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[versesbysuh]

I lost every bit of me in loving you. I look into the mirror and i can't even identify who this person is he doesn't look like me at all and i don't mean just from inside but from outside too my face looks thin and frail and these bags under my eyes i wonder what caused them maybe the amount of tears all because of you that i had to cry.

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And I, a fool draped in the silks of devotion, would have built you castles in the sky, brick by brick with the remnants of my shattered pride.

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Weird how i am in love with my solitude way too much to not feel alone.

And yet somehow being completely devoid of company sometimes makes me scared.

True loneliness is actually a curse.

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The sky shines brighter when you are by my side,

The flowers seem to be more fragrant,

And the birds sing melodiously.

To me the sun rises and sets with your name.

You are the meaning of perfection the epitome of grace.

Your existence is the source of beauty and goodness,

And you are my most cherished dream.

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—And in my soul i planted hope in the form of flowers, but you never returned to see them bloom. Now they stand still as a silent reminder of our lost connection, their petals holding my tears in a delicate embrace.

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But under the dead willow where I yearn your tender touch, the ice of winter seals the wounds upon my heart, and there I sit, yearning, waiting for some miracle, some way out of this pain.

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For long after you've turned your gentle gaze

away from me, my heart still remembers you

And it clings to the shreds of you entrenched in my soul.

For time cannot erase this love, nor can solitude expunge the memory of you.

Each whisper of the wind, the rustling leaves, the very ebb and flow of creation,

It feels like it echos with the harmonious symphony of how we loved, of what once was.

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"The world ending holds no weight to me, for my universe collapsed the moment you walked away.

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Also learn to give up on people who do not appreciate you!

“Appreciate those who don’t give up on you.”

— Unknown

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~Drowning in the waves of pain that crash upon my shattered heart.

I offered you the purest parts of my soul, vulnerable and open, believing in the beauty of our bond. But you chose to trample on that trust, leaving me gasping for air in a suffocating reality where love turned to ash in my hands.

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There are sometimes things about people that make you fall in love with them forever, And her smile was exactly just that.

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"And when you hold people too near your chest you end up hugging greif"

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Loving people too much often causes you great grief,

I didn't realise "people" also meant your own blood.

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"I gave you my heart, my body, my soul, my all

Only for me to watch it pitifully crumble and fall.

You were a lesson eteched in pain

Loving you has taught me that love is vain."

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Whats up with this lack of faith?

...the confusion the anxiety.

Why is it so difficult to hope why can't i beleive that things will get better.

Seeing the evil people commit and do and not being able to prevent it why do i feel as if i am the one whose wrong.

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~And to orphans be kind says the lord.

That's what my heart became when you abandoned it, it became an orphan i was supposed to be kind to him, comfort him, love him and cherish him just like you are supposed to with an orphan and yet to him i wonder why was i so cruel?

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Why can't my mind stop thinking i hate this feeling.

This perpetual voice poisoning my mind.

I feel like i just think for the sake of thinking people do a lot of stuff to avoid thinking and i leave a lot to stuff even my work just for the sake of my pointless thinking.

I really need therapy i guess.