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What does "someone on other acc following" mean? /genq /confused

Sorry for weird wording i meant acc as in account andI meant someone who is following me as in on wackyscreamswithraisin this blog - and I first posted that from my main blog.

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Saddened that someone on other acc following was a Loli/shotacon proshipper, any proshippers who might be following me I’d like to ask you to respectfully block me as I have blocked this person.

I understand proship does not mean the same for everyone and varies in severity, and ones interest in dark subject matter shouldn’t necessarily be a reflection on them, but if your ships are paedophilic, incestual etc or you follow a ‘fiction does not affect reality’ stance for example I do not want to interact with you

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Delusions of grandeur

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5am (more upsetting sketch under cut)

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Hey, update 4 years later. I don’t fully agree with this response anymore, I’m sorry for being so dismissive about this too deader that wasn’t cool, in my defense I was 16. I didn’t know how to articulate myself properly. I know these things don’t just exist in a vacuum and the p*do subtext isn’t really that far removed from the episode, even if I choose to interpret it differently. I’ve put my new explanation in the pinned post.

Why is ppl so obsessed with freaky fred? He's basically a depiction of pedophilia -.-

It's fair enough if that's your interpretation of him as he does give off a weird vibe. But people are allowed to have their own idea of what the character represents without necessarily defending their actions or their possible subliminal meanings.

You could argue he's basically a serial killer too if you wanted to make sense of his vibe in that way. (Watcherofthe200s said it the best in his top ten ctcd episodes.)

But for me my interpretation is that he's literally just a guy who likes shaving people (presumably because of trichotemnomania or trichophilia) and that's the joke because you would assume he is going to do something much more sinister to Courage in the episode.

Also he's a comfort character and a hyperfixation for me. So I enjoy making content about him, regardless of how obsessed that makes me look.

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Indefinite Hiatus and Clearing the air BIG TW ON //PERSONAL

Before I say anything this is the fanfic summary: It’s/ it was revolving around Raisin and Malcom (and Hamilton) from the Smart Talk With Raisin short, somehow stealing a meta cartoon remote from the, inaccessible to them; Cartoon Network ‘toonworld’ (like when you see the characters crossover in CN bumpers). They’d watch Courage the Cowardly Dog on their tv in their room like a comfort, but with the remote they start meddling with the character’s awareness of meta for entertainment - and when Barbara accidentally fuses with a glitched artefact, she is unable to be reverted to normal and she breaks the constructs of her own minor characterdom to try and track them down. The fic idea has changed a lot over the years but that’s what it (currently) has changed to. It’s rather Pibby adjacent and would focus on a lot of what’s changed about cartoons between every half decade - yeah it’s very complicated and over the top lol.

I know y’all are sick of me making these long ass walls of texts instead of proper content and I’m really sorry I keep pulling this 💀. I was going to make a nicer pinned posts] of explanation but since this blog is in a confusing place at the moment I just decided to do it quick instead so I don’t put it off.

For those who don’t want to read the full thing: TLDR,

1. I have personal attachment to Fred that has probably affected my judgement

2. My thoughts on Fred as schizophrenic rep is certainly not universal and the partial embarrassment about writing content revolving around him continues to catch up with me

3. The related problems below are reason why I have been so adverse to seeing Fred as being a r-pist m—-ster or SA’er

And 4. I’m starting to accept that it’s not that deep if my fanfic never gets told. Even if it would make me happy, it’s not the end of my work or me if I don’t. Nevertheless I hope you all understand and I’m sorry for any disappointment.

On the personal issue: First, bc some might not know, I am mentally ill and have had a vague diagnosis of psychosis for years that was never fully decided and that I understand now and abridge as ‘schizopsec’, but follows all the traits of OSDD 1B, enough that I tend to use both terms. ‘Fred’ is one of my alters - he’s my main ISH (internal self helper), caretaker, and fictive (fictional introject), and he has been for around 10 years. This is not a joke. This is as cringe as it sounds, even worse in real life when he fronts of course, and is embarrassing for me to admit even when I attach this post to my main blog where I share schizospec upliftment posts. It’s a complicated and excruciating subject matter for many many reasons, and it’s important that I clarify this, even though it’s uncomfortable for me, since this naturally affects my ability of separating Fred the alter from Freaky Fred in my writing and art. This is part of why I have to keep scrutinising my writing drafts. I believe I can keep them separate, but this is part of the reason why I guess my attachment for him and making content to do with him is there at all.

My thoughts on Freaky Fred in episode : As a schizospec, putting the alter aside, schizophrenic representation means the world and the moon and the stars to me, even when it’s bad. I can’t tell if this is an agreeable opinion amongst other schizospec/ psychotic people, but even damaging and dangerous rep involving homicidality like the axe crazy maniacs have something of catharsis in their rises and falls that I can appreciate, depending. Sexually depraved and violent rep however, crosses a line; obviously schizo killers in fiction are heavily drenched in misinformed stigma and is mostly bullshit and can be dangerous- we are dramatically far more likely to hurt ourselves or be hurt - but I think most people would agree that sexual violence is a different evil altogether, and I cannot stand to see the marginalised mentally ill conflated with such horrendous shit.

There’s the problem. I think Fred is a schizophrenic; other than him getting the equivalent to straightjacketed at the end and taken to presumably some asylum or how he narrates/ talks/rhymes in his own head and otherwise barely talks just disjointedly - he’s got that classic 90s-00s cartoon crazy grin and is instilling fear in the viewer through said unbalancedness,his whole deal is very ‘of its time’ on displaying scary madness. And, all that being said, even though he’s clearly not good rep by any stretch of the imagination, he doesn’t harm anyone - he’s even ‘nice’ - or at least doesn’t seem to be blatantly malicious. The bar is on the floor, but that’s already better than idk William Afton or something.

Fred as a predator: The point of view of Fred as a metaphorical molester is pretty obvious and is a popular opinion, and it would be dishonest to say I don’t completely see it, especially with how he says naughty - the implication steers more into the sexual predator area. Hair shaving isn’t violent as much as taking something away - subtracting, and this can be interpreted in a murderous or SA fashion, but the murderous interpretation I stick with, one akin to Sweeney Todd, is a very flattering view of it and I know it. It’s easy to see how it comes off fetishistic which favours an SA view and is naturally the reason why a lot of people see it as rapey.

The episode as a metaphor for SA or CSA enabled in a household that turns the other way is popular, and at first I didn’t like this theory because it felt like a dark theory made almost to tarnish child content with a deeper or darker meaning, which I had seen a lot elsewhere. But this wasn’t really honest; ‘The Mask’ works well as an episode with no subtext but is respected moreso as an episode clearly about domestic abuse and misandry born from trauma. ‘Freaky Fred’ can also be this.

I think the well and honest truth for me is, even when I do everything I can to touch grass, and remove my personal connection to the character/ the idea of him through the alter, away from the conversation; I really don’t want Fred to be a schizophrenic and a sexual predator character at the same time, and I cannot remove my view of him as the first one, but I have to admit that, in some ways, both was intended for him and this episode in some variation. It’s pretty upsetting to think about; I know a majority audience isn’t going to be that invested in the representation of mad people, especially not in cartoon antagonists, but it matters a lot to me. Obviously it would still be bad if he wasn’t a crazy character and it would still be scary and awful if he acted more ‘normal’, but that craziness is there and the combination feels particularly wretched because, once again, schizophrenics are far more likely to be victimised.

What I’m trying to say with all this; Fred is a mad character who despite being the most offputting and scary character I’ve ever seen in my life, managed to become irremovable from my psyche for almost my whole life, for better and for worse, and in some small way, seeing him as so scary and uncomfortable, but equally ‘good-willed’ and harmless by technicality in that episode, made me feel a little less alone. But people who have been yucked out by this blog and this fixation as I said before are fully in their right, and I am taking a step back to consider if I want to continue with making stuff to do with Fred or not.

The fanfic?: I still think about the story a lot but as you can probably tell I’ve made it very convoluted by involving a meta narrative, and as I’m just about to head into university by the time I’m writing this, it’s difficult to tell what will come of this. I will let you all know, but it’s in a continuous grey area and I don’t want anyone to get their hopes up. I’m sorry.

Will I still post art?: Maybe haha, I never know how to feel when I post it. Sometimes I worry it gives off the impression that I ship post-shaving incident Barbred (I don’t) or that I endorse Fred’s ‘freakiness’ at all. And sometimes I think it just looks bad, as in not a good recreation of the ctcd art style, or too sad - like idk why I think the audience is just going to understand these alarmingly emotional pieces when I’ve been pretty scarce on context, I apologise for everyone’s who’s gotten tonal whiplash scrolling. Fred art may come up elsewhere on my other blog which I will reblog here if I think it’s appropriate.

If you read all the way thank you so much💚, I hope you get what I’m saying, and if you don’t I understand. Consider following my main zebedeezing if you want somewhere I post more often though non ctcd related.

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BLLAAAAGH!! Did I scare you??👹

(// unreality and ooc)⚠️👇

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Instagram sketches^, more intense stuff under cut

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I'm so glad I'm not the only one who sees potential in Fred as a character. I think you definitely have a neat concept for a story! Fred is my fav character, I can't stop drawing him lol

Thank you so much anon^^, I really hope so! And I really hope i can get this fic out one day properly agsjgd, even with everything that’s happened the past couple of years. Real ones remember that original chapter 1 I deleted (I still lose sleep cringing bout it).

I hope I do the idea for him and Barbara’s story justice, cause yeah! like you say there’s sm potential, especially after the straight outta nowhere — just the idea of a character very much set in his time being involved in a modern day continuation, there’s a lot to do. I’m trying to balance a lot of different moods in this fic, particularly with getting the same feel as the original cartoon across - like I’m trying to give a solid explanation for how slapstick and genuine pain is differentiated, doing myself a madness. It’s gonna be worth it though I think.

Please do keep drawing him that’s awesome 💜

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Misc Edits from varying months

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Across the dogverse idk

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Hashtag relatable

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A realistic Fred from me looks different and worse every year

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Two hard workers “”relaxing”””^

^ *sitting there and doing absolutely nothing*

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🎹I wanna take a Pic. with Cardi B. Inside . My Cardigan.

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Nice to see you again.

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I'm not very commited to making art dumps on one page so I'm just gonna post my meme sketches bit by bit