mushroom tip of his swollen fat cock against your entrance.
your eyes burst open in shock at the feeling âwait, wait, wait, da-DADDY! Oh fuck!â you practically screamed as rafe bottomed out in your pussy with a single thrust. essentially, popping your cherry. his hand is quick to cover your mouth as he glares down at you from above. his sanity is long gone by now, the crazed look on his face scaring you into submission.
âshut the fuck up. i-iâm done playing games now. your gonnaâ shut your pretty little mouth and-and daddyâs gonnaâ fuck your cunt until he cums deep inside you, okay?â you didnât respond seeming as his hand was covering your mouth.
he lifted his palm from your mouth before quickly striking you across the face, you cried out as your skin began to fluster due to the impact of his hit. he swiftly gripped your jaw making you look him in the eyes once more âyou-you fuckinâ answer me when iâm talkinâ to you. you nod your fuckinâ head when daddy asks you a question.â this time you were quick to nod your head, tears streaming down your cheeks as you sobbed a ây-yes daddy.â
if anything they just seemed to turn rafe on even more. âgood⌠good girl.â he groaned before pummelling his cock further into your cunt, he began thrusting at a rapid pace, fucking you so hard the headboard began to bash against the wall. your screams of pleasure probably being heard for miles. âohhhh shit, you see that, you fuckinâ slut?â he pointed your face towards where your cunt and his cock connected, a pool of pink cream surrounding the base of his cock, a mixture of blood and cum. you were too far gone to talk at this point, moans and whimpers spilling out of your lips as you simply nodded your head, your eyes rolling back.
âfuck i canât believe you tried to hide this shit from me, tried to hide how much of a greedy fuckinâ cock slut you are. itâs okay though baby, daddy loves when you turn into a desperate little whore. gonnaâ have you writhing on this fat cock every day of the week from now on.â
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