#insomnia and adhd are the worst

[hawkinsbnbg]

me: okay, i need to write all of this down asap

brain: hey, let's not do this now.

me: no, i have to! or else i'm gonna lose interest again once the steam runs out!

brain: what if we go read something instead?

me: stop distracting me!

brain: what if... we sleep...?

me: no?? wtf? i'm not... done.... fuck it...zzz

[britneyshakespeare]

it's ok to spend all night watching tv. it's ok to spend all night watching tv. it's ok to spend all night watching tv.

[skyler-pog69]

Who else up playing with there funky monkey?

[astrolook]

🌀6th Lord in Houses - Enemies, Health, Daily Life, and Inner Battles 🌀

Note: These are all my personal observations and patterns I've noticed over the years. Take what resonates with you more and leave the rest. Lemme know in the comments if it hits home!

There are general interpretations. The signs on the house can make things different. Look at your Vedic chart!

6th lord in 1st - You're used to being underestimated and so you overperform. Your daily life is in survival mode by default. You're always fixing things, not just your own, but others' messes too. You care too much, even for people who don’t deserve it. Can have a "resting face". Might run on caffeine. Migraines, weak immunity, nail biting, or neck pain can be seen here. Your worst enemy is...yourself.

6th lord in 2nd - Feeling of never having enough. Attract "users", not partners. Either a stingy or a spendthrift. No in-between. Throat surgery, in some cases. You pretend you don’t care about status, but lowkey feel like a failure when you’re not “ahead.” Jaw tension. Messy relationship with food. People either depend on you too much or disappear when you need support. Stays loyal to family members even though they're not good for you and just sucks it up. You give advice to people but might not follow it yourself. Dental issues, blood sugar irregularities, PCOS, metabolic disorders, food allergies, binge eating, or anorexia can be seen here in some cases. Your worst enemy is comfort that becomes a cage.

6th lord in 3rd - You’ve had full-blown arguments in your head that never happened IRL. Enemies = frenemies. Especially the ones who “joke” too much. Arguments with your sibling, if you had one. Dehydration. Nervous disorders, in some cases. Might keep a journal or vent everything into a Notes app or to any unfortunate soul that happened to be there at the time. You might try to do 5 things at once and feel ashamed of not finishing any. People can gaslight you. You want to be heard but hate attention, like explain that lol. You might dream of moving away from your hometown, starting afresh, or ghosting your friendship(s) forever. ADHD, hand/wrist pain, insomnia, neck/shoulder pain from poor posture, or breathing issues can be seen here in some cases. Your worst enemy is the loud voice that sounds like yours but isn’t.

6th lord in 4th - You grew up learning to stay quiet. Might even walk quietly. You might have had strict or helicopter parents, in some cases. Home isn't a safe place. You crave comfort but don’t know what it really feels like. Might say "sorry" a lot. Love feels like walking on eggshells, because that’s what it’s always been. You try to fix your family by being the “good one,” even when it’s killing you. You second-guess your feelings because they were dismissed growing up. Ulcers, gastritis, acid reflux, menstrual cramps, belly, asthma, and hormonal imbalances can be seen here in some cases. Your worst enemy is emotional guilt disguised as family loyalty.

6th lord in 5th - You give your heart to people who treat you like a "score". Fun feels like something you have to “earn.” When you are happy, you just know that it's gonna be taken away from you soon, or you know that it's temporary. You lowkey want someone to fight for you, not with you. You learned early that attention had conditions. Be impressive, be useful, be entertaining, or be invisible. You fall in love with people who feel broken, because fixing them feels safer than being truly seen. Irregular periods, fertility concerns, hormonal swings, risk of heart palpitations or minor arrhythmias, bloating, or digestive issues can be seen here in some cases. Your worst enemy is drama you confuse for passion.

6th lord in 6th - You don't avoid problems, you solve them in silence. You’re the person everyone depends on, but no one checks in with. OCD in some cases. You attract situations that test your patience, boundaries, and sanity daily. You hate asking people for help. You attract jealous coworkers, messy “friends,” and one-sided relationships. You might feel responsible for everything, even things that aren’t yours to carry. Long-term health conditions, autoimmune disorders, inflammatory disorders, constipation, lower back pain or knee pain can be seen here in some cases. Your worst enemy is... the belief that struggle equals virtue.

6th lord in 7th - You are loyal to the wrong people or stay too long with the wrong partner. You attract partners with baggage, and they leave you carrying it. You're afraid that if you set boundaries, they'll leave. Your depression, anxiety, and health issues would skyrocket when you're in a bad relationship. Your BODY KNOWS! You might fix others' lives while yours fall apart. Enemies to lovers, and after the breakup, it's lovers to enemies. If things are calm, you assume something’s off. You sometimes end up in legal conflicts, debt, or moral dilemmas because of a partner's decisions. Skin issues like eczema, rashes, acne or UTI, yeast infections, food poisoning, nausea, blood pressure swings during fights, clinical depression after a breakup or a divorce from their loved one can be seen here in some cases. Your worst enemy is... the person you love/trust the most.

6th lord in 8th - You’ve survived things you don’t talk about, and most people wouldn’t understand anyway. For example: emotional or sexual abuse, dangerous situations, a rare disease, or a complex surgery, etc. Your enemies don’t announce themselves, they hide in family, in lovers, in you. You're the black sheep, the scapegoat, or the cycle-breaker in your family. You learn through loss. Each time something is ripped from you, a new version of you is born. You’ve experienced spiritual or psychic awakenings that were triggered by crisis, not choice. Sex can terrify you, in some cases. Might completely refrain from doing so. PCOS, endometriosis, hormonal dysfunction, bowel issues, sleep issues, nightmares, sleep paralysis, pelvic pain, STDs can be seen here in some cases. Your worst enemy is silence that hides the truth.

6th lord in 9th - You didn’t just lose faith. It got torn from your hands by people you trusted. Your mentors, gurus, or teachers might have disappointed you or could have been harsh, and it cut deeper than betrayal. You’ve questioned your entire worldview after one painful experience. You want to believe in justice, karma, truth…but the reality you’ve lived makes that hard. Travel may bring conflict regarding visa issues or financial setbacks. You might have been punished for asking too many questions. Racism, in some cases. Enemies can come in the form of know-it-alls, fake spiritual leaders, or moral superiority complexes. Liver/kidney issues, vitamin/ protein deficiency, nervous disorders, leg accidents/surgery, can be seen here in some cases. Your worst enemy is blind faith in broken systems.

6th lord in 10th - Bosses either love your work ethic or exploit it. Usually both. You attract jealous coworkers, fake allies, and silent competition. Career setbacks feel personal. You hold everything together until one tiny thing breaks you. You're scared to be seen struggling, so you smile harder. You've had to work twice as hard to earn half the recognition. Can develop an "impostor syndrome" in some cases. Sleep deprivation, dark under eyes, headaches/ migraines, upper body weakness, high blood pressure can be seen here in some cases. Your worst enemy is your boss/co-worker.

6th lord in 11th - You’ve felt loneliest while surrounded by people. You're everyone's emergency contact, but no one’s first thought when they’re celebrating. Your biggest haters sometimes came disguised as your biggest fans or supporters. You carry guilt for outgrowing people who aren’t growing with you. Collaborations often turn into one-sided labor for you. Allergies, autoimmune disorders, rare syndromes, weak eyesight, mental health issues can be seen here in some cases. Can attract clout-chasers, energy vampires disguised as friends in your circle. Your worst enemy is the friend who envies you but smiles anyway.

6th lord in 12th - You’re always tired, but you don’t even know why anymore. You wake up drained, go to sleep anxious, and live in a body that feels like it’s carrying something ancient. Your enemies don’t announce themselves, but they whisper, sabotage, and fade out. Sleep issues. You carry shame from things you didn’t choose, didn’t cause, but still feel responsible for. You escape when it gets too much through fantasy, oversleeping, alcohol/drugs, doomscrolling, or even disappearing from your own life. I mean, you’re so used to emotional isolation that real connection feels foreign. Hates loud noises and crowds. Can have psychic dreams that show you the truth about people who hide things from you. Sleep paralysis or nightmares, mysterious illness, poor gut health, hypersensitivity to medication, noise, light or psychological issues can be seen here in some cases. Your worst enemy is... the pain you won’t/can't name.

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[kamily-art]

WP! Leo Reference Sheet & Character Summary

Masterpost

Long ramble about his character below, so read on if you want to know more! <3 I swear it's very interesting

Leonardo ("Leo")

Pronouns: He/him

Sexuality: Gay. Very gay. Extremely gay

Godly Parent: Poseidon

Disorders: ADHD, Autism (high-functioning), dyslexia, anxiety, depression, insomnia, Histrionic Personality Disorder

Personality: Outwardly, Leo is very bold, silly, loud, stubborn, and unfiltered. He basically says whatever comes into his brain at any given time. He makes hilarious one liners that absolutely no one appreciates, except for, on occasion, Usagi. He also loves to joke about his trauma or about whatever situation they're currently in, as it's how he copes.

However, underneath his brazen exterior, he's extremely insecure, believing himself to be worthless unless he proves otherwise or is told otherwise by someone he trusts. He will go to painful and sometimes ludicrous lengths to gain peoples' approval/attention. Being ignored triggers a spiral of self hatred that frequently leads to a panic attack and shut down.

Leo latches onto people easily and will often declare himself "friends" with someone even after having only known them a short while. This has about a 1/10 chance of being reciprocated, as Leo's bouyant personality generally takes some time to warm up to. If he is criticized by someone he regards as a friend, he will immediately attempt to change himself to be the person they want him to be, even if their criticism would be invalid from an outside point of view.

Likes: His family, Usagi, new friends, pizza, Camp Half-Blood (after a week or two), driving, exploring, big cities

Dislikes: Loud laughter that isn't his, being ignored, slimy foods, people who bully his twin (they Will die)

Trauma: Like his brothers, Leo has the trauma that came with being Draxum's experiments. However, he had it the worst as he was set to be the leader of the mutant army. He was forced to train from an extremely young age and punished if he failed to complete the task Draxum commanded him to do. Sometimes the punishment was physical, but usually it was psychological—such as being left alone for long periods of time, or having to watch his brothers endure medical experimentation. He was also frequently told that he was not a human, he was a monster whos only purpose was to fight. That idea haunts him to this day.

Relationships

Usagi (Partner) - Leo and Usagi have an excellent relationship. They are very similar in many ways, and it was evident from the moment Usagi reciprocated Leo's declaration of "friend" that he understood Leo better than anyone besides his brothers ever had. He knows how to deal with Leo's HPD, and has a personality both easy going and excitable, meaning he can both calm Leo down when he's upset, and match his energy when he's happy about something.

This is not to say they don't have issues. They do, as any relationship does. They are both stubborn and impulsive, in different ways, and because of this, they occasionally drive each other insane. But they love each other very much and because of this, they'll be okay.

Donatello (Twin) - Since they were very young, Leo and Donnie have been each other's closest friend and worst enemy. When they arrive at camp, it can't be denied that Leo makes friendships, and Donnie doesn't. Largely at fault of his own. However, this doesn't keep him from growing jealous- not of Leo, but rather of his friends. And once Leo picks Usagi instead of Donnie to go with him and Mikey on the quest, even though that's just what was recommended by Chiron—Donnie really feels he's been replaced, and the rift in their relationship begins. The "closest friend" side of their relationship starts to break away, leaving only the second. However, they would still both destroy anyone who dared to harm the other—it just seems, more and more, as if they will be the ones to harm each other.

Mikey (Younger Brother) - Leo and Mikey are very close. Mikey looks up to Leo a great deal, and always takes his side in arguments. He's also the one family member who never grows frustrated with Leo's Histrionic tendencies. Leo is always the one who sits with him after his prophecies, helping him through the afterburn, and he would destroy the whole world for his little brother.

Raph (Older Brother) - Raph and Leo have a conflicted relationship. They're family, of course—they would do anything for each other, but they both often try to lead the family, and having very different leadership styles, they clash a lot. Raph often gets on Leo's case for not being serious enough, and once complained, in the midst of a fight, that he needed to "get his crap together or get off the team." He regretted it immediately, but couldn't really take it back, and their relationship has never quite been the same since.

Poseidon (Father) - Leo's not totally sure what to think of his godly dad at first- after all, Poseidon claims him and then says nothing to him. What is he supposed to think? Nevertheless, he goes on the quest to reclaim the Bolt, and once Leo meets Poseidon, he feels like he's finally found a real father.

Draxum (Creator?) - Leo loathes him with every fiber of his being and would attempt to take him down the moment he saw him, but Draxum being Draxum could probably get into his head and convince him not to.

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All right chat!! That's it for now. If you read this far, thanks for stopping by! Much love <3

[queen-tashie]

Now that I’ve gone through the worst of my physical disability, and I’m now receiving treatment, I wanted to talk about it since I couldn’t really find blogs detailing their experience besides one that was like “it barely affected me!” (Good for you, lady, could you at least share the LITTLE BIT it did affect you?)

Now for some details (get on with it, Tasha!)

What I have: Hyperthyroidism

How it affected me: in every facet of my life, it became a mental disability as much as a physical disability

Symptoms: so many. Too many, and from what medical professionals told me, it can affect everyone differently. So here’s what I experienced:

Severe anxiety (this manifested as imposter syndrome as I started a new job. Fun.)

Panic attacks (at one point I would have anywhere from 2-4, maybe more, per day)

Increased heart rate (resting and during light exertion)

Increased metabolism (was eating 4000 calories a day just so I could feel not hungry for 15 minutes, note how I did not say feel full. Weight loss is common for people but I am not sure if I did experience this.)

Muscle weakness (went from being able to squat 80lbs to barely being able to get up off the floor if I kneeled down)

Dry skin/scalp (idek with this one, it just happened)

Slightly itchy eyes

Hand tremors (especially if experiencing intense emotions)

Sensitivity to heat, sweating more easily (I am normally often cold and barely sweat even when working out)

Sleep problems/insomnia (worse than my usual coupled with ADHD. There were at least 2-3 nights I didn't sleep at all)

Light menstrual cycle (alarmingly light for me)

Thyroid gland swelling

My doctor detected it a year and a half ago, and sent me for a referral. I was pre-symptomatic at the time (besides the anxiety, that started around the same time). The specialist dismissed me fully from her clinic because I had zero symptoms.

Then last year I tested even higher (during the period where my anxiety became regular panic attacks). My doctor (bless her, she's the best) sent me for an EKG because I was worried about my heart rate. Fortunately that came back with no anomalies. But my thyroid levels (two of them, I think T3 and T4 but I may be misremembering) were 7x and 10x higher than they should've been, which explained all the symptoms.

Had to wait a month to get in with the specialist, but once I did I got medication and within a week I was already feeling better. It's been a few weeks now and I'm nearly 100%, at least in what I've seen so far. I'm working out again (though natural muscle atrophy has deteriorated some of my strength over 4 months), my heart rate is almost back to my normal resting rate, and most other symptoms are resolving. Based on the specialist's advice, the pharmacist, and a little looking online, the medication is supposed to start working after weeks or months. So I'm lucky. Even moreso that I didn't have even the basic and expected side effects (nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, itching/rash (although I did have two weird nights where I couldn't sleep because I was constantly itchy, but it didn't last)).

I'm still in recovery, but I seem to be out of the 'spoon theory' territory of any level of exertion, at least. I don't know if this will help anyone, I hope it does, but also if there's anything I didn't talk about (i.e.: how to cope with symptoms) feel free to ask in the notes or send me a direct ask.

[void-ink-studios]

Wrath of the Wishmaster..... plus..... Human AU.....?

I emerge in a delirious state of half-asleep headaches and listening to parents try and fail to set up a Ring doorbell for at least 3 hours to bring a brainstorm dump post.

I like the Human AUs I see for prohibitedwish, and I wanted to throw my cake onto the buffet table. I'm spinning this as tangentially related to Wrath of the Wishmaster, but there's some major differences.

So, behold, my half-baked nonsense!

Scarab and Prismo work in the same company, obviously. Not sure what the company is. Maybe they live in the same apartment building too, idk.

Prismo works somewhere high up in Graphic Design? Maybe an article writer? Idk for certain.

I know a lot of folks have Scarab keep his title as Auditor, or put him in finance, but I submit to the Midnight Society that Scarab works HR. It's his job to track down and handle write ups. He's not well liked, but he is good at his job.

This AU would lean hard into ADHD Prismo and Autistic Scarab.

Scarab actually really wants to work in some creative department, but no one gives him a shot because of how he acts (very precise, very orderly, rule and detail oriented).

Scarab still has chronic pain (this time in one of his legs), and bouts of vertigo. He uses his cane fairly regularly, but he actually likes collecting and customizing fancy handles for it.

Orbo is still a dirtbag (because I can't get enough of him just being the worst), but he can't exactly cripple Scarab in the same way he did in WoTWM. So, instead, he's a bully of a manager. Makes it an office wide game to rile up Scarab into a "freak out" (read: meltdown).

Prismo is pretty charming and well liked, even across departments, and is also pretty good at his job. But, he get's hella insomnia, and he gets very easily bored at work. He actually spends, like, half of his work day goofing off and working on pet projects.

Scarab is constantly trying to catch Prismo in the act to write him up finally, but is always just a little too late. He knows Prismo slacks off, he just has never been able to catch him.

Prismo plans and throws a lot of office parties, mostly as an excuse to not think for a few hours.

Scarab doesn't attend, mostly because it's overstimulating as hell, but also because he doesn't think he'd be welcome despite being an "open invite."

I think that's all I got for now. If anyone else would like to add or suggest things, then be my guest.

[they-call-me-ricochet]

OC INFO

•Basic Information•

🔴 Name - Wyatt George Barnes

🔴 Age - 16

🔴 Sexuality - Gay 🏳️‍🌈

🔴 Gender - male

🔴 Species - Mutant and Super Soldier hybrid

🔴 Nicknames - Ricochet, Wy, Psota, corcra

🔴 Reason for nicknames - Ricochet = mutant/hero name, Wy = short for Wyatt, Psota = Mischief in Polish (from his mom), corcra = purple in Irish (from his boyfriend Evan)

🔴 From a Fandom? MCU and X Men

🔴 Zodiac Sign? Scorpio

•Physical appearance and traits •

🟠Hair color- mousey brown

🟠Hair type and length - straight, short and spiky

🟠 Eye Colour - blue, changes to purple when using powers

🟠 Skin tone - pale, tans in sun

🟠 Face shape - oval/square?

🟠 Body type - mesomorph

🟠 Birthmarks? N/A

🟠 Scars - N/A

🟠 Predominant features? N/A

🟠 Height - 5′ 6″

🟠Dominant Hand? Right

🟠 Hair Style- spiked

🟠 Jewelry/ Accessories- a ring, doesn’t wear it often

🟠Are they healthy or not? Reason why- ADHD, insomnia

🟠 Allergies - No

🟠 Glasses - No

🟠 What do they wear when they are home alone? If it’s cold, hoodie and sweatpants, if it’s hot, shorts

🟠 Tattoos - none currently, maybe someday

•Mannerisms•

🟡 Speech Style - rapid

🟡Quirks - fidgets, stims

🟡 Positive Traits - caring, affectionate, loyal

🟡 Negative Traits - self doubt, rejection sensitivity

🟡 Drives/Motivation - to be remembered

🟡 Sense of Humour - sarcastic

🟡 Private or Public - depends on specifics

🟡 Leader or Follower - Leader

🟡Daredevil or Cautious - Daredevil

🟡 Optimistic/ Pessimistic/ realistic?- optimistic

🟡Speaker or Listener - is a listener, but struggles due to ADHD

🟡 Accent - Brooklyn accent like his dad

🟡 Voice claims- N/A (could use Dylan Sprayberry)

🟡 Theme Song/s - Destroya - My Chemical Romance | Titanium - David Guetta

🟡 Temperament - hyperactive

🟡 Talents - lacrosse, video games, guitar

🟡Flaws - insecure, negative self talk

🟡 Loud or Quiet - can be both

🟡 Messy or organised - messy

🟡 solo or team player - team player

🟡 introvert or extrovert - extrovert

🟡 relaxed or serious - relaxed

🟡 What will always make them cry? Sad movies, people he cares about hurting

🟡 Do they celebrate their birthday? Yes

🟡 What will make them smile? Evan, without fail

•Background•

🟢 Hometown - North Salem, Westchester County New York

🟢Social Class- Working class

🟢Education - currently attends Xavier’s School for Gifted Youngsters

🟢 First Memory - watching his older brother Leo fix things, age 3

🟢 Worst memory- seeing Evan get hurt

🟢 Most important childhood event, why?- coming out at age 14, scared of rejection

🟢 Most Influenced by? His family

🟢 Role Models? Scott Summers/Cyclops

🟢 Where does the character live? And with who if they live with someone- the family farmhouse outside North Salem

🟢Do they want to move and where? Maybe one day for college

🟢 Type of childhood - loving

🟢Upbringing- caring, supportive, loving

🟢 Best Qualification - none yet, wants to go to college

🟢Most important person in there life and why?- Evan Rogers-Carter, current boyfriend and first love

🟢 House environment - chaotic, warm

🟢 Childhood crush- Frank Iero

•Family•

🔵Mother - Angelina Lehnsherr-Barnes

🔵Father - James “Bucky” Barnes

🔵Siblings- Dani, Em, Leo and Novie

🔵Relationship with family? Close

🔵Any children? Do they want any? No, hasn’t even thought about it

🔵Pets- Alpine (white cat), Hedy (German Shepherd)

🔵Extended Family- Wanda Maximoff (aunt) Nina Gurzsky-Lehnsherr (aunt), Pietro Maximoff (uncle), Peter Maximoff (uncle), Pyro (uncle), Winni Barnes (grandmother), Becca Barnes (aunt)

🔵Close to family?- some of them

🔵Are they related to anyone in their ancestry that was cool/ important?- maternal grandfather is Erik Lehnsherr/Magneto

•Favorites and Least Favorites•

🟣 Favourite Movie - Empire Strikes Back or Return of the Jedi

🟣 Least Favourite Movie - Rock of Ages

🟣 Favourite Book - The Lightning Thief

🟣 Least Favourite Book - The Golden Compass

🟣 Favourite Holiday - family trip to Wakanda, age 6

🟣 Least Favourite Holiday - N/A

🟣Favorite Mythological creature- Banshee

🟣Least Favorite Mythological creature- toilet ghosts

•Abilities and Bias’•

⚪️Affiliation - The X Men

⚪️ Powers - can generate force fields of pure energy, can also throw energy blasts

⚪️ Powers Limitations - can only sustain for short periods, can be physically draining

⚪️ Weaknesses - the dark, underwater

⚪️ Alias - Ricochet

⚪️ How well known are they? Emerging

⚪️ Costume - purple version of the X Men costumes

⚪️Do they have a voice changer?- No

⚪️Weapons- N/A

⚪️ Gadgets/ tech- N/A

⚪️Physical Weaknesses- on the shorter side

⚪️Fears - rejection, abandonment, being alone

⚪️Motivations - Live up to the family legacy

⚪️Why do they do what they do? A kind soul, wants to help people

⚪️ Mental/Emotional weaknesses - self doubt, hurting the people he loves

⚪️ Rivals - N/A

⚪️Romantic interest? Who if yes- Evan Rogers-Carter

⚪️Do they have a known quote?- not yet

•Miscellaneous•

⚫️If I could put them in a different universe or Fandom, which one?- PJO

⚫️What was there first kiss like? Have they have it yet?- Yes, guilty, conflicted, unsure

⚫️Have they ever lost somebody they loved and who was it? How did it impact them?- No, and hopefully won’t

⚫️What would happen if they were granted 3 wishes?- mutant and human peaceful coexistence, no self doubt, his loved ones safe forever

⚫️ There stranded on in island with________ and they have 4 items, who and what do they bring?- Evan Rogers-Carter, a tarp, rope, fishing net and matches

⚫️what quote do they feel portrays them?- “We accept the love we think we deserve” - The Perks of Being a Wallflower

⚫️Most prizes possession and why is it prized?- lacrosse gear, ring his mom gave him

⚫️Have they ever stolen anything? We’re they caught? No and no

⚫️What textures do they absolutely hate to feel?- rough, coarse texture

⚫️How long can they go without showering? When do they feel dirty?- A day or so

⚫️ Do they sleep with the bedroom door open or closed and why? Half shut, likes a breeze

⚫️If they woke up with animalistic features such as ears and a tail( that were different from the ones they already had if they had any at all)how would they react?

⚫️if they could only eat one thing for 20 days, what would they eat?- Loaded Fries

⚫️do they re read books they already have?- sometimes, not a big reader

⚫️if they had the option to know when they would die, exact date, would they want to know or would they want to stay oblivious to it? Oblivion!

⚫️ What song would they listen to on repeat?- Ruby Tuesday - The Rolling Stone

⚫️Do they believe in a form of a afterlife?- Yes

⚫️Do they crack there joints?- Yes

⚫️Spicy, Savory, Sweet, Bitter, or Sour?- Spicy

⚫️Do they adopt stray animals?- Yes (not as much as Novie does)

⚫️Do they procrastinate or do they get it done asap?- Procrastinate

⚫️What is the temperature when they shower? - hot as possible

⚫️Do they daydream?- Yes, all the time

⚫️ do they work best in messy or clean environment?- Messy

⚫️ do they keep personal photos? Why?- Yes, he’s sentimental

⚫️Do they indulge in anything? Alcohol (previously)

⚫️ would they do the exact opposite that someone says to them just to spite them?- Yes, absolutely

⚫️ if they’re alone and they hear a noise would they go check it out or would they hide? Why? Check it out, shield up

⚫️ if they’re lost what is the first thing they do?- Call parents or older siblings

⚫️ what is a dream they had that was terrifying and made no sense too them? - seeing his family all dead and blood on his hands

⚫️ what is the stupidest thing they have ever done because someone said not to do it?- Dated his ex

⚫️ are they stoic or melodramatic about being injured?- Stoic

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Got this idea from @star-spangled-starboyyy

[botan-kiri]

ive haven't been dealing with my insomnia for a wile now. . . . BUT THE FUCKING MOMENT IM OUT OF MY MEDS ITS THE FUCKING WORST

PAIRED WITH MY ADHD AND ME JUST FINISHING WATCHING WELCOME TO DEMON SCHOOL IRUMA KUN ITS FUCKING 2:51 IN THE MORNING!

T^T i hate the deadly combo of adhd, tics, and insomnia

edit: no i will not elaborate what the meds im taking are for (no it's not adhd meds)

[massacre-girlypop]

People tend to like when I talk candidly about my ADHD, so I figure, for you and for me, it would be a good idea to type out how my ADHD and the more obvious symptoms, manifestations, and issues I struggle with, so hopefully people don’t feel as alone:

Sleep Irregularities: It’s not necessarily insomnia. How my brain works is that it needs a very specific amount of sleep to function. That changes day to day, but what doesn’t change is how much energy my body can retain. So what happens is my sleep schedule frequently fucks itself so that I won’t fall asleep for 18-36hours and then may have to sleep for 12. Other times it’s completely normal. Your guess is as good as mine.

Emotional Volatility: I’ve always been an emotional person. Family growth stunting aside, my emotions are often hairpin trigger and are overreactionary or nonexistent. No inbetween.

Emotional Vulnerability: ADHD brains are susceptible to high highs and low lows like I said, but this also means we have high levels of Rejection Sensitivity and Hurt Feelings. Our self esteems are often frayed so badly that people calling our hobbies unfun or someone telling us no can hurt more than it reasonably should. We don’t like it either.

Energy Absorption: Piggybacking off of the last point, my emotional state of being and my reactions are almost inseparably tied to the energy in a room. People’s emotions soak into my skin like water to a sponge, so often how I react and how I engage with people is dependent on the energy they put out. I hate it, but I can’t control it.

Magpie Instincts: Yes, “ohh shiny” comes with ADHD. Reducing it to ONLY this point is very obviously bad, but ignoring it exists is also bad. People think it’s funny, but they miss out on the part where WE DON’T HAVE CONTROL OVER THIS EITHER. Our brains just see cool things and immediately feel a primal, unshakable need to take/investigate things because we think they’re cool or our focus takes over.

Daydreaming: This is my BIGGEST ADHD symptom. Ever since I was a kid, I’ve had my head in the clouds. I didn’t realize this was an ADHD symptom until I got diagnosed. Paying attention in class was hard because my brain loved going on tangents within itself and eventually it’s so far from the moment, there’s no saving me.

Lack of Retention and Memory: This ties with the previous point. My memory (short term and long term) IS SHIT. It’s miserable. And again, people think it’s quirky. IT’S FUCKING NOT. Do you have any idea how obnoxious it is to leave important things at home or work 5 times a week? How about not being able to check in to a conversation for long enough to be able to listen to a friend, partner, or S.O.? How about trying to access memories for simple to-do list items or current objectives dozens of times a day?! This symptom has literally ruined relationships.

Hyper Focus: This feels like a very broad topic, so I’m going to break this into parts:

Perfectionism: My brain’s inability to move on from incomplete tasks or projects is terrible.

Stalled Engine: The opposite of perfectionism. If my brain’s inability knows how difficult it will be to “perfect” a task, it won’t even try most days.

Window Shopper’s Attachment: Not being able to think clearly or move on with my day unless I buy certain item in window or on Amazon. Bank account be damned.

Task Completion: Brain does not comprehend not completing at least something when going somewhere, so walking in and out of a shop without buying anything or getting on a video game and not doing anything feels the worst.

Laser Focus: Different from perfectionism, this is the inability to pull one’s self away from my “special interests”. If I get into something (recently, it has been Tears of the Kingdom), it will take literally the entirety of my force of will to take a break and go be responsible.

Hobbies: Doing anything other than what you want to do is SO difficult, especially when you’re with friends who have the same hobbies but not the same ADHD. You often feel like you’re annoying them by wanting to stay on that hobby.

Fidgeting/The Need To Care: My body and/or brain needs to be engaged in a task or conversation to care or I will fidget like a motherfucker. I have a whole box of fidget toys specifically for this to that I can maintain a semblance of focus and fortitude to do even something like my job.

The Why: Going deeper into my need to care, I will often not be able to find any reason to do a thing. Even if it’s EXTREMELY important. If my brain doesn’t see an emotional pay off or a strong enough physical or psychological need to complete a task, it will never get done. This is also known as the “Good Girl Reflex”. If I see no reward, my brain will either drag its ass through the dirt or just not do the thing at all.

Over/Understimulation: Loud music helps me focus because it fills up one of the required slots of brain activities. This doesn’t always work. My brain constantly fluctuates between needing to do 5 or more things and being unable to do even one. And it changes at the drop of a hat.

Inability to Sit: This is a fidget thing. I’ve never sat in a chair the same way for more than five minutes. Attempting to fall asleep is an uphill battle. Just having to sit still and not do anything is my worst nightmare. It’s not just my bisexuality that makes me sit in chairs weird, it’s also my ADHD.

Anxiety, Social and Otherwise: I’m sure there are studies done where people with ADHD are prone to higher levels of anxiety. It’s true here. My brain loves overthinking and overanalyzing, so people talking to me stresses me out, especially if I’m not friends with them or interact with them on a close, intimate basis and I often spiral afterwards thinking about what I could have said differently.

[dragonagegayz]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Ah!! Thank you for tagging me @whispersleo! I'm so honored and this is the perfect thing for my insomnia brain rn ngl

Tagging @adhd-riddled-crow

We're busting out some bg3 screenshots for this one boys (gender neutral)

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

33 (!?!) That actually took me off guard, I always forget that I wrote stuff back in high school (Which was a certain amount of years back, that if I think about it, I'll be sick) and have a good amount of short one shots posted. Listen I know that isn't a lot but I have such a love/hate relationship with writing lmao but I'm glad to be back in the writing building again!

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

214,249

3) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Nail Polish (117), S is for Subtley (113), A Glorious Future (77), Coddling (76), I hate the god you pretend to be (but love the man I know you are) (74)

4) What fandoms do you write for?

I write for whatever the brain is hyperfixated on tbh, right now that's DATV. I have a lot and I mean ALOT of unpublished works in my google docs that will never see the light of day but I'd say about 75% of it is for fallout and swtor as those were my GAMES for about 7-8 years. I thought about them non stop but I will say, something about bioware games gets me to want to write (see mass effect, drgaon age, swtor)

5) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Oh yeah, you could tell me I was the worst writer in the world and I should lose all of my toes and I'd still be like "omg thank you for the comment!!!" I just love to know that someone enjoyed my work enough to comment because for me it used to be so scary to interact with people but I am slowly getting out of that bubble of fear!

6) What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I LOVE ANGST!!!! GOD I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!!!! But hands down it's I hate the god you pretend to be my Gale Dekarios/Tharan(Named Tav) fanfic that follows my Tav after the game slowly dying after making Gale a god and him having no idea until it is too late and he dies in Gales arms >:D Actually that fic has two endings, one that has made people cry and the angier version I wanted to write because I was so mad at Gale for what he did lmaoooooo

7) What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Uhhhhh so most of my fics end in not great endings lol so I'm gonna say A Glorious Future because it's a one shot smut where they are happy together lol, that and all of my DATV works as they're mainly one shots too with ok endings but why is everything else so sad who hurt me

8) Do you get hate on fics?

Nowadays? Not at all but back in my original dragon age days and my fallout days OH YEAH, not so much on Ao3 but tumblr was brutal back in the day

9) Do you write smut?

..... maybe.....

alright you caught me *hands in my 9 smut fics* o-oh you want the unpublished ones too?

YOULL NEVER TAKE THEM FROM ME

10) Do you write crossovers?

Nah, too much brain power for my weak little mind plus I tend to focus so much on one fandom at a time I can't get my brain to think about two in the context of writing at the same time, it's impressive to me those who can

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Strangely enough on Wattpad someone once stole my entire work, cover and everything then forgot to take my name off of it

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope!

13) Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

No, I'd have to talk to someone to do that and I'm TERRIFIED of that lmao (maybe in the future)

14) What’s your all-time favorite ship?

No, no, no, no, no I can't choose just one *crying*

Alright fine, SWTOR fandom if you know you know, Male Jedi Knight X Scourge speficially my Male Jedi Knight Ze'khet

15) What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Speaking of those two, I have a multi-chaptered, multi-fic series thought for the two of them in so much detail, I have like 7 different outlines of it I have started and stopped it over the past idk 6 years and I have just never managed to stick with it and it makes me so sad because I genuinely think it's some of my best thought up story

16) What are your writing strengths?

I can get the water works going pretty well apparently even for characters that aren't known and I have also been told I write beautifully a couple of times which awwwwww I- awwwwwww

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

God I can be incomprehensible sometimes when I go back to read my stuff. Like what in the hell was I talking about, what do you mean. I also really really struggle keeping the correct tense for some reason

18) Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

Love it, love it, love it, LOVE IT! I only speak english decently and have a very rough understanding of german (I can semi speak the dialect my family is from, understand it ok but cannot write it worth shit) but I love when a character speaks another language and I get to explore their language be it real or made up

19) First fandom you wrote for?

On AO3? Overwatch! Oh my now defunked Wattpad? We aren't going to talk about it!

20) Favorite fic you’ve ever written?

Alright I'm gonna answer with a couple, I love the god is a favorite because I think the ending is some of the best I have ever written, S is for my fallout 3 fanfic is a fav because it's the only chaptered fic I've ever finished, this series for it being the goriest smut I've written and my Emmrich jorking it fic as it is just the most fun I have had writing in such a long time that I fear more will be cooked in the future because of this fic

Thank you again @whispersleo for the prompt and I hope everyone gets the best sleep you have ever had tonight and your dreams are so fire -<3 Skunch

[eldelasuerte]

Could you tell us some of your bugs bunny hcs?

Sure!

*He's terrified of leaving his comfort zone "whats his comfort zone?" Toon world, he already knows how to go around there and doesnt know or care for the human world all that much

*Hates asking for help

*he's a harsh critic, an internalizer which means if he can't find the answer he MUST be the answer

*he admires daffy in an emBArrassing way and is convinced daffy won't be able to handle his true sincere affection

*he's repressed

Well as much as a violent cartoon can be

Being vulnerable is a Big nono for him but he is phisically rough, if he wants You to give him a hug hell pull you into a big hug without sharing he wants You to do it

*he surfers insomnia, consequences of the hypervigilance

*he knows how to deal with the situation but HATES being the bottom of the joke

*he dated wile e coyote for a while (he doesnt cooperate as you can see)

To me the lore of the cartoons mixes with the historical creation of the characters

So "whats up doc" to me is canon, he grew up in Brooklyn, he was a gifted child, making fun of elmer was improvised and the thing that sent him to stardom

That being said

*he met lola in highscool, they were besties whenever he get to go to school between auditions, they drift apart by the end of it and met again for space jam lol

Bugs wasnt okay with having someone to replace daffy as his co-star or "romantical partner" not only he thought there was no match for daffy's talent, he knew it would get boring

But it was nice to see Lola again and catch up with her

Kind of a lola hc but anyways:

Bugs turned lola blonde

She asked his help with a makeover and he reluctantly although enthusiastically later said yes

He screwed up with the tones and she ended up Blonde, she was mad at first but found out quick she was having more fun than ever... Weird

The Marilyn Monroe look of Bugs on looney tunes back in action? That was lola, she gave him the makeover arguing he needed to update his wardrobe, those eyebrows were her idea

Back to bugs

* he's a frustrated muscician

*Loves history but adhd won't let him remember the historical dates correctly, he also mixes the historical events

*he doesnt want kids but hes unable to leave a helpless child alone BUT this doesnt mean he's naturally good with kids he's BAD and an awkward mess since he considers them his toughest public

He abuses substances

Yeah Bugs Bunny smokes weed

At the very least

He's actually adict to carrots, wb has begged him to be adict to something normal but whats more normal to a rabbit than carrots?

*He has some type of borderline personality disorder

*he ghosts people frequently, he also has manic episodes where he would just storm out of a situation and leave

*besides lola, daffy and the other looney tunes he doesnt really have any other very strong relationships

For this reason he doesnt and won't admit he's alone and afraid to be Even more

He's prideful like that

*after years of doing the same routine Bugs is bored of being the Star of a decaying company that just seems to continue taking the WORST decisions, which he can't relate to... At all

Now that a new version of looney tunes cartoons has dropped hes able to go back to his more sincere role and do the same ALL over again just like old times...right?... Nothing has change...at all

Or has it?...

[firephoenix23]

Hi, thank you for your posts being one of the reasons why I'm into Slugterra recently. They are positive, perceptive, and are addicting to look at and read. 💗 In light of this, I have a question if you are willing to answer it: Do you personally have any cute, fluffy, or funny headcanons for the members of the Shane Gang? Or even anything about your favourite friendship dynamics or ships? Even just thoughts, ramblings, and theories about them are ok. 😉

Oh my god, this is actually the sweetest comment. Thank you so much! 🤗🥰 As for headcanons and theories, I definitely have had so many, so better sit tight and get comfy. Sorry that it took me so long to respond. I was so busy with work. Also sorry if this is hella chaotic and hella long 😅

Eli

I think forever and always Eli will be a short king. Like I know he's 15 in the show and like he could grow more but I've always thought he'd be short forever. I think it works for him because I always thought he was the fastest and most agile of the Shane gang so

Eli is always seen sleeping or napping around the hideout, so I always assume he's a terrible night sleeper. I'm so convinced that kid has insomnia or something and makes it up with naps throughout the day

Definitely has ADHD, no one can convince me otherwise. Like he said one line in an episode that went something like I'm kinda new at this whole planning thing. Tell me you have ADHD without telling me 😂

I actually think in an alternate universe where Slugterra never existed and he stayed on the surface I think he would be a vet or like some environmentalist hippy when he gets older. I mean, the whole show I feel like is literally about him helping slugs and fighting a man corrupting them so i think it makes sense

Okay so like i always kinda theorized that he would like men. Like I know I know I'm sorry to the Eli x Trixie but in my mind for some reason I just like can't see him with a girl. Or maybe he has more of a preference for men something like that

I feel like this is one goes with the one above, but I'm gonna say it anyway, I've seen people theorize Eli as a trans man and honestly, I don't if i necessarily headcanon it but I think it’s kinda slay. And I doesn't make sense chronologically in the show but whatever trans rights 🏳️‍⚧️ ✊

Well, this one is kinda shown in the show, but I think Eli's an awful singer, like ungodly bad. They have him hum in the Eastern Cavern Christmas episode, and it is the worst thing I have ever heard in my life 😂

I also think that Eli is probably mixed or multiracial. I definitely think he's Mexican and then Irish (for the whitest last name that has ever graced my eyes) Chinese (check Junjie section for that one 😂) Middle Eastern (Lebanese, Egyptian, etc) I feel like if he's Canadian probably got some Native in him too. I have like no reasoning for some of these it's just what I feel. I know he's probably just a white boy, but let me have my fun

Eli is not the biggest fan of crying in front of people or crying in general. He's got that surface toxic masculinity ofc, but being in Slugterra has made him open up more to his friends

If he's not sleeping or fighting bad guys, he's training or working out or brain rotting by watching videos on the slugnet

I also think that Eli would probably be kinda awkward to meet if you went up to him. Like if he's not there for Shane business, he doesn't really know what to do with himself. I mean he went from being a nobody on the surface to being 🌟THE SHANE🌟 and everyone wants to talk to him. If i was 15 and I became that famous, I would be awkward too

He's also the youngest in the Shane gang

🗣️Eli is Canadian 🗣️

Trixie

So this isn't necessarily my headcanon, but I saw this a Long, LONG time ago, there was one theory that Trixie was Dr. Blakk's daughter. I'm not sure how they came up with this theory but I think it's so interesting and crazy. It would ask more questions than answer them, like why was Tad on the surface but Trixie raised in slugterra and how Dr. Blakk could have two kids he didn't know or we assume for Tad but it would just be such a crazy concept

I feel like Trixie doesn't have the greatest relationship with her mom. She definitely has very fond memories of her, but it doesn't seem like she visits her mom that much. I feel like they get into a lot of disagreements.

As for age, I think Trixie is about 16 or 17 years old

Trixie is definitely the most direct of the Shane gang. She will tell it like it is and will not sugarcoat it. Like if she doesn't like you or like something, she'll be the first to say something

AU, if Slugeterra didn't exist, she would 100 percent be like a big Twitch streamer or a YouTuber. I mean, she's got a love of filming and gaming so it makes sense to me

It's kinda implied in the show but I think she's really big into animals not just slugs. I feel like her and Eli would sit around her computer or tv watching slugterra animal documentaries or something 😂

Also, going back to the filming, this isn't really a headcanon for Trixie, but the slugisodes that they put on YouTube are all the videos she made. Again it's implied, but I thought I would mention it

For sexuality, I don't know, maybe bi. She's giving me bi energy

Kord

I think Kord is the best cook out of the gang (with Pronto at the bottom) but because he's always updating the mechas or fixing blasters or whatever, he never really gets the chance to cook oh but when he does 👌😩

I would say Kord is about 19 or 20 years old

Once again going on the theme of Shane gang family issues but I think Kord's family was not the happiest knowing he was gonna leave the pretty safe career of being an engineer for the dangerous and low pay career of a slugslinger

Going off of that I feel like a lot of the non-human groups of Slugterra have a lot of negative stereotypes around them, and Kord becoming a slugslinger was his way of breaking the stereotype that cave trolls are only engineers

For slugterraless AU Kord would probably be like an aerospace engineer or a completely different route and be a therapist maybe he would try for both

He's definitely the unofficial therapist of the group. He's a good listener and will sit and nod along as the other person just rants rambles, or sobs

Probably got that sleep apnea with the way he sores in the show

Almost NEVER showers, but surprisingly not stinky

He will spend all day working on a project and sometimes forgets to eat so the gang will have to come into the garage and give him food

Not gonna lie he's been a bit jealous of Eli and how quick he was to figure things out in slugterra with slugslinging and especially at such a young age but he's mostly gotten over it... mostly

I mean we know he likes women what with Druilla but I don't think Kord would be opposed to guys. So bi prob with more a preference for men

Pronto

Once again, it's not my theory, but I saw something a long time ago that the King of the Molelinoids?? was chosen by who is the greatest tracker out of all the moles, and that happened to be Pronto. I honestly think this makes the most sense

Okay, so for age, I always got the sense that he was a lot older than the rest of the Shane gang, like in his early 30s, just because there are slugisodes about young Pronto, so...

I think that's why they feel the need to have him cook because he's the technically adult in the house but I mean like look at him 😂

Also considering he was king I assume he never cooked (b/c he was too busy cleaning out toilets 😅) Meaning that he's probably the worst cook but not by much since Eli's 15 and can't even boil pasta without the water spilling over

Now my theory for why Pronto was in the Shane hideout was b/c I do think he was stealing some Shane shit that he could sell for that gold and new purse ofc🪙👛that's why he looked so shocked and nervous when Eli arrived he really thought Eli was gonna arrest him or something

He is definitely the loudest and most extroverted of the Shane gang. Like my man, he has never heard of a quiet button, and it drives the others nuts. He'll just go up and talk to anyone it's so hard to take him places sometimes 😅

Pronto has a twin named Pinto, it's not a headcanon it's stated in ROTE but I thought I would mention it

He's definitely the messiest of the Shane

He also is the most active on social media (even more than the official shane gang channel on the slugnet) and those the most interviews for tv (which my other theory would be that Eli is hella glad Pronto wants to do them despite him only talking about himself)

For slugterraless AU Iiterally have no idea what Pronto would do like no thoughts 😂 he could be anything and everything

For sexuality I feel like Pronto would actually be ace don't know why I just feel like it fits him

Junjie

I feel like Junjie's headcanons are gonna mostly be sad, but I'll start with less depressing ones, first everyone pronounces his name wrong but at this point he's too nice to current anyone so he just lets it

As for his backstory I think he came from humble parents maybe they couldn't take care of him but Master Lian decided to raise him as her own and train him to be the Easter Champion since she was the current one

Now for the fun one, I think Junije and Eli are very very distantly related. I like to think that Eli is related to Yang in some way. I also like to think if there were ever going to be any other caverns like a northern or southern champion, they would all be connected to the OG champion of the underground world. I don't know who that person is but I just like to think it would be cool 😅

Unfortunately, he suffers from pretty severe PTSD. He doesn't remember everything that the goon did to him, but every once in a while he'll get a flashback almost like he's regaining his memories and it's not a pretty sight for him

I do think he would be pretty heavily scarred as well from being under the control of the goon for so long

For his age, I think Junjie is 15, like Eli. Yes I know he's actually 35 but he doesn't look like he aged and I think Junjie would really try to ignore the fact that he spent 20 years of his life destroying his home. So yeah maybe he's 35 but in his heart he's still 15

He and Eli suffer from nightmares from time to time from the goon so when Junjie lived in the Shane hideout they would both just stay up talking and hanging out

While Trixie will verbally judge you for your stupid actions *cough* Eli *cough* Pronto, Junjie will just silently judge you, which is almost just as bad

Junije is actually very expressive, even if he doesn't have a lot to say you can tell what he is thinking through his expressions

I feel like in a slugterraless AU he would probably own like Kung Fu Dojo or something like that

Okay, wow, that was a lot, but now I kinda want to talk about shipping. I'm just gonna talk about a few of the more popular ones please don't kill me 😅

Eli x Trixie

So I, like, I know why people ship Eli and Trixie; it's because they're like really close, and it would be cool to see them grow up and realize that they've always had feelings for each other, and then they get married and have kids or whatever. Like, I get it...... the thing is, I just don't really care for it 😅😅

There are just so many shows that have the boy protagonist with the girl protagonist, and I swear sometimes they just have the girl character just there to be a love interest of the main boy character, and that's literally all they do, and it sucks. And Slugterra literally fits that bill like Trixie is the only human girl and Eli is the main character. So it should have happened, but it didn't, which I feel is RARE for an early 2010s show

It's kinda cool that they don't get together like there isn't even any romance at all, which is, again, super rare. I really can't think of another show that didn't have some indication of romance even when it wasn't the focus, but Slugterra doesn't have it at all. Sometimes, when I watch it, it throws me off guard because I feel like it should, but Slugterra had too much on its plate to do that stuff. And I see Eli and Trixie having more of a sibling relationship than anything else,

I think I'm just not that into it because I remember there being a lot of really annoying shippers in the early fandom days who would claim that every interaction that Eli and Trixie did was like signs of THEM FALLING IN LOVE, but really, they were just standing there. But if you want to ship it, that's totally cool!

Eli x Junjie

So I don't ship Eli and Junjie, but then again, I do think it's super cute and makes sense. The history of the ship is so interesting, but people were shipping Eli with the dark slinger long before he was known as Junije, and when he became a part of the team, people were so excited.

But then they dropped that BOMB that Junjie was controlled by the goon for 20 years, and everyone was like, yikes, this is a little awkward, and like, to this day, I don't know why the writers did that. Like, even a year or two under the goon would have been a lot, but no, they had to do like 20 years. I just wish I was in the writers' room when they made that decision. I would have been like hello, explain why it has to be so long

Obviously, it makes the shipping complicated, and I never saw anything crazy when it came to people fighting about who you can ship with. When it comes to ages and shit I was in the Voltron fandom I saw it all. And not like writers need to know about shipping, but it's still like, why. Why did you make one of your characters 35 or however old Junjie is? They never explain if he aged or not. They're like, yup, 20 years passed, like HUH???

Anyway, this ship section literally just became about Junjie, but in conclusion, ship what you want to ship life is so short, who gives a shit

And finally........

Eli x Twist

Okay, so like....... I do ship Eli and Twist. What can I say, I'm a sucker for rivals, friends to lovers. But rivals to friends to lovers is like my bread and butter. I'm literally obsessed with staticradio with Hazbin and shit it's so embarrassing But, Twist and Eli started it all for me. They are like the OG rival to friends to lovers to me. I emphasize rivals TO friends TO lovers, but I like the in-between of friendship before they discover they have feelings for each other or whatever.

I know it could be complicated, and I know, in theory, rivals to lovers could never work in real life, but I think there was potential in the show. Not with Eli and Twist as a romance, but I feel like they were going for a redemption arc for Twist, and then they just like forgot about him and then brought in TAD 😒

Like, come on, he's literally just Twist, but they had to add that connection to Dr. Blakk like Twist already had that. So if there was no romance, then there should have been a redemption. I have this whole other theory that I think Dr. Blakk kinda prepped Twist to hate Will Shane more than he actually did just to get someone Eli's age to fight him to see if that would work

Because, like, Twist-hating Eli makes literally no sense. Eli didn't do anything wrong; he's literally just there. He's just the new Shane, and he constantly is like you wanna be like Blakk, you know you're doing the wrong thing, and blah blah

Like, it sucks that Will killed his Dad, but I don't get what Twist's Dad's plan was. Why was he jumping off a cliff? Was his plan to kill both of them, like kill his own child?? And I just have this other theory that Twist's dad was illegally selling slugs or had a shady business. He clearly didn't have the best morals if he was going to take his son to the GRAVE with him

I should make a separate post about this since this one is getting so long, and I have so many thoughts about the Eli and Twist redemption arc or whatever you want to call it.

[scrapperjoe]

Josuke post grad

I was inspired by @/yossarianirl (not fully tagging for the sake of notifications) posting their josuke head canons i feel like posting about my ideas especially for the nijimura au.

First off, homie definitely has adhd. School was rough for him especially with constant stand drama and trips to the hospital. A lot of people, myself included, always like to imagine josuke in the medical field, but don't really realize the grades you have to have to get into med school are lowkey insane. You gotta be at the top of your class; advanced placement classes no less. Josuke would no doubt really struggle getting those grades. Especially given the Japanese education system being notoriously cut throat.

But josuke feels like its his duty to help people and goes to med school regardless through the speedwagon foundation. They do offer him a lot of accomodations and even hook him up with tutoring and extended time to turn in work. (The spwf is disability friendly because i say so.) And after ungodly hours spent studying all those silly medical terms and such, hes able to pass and INSTANTLY goes into being a paramedic. One of the worst mistakes of his life.

My heart goes out to anyone in this position because of what you have to deal with. Josuke had thought "i can just save them with crazy diamond!" And learned his lesson way too fast. Sometimes the paramedics arrive too late, and crazy diamond can't help with strokes, heart attacks or overdoses. Theres some emergencies... You just cant help with. Mortality is an unfortunate part of being a living being. And life is incredibly fragile. The position lasts at best 1 year before josuke has an incredibly horrible week full of death. The mental toll and survivors guilt is far too much. Even with counselling hes met his limit. The dreams and nightmares are too much to bare so he has to quit. Since he didnt want his suffering through med school to go to waste he decides to become a physical therapist.

With all this said, it's no mystery that josukes a mess of an adult. Tomoko cooked almost all his meals and he has little to no adult skills other than laundry. After moving out post grad he lived off instant meals having no idea how to cook. He completely lost his appetite because of soggy freezer meals and fake food. Doubled with amounting credit card debt from retail therapy and shopping to relieve stress, to the point when hyakuko meets her fkmt fixation keicho cant help but feel kaiji seems all too familiar, he was not in good shape.

After moving in with the nijimuras however after okuyasus ex wife walked out, things got better. Living alone was not for Josuke, and with the added family members, some things get a lot easier to manage from meals, to laundry, and so on. Yeah, a 6 person family (7 including josuke) is a lot. But... Okuyasus cooking and keicho doing a fair share of the cleaning took a huge burden off him. Josuke being able to help with the kids was a HUGE help amidst okuyasu recovering from insomnia and the plethora of issues keicho lives with. Keicho helps him with paying off credit card debt and honestly, josuke wouldnt have it any other way than to be with that family.

[fun-eralsss]

blurbs abt my slenderverse ocs because i love them so very much. my children <3

“I was born with long dark hair, the nurse was scared. I didn’t cry, but I was teething.” -Changeling, PhemieC

quinn

♡ black, she/her cis woman

♡ aroace, mildly sex repulsed. enjoys romance in fiction, has an ao3 account she uses regularly

♡ the shortest of the girls (5’0)

♡ really bad ocd, the caffeine reliance doesn’t make it any better

♡ severe insomnia, plagued by visions

♡ doesn’t talk to either of her parents much (stays in contact with her sister tho)

♡ whatever the opposite of desensitized is. the scariest movie she’s ever seen is coraline

♡ aesthetic(s) i associate with her: dark academia, female horror game protagonist fashion

elijah

♡ white, he/him intersex man

♡ pan, has a gf named olivia

♡ autism, anxiety and adhd, on meds for the latter two

♡ tallest of the guys due to having klinefelter’s (around 6’2)

♡ listens to emiko ffujio asmr in order to sleep

♡ wore onesies til he was like 15 (easy to get out of, easy to get into)

♡ my headcanon voice for him is unironically jreg im so sorry

♡ aesthetic(s) i associate with him: midwestern emo, whatever the hell was going on in juno

agnes

♡ mixed, she/her cis woman

♡ bi with a pref for anyone taller than her (>5’7)

♡ main hobby is photography

♡ hispanic mother and a white father. they divorced when she was in middle school, she stayed with her mom

♡ grew up in poverty. is attracted to ‘trailer park aesthetics’ because it reminds her of the environment she grew up in

♡ feels bad when people do anything for her, even if it’s literally no trouble

♡ leaning towards extrovert. is more likely to engage with people at a party rather than stand by the wall

♡ aesthetic(s) i associate with her: trailer park princess, soft grunge

mike

♡ white, he/him trans man

♡ bi with no pref whatsoever

♡ cuts his own hair, has definitely improved over the years

♡ cleans up roadkill in his free time. is desensitized to blood and gore due to it

♡ definitely leans toward introvert. sticks to what he knows

♡ grew up in a southern area, was apart of the lower middle class

♡ his worst fear is being like his father

♡ aesthetic(s) i associate with him: southern gothic, trailer park prince

natalie

♡ white, she/her intersex woman

♡ bi, scared to be in a relationship

♡ a borderline hikikomori

♡ knows far too much about internet culture, don’t ask her about chris chan

♡ plays the drums, is much better than many would expect

♡ is mistaken for a trans woman pretty often (flat chest, non feminine voice, ect)

♡ vomits easily, gets nauseous when stressed

♡ aesthetic(s) i associate with her: femcel weaboo

jude

♡ white, he/him cis man

♡ gay but so very repressed (mild religious trauma)

♡ plays the bass guitar, can do the lyn-z backbend

♡ probably not neurotypical, but has never been officially diagnosed with anything

♡ the youngest of three. has an older sister and an even older brother

♡ essentially never grew out of his teenage dirtbag phase, despite no longer being a teenager

♡ his worst fear is being like his mother

♡ aesthetic(s) i associate with him: grunge

[gowns]

i had a mostly good experience with vyvanse. def loved how it helped my mind and my mood. i finally felt “normal” and clear headed. i think it did raise my BP some though and i struggled with insomnia even at low doses. that was probably the worst part that it messed w my sleep and it would throw me so off it like neutralized the benefits. my psych insisted it wasn’t possible because its metabolized within 8 hours but 🤷‍♀️. id have to take some days off ro re-regulate my sleep. or id have to remember to take it super early in the morning.

ty! i'm not quite sure how i still have so many asks related to medication haha, i feel like i posted about it a long time ago.

i finally have an intake appointment tomorrow

i'll be aiming for primarily something anxiety-reducing because my main problem is i haven't slept in weeks :| :| :| i liked adderall but it def gave me bouts of insomnia. it wasn't "thinking too much" insomnia it was "tension remaining in body" insomnia.

so yes even though i have focus problems i might need to do something more in the vein of ummmm xanax or something. maybe eventually both anxiety and ADHD medication. idk i've had a good run of raw dogging reality but the lack of sleep and occasional panic attacks are starting to get to me.