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Fitness 8/28/25

Back to exercising. Did a warm-up, chair core routine, and walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I had trouble with my new cpap nasal pillow. For some reason, it wasn't fitting to my nose, so it was leaking air really bad. I may go to the supply shop today after work to see if they have a way to get it to fit me better, 'cause I needed to replace the old one, and they sent me a whole box of replacements, which are the exact same as the one I had. Maybe all they'll do is have me run it under warm water and stretch it a little bit, but I'd still like to get a professional opinion, y'know?

anyway, about exercising. I created some routines that I can do based on my energy levels. It includes a 5 minute warm up, 15 minutes of strength-training yoga or "yogalates", then 15 minute chair exercises or 20 minute full-body OR 30 minute 80s/90s aerobics, then a 5 minute pelvic floor routine, and then a relaxing 10 minute yoga flow before bed. I'll need to incorporate my 30 minute walk on the treadmill a few times a week, too.

I got a new job as a pharmacy technician at another pharmacy, this one hopefully less unorganized and ridiculous as walgreens was. the only problem is that i said i should be available to start working next tuesday, but i'm still waiting for my new license to be approved and sent to me. i might have to call them tomorrow and reschedule if it doesn't come by the time i get off my current job tomorrow. i can't work in the pharmacy without a license! i'll also have to retake the exam to get certified again, but I'm not too worried about that. i got one of those laminated info pamphlet things from amazon that has everything i need to know. plus a lotta info is on pinterest, so i created a board just for that.

with this new job, i'll be working more full-time hours, around 32 to start with, and i'd be totally happy to keep those hours, since i might not still be able to handle a whole 40-hour workweek. i really need to lose weight, so that's my goal right now, eating better and less. i plan to get lots of fruit, veggies, and protein options when i get my next paycheck. i still love fruit protein smoothies, and i'd like to follow those kid-friendly "hidden veggie" recipes to get my greens and stuff in, too. i hate cooked vegetables unless they're finely chopped and mixed into another food like ground chicken or ground beef. i like dumplings and egg rolls, too. but i need to mind my portion sizes above everything. I'm planning on getting some divided plates that will help me have proper sizes for protein, carbs/starches, and fruit to have for every meal. I have divided containers with cool, gothic crows on them for me to bring lunch to work, too.

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ADHD and ARFID tip

look up kid-friendly recipes. Really, they usually involve hidden veggies, a side of fruit, and a protein option that's easy on sore jaws and not a bad texture. to make it easier to plate so nothing touches, get "toddler" plates or divided plates for seniors. Makes it easy to do proper portion sizes, too!

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Fitness 8/17/25

Yes, i stopped exercising, but for good reason: it's too hot. It's too hot, even in the house, and I've been sick from heat exhaustion. I went through a few weeks where I was desperately craving chocolate and sugar, and I've cut back down again. I have my vitamins and supplements, I've got a decent sleep schedule, I wake up early enough to totally relax and even be able to be called in early to work for more hours. My face is nearly clear of acne, just red from how hot I always am, but that's better than all the pimples and uneven skin. My back acne is nearly gone, too, leaving me with just needing to clear up my chest and neck.

i'm loving making mango vanilla orange protein shakes! So refreshing and perfect for waking me up in the morning. I'll need to get more protein powder soon. I'm super broke, so I may need to make a trip to the food bank tomorrow just to get some stuff before my paycheck comes in on Friday. What little money I have right now, I need to use on gas. I'm determined not to waste it on junk food.

i'm in a creative slump, not really having the will to make anything. I know that motivation comes after initiating a task, but money has just been stressing me out. i'm trying to find a new job, but i haven't gotten anywhere with that yet. i've applied for multiple jobs, but no one is getting back to me, OR they want someone with more experience, which makes it impossible to GET experience.

so, the goal now is to keep my spaces clean, keep my skin and hair clean, try to EAT clean, and work on getting my steps in. 7-10k steps/day.

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Fitness 7/29/25

Going to bed earlier and waking up earlier to have enough time to actually DO stuff in the morning. It takes me a long time to fall asleep lately, so I'm hoping that regular exercise will help that. This morning, I had a smoothie made of orange juice and vanilla protein powder (it tasted like an orange dreamsicle!), two pieces of toast with unsalted butter and local honey, and a cup of blueberry green tea. Then, I decided I had the time to do some yoga. My fave channel is SarahBethYoga. I chose a 15-minute stretch and strength yoga flow that was a bit too much for me, but I was able to do most of the poses (thank goodness I have a yoga block already cuz I needed it with this flow).

I've learned that I drink TOO MUCH water. Yeah, with how sedentary I've been lately, drinking 120 oz of water is apparently too much for me. Signs over OVERhydration include nausea, headaches, bloating, etc. Please learn the signs. It's more serious than you'd think. However, now that I have a workout plan that I can actually stick to, I know that I'll need to adjust my water intake all over again. I'll have to keep an eye on my symptoms to make sure I don't drink too much again. Right now, with me just getting back into working out and all that, I only need to drink about 80 oz of water. I drink the majority of that at home AFTER work, BUT I'll be working out during that time, so we'll see.

Food-wise, protein smoothies are a must for me. Gets me my fruit and protein in an easy-to-consume and arfid-friendly way. For real, if you need to get more fruit/veggies/protein in your diet, smoothies are the best way to go. I need to seriously cut down on carbs. I eat a lot of breaded meat products instead of them in any other form. I plan to eat more fish, though. Like, fish sticks, tilapia, salmon, all that. I have a block of salmon that I plan to cook with rice and some Asian veggies in my rice cooker after seeing a recipe on youtube. If I can throw stuff into a rice cooker or altogether in the oven or air fryer, than I'm gonna do it. I hate cooking because of all the prep and stuff to wash during and after. The less I have to do or clean, the better. So I know there are whole meal recipes where you bake chicken or whatnot with side veggies all in one pan in the oven, or, like I saw before, in the rice cooker or air fryer. I just need to work on veggies I'll actually enjoy cooked, 'cause I really struggle with how soggy cooked veggies can get. I just know that if I cook them a certain way, they'll still be crips and delicious.

Exercise-wise, I plan to do yoga that involves stretching, building up my core muscles, and bodyweight strengthening. I know I need to work up to weightlifting, considering how weak I currently am. Like, just the 15-minute flow I did this morning, I can feel how much it worked my whole body, especially my core. My abs are screaming! With yoga in the morning, I'm hoping that will build me up for my day at work, and then, when I get home, I can do a warm-up before a whole-body workout. I have a 20-minute beginner video at the ready, as well as a 15-minute seated core workout, and, of course, walking on the treadmill with my incline and 3mph speed. I'd like to start with the core workout, 'cause I've learned that it's super important to all other exercises and good posture.

I've been working on my posture, actually! Especially since I got diagnosed with vertical heterophoria. I need to actively recognize when I'm tilting my head to try and compensate for my misalignment, and I need to stand up straighter when I find myself slumping. I'm really working on sitting up straighter in my desk chair at home, too. I got an ergonomic chair for a reason!

One more thing I'm working on is getting back to a full skincare routine. Washing my face or wiping with micellar water, then toner, eye cream, serum, moisturizer, and sunscreen. When I take a shower, I use a body acne scrub, 'cause I sweat so much that my chest, neck, and back still break out. My face still breaks out a lot, too. I need to change my bedding more often, as well as sticking to a NIGHTTIME skincare routine, too, of washing with my nighttime cleanser, retinol cream a couple times a week, and moisturizer. I need to stock back up on my vitamins and supplements, and I'm gonna start taking a hair/nails/skin supplement alongside everything else. I exfoliate every time I take a shower, and I use a really hydrating body wash and in-shower lotion, so I do have smooth skin (except for my feet, which, at this point probably need a full-on pedicure).

Overall, I'm currently 223 lbs according to my scale, and that is not acceptable for me. I really struggle with bloating and constipation, so I'm hoping that the walking and changes to my diet help with that. I know I'm terrible at starting and stopping, but I really need to commit, even though I'm in a transitional period where I'm looking for a new job. My hope is that I get something in an office where I just type all day, because I'm really good at typing.

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Vertical Heterophoria and Rose-tinted Glasses

saw a special optometrist yesterday and we confirmed that i have a condition called "vertical heterophoria", which means that, my eyeballs themselves have normal astigmatism, but my eyes are misaligned. One eye is slightly above the other, which causes all sorts of issues like headaches/migraines, neck and shoulder pain from tilting my head, dizziness, problems with balance and walking, nausea, and anxiety in big, bright places like Targets and other warehouse stores.

I've already ordered my new glasses. They'll have a rose tint, which is supposed to help immensely with my photosensitivity. The doc also wants me to train my ears, cuz my left ear hears better than my right, which I had no idea was happening.. I'll probably need to do some eye and neck/shoulder exercises to help with my head tilt. I'm VERY excited for new glasses that should actually help me! I can't believe they're gonna be rose tinted. I didn't know that was a medical prescription I could get! I'm gonna look so cute!

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Fitness: 6/18/25

My breakfasts these days are either a blueberry protein pancake made in the microwave or a fruity protein smoothie. I'm also gonna be having soup as my other meals. My dad has smoothies for breakfast and he raves about 'em, so that's my way to get fruit into my diet, and the soups are for getting vegetables into my diet. It's also to try and help me cut down on all the breaded products and pasta I normally eat.

as for exercise, i'm walking for 30 minutes almost everyday, up to 3 mph to get my heart rate up higher. i'm not supposed to run, but i'm not sure if a light jog would be doable in the future. Right now, i'm focusing on the 30 minutes. I spend the first 5 minutes kinda warming up at 2.5 mph, then spend 5 more minutes at 2.8, then bump up to 3 mph for 15 minutes, then the last 5 minutes as a cool-down back to 2.5 mph. I'll focus on the walking for a couple weeks until it's routine, then add a 20-minute full body workout in the morning on sunday, monday, tuesday, wednesday, and saturday. thursdays and fridays, i have to be up early, so i won't have time those days.

for today, i got up, made my smoothie, drank 8 oz of it, then went to the grocery store to get more smoothie ingredients like chia seeds and orange juice, then came home right before it started raining. had some chips and salsa as a sorta brunch. the plan for the rest of the day involves some soup for lunch, my 30 minute walk, a shower, and putting my clean laundry away. i should have plenty of time to relax after that.

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i mean this in the gentlest way possible: you need to eat vegetables. you need to become comfortable with doing so. i do not care if you are a picky eater because of autism (hi, i used to be this person!), you need to find at least some vegetables you can eat. find a different way to prepare them. chances are you would like a vegetable you hate if you prepared it in a stew or roasted it with seasoning or included it as an ingredient in a recipe. just. please start eating better. potatoes and corn are not sufficient vegetables for a healthy diet.

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the cleaning zoomies from adhd meds are akin to a religious experience

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it's pretty disheartening to look up anything related to "health", "fitness", or "food" on this site without there being a bunch of OF pics, butt selfies, and the "ana" stuff. I can't block tags fast enough before new ones are created!

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Fitness: 5/3/25

I work at my dad's produce stand now most days, so I spend my free time walking laps around the tables to get my steps in and kill time. i've been meeting my step goal of 5k, but i wanna get better than that. i know that 10k is the ultimate goal. i've only gotten there once, and that was after walking around ALL DAY cuz I wasn't that busy. on my days when i'm NOT working the stand, I'll try and get on the treadmill to replace those laps.

i fell off on showering regularly and taking care of my skin, but i'm back. i now have a solid shower playlist on my music app so i can listen to a bunch of energetic songs at first and then have them slow down by the end. i think i have the timing right. i normally take half-hour showers when it's a full-shower routine, twenty minutes when it's not. i've started putting on lotion everyday now, too, which is something i've never done before. i finally figured out that the little red dots all over my arms and legs are caused by dry and irritated skin, so i'm trying to fix that. my face feels smooth and soft when i touch it, but there are still tons of little red spots that look like pimples just under my skin on my forehead, cheeks, and chin. i exfoliate, i wash my face, i use toner, a serum, all that. why is my skin so smooth to the touch but looks all red and pimply? makes no sense.

it really hit me that my health is getting worse pretty much every month at this point, and i remembered that what i do with my body NOW dictates how my body will be when i'm much older. so, yes, i need to lose weight and get stronger NOW so i don't have this many problems when i become an old lady. so, i have to eat better, eat LESS, and work on stretching and walking daily before going for more exercise and a stricter diet.

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back on the fitness journey, baby! 03/30/25

Had to take a long break due to a musical, a concussion, holiday hours, and stress, but now I'm somewhat back to a regular schedule, including two guaranteed days off a week. So, I made some youtube playlists of daily workouts that i can do, depending on the day of the week. i'm focusing on morning and bedtime yoga stretches, core exercises, standing pilates, and walking or dancing in the afternoon right after work.

i need to work on strengthening my core for better balance, my neck and shoulders for better posture, stretching so i don't get cramps, and then cardio to help burn fat. i also need to sleep more, eat less and eat WAY less sugar, and shower more often. but i've been doing well with washing my face, brushing my teeth, and doing my hair. i got a bidet attachment for my toilet and that's given me a boost of confidence, cuz i'm suddenly finding it hard to wipe enough to be clean. i think it has to do with my weak core muscles, which is a big motivation to work on them.

mentally, i'm doing really well. i got put on a low dose of synthroid cuz it turns out that i've been struggling with hypothyroidism for YEARS. i've noticed an absolutely huge change just from taking the low dose. i have much more energy during the day, i'm more motivated to also take all of my other daytime medications, so i'm much more focused and happy.

i'm concerned that i have dyspraxia, which would explain a LOT of physical issues i've had my whole life, from having difficulty writing and holding things, standing on my own, to dancing. I LOVE dancing, but I STRUGGLE to keep balance, and I even mix up my left and right all the time. i have an entire youtube playlist of just dance fitness, cuz i love to dance so much, but i suck at so many important parts of it, and it makes me feel really self-conscious. i'm hoping that, along with core exercises, perhaps some physical therapy will also help.

anyway, my biggest obstacle is a good diet. i've definitely slipped back into eating a LOT of sugar and processed foods, like cookies, sugary cereals, candy, you name it. i really fell off. but, i've somehow managed to not GAIN any more weight. i have two jobs, one at a retail store on mondays and tuesdays, and the other running my dad's produce stand on thursdays, fridays, and saturdays. at my retail job, i don't do a lot of walking, even if i'm not at the register and out on the floor. i actually think i need a cane when working the register. even with the anti-fatigue mats, i struggle to keep my balance and often have to move around. at the produce stand, i can sit when needed, but i also get some weight lifting in AND can walk laps to get some exercise. my weight has been stuck at 214lbs for WEEKS, like literally my weight has not changed for a MONTH.

i'm hoping for some change. my mantra is "progress". No going back, i can only move forward.

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Something that drives me fucking insane is trying to look up neurodivergence as an adult and everything being about children. I try and look up my adhd as an adult woman and everythings based on wee boys. My sister looks up her autism and its based on toddlers at nursery. Trying to understand how to understand being diagnosed w dyspraxia in my late twenties and all the results are about how you should help your child with physical therapy to help with co-ordination issues becoming an issue later in life. Well, its later in life and none of this shit was done with me so what the fuck do i do now ahhhhhhhh

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First day of using a glucose meter to check my blood sugar

I got diagnosed with hypoglycemia, though i'm BARELY prediabetic and have been trying to eat better. my doc prescribed me a glucometer and all that, so today, i was finally able to afford it all and take my first sample before lunch. 125, not bad, according to the results average table (and my diabetic gma), so i guess i'm doing alright for today. i'm supposed to check my blood sugar once daily, but i don't know WHEN.

i'm pretty sure i have some trouble sleeping 'cause my blood sugar drops in the middle of the night and then i wake up and HAVE to eat something before i feel good enough to go back to sleep. that doesn't happen often, now that i've recognized it. i usually have a little snack about an hour or so before i take my nighttime meds and go to bed, so i hope i've taken care of that problem. i'm eating more protein, and now i can cut down on processed sugars.

i'll need to buy more glucose tablets this next payday, but i should be fine at work for the next several days 'till then. i'm trying to eat more protein in the mornings and during my break. i'm so new to all this, so i just hope i'm doing what i need to do to be healthier.

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Fitness: 1/9/25

Had to take a month-long break due to accidentally giving myself a concussion. Have fallen off my less-sugar deal, but I just don't have money for healthy groceries at the moment. Hopefully tomorrow after work, I can get some more yogurt and stuff.

as of getting weighed yesterday at my allergist's office, i'm 212, which isn't terrible, but my goal for the year is to get back under 200 like i did in 2023. i'm recovered from my concussion by now, so i can get back on the treadmill. it's just a matter of motivation. my depression gets so much worse during the cold, dark months of winter, so i've been taking vitamin d to try and help with that. mostly i've just been needing to remember to take my meds, especially my antidepressants and adderall on my days OFF of work. i've been doing my best to not sleep in, so i have no excuse to say it's "too late" to take my daytime meds.

so, my goals for january are to cut down on processed sugar again, eat more homecooked meals, eat less fast food, save money by going to the food pantry when possible, walking on the treadmill everyday unless not feeling well, get back into doing arm and ab workouts, and drink more water and tea.

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got diagnosed with hypoglycemia without diabetes the other day after yet another low blood sugar crash. now i have to check my blood sugar daily with a glucose monitor. not looking forward to pricking my fingers for the foreseeable future. the weird thing is, my pcp doesn't seem to wanna look into what's CAUSING the low blood, just...monitoring it, at least for now? gotta take down symptoms first, i guess.

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If hot showers make you feel sick/nauseous/unreasonably fatigued, you might need to eat something to raise your blood sugar. Hot water dilates blood vessels which can lower your blood sugar faster. If you're hypoglycemic or struggle with blood sugar regulation already, this can feel HORRIBLE.

Sincerely, someone who took a nice long shower and now wants to sleep for 2 days straight