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Hi! So, I'm on a journey to basically learn more about extra marginalized mental disorders, as that's part of my philosophy of harm reduction. I'm here to ask what living with narcissism is like.

It's often seen as an "evil disorder," which is stupid, so I just want to learn more about it on a human level. Currently I roughly know the clinical definition.

Sadly I have had negative experiences with two people with npd, one diagnosed and the other self-diagnosed, and both of them were pretty traumatic to be friends with, but as with everything, I assume that is not the universal case.

Anyways, rambling over! What is it like to live with npd, and how does it affect your life?

Hi, thank you for your ask.

I'm sorry that you've had negative experiences with narcissists, and I hope you were able to move on and recover. I'm glad your traumatic friendships with pwNPD didn't push you into the direction of assuming every person with NPD is evil, although remember, it is absolutely okay to be vary around narcissists.

As for your question about what it's like to live with NPD, it is hard. It's difficult to do anything when the voice in your head constantly whispers into your ear that if you don't do something perfectly, you're a disappointment and don't deserve to live. Sometimes I refuse to do anything at all, in fear that I'll fail and be a laughing stock. Illusions of self-grandeur and lack of empathy make me feel disconnected from other people, and when I manage to befriend someone, I usually idealise them to the point it's unhealthy. I also turn everything into a competition and it makes it very hard to function normally, because I can compete with people over the smallest things and they won't even know that, but if I 'lose' the competition, I'll hold a grudge against them, without their knowledge.

And yea, that's some things I struggle with because of my NPD, I hope it was helpful, however I doubt my rambling was very insightful. If anything, it was just yapping.

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Have a nice day as well. And no, it didn't sound disrespectful, don't worry about that.

Hi! So, I'm on a journey to basically learn more about extra marginalized mental disorders, as that's part of my philosophy of harm reduction. I'm here to ask what living with narcissism is like.

It's often seen as an "evil disorder," which is stupid, so I just want to learn more about it on a human level. Currently I roughly know the clinical definition.

Sadly I have had negative experiences with two people with npd, one diagnosed and the other self-diagnosed, and both of them were pretty traumatic to be friends with, but as with everything, I assume that is not the universal case.

Anyways, rambling over! What is it like to live with npd, and how does it affect your life?

Hi, thank you for your ask.

I'm sorry that you've had negative experiences with narcissists, and I hope you were able to move on and recover. I'm glad your traumatic friendships with pwNPD didn't push you into the direction of assuming every person with NPD is evil, although remember, it is absolutely okay to be vary around narcissists.

As for your question about what it's like to live with NPD, it is hard. It's difficult to do anything when the voice in your head constantly whispers into your ear that if you don't do something perfectly, you're a disappointment and don't deserve to live. Sometimes I refuse to do anything at all, in fear that I'll fail and be a laughing stock. Illusions of self-grandeur and lack of empathy make me feel disconnected from other people, and when I manage to befriend someone, I usually idealise them to the point it's unhealthy. I also turn everything into a competition and it makes it very hard to function normally, because I can compete with people over the smallest things and they won't even know that, but if I 'lose' the competition, I'll hold a grudge against them, without their knowledge.

And yea, that's some things I struggle with because of my NPD, I hope it was helpful, however I doubt my rambling was very insightful. If anything, it was just yapping.

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I suppose yes, although I never came across the term 'fodder' before. I think most people use the term 'supply'.

Hi! So, I'm on a journey to basically learn more about extra marginalized mental disorders, as that's part of my philosophy of harm reduction. I'm here to ask what living with narcissism is like.

It's often seen as an "evil disorder," which is stupid, so I just want to learn more about it on a human level. Currently I roughly know the clinical definition.

Sadly I have had negative experiences with two people with npd, one diagnosed and the other self-diagnosed, and both of them were pretty traumatic to be friends with, but as with everything, I assume that is not the universal case.

Anyways, rambling over! What is it like to live with npd, and how does it affect your life?

Hi, thank you for your ask.

I'm sorry that you've had negative experiences with narcissists, and I hope you were able to move on and recover. I'm glad your traumatic friendships with pwNPD didn't push you into the direction of assuming every person with NPD is evil, although remember, it is absolutely okay to be vary around narcissists.

As for your question about what it's like to live with NPD, it is hard. It's difficult to do anything when the voice in your head constantly whispers into your ear that if you don't do something perfectly, you're a disappointment and don't deserve to live. Sometimes I refuse to do anything at all, in fear that I'll fail and be a laughing stock. Illusions of self-grandeur and lack of empathy make me feel disconnected from other people, and when I manage to befriend someone, I usually idealise them to the point it's unhealthy. I also turn everything into a competition and it makes it very hard to function normally, because I can compete with people over the smallest things and they won't even know that, but if I 'lose' the competition, I'll hold a grudge against them, without their knowledge.

And yea, that's some things I struggle with because of my NPD, I hope it was helpful, however I doubt my rambling was very insightful. If anything, it was just yapping.

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Hi! So, I'm on a journey to basically learn more about extra marginalized mental disorders, as that's part of my philosophy of harm reduction. I'm here to ask what living with narcissism is like.

It's often seen as an "evil disorder," which is stupid, so I just want to learn more about it on a human level. Currently I roughly know the clinical definition.

Sadly I have had negative experiences with two people with npd, one diagnosed and the other self-diagnosed, and both of them were pretty traumatic to be friends with, but as with everything, I assume that is not the universal case.

Anyways, rambling over! What is it like to live with npd, and how does it affect your life?

Hi, thank you for your ask.

I'm sorry that you've had negative experiences with narcissists, and I hope you were able to move on and recover. I'm glad your traumatic friendships with pwNPD didn't push you into the direction of assuming every person with NPD is evil, although remember, it is absolutely okay to be vary around narcissists.

As for your question about what it's like to live with NPD, it is hard. It's difficult to do anything when the voice in your head constantly whispers into your ear that if you don't do something perfectly, you're a disappointment and don't deserve to live. Sometimes I refuse to do anything at all, in fear that I'll fail and be a laughing stock. Illusions of self-grandeur and lack of empathy make me feel disconnected from other people, and when I manage to befriend someone, I usually idealise them to the point it's unhealthy. I also turn everything into a competition and it makes it very hard to function normally, because I can compete with people over the smallest things and they won't even know that, but if I 'lose' the competition, I'll hold a grudge against them, without their knowledge.

And yea, that's some things I struggle with because of my NPD, I hope it was helpful, however I doubt my rambling was very insightful. If anything, it was just yapping.

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Hello narcissist. I love you. I know people are pissing you off but trust me you're better. Don't bother. We can go get ice cream and talk about how awesome you are.

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I'm currently questioning if I have npd and have been for a long time honestly but of course every type of resource I have been able to find for over a year now has been stigmatizing and blatantly ableist. do you know of any genuinely good resources or advice on figuring it out? I apologize and understand if you don't take asks like these

I was keeping this ask ransom for a long time and I apologize for that, but I couldn't find a lot of resources that could be helpful for you. I recommend looking into the youtube channel named Heal NPD, from what I've heard it provides genuine and non-stigmatizing information on the disorder. You can also look into the DSM-5 and see diagnosis criteria for NPD. Sorry if I didn't help you a lot, but there aren't many resources for narcissists, sadly.

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How I feel when I unmask

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The way people treat ASPD as the "nuisance to everyone else" disorder is so fucking awful. pwoASPD/traits claim we are 'selfish' yet they fail to acknowledge that it is not only a painful disorder for those around the disordered, BUT also the disordered person themself. Do you think I don't mind having this disorder? Do you think it's easy for me? To feel like a shell of a human, an empty glass, a withered flower? Do you think you are the only one struggling?

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Truly a foolish habit of mine is assuming every bpd blog on here is a safe space for other cluster bs, especially npd. And then they pull out the Narcissistic Abuse™

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"pwASPD/traits aren't some cartoon villains"

*Turns around in my chair wearing a suit, with a cat on my lap*

I beg to differ

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Fun fact: When I say that narcissistic abuse isn't real, I mean the term. Because it stigmatizes NPD. I believe the abuse you went through is very much real. The emotional abuse you went through.

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"Can you stop making your disorder your whole personality?* Well I have bad news for you lil bro

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"The world isn't centered around you" Why :(

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I hate that most of psycho/sociopaths in books are also asexual. C'mon, we're not all asexual bruh

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Fuck ableists. Hits every character ever with the npd beam

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Hey guys this is gonna be a bit longer than my usual posts but I just felt the need to say this.

I hope y'all realize that hatred and stigma toward cluster b disorders is so normalized and common that a simple "but it's actually a disorder!" probably won't do anything. Lack of empathy or sympathy, selfishness, lack of respect for anyone, seeing most people as inferior to you etc. are considered evil traits, disordered or not. Traumatised or not. You can explain how npd and aspd works to every fucking person you pass by, but in their mind, why would they treat a narcissist or a sociopath like a human being just because their behaviour is caused by trauma? A shitty person is still a shitty person, right? And they could get rid of their bad traits if they just tried enough!! Right? You aren't going to magically change someone's mindset just by providing them with actual information. It's their choice what they're going to do with acquired knowledge, and well, brushing it off and continuing to be ableist is far more easy than trying to make peace with the fact that the hatred, prejudice and misinformations you carried with you for your whole life turned out to be untrue and ableist. If we want to destigmatize the disorders, we need to start destigmatizing traits of the disorders.