#learning is hard

[darknessdrops]

[princelybunny]

do u have a ref of ur Zeus? I wanna draw him :3 if not, do u have like... A body type in mind....

This is so sweet anon, but I sadly don't yet because I'm developing my art skill along with these fellas — I'm usually just a fanfic writer!

But I know he's trapezoid-ish.. While Poseidon is more triangular... Zeus is definitely broader in my mind.

He's also got sharp talon-like claws and a bull tail, and that's kind of all I've got— sorry! Writing is a lot easier because I can keep it just vague enough to work ha ha.

Considering giving him a septum ring. He's barefoot. Shirtless. He's my little (huge) untamed bull.

[jenthebug]

Me this morning: WELP time to clock in for another shift at the mistake factory

Me on the ops channel: I’m good, I’m good, I’m good, why does my head hurt, that was dumb, I recovered, I’m good, I’m good, okay I’m lost, trainer halp!, I’m good, this is frustrating, how much longer …

Me on the info channel: pfft. I got this.

Mr Classroom at the end of the day: You’re doing really well, all you need is more ops time. You could clear training in 4-6 weeks. You’re exactly where we expected you to be.* Ask for more ops time, busier times, and challenge yourself.

* I’m not behind anymore?! 😮‍💨

ANYWAY. I am not having fun on ops. It’s frustrating all of the time. AND. I recognize this as part of the learning process now. Same thing happened on the info channel. So I’m going to ask for more ops time, take all my criticism with a good attitude, make my mistakes, learn from them, and get patched.

For now, my head hurts and I’m starving. I eat so much on work days.

[darkroguescribe]

Honestly just seeking validation from strangers online because my depression and anxiety are causing me physical pain atm.

Background:

I’ve been learning to play the bass guitar for a little over a year now. I just wanted something creative to add to my mental health toolbox and learning a new skill and focusing on that can be helpful.

Had a lesson with my teacher today. He told me I’m doing well and taught me new exercises. Usual stuff.

2 hours later he emails me, drops me as a student because I’m not progressing fast enough.

I’ve never been a fast learner. I’ve also been very clear with him about the specific skills that I’ve struggled with.

I think what upsets me most is that he didn’t even tell me during my lesson. I thought I was doing well because he gave me no indication that there was something wrong with my learning speed.

I don’t want to stop learning but this just picks at an old wound that keeps reopening. Reminds me too much of the times where coaches or teachers told me I wasn’t good enough and each time was just a major blow to my low self esteem and frequently resulted in me quitting.

I don’t want to quit but right now looking at my guitar just makes me feel sad and worthless compared to earlier today when I felt confident and proud of what I was learning.

[inkycarrot]

Day one of trying to figure out basic walk cycles

This is so much harder than animating hot women or silly silly weirdos

Geez I am a 21 year old trying to animate stuff…

LETS GO NEVER TOO OLD TO GET GOOD!!!

Never surrender never yeild (lol)

※\(^O^)/※

[princess-petals-blossom]

Twilight might need to try a different teaching method

[newblette0-o]

Uqpdate: I spent hours yesterday trying make my first mesh and then blendr just shut off and I lost my 3d Vault-tec symbol.

Update [background info]: I have horrible ADHD and these kinds of failures often make me just not try again for years. Buuuut, I'm medicated and in my 30s, so I'm going to beat my damn brain and keep trying when I get time again.

I also have started pulling textures from fallout directly, spent untold hours fighting gimp, and just generally over taught myself this holiday weekend. But I want to keep learning anyways because this has been so rewarding for me. (Just seeing my efforts turn into actual objects is really really cool)

I currently have a few things ready to put up for download. I'm being a bit shy about them, but I'll stop 😅

On a side note: I really wish I knew people in my life who I could bounce ideas off, learn with/from, or even chat with about this stuff. It's such a niche thing and Tumblr is strange to me still. It's so lonely and also not...

Anywho thanks for looking ❤️ I'll be back later today with some billboards and maybe my weird landscape posters I made too.

[send-noodles-not-nudes]

my favorite part of any math class i take is just the passive aggressive notes i leave myself on the common mistakes i make during each problem that (hopefully) eventually result in me figuring out stupid little ways to fix them

for example, when taking notes today for physics (kepler's laws), i literally wrote in my notebook "when solving, be VERY careful not to flip your values for subscript 1 and subscript 2 in your ratios! you will massively fuck up your math! double check!" with the very loud subtext of just "dont be a fucking dumbass, dumbass. youve already screwed this up enough times and you have a test next week."

my other constant crime is forgetting exponents. i think i may start highlighting them soon just to remind myself they exist so i stop dropping them.

[aaaaanndbackstabbed]

Who knew heads were so difficult to draw???

[datamodel-of-disaster]

Personal ramble; job stuff, thinking about how everything in life takes patience and practice and positive thinking and I fucking hate that shit. No triggers except my naturally pessimist ass being a bit whiny.

I hate my job, sometimes. Specifically, I hate that I don't feel competent at it.

I dream of working in a function where I know perfectly what is expected of me and I have the exact knowledge and skillset required to do just that. No terrified adhd paralysis where I don't know how to tackle stuff so I procrastinate forever, no feeling like an idiot when I don't already know things, no selling a bunch of hot air while flailing about trying to keep up appearances in fear of getting fired. None of that.

Just... Competence.

If I truly let my dreams get unrealistic, I might want to be excellent at something. The go-to man. The one guy in the office who knows how to do or fix the thing. But really. Not having to hang on by the skin of my teeth to cover my ass would already make any job The Best Job.

...

The truth is, I'm not actually that bad at my job. Or at least, not bad enough that people are unhappy with my work. I'm just... Still learning. So I often have to look for extra info, ask for help, or semi-targetedly try things until something sticks.

And boy do I hate it.

I hate that competence is not instant, that it's not something you uncover fully formed within yourself by doing the "right" job, but rather something you develop through experience and learning.

I hate that the need for food and housing forces me to do deeply uncomfortable and stressful stuff like doing things I don't already know how to do and problem-solving through trial and error.

I HATE IT.

If my job was a hobby I would have quit it a thousand times already. Alas.

...

Competence, as with most things in this cruel scam of an existence, all comes down to persistent practice and positive thinking. Which... is infuriating.

*cue the whiny voice* Why can't I just be good at something already and get paid doing that so I never have to feel anxious and uncomfortable and stupid?

...

I wish I had a hopeful closing line to this diatribe. But I don't. I don't want to hang in there until I magically, mysteriously improve and start feeling competent. I just want to give up, but I have too many bills to do that.

So here I am, hanging in there. Fuck me, amiright?

[thefangirlthatwaited]

Being the perfectionist I am... art is hard for me. To accept that I won't be great off the bat. But I'm pushing through and got my first few attempts on procreate done. Don't laugh because I have a lot to learn.

[arc-key]

Trying new stuff and trying to learn from it

[permanentbottombunk]

Trying to learn makeup later in life really does make you feel like a toddler who found mom's makeup bag

You would think my years as an artist would have granted me a tiny semblance of hand-eye coordination, yet my hand is somehow 2 feet away from my face and also 0.003 millimeters from my eyeball simultaneously!

[ghostjelliess]

I made my fiance stand in a corner with a helmet and utility gloves (our rock hounding gloves 🪨💎🤠) to get a decent reference, and he did it like a loser 🥰😘

Heh, but I've never drawn a helmet before actually and, wow, am I bad at chibis 🤦🥲

[deerkathe]

This but Sonadow ⤵

[emotional-piece-of-meat]

Duke is unapologetic for everything that comes out of his mouth. In fact, give him a mic, he'll say it louder.

Some way too old for that guy, trying to flirt with Cass: You know, you seem so mature for your age…

Duke, popping out of nowhere: And you're really fucking dumb for yours, man, fix this puddle of desperation on your head first and only then think about trying to fit into society. If even your hair doesn't want to be with you, what are you counting on?

Cass, who really didn't want to ruin her cute dress with blood: 👍🏻

A really annoying paparazzi: Hey, boy, how does it feel to become rich after, well, whatever you were before? Have your, erm, extracurricular activities changed? What's your favourite thing to do now?

Duke, with the straightest face known to mankind: No, it's still your mom. My favourite extracurricular activity, planning to do her more actually, thanks for the question.

Bruce, trying to parent a whole ass teen: So…

Duke: I really shouldn't have told this terrible, rude, insufferable piece of person to go eat shit. I genuinely regret it. I should have told her to go eat shit and die choking, such a missed opportunity, damn, I'm still upset.

Bruce: ...

Bruce, to himself: Why am I even trying?

There are a bunch of compilations on YouTube and Tiktok “Duke Thomas-Wayne has no PR training whatsoever”. Duke personally likes every single one of them.