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Actually if you start watching mha in your first years of exploring anime when you're full of excitement and joy and then take a break at around s6 for at least two years, randomly come back to it after you've experienced your own villain arc, had a few traumatising seasons and continue it from around the middle to the end of s6 where deku has turned into a faceless justice symbol, you have no recollection where all his friends went and all might has turned into an anxious grandpa of sorts, it's peak entertainment. Mind you it's devastating.

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Also seeing from whoever's already gotten Rafayel's new myth cards (hate u btw), I love that infold did not even try to make the home screen in the lounge work with Rafayel's look. Like you want the sea god to sit and read at your local cafe??? Even infold were like nah this is where you actually get a grip

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In today's episode of delusion I bought an apple scented perfume

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garden rain

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“when the light is gone…” by Sandra Bartocha

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by Yury Shymakovsky

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by Yury Shymakovsky

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Queer-coded? Why do we need to code it? Can we just queer-say-it?

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hey man what’s wrong with you

the usual

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Travertines of Pamukkale, Turkey by Talip Çetin

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While we're on the subject, I listened to Caleb's first phone call from the game and in comparison to the latest one, he sounds so much livelier and although his side comments still have a bite to it there's isn't a sense of that deep, almost suffocated longing that the later lines have when he implies something to mc.

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So it's summertime and as of right now I'm suffering from the heat and the lack of routine. Tell me why my brain went: bed-rotting and crime-plotting.

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CALEB CRASHOUT ANGST KING. Why did I choose this man???

Beware: love and deepspace spoilers

Zayne's backstory of being cursed to not be able to show his affection - lost mc in his previous life, lost her for so many years in this one.

His bonds: popsicle making and eating all the macarons because Zayne has a toothache!

Sylus, a whole dragon in his past life, was never loved until mc, a mafia boss in this one, lives in a criminal area with countless daily deaths.

His bonds: Sylus has a little jewel hidden somewhere and mc has to find it! Mc accidentally seduces him after being pranked by his underlings!

Xavier, a dying man from another planet who abandoned his whole kingdom to find mc in the past.

His bonds: let's play party games with mc's friends!

Rafayel, cursed sea god who loses control of his powers, sacrificed his kingdom for mc, was abandoned by mc in previous life and waited for her for countless years.

His bonds: slipped on a paintbrush and tried to be heroic about it, got fed an apple by mc's hand and took a walk with her (bullied the fish in the pond).

Caleb, mc's childhood friend.

His bonds (BEFORE THE COLONEL ARC MIND YOU): "You've left home and seen the world. What's next? You're gonna leave everything behind? Remember when you held my hand? You even let me stand by your side. It won't be long until you're in a faraway place. And I'm... I'll be... It's me who can't let go. I want to keep you in a world where it's just the two of us. Let me protect you. I can guarantee this will be the last time. I won't lock you in again. This is my promise to you. Sleep now. After you wake up, I'll let you go. The storms that you'll encounter in the future— they shouldn't exist in this world".

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siren symphony

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I'm wishing a very Happy Pride Month to all the queer people who:

are disabled

are chronically ill

can't celebrate for health reasons

disability gets in the way of their gender representation

disability got in the way of a relationship

don't have anyone to celebrate with

have homophobic caretakers

Happy Pride Month to all disabled queer people

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So today tumblr decided to f w me so I'm here to dump my thoughts on it. What is it called when you want aaaaaall of it? What does casually physically mean?? What is the line between friendship and romance? Because skinship is not it, yearning is not it, apparently. So what is it? If you feel so much for a friend what exactly is missing from calling it a romance?? By the way please don't take this as a callout I am just a very very confused person with too many unidentified emotions. I have no idea what my sexuality is at this point. I know I've felt deep love for my friends. I know I've craved physical contact. And I know that plain friendship is not enough to satisfy me but is it because the terms of friendship are ephemeral or is it because I crave something a friendship cannot give me? AHHHHH

I'd love to hold your hand. I'd love to be casually physically intimate with you. But I can't, because we're just friends.

I'd love to build a future with you. I'd love to adopt you, and perhaps your family, as my family. But I can't, because we're just friends.

I can see it so clearly. I can see the future we could have. But I can't build it with you, because we're just friends.

And friendship is transient, isn't it? We insist on treating romance and marriage like they are permanent, despite the divorce rates, and everyone knows that "friends forever" is just a nice sentiment, while "I do" is permanent. Right?

My friendship cannot be forever, because I can't offer you a ring. I genuinely could, though. If you wanted one. But of course I dare not ask you to wear a ring for me, because we're just friends.

My friendship cannot be forever, because I can't marry you. Can't have children with you. Can't plan a household with you. Can't stake my future on our feelings for each other. Can't, can't, can't ...

It's just friendship. It doesn't matter what I would do for you; all the things I can't do weigh more, don't they.

It doesn't matter how much I love you platonically; the missing element of romance is the only part that really matters, isn't it.

So you'll go and build a future with someone who can give you all the things I cannot, and I suppose we all just agree to ignore all the things that she might not be able to give you that I could.

It's just friendship. You can have it with anybody. Common as muck; deep, intimate, meaningful friendships are just lying around like litter, aren't they? Like dead leaves; lightweight, worthless, easily tossed. Not like romance. Romance with someone you barely know is priceless, right? Every date a gold brick.

No matter how much effort I put into our friendship, and no matter how rare and special I think you are, in the end you'll choose someone else to create your life with, and I'll ...

I can't have romance; do you know that? Do you understand that the thing you have planned your life around is something I can never have nor even comprehend?

Do you realise that this means that friendships are the closest relationship available to me?

Who knows? Who cares? It's just friendship!