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wet rat

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@rat-detector

A couple of foster beasts. Virginia, Minibell, Gandalf, and Michelangelo

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Pain

Urgent care is a very funny name for it because they do not treat you with any urgency nor do they care

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Feeling SO FU KING PRETTY RN IM IN A NARC HIGH #MyNarcHigh

(Should I drop a face reveal..???)

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Finally got our parental controls off of our phone! 3 cheers for sweet victory!!!

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how did we lose the plot so hard with feminism and activism like seriously… are we forgetting that being kind and loving to the men and boys in your life, teaching them as kids if you are a parent to be kind respectful humans, and showing them how to be emotionally vulnerable and making a society in which it is safe to do so was like…. A huge part of feminism, dismantling patriarchal values, and creating a generation of loving men who are held accountable for their actions?

Why is it “kill all men yes even the trans ones and if you say otherwise you’re an MRA” and not “let’s maybe create a world that encourages good men.” Did we forget that feminism was supposed to be good for everyone and that the patriarchy harms men and boys as well?

Like maybe we should care about male loneliness and the male suicide rate BECAUSE MAYBE WED HAVE LESS SOCIETAL PROBLEMS if 100% of the population wasn’t traumatized by gendered expectations and not being taught decent communication skills/how to be emotionally vulnerable. And definitely we would if fucking redpill echo chambers weren’t the places most willing to accept and nurture (groom into hateful ideology) young men.

The problem has never been men, cis or trans, being uniquely capable of evil the problem has always been the fact that cishet patriarchal culture encourages and rewards shitty behavior that makes everyone involved bitter and miserable and calls it masculinity.

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elon musk yap sesh

atp his moral compass is running on the same autopilot as his Teslas, fucking crashes and blames the user. Like, imagine building rockets to reach Mars but somehow not grasping the moral gravity a fucking nazi salute has on Earth. Elon looking at LITERAL FASCISTS like “Hey, nobody’s perfect,” while banning journalists on Twitter for fucking sneezing too loud, or god forbid saying the word "cisgender". One sec it's “comedy is legal again” the next it’s “unless you joke about me, then I’ll yeet your account into the void."

The motherfucker’s been cosplaying as Tony Stark for a decade but at this point even Ultron’s like, “Yo dude, tone it down.” Elon built an electric car empire to save the planet just so he could turn around and emotionally support the people who would literally set it on fire, even today. You’re not a free speech absolutist—you’re a drama YouTuber with rocket fuel and a trust fund. You want to colonize space, but can't even colonize a coherent thought.

Elon out here treating Nazi affiliations like they’re parking tickets. “Oops, you aligned with genocide? Bummer, hope you’re holding up okay.”

This is the same guy who named his kid like a wifi password

Like damn, imagine being so rich and "smart" and powerful… and still choosing to say the dumbest possible things, in the dumbest possible ways, to the worst possible people

And let’s not forget, he made a FLAMETHROWER once, remember that? This dude said “public safety” about trans people and immigrants and then thought, “You know what would help fucking public safety? Handing out fire to nerds with money.”

We’re watching a man with more money than probably EVEN SOME COUNTRIES HAVE use that power to slowly turn into a live-action Reddit comment.

And then the people who support him being like "He's just playing 4D chess" No, man. He's not playing chess, he's just knocking over the pieces and telling everyone he's reinventing the game.

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The last time I told my psychiatrist about a delusion was when I was 13. You know what he said?

"Nah, doesn't sound very serious to me. It's just you making up stories to explain the world to yourself because you're autistic."

HELP???

”why dont schizospec people tell their doctors theyre struggling” bro i trust my doctor less than the locol walmart manager what am i supposed to do

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i don’t understand why it shocks some people to find out that many people who have endured a lot of trauma often have 10+ mental illnesses, especially if they have ASD and/or ADHD, since these conditions increase the likelihood of developing other mental disorders.

surely this isn’t surprising?

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needed to hear this today, it's been rough :(

Thanks, OP

People with Tourette’s deserve to be out in public.

Say it with me.

PEOPLE WITH TOURETTE’S DESERVE TO OUT IN PUBLIC.

Even if they’re loud

Even if their tics are obscene

Even if they’re annoying

Even if their tics are violent

Even if they have severe Tourette’s

Even if they’re disruptive

We deserve dignity, access and respect no matter where we are.

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I fucking hate tics so much bro I usually suppress them but now I can only suppress a few and other classmates are laughing to each other and questioning if I'm on drugs.

How about you take my tics for a day, see how you're feeling then.

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A cis woman tells me that maybe she should transition to gain male privilege as I'm recovering from getting beaten up in the men's bathrooms.

I tell her to be my guest and give me a call when she gets her jaw broken, I always carry a first aid kit and a pepper spray.

She calls me a misogynistic asshole.

A cis man tells me that he'd sure love some T.

Gave him my prescription and best of luck with the constant shortages and getting denied.

He calls me a pussy.

I'm fighting for my life and reproductive rights. I get told to get off women's fights, that it's not about me, like I shed my womb after my first T shot.

I search for support groups for SA victims, and I'm stuck in the same “women/NBs only”. Still shooting my shot, send an application. I introduce myself. Never get a call back.

I go to a trans night. Say I go by he/him. Get told back “yeah, that's how we all start !” by a trans woman. I'm too exhausted, I get up and I leave.

I hang out with my friends, one of them drunkenly says masculinity is a prison we must learn to escape. She gets rows of applause. Back to drinking alone.

Yes I could explain it. But who'd you rather be ? A delusional girl or a man made threat ?Or it could be better, I could just not exist ! And we'd bleach my corpse and I'd become a casualty. Not an F, ot an M, a W for Wound and for Wrong.

I put a candle on a single cupcake, 2 years on HRT. I blow it in the dark. Curtains closed like casket.

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As someone officially diagnosed with aspd.

I don't get the problem people have with self diagnosers.

Aspd on record means if go to jail get a worse sentence.

Aspd on record means many therapist in their ableism will refuse to help with any problem.

I knew i had no guilt or shame or affective empathy or feelings of compassion from earliest memories. I didn't suddenly lose those feelings when i got diagnosed.

And there is genetic evidence for aspd.

And there are psychologists that view it more like a neurodevelopmental disorder.

"Well the dsm 5"...was written by people who used studies only on prisoners for their results so it became more action focused over internal as a way to reinforce the prisoner claim.

And it's a work in progress authority...that you are blindly obeying and believing? Now that's a trait that doesn't fit aspd.

Reflect on actual symptoms like problems with boredom. Lower, missing, or weirdly selective care for feelings of compassion, affective empathy, guilt, shame, care. Things viewed differently for you then norm. Urges. Response to things. Having rules need to be explained to make sense and not just accepted in their own right. Etc.

Knowing a spectrum and if fit enough, fit enough.

And then if fit do the best to use how different for best way forward. Like i use my selfishness for long term prisoners dilema as a motivation for me to do good. I turned my high anger into motivation. I found beauty in various things as an alleviation for boredom. Etc.

Tl;dr those "with aspd" trying to fake claim others cause no official diagnoses...are the ones most likely to not have aspd.

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What people think sociopathy is:

- manipulative

- homicidal

- overall a bad person

- crazy

- lacks emotions

What sociopathy really is:

- constant overwhelming boredom and understimulation, feeling of void, what often leads to performing harmful or stupid behaviors on others or self

- inability to regulate emotions properly which leads to impulsive mood swings

- often paranoia

- putting yourself at constant risk and danger to feel anything

- disgusting intrusive thoughts running through your head 24/7

- inability to manage a healthy relationship

- returning desire to cut off all the people who care about you (often in a harmful way)

- struggles to understand why people care and inability to return the same

- often SH

- inability to adapt and function in society due to fanatical nonconformism

- actual homicidal thoughts or tendencies

- depending on complexicity of the disorder trauma-based psychotic episodes may occur, these may trigger fatal self-destructive/destructive behaviors

- making impulsive decisions (large part of which turn out to be bad)

- actual manipulative behaviors often being a result of fear of loosing control over your life

- being prone to falling into addictions

- easily triggered aggression (verbal or physical)

- selective to none interest in understanding emotions and pain of other people/animals

- often depression

- meltdowns that can last for days or weeks

- subconscious isolation

- overly materialistic or trade-like understanding of any relationship, benefit oriented mindset

- feeling of being tired and disgustingly sick of everything and everyone, indifference and ignorance being a result of years of own suffering

- can be but not necessairly an entirely bad person, you don't choose to have a certain mental illness but you do choose to be a piece of shit or not.

ASPD as sociopathy is a spectrum and a complex trauma based disorder that varies depending on the individual but most importantly causes a lot of struggles and a lot of pain to the person experiencing it. It incredibly pisses me off how misunderstood and misinterpreted that disorder is, so here is a yap from someone who is actually diagnosed with it.

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the voices the fucking voices

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The psychiatrist who wrote the criteria for narcissism just made an extremely important point about what’s wrong with diagnosing Trump with mental disorders

Dr. Allen Frances says in speculating about Trump’s mental health, we are doing a disservice to those who do suffer from mental illness. In a series of tweets, he explained why he doesn’t think Trump is a narcissist — and how harmful it can be for us to keep assuming that he is.