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Nightmares-Zayne

Nightmares are unpleasant dreams that can elicit a stronger negative emotional response from someone.  Although there are some theories about nightmares, nobody is safe from nightmares, including Zayne. Although he usually has his stoic face around you, he knows that deep inside, it is all a mask to hide it from you.  The night, that night was too quiet, maybe it was because the AC was off, or because the humidifier wasn’t working.  His body tensed up while he slept, his brain currently in the REM phase. Everything felt too vivid; he felt like he was losing you again.

His eyes opened suddenly, and he looked to his side. His hands trembled to gently touch your neck to make sure that you’re heart was beating. He let a sigh of relief once he felt that you’re heart was still beating. He slowly sat up, trying to calm down his panicked heart. He was scared of being alone, scared of losing you again. He lost you once; he can’t lose you again. He kept looking at you, he was overthinking something that he doesn’t do. His mind was racing as he was thinking of ways that he could keep you safe. He didn’t even notice that his breath was going unsteady. 

He was gently touching your hair, not trying to wake you up, as he let a shaky breath out. He loved you too much.  He kept swallowing the lump in his throat, not wanting to cry. You stirred slightly and you felt a hand in you’re hair and you slowly opened your eyes and you whispered “Zayne, hon?” You were barely awake, your voice quiet, but he heard you, his body stiffened, not wanting to wake you up. 

You had looked up to him and saw that his body was tensed up, almost like he had frozen, looking at you. He never acted like this; you knew that there was something wrong.  You sat up and gently held him, and his breathing was unstable. He finally broke down crying when you held him in your arms. You didn’t pressure him into talking about what was wrong.  You whispered small things to comfort him, meanwhile. He didn’t want to explain his dream, and you understood. You had held him until he fell asleep first, and if he couldn’t fall asleep, you would turn on a movie for him to watch. 

“When nighttime falls and you have nobody..you’ll always have me.”  Those were the final words he heard when he fell asleep. 

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When Nighttime Falls

Zayne, your boyfriend is a busy man as the Chief Cardiological surgeon, which means that he runs on a completely different schedule than you do at times.  Sometimes he comes home when you are getting ready to go to work, or he comes home really late when you are already sleeping in bed.  For example tonight, you were waiting for Zayne and it was around 12 am, and there was no sign of him. 

You sigh as you get ready for bed, you were in your pajamas, closing your eyes when you felt weight go on the bed. You didn’t open your eyes, knowing it was Zayne.  Zayne looked at you with a soft expression feeling guilty that he couldn’t spend much time with you.  He gently kissed your forehead and said a small “I love you” before he left to eat and shower.  

Around half an hour passed, and Zayne was all ready for bed and got into bed, letting his body relax after a long day in the hospital.  He gently spooned you, opened your eyes, and said, “How was your day?” You said while shifting to look at him.  Zayne’s expression changed into a surprised one, not expecting to see you still awake.  “Tiring like usual, my snowflake..” You gently pecked his forehead as you knew your boyfriend worked so hard every day.  The only thing that mattered to you was that he came home every day, safe and sound. 

It became a routine every day for you guys to have a small night talk; nothing mattered when you had each other.  

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Nightmares-Zayne

Nightmares are unpleasant dreams that can elicit a stronger negative emotional response from someone.  Although there are some theories about nightmares, nobody is safe from nightmares, including Zayne. Although he usually has his stoic face around you, he knows that deep inside, it is all a mask to hide it from you.  The night, that night was too quiet, maybe it was because the AC was off, or because the humidifier wasn’t working.  His body tensed up while he slept, his brain currently in the REM phase. Everything felt too vivid; he felt like he was losing you again.

His eyes opened suddenly, and he looked to his side. His hands trembled to gently touch your neck to make sure that you’re heart was beating. He let a sigh of relief once he felt that you’re heart was still beating. He slowly sat up, trying to calm down his panicked heart. He was scared of being alone, scared of losing you again. He lost you once; he can’t lose you again. He kept looking at you, he was overthinking something that he doesn’t do. His mind was racing as he was thinking of ways that he could keep you safe. He didn’t even notice that his breath was going unsteady. 

He was gently touching your hair, not trying to wake you up, as he let a shaky breath out. He loved you too much.  He kept swallowing the lump in his throat, not wanting to cry. You stirred slightly and you felt a hand in you’re hair and you slowly opened your eyes and you whispered “Zayne, hon?” You were barely awake, your voice quiet, but he heard you, his body stiffened, not wanting to wake you up. 

You had looked up to him and saw that his body was tensed up, almost like he had frozen, looking at you. He never acted like this; you knew that there was something wrong.  You sat up and gently held him, and his breathing was unstable. He finally broke down crying when you held him in your arms. You didn’t pressure him into talking about what was wrong.  You whispered small things to comfort him, meanwhile. He didn’t want to explain his dream, and you understood. You had held him until he fell asleep first, and if he couldn’t fall asleep, you would turn on a movie for him to watch. 

“When nighttime falls and you have nobody..you’ll always have me.”  Those were the final words he heard when he fell asleep. 

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Failed Attempt

Your boyfriend and you have been dating for a long time, who would have expected you to get with a sassy ass painter. He would always give you attitude, and you want to snap his head off at times. But Rafaye, your loving boyfriend, is someone you love dearly.

Currently, you are listening to your boyfriend complain about your paint. You tried painting, and he was trying his best to figure out what it was. He was squinting at the art, then looking at you and at the drawing again.

"Soo...what is it?" He said, looking at the drawing, not bothering to look at you. You were offended, to say the least. It was a jellyfish; it was painfully obvious it was a jellyfish, but of course, Rafayel had to be difficult about it.

"Rafayel...seriously open your eyes and look at it, if you keep squinting at it like that, you won't be able to figure out what it is." You spoke as you sighed while shaking your head.

"Yeah, no I still don't see it." He said sassily, he is still holding a grudge from this morning, whatever you did he was going to use against you.

"It is obiously a damn Jellyfish." You said bluntly, looking at him as he squinted at the paper. "Honestly, it looks like a hat with random lines, that doesn't look like a jellyfish, the leg is deformed." He said as he was criticizing your work.

You sighed as you knew that you weren't winning this one, he knew what it was, he knew it was a jellyfish he wanted to be a pain in your ass for the time being. Of course, he wouldn't tell you that he was planning to have this painting set for his exhibit. You'll have to find it yourself once he opens his exhibit.

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Failed Attempt

Your boyfriend and you have been dating for a long time, who would have expected you to get with a sassy ass painter. He would always give you attitude, and you want to snap his head off at times. But Rafaye, your loving boyfriend, is someone you love dearly.

Currently, you are listening to your boyfriend complain about your paint. You tried painting, and he was trying his best to figure out what it was. He was squinting at the art, then looking at you and at the drawing again.

"Soo...what is it?" He said, looking at the drawing, not bothering to look at you. You were offended, to say the least. It was a jellyfish; it was painfully obvious it was a jellyfish, but of course, Rafayel had to be difficult about it.

"Rafayel...seriously open your eyes and look at it, if you keep squinting at it like that, you won't be able to figure out what it is." You spoke as you sighed while shaking your head.

"Yeah, no I still don't see it." He said sassily, he is still holding a grudge from this morning, whatever you did he was going to use against you.

"It is obiously a damn Jellyfish." You said bluntly, looking at him as he squinted at the paper. "Honestly, it looks like a hat with random lines, that doesn't look like a jellyfish, the leg is deformed." He said as he was criticizing your work.

You sighed as you knew that you weren't winning this one, he knew what it was, he knew it was a jellyfish he wanted to be a pain in your ass for the time being. Of course, he wouldn't tell you that he was planning to have this painting set for his exhibit. You'll have to find it yourself once he opens his exhibit.

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Star Gazing

Xavier x Reader

Sweet nights, him holding your hand, the world didn’t matter. You were both on the ground staring up at the stars, your boyfriend, Xavier, gently rubbed small circles on your hand.  Everything was perfect, he loved telling you about the different stars and constellations, you've never seen your boyfriend so happy. 

“Look! There, the constellation of Leo,” Xavier said happily as he pointed at the stars. You tried to see it, but you only saw many stars.  He didn’t have to know that, though; he was having the time of his life, and that was the only thing that mattered to you currently.   

“Did you know that Leo was one of the earliest recognized constellations in the sky?  Back then, the summer solstice was observed exactly in this constellation.  Which means it begins the flood of the Nile in Egypt.”   He said as he looked at you, as he was so eager to show you his knowledge. 

You nodded, showing that you were listening to his talk as he yapped about the stars.  “Is that so?” You responded, looking into his eyes.  He nodded eagerly as he smiled again, you saw the little sparks of light of his evol dancing around you guys.  He was telling you random facts or just amazing things about space and different exoplanets that exist.  

“There's a theory of a 9th planet, yet they say that this planet is far away and it is bigger than Jupiter.  This theory was started due to you needing things on two sides to balance something out. Which would be the same as the solar system.” He explained, looking far into the distance.  Silence grew between both of you only the wind was heard.  Then he turned around to look at you. 

“My star…” He said, looking at you, his eyes showed a soft look at you. “There are billions of different stars out there..Yet I found the only star that really matters to me.”  He spoke gently, his words with deep affection as he gently put a strand of hair behind your ear. 

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After care with Zayne

Zayne is the type of boyfriend that would be in doctor mode after having uhm your connected activities. He would make sure that you go to the bathroom afterwards, and if you tell him that you are tired, he will pick you up and take you to the toilet himself. He is not going to risk you getting a UTI on his watch.

He would make sure that you are clean before you go to bed. There is no way this man doesn't have hints of OCD. He makes sure to clean off his cum in case he did pull out. Neither of you wanted to deal with it in the morning, and it was just disgusting to let it get crusty.

He would pick you up while murmuring small praises, telling you how good you were for him. He would say things like "You did amazing, sweetheart." He would take time to clean your body and make sure to worship your body even in the shower.

He would always always do this no matter how tired he is. He believes that after getting intimate with his partner, he has to take care of his partner. He wants to make sure that you don't think that all he wants is your body.

Of course, he will give you cuddles once in bed, what type of boyfriend would he be if he didn't give his partner cuddles after such an intimate act.

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When Nighttime Falls

Zayne, your boyfriend is a busy man as the Chief Cardiological surgeon, which means that he runs on a completely different schedule than you do at times.  Sometimes he comes home when you are getting ready to go to work, or he comes home really late when you are already sleeping in bed.  For example tonight, you were waiting for Zayne and it was around 12 am, and there was no sign of him. 

You sigh as you get ready for bed, you were in your pajamas, closing your eyes when you felt weight go on the bed. You didn’t open your eyes, knowing it was Zayne.  Zayne looked at you with a soft expression feeling guilty that he couldn’t spend much time with you.  He gently kissed your forehead and said a small “I love you” before he left to eat and shower.  

Around half an hour passed, and Zayne was all ready for bed and got into bed, letting his body relax after a long day in the hospital.  He gently spooned you, opened your eyes, and said, “How was your day?” You said while shifting to look at him.  Zayne’s expression changed into a surprised one, not expecting to see you still awake.  “Tiring like usual, my snowflake..” You gently pecked his forehead as you knew your boyfriend worked so hard every day.  The only thing that mattered to you was that he came home every day, safe and sound. 

It became a routine every day for you guys to have a small night talk; nothing mattered when you had each other.  

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Star Gazing

Xavier x Reader

Sweet nights, him holding your hand, the world didn’t matter. You were both on the ground staring up at the stars, your boyfriend, Xavier, gently rubbed small circles on your hand.  Everything was perfect, he loved telling you about the different stars and constellations, you've never seen your boyfriend so happy. 

“Look! There, the constellation of Leo,” Xavier said happily as he pointed at the stars. You tried to see it, but you only saw many stars.  He didn’t have to know that, though; he was having the time of his life, and that was the only thing that mattered to you currently.   

“Did you know that Leo was one of the earliest recognized constellations in the sky?  Back then, the summer solstice was observed exactly in this constellation.  Which means it begins the flood of the Nile in Egypt.”   He said as he looked at you, as he was so eager to show you his knowledge. 

You nodded, showing that you were listening to his talk as he yapped about the stars.  “Is that so?” You responded, looking into his eyes.  He nodded eagerly as he smiled again, you saw the little sparks of light of his evol dancing around you guys.  He was telling you random facts or just amazing things about space and different exoplanets that exist.  

“There's a theory of a 9th planet, yet they say that this planet is far away and it is bigger than Jupiter.  This theory was started due to you needing things on two sides to balance something out. Which would be the same as the solar system.” He explained, looking far into the distance.  Silence grew between both of you only the wind was heard.  Then he turned around to look at you. 

“My star…” He said, looking at you, his eyes showed a soft look at you. “There are billions of different stars out there..Yet I found the only star that really matters to me.”  He spoke gently, his words with deep affection as he gently put a strand of hair behind your ear. 

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Master List Love and Deepspace

Zayne

When Nighttime Falls

After care with Zayne

Nightmares

Xavier

Star Gazing

Sylus

Caleb

Rafayel

Failed Attempt

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When Nighttime Falls

Zayne, your boyfriend is a busy man as the Chief Cardiological surgeon, which means that he runs on a completely different schedule than you do at times.  Sometimes he comes home when you are getting ready to go to work, or he comes home really late when you are already sleeping in bed.  For example tonight, you were waiting for Zayne and it was around 12 am, and there was no sign of him. 

You sigh as you get ready for bed, you were in your pajamas, closing your eyes when you felt weight go on the bed. You didn’t open your eyes, knowing it was Zayne.  Zayne looked at you with a soft expression feeling guilty that he couldn’t spend much time with you.  He gently kissed your forehead and said a small “I love you” before he left to eat and shower.  

Around half an hour passed, and Zayne was all ready for bed and got into bed, letting his body relax after a long day in the hospital.  He gently spooned you, opened your eyes, and said, “How was your day?” You said while shifting to look at him.  Zayne’s expression changed into a surprised one, not expecting to see you still awake.  “Tiring like usual, my snowflake..” You gently pecked his forehead as you knew your boyfriend worked so hard every day.  The only thing that mattered to you was that he came home every day, safe and sound. 

It became a routine every day for you guys to have a small night talk; nothing mattered when you had each other.  

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Hopeless

Seokjin x GN reader

TW: Dark themes, Depression, mentions of Suicide, and self-harm

If you don’t feel comfortable with these themes please skip

You felt terrible, you thought you were getting better when did it all get bad again? You followed up with your therapist and you followed all of the exercise instructions. You simply didn’t feel any better, your boyfriend Seokjin worried about you. You would barely come out of the shared bedroom you had with you, you were simply too tired.

You wish there was a way to show that you were trying and that you weren’t being lazy, you’re just too tired to try to get up. All you would do is stare at the wall or ceiling or you would fall asleep. You heard the door open, but you didn’t bother looking in that direction, all you could hear was the footsteps of your boyfriend.

You felt an arm gently wrap around you “my love?..” you heard a soft word being spoken in the quiet atmosphere of the room, and you just simply hummed in response. “ I made your favorite food and brought your favorite drink. Please try to eat you don't have to eat all of it. Just please at least take a few bites of it” He said gently and he kissed the back of your head while rubbing your arm. The thought of food made you sick to your stomach, you couldn’t keep anything down. “I’m not hungry..” you mumbled back to him.

He knew he knew you were trying hard, he could see it although it wasn’t clear to you it was clear as day to him. He knew you were struggling and it pained him to see you struggling with such basic things in life. He knew that there wasn’t much that he could do other than try to support you through this hard time of your life. “Please baby, at least a bite”, he said again, making you look at him. You saw it in his eyes, he was worried for you.

The tray of food was on the nightstand and he gently helped you sit. He placed the food in front of you and you didn’t look at the food you felt so bad. “I can’t do it please Jinnie..” You said your eyes water, everything being too overwhelming for you. He gently hugged you “Shhh…Let it out..” he said while rubbing your back.

In your room, all that was heard was your sobs as he would give you small praises. Once you had calmed down he sectioned the food to a smaller proportion so you would not get overwhelmed by the amount of food on the plate. “Finish this small amount, my love, if you want more, once I'll give you more. I’ll be here every step of the way.”

It was 4 pm when you finished a small proportion of your food and he went to put the food away. You were alone again, alone with your own thoughts and you couldn’t help but sob to yourself. You didn’t want to follow through what the thoughts were telling you, you knew you couldn’t do it but you wanted it. You wanted to feel better, you were so tired, so tired of trying you wanted to sleep forever.

You looked at the nightstand looking at the sleeping pills that were sitting there. You stayed silent while you hesitantly grabbed them. “Just a couple of these..then I’ll be out of this misery”, you thought to yourself. As you dumped the pills into your hand you saw your boyfriend. He opened the door and his eyes widened in shock seeing what you were doing. Your body froze, not expecting him to walk in the middle of your plan.

“Hey, hey it's ok..It’s ok put the pills down”, he said slowly walking towards you not wanting to make any sudden movement to startle you. With his hand, he took your hand that had all of the pills “I’m not mad… I need you to let go of the pills, please” He said looking at you. You let go of the pills and you immediately broke down. “Can I hug you?..” He asked gently, waiting for a nod and when you gave the green light he pulled you into a tight hug. “Oh my love..you don’t want to explain now, but let me hold you, let it all out. It’s going to be ok.” He said pulling you onto his lap as he gently rocked your body with his as he gently rubbed your back.

You cling to him, and he doesn't let you. Once you were ready to talk, he let you vent whether it was saying it or writing it. As time went on, he tried to help you recover, he did keep an eye out making sure you weren’t relapsing or tried to attempt again. He tried spending the most of his time with you to make sure you were making a steady recovery.

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Hopeless

Seokjin x GN reader

TW: Dark themes, Depression, mentions of Suicide, and self-harm

If you don’t feel comfortable with these themes please skip

You felt terrible, you thought you were getting better when did it all get bad again? You followed up with your therapist and you followed all of the exercise instructions. You simply didn’t feel any better, your boyfriend Seokjin worried about you. You would barely come out of the shared bedroom you had with you, you were simply too tired.

You wish there was a way to show that you were trying and that you weren’t being lazy, you’re just too tired to try to get up. All you would do is stare at the wall or ceiling or you would fall asleep. You heard the door open, but you didn’t bother looking in that direction, all you could hear was the footsteps of your boyfriend.

You felt an arm gently wrap around you “my love?..” you heard a soft word being spoken in the quiet atmosphere of the room, and you just simply hummed in response. “ I made your favorite food and brought your favorite drink. Please try to eat you don't have to eat all of it. Just please at least take a few bites of it” He said gently and he kissed the back of your head while rubbing your arm. The thought of food made you sick to your stomach, you couldn’t keep anything down. “I’m not hungry..” you mumbled back to him.

He knew he knew you were trying hard, he could see it although it wasn’t clear to you it was clear as day to him. He knew you were struggling and it pained him to see you struggling with such basic things in life. He knew that there wasn’t much that he could do other than try to support you through this hard time of your life. “Please baby, at least a bite”, he said again, making you look at him. You saw it in his eyes, he was worried for you.

The tray of food was on the nightstand and he gently helped you sit. He placed the food in front of you and you didn’t look at the food you felt so bad. “I can’t do it please Jinnie..” You said your eyes water, everything being too overwhelming for you. He gently hugged you “Shhh…Let it out..” he said while rubbing your back.

In your room, all that was heard was your sobs as he would give you small praises. Once you had calmed down he sectioned the food to a smaller proportion so you would not get overwhelmed by the amount of food on the plate. “Finish this small amount, my love, if you want more, once I'll give you more. I’ll be here every step of the way.”

It was 4 pm when you finished a small proportion of your food and he went to put the food away. You were alone again, alone with your own thoughts and you couldn’t help but sob to yourself. You didn’t want to follow through what the thoughts were telling you, you knew you couldn’t do it but you wanted it. You wanted to feel better, you were so tired, so tired of trying you wanted to sleep forever.

You looked at the nightstand looking at the sleeping pills that were sitting there. You stayed silent while you hesitantly grabbed them. “Just a couple of these..then I’ll be out of this misery”, you thought to yourself. As you dumped the pills into your hand you saw your boyfriend. He opened the door and his eyes widened in shock seeing what you were doing. Your body froze, not expecting him to walk in the middle of your plan.

“Hey, hey it's ok..It’s ok put the pills down”, he said slowly walking towards you not wanting to make any sudden movement to startle you. With his hand, he took your hand that had all of the pills “I’m not mad… I need you to let go of the pills, please” He said looking at you. You let go of the pills and you immediately broke down. “Can I hug you?..” He asked gently, waiting for a nod and when you gave the green light he pulled you into a tight hug. “Oh my love..you don’t want to explain now, but let me hold you, let it all out. It’s going to be ok.” He said pulling you onto his lap as he gently rocked your body with his as he gently rubbed your back.

You cling to him, and he doesn't let you. Once you were ready to talk, he let you vent whether it was saying it or writing it. As time went on, he tried to help you recover, he did keep an eye out making sure you weren’t relapsing or tried to attempt again. He tried spending the most of his time with you to make sure you were making a steady recovery.

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Not a story

Good evening (when I wrote this), This is Ash.

There won't be an update today I'm not sure they'll be an update at all this week. I'm severely burnt out and I am just so tired. I'm not in a good place mentally either, so I'm so sorry I just need time.

My apologies- Ash

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Cozy Afternoon

Yoongi x GN reader

Nights like these were your favorite, when Yoongi was finally able to rest.  Nothing to worry about, Yoongi didn’t even go to his studio today, which was a shock for you.  Usually, Yoongi acted like his studio was his house instead of his house, which he shared with you.  You were both currently on the couch watching a movie, he was sitting while your head rested on his lap.  His fingers subconsciously stroked your hair while watching the film.  The two of you had ordered take out and were currently waiting for the food to arrive while you watched the movie.

You looked at Yoongi, and you couldn’t help but smile at his face; you loved him so much.  That was no doubt seeing his precious gummy smile wherever you shared a joke with him, or when you were excited over small things.  He loved seeing you practically jumping up and down when something interested you.  It was always the little things that he would love you for, he would love you no matter what and you knew that.  

You shifted slightly and that caught Yoongi's attention immediately, “You ok baby?” He said, gently looking at you while you shifted around on his lap.  You nodded as you smiled at him, sat up and gently hugged him.  “I love you so much..”  you said with a lot of emotion, you felt really lucky to call him yours. “I love you more”, he said back, looking at you and he gently kissed your forehead.  The atmosphere around you guys was intimate as the rest of the world didn’t seem to matter as it was only you guys there. 

You moved to sit on his lap and you snuggled in his arms while resting your head on his right shoulder.  “Do you want to go for a walk in the park for a while? The sun won’t go down for another hour or two, we have plenty of time.”  Yoongi said while gently rubbing your back. “I wouldn’t mind at all..” you had said back, which led to both of you walking towards the front door putting on a jacket and your shoes.  Yoongi had decided to bring Holly out onto a walk with you guys too. 

Yoongi put Holly on his leash and started making his way out of the door while holding your hand.  The trip to the park was relatively quiet, only hearing a few cars or the birds chirping.  Along the way, there were small topics that were spoken about like Yoongi with his work, or things that he is composing.  Along your walk, there was another dog bigger than Holly and Yoongi, who had to pick up Holly as Holly didn’t interact much with other dogs. 

Once both of you finished getting some fresh air from outside, you went back to your house.  Yoongi had decided to get his guitar and play some soft melodies for you as it was a relaxing day.  Days like these were the best as you couldn’t ask for more when it seems like it's just him that matters in the world, nothing else.

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Cozy Afternoon

Yoongi x GN reader

Nights like these were your favorite, when Yoongi was finally able to rest.  Nothing to worry about, Yoongi didn’t even go to his studio today, which was a shock for you.  Usually, Yoongi acted like his studio was his house instead of his house, which he shared with you.  You were both currently on the couch watching a movie, he was sitting while your head rested on his lap.  His fingers subconsciously stroked your hair while watching the film.  The two of you had ordered take out and were currently waiting for the food to arrive while you watched the movie.

You looked at Yoongi, and you couldn’t help but smile at his face; you loved him so much.  That was no doubt seeing his precious gummy smile wherever you shared a joke with him, or when you were excited over small things.  He loved seeing you practically jumping up and down when something interested you.  It was always the little things that he would love you for, he would love you no matter what and you knew that.  

You shifted slightly and that caught Yoongi's attention immediately, “You ok baby?” He said, gently looking at you while you shifted around on his lap.  You nodded as you smiled at him, sat up and gently hugged him.  “I love you so much..”  you said with a lot of emotion, you felt really lucky to call him yours. “I love you more”, he said back, looking at you and he gently kissed your forehead.  The atmosphere around you guys was intimate as the rest of the world didn’t seem to matter as it was only you guys there. 

You moved to sit on his lap and you snuggled in his arms while resting your head on his right shoulder.  “Do you want to go for a walk in the park for a while? The sun won’t go down for another hour or two, we have plenty of time.”  Yoongi said while gently rubbing your back. “I wouldn’t mind at all..” you had said back, which led to both of you walking towards the front door putting on a jacket and your shoes.  Yoongi had decided to bring Holly out onto a walk with you guys too. 

Yoongi put Holly on his leash and started making his way out of the door while holding your hand.  The trip to the park was relatively quiet, only hearing a few cars or the birds chirping.  Along the way, there were small topics that were spoken about like Yoongi with his work, or things that he is composing.  Along your walk, there was another dog bigger than Holly and Yoongi, who had to pick up Holly as Holly didn’t interact much with other dogs. 

Once both of you finished getting some fresh air from outside, you went back to your house.  Yoongi had decided to get his guitar and play some soft melodies for you as it was a relaxing day.  Days like these were the best as you couldn’t ask for more when it seems like it's just him that matters in the world, nothing else.

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Jin

He is such a sweetheart and will try his best to ensure you are comfortable. Whenever you are feeling down, he will try his best to make you feel better; for example, he will try to make you laugh at his dad's jokes.  He would hold you tight on the days you felt the worst, and he would make sure to make you eat food.  He would cook for you, of course, you didn’t have to eat all of it, but he would prefer if you did, but he wouldn’t force you.  If he was away, he would make sure to send you messages and funny memes to try to make your mood better.

Yoongi

As Yoongi has struggled with depression, he knew all too well what you were feeling yet he never tried to assume. He would always listen to you vent, as he has a very calm nature, he wouldn’t judge you, and he would give you advice if you wanted some advice.  If you aren’t feeling good, he won’t push you to do anything, he will try his best to support you, even if it’s just holding you silently.  Although Yoongi doesn't express his affection as much, he is big on acts of service. He would cook food for you and check on you throughout the day to see how you’re holding up.  He respects the fact that his depression isn’t the same as yours, as yours could take a shorter or longer time for you to heal compared to his.  He would encourage you to get professional help, but he would never push you to get professional help.  

Hoseok

Hoseok, as the sunshine of the group, it hurts him to see you going through such a hard time.  He would immediately notice if something is wrong or if you aren’t feeling good. He would be very gentle when it comes to approaching you, just like the others, he wouldn’t pretend to understand what you are going through. But he does have a lot of empathy for you, he would be very gentle with you, especially when it comes to you opening up.  He wouldn’t force it knowing that it would only make it worse, he would be there to support you every step of the way.  He would always remind you that you are a lot stronger than you think, he looks up to you a lot by seeing how strong you are with getting up in the morning, even when you are feeling your worst.  He is the type of person to do things to make you feel better, for example, he would go to the store to buy you things. 

Namjoon

This man is big on self-love, and he will show you and make you a long ass list of why you should love yourself (he would throw the Love Yourself album at you jk jk). He would help you reflect on things that don’t make you happy, he would comfort you, and even if he thinks you are perfect, he will be open-minded and ask you how you would feel better.  Just like Yoongi, he would listen to you without any judgment, he would give you his perspectives and he would give in-depth responses on why you should love yourself.  He is big on supporting you through difficult times and he will remind you of how much you are worth and how you deserve the world.  He would encourage you a lot, maybe more than the others, to find professional hope (even if he is like a therapist himself). 

Jimin

Jimin well…knowing that you have depression would crush him, especially since he is one of the most empathetic members of BTS.  He would be immediately concerned and he would ask you how bad it is or in different ways that he would be able to help you through this.  He can be a very soft-spoken person and he would be very gentle especially when it comes to you needing to vent.  He will mostly show his support through physical affection. He will hold you tight and tell you that everything is going to be ok.  He would tell you that your feelings are valid no matter how much you feel like they aren’t.

Taehyung

When you told him, just like Jimin, he would be concerned and show that he supports you through affection. He would hug you and tell you that no matter what happens he knows that you will make it out of the hell that you are in.  He would ask you about things that comfort you even if they are things that he doesn't normally do. He would do it for you just to see you better or see at least a smile on your face.  He would check up on you regularly while respecting your space, no matter what happened, he would always be there for you.  As Taehyung was going through a hard time during 2020, he would try his best to support you knowing how bad it can get. 

Jungkook

Jungkook would be concerned nevertheless, he wouldn’t know exactly how to feel, but he would listen to you vent no matter what it is.  He would offer you physical comfort and acts of service, he would give you no matter what it is if he could.  He would respect your boundaries while he takes care of you. He will make sure that you feel loved and safe in the places that you are in.  During your lowest, he would try his best to be in the same room just being there, showing that he supports you even if you two don’t say anything.  He will be in there supporting you even if it means staying in a room silent,