#mental burnout

[study-diaries]

Progress is still progress!

It doesn't matter if you hadn't done the things you were supposed to do. It doesn't matter that if you finished 1 thing out of 4 things. You don't have 3 more things to do, you have 1 less thing to complete.

It doesn't matter if you had relapsed after a day or 3 of productivity and healing into a spiral again. What matters is that you get back up and start again. Because now you're a bit stronger and more resilient than before.

It doesn't matter if all you did today was getting out of bed, eat and change your clothes while you did nothing else. Appreciate yourself and give yourself the credit you deserve for doing those small things.

It doesn't matter if the only thing you did today was to focus on existing and on yourself alone. Be proud of surviving till the end of the day because you made it through knowing that there was a possibility of you not making it.

Progress is still progress. It doesn't matter if you take small or big steps. You're taking a step and that's all that matters.

[xoprincessbarbiexo]

My love language and support system

[family-trauma]

[333angeldolls]

I'm never getting into Harvard because this is my digital footprint I'm so cooked

[romirella-96]

Best metaphor I’ve seen yet, 🤔 & the most accurate. It’s like self sabotage trying to attempt something that you clearly can’t do.

Also goes hand in hand with the meme above. ^

[miyakuli]

Well, I saw my doc, I told him about my anxiety bcs of my work place and all the physical symptoms it gave me lately like back pain and anxiety crisis and lack of sleep....it was hard to hold my tears seriously, I'm a ball of emotions since last week. He stopped me for two weeks and I feel very relieved bcs I will be able to take the time to get better mentally and go back to my students with a more positive attitude (and the smile bcs I can't do that a lot those days).

If anyone who read this is living a bad period and is tired mentally & physically, please take care and try to consult about it. Having a little time to recover is always a good option :')

[surgeonssturgeon]

I don’t hate school because I’m angsty, i hate school because I thought i was supposed to be learning here but all this is is just deadlines and tests and homework and deadlines and people and noise, and if I don’t work I’ll be homeless and i need to do it again like what the fuck man i just wanted to know things not be intensely depressed because I forgot what 23 x 128 was

[mentally-at-home]

[study-diaries]

Reminder!

It's okay:

If you're not currently interested in studying

If you've lost interest in some thing you like/love

If you need a break

If you just need to sleep for the whole day and be lazy

If you just want to watch/binge shows and movies

If you don't feel chirpy sometimes

If you feel sad/angry/or any other emotion

If you feel stressed or pressured because of work

It's okay if you are not okay

[xoprincessbarbiexo]

[at0m1cm1m1c]

(VENT) BURNOUT (Content warning for Body Horror)

DURING BURNOUT: My body has spontaneously combusted, the stench of the smoke and body begin to make me overwhelmed and panicked. Not only that but i felt as if i was melting like ice cream. All i could do that night whilst drawing this was scribble. It was legitimately reduced to a child's drawing; a stick figure me flailing on fire.

POST BURNOUT: I have captured the true anxiety and uncomfortableness of what I have to go through during my burnout. I drew myself, laying on the floor next to a mobile phone with teeth inside it. My body is all goopy and everywhere like burnt molasses on an extremely hot sunny day; all bubbly and leaking over the floor. The arms and legs are no longer present as it is all replaced with flabby goop, teeth, eyeballs and heat bubbles. The hair looks as if radiation has hit me and is beginning to fall out. All i can do is lay there, burnt out, disfigured, melted. The only thing still overwhelming me are the mouths.

DAY AFTER POST BURNOUT: I am starting to put myself back together, like plastic decorations to play doh. My shapeshifting skin is beginning to congeal and reset. The eyebrows haven't changed back yet, or my ears. My hair has formed back and is messy but normal. I am also starting to feel comfortable in my own skin again. I am in a gown, symbolising a coping mechanism for myself, i like soft clothes like pyjamas or maybe a dressing gown.

[xoxo-dairiesss]

Three weeks into January and I'm already having a mental breakdown

pls tell me I'm not alone 😭

[paigesprojectpan]

Here's Why You Shouldn't Give Me A Scholarship

You shouldn’t give me a scholarship because I have withdrawn from three courses so far in my college career. Because I chose to take seven dual-enrollment courses instead of eight in high school. Because I have severe imposter syndrome within my chosen major. Because I already have a 40,000 scholarship. Because my parents work hard and make good choices with their money. Because I am white. Because I am not going into healthcare or music, engineering, coding, or even dance. I don’t deserve a scholarship because I procrastinate and then have missing assignments and because my room is messy.

I could think of a million more reasons why you shouldn't give me a scholarship. I don’t set aside time for assignments, I do not apply often to scholarships or internships. I am not in more than two clubs on campus. But I am a summer camp counselor. I have been for five years. I pick up shifts at Steam Anchor Coffee Co. where I work. I have always picked up extra shifts. And it has never been for money. It is because I liked my job. I like working with kids. I like to write, but not when someone else tells me what to write, where I can take evidence from, how long the piece has to be, and when I have to have it complete. I like to learn, but when I find things interesting. 

I am more in the Chemistry Teacher Education major for teaching than chemistry. And as I have said, ‘if not me then who?’ If I don’t pick up this shift and help someone else out, then who will. Because the group chats are most often silent. The National Science Foundation created a nation-wide scholarship for university juniors and seniors studying to become teachers in the STEM subjects. At my school there are 3 math majors, 2 bio, and 1 chem. Me. There are no physics teachers. I was not even a junior when I received my scholarship. I was a sophomore with junior hours thanks to the 7 dual-enrollment courses in high school.

My mom is going to be so mad at me because I had to withdraw from both of my summer classes. I did not make a lick of time for either of them in the first week. And, well, it set me up for failure. Late work gets zero’s in the gradebook so I would have an ‘F’. But instead I choose ‘W’. I have withdrawn from a class before. I withdrew from a psychology course my second semester of freshman year at Clinton Community College. I was registered for 5, 16-week classes and I looked at the workload after syllabus week and said, “Nope.” I got 100% tuition reimbursement though since I withdrew during the first week.

This is starting to sound like a sob-story and I hate it.

I am thinking of completely leaving college altogether. But I do not want to be considered a drop-out. I want to get a degree in something since I am already here. But, when I come home for summer I am blinded with the amount of people that go straight into the workforce or military after high school. Or they stopped after receiving an associate’s or a certificate or license. I am not sure I am cut out for the length of time it will take me to finish my bachelor’s in Chemistry Teacher Education (especially since I withdrew from two classes this summer).

I really liked geology, but I am not sure I liked it enough to do a whole major in it. I have said this about concerts as well. I like Taylor Swift, but I’m not sure I like her enough to go sit through 3 hours of her.

Am I screwed? No one is going to give a summer job to someone wanting to start in mid-June and leaving and mid-August. No one is going to give a scholarship to someone who would rather see a ‘W’ on her college record than an ‘F’. No one is going to give a scholarship to someone who procrastinates so bad she just doesn’t do her assignments. No one is going to give a scholarship to a hypocrite.

[cupcakeshakesnake]

Refuge.

[study-diaries]

Reminder

Your sadness is valid.

Your frustration is valid.

Your pain is valid.

Your jealousy is valid.

Your hurt is valid.

Your disappointment is valid.

Your shame/guilt is valid.

Your regret is valid.

Your anxiety is valid.

Your happiness is valid.

Your enthusiasm is valid.

Your passion is valid.

Your love is valid.

Your emotions are valid.

No matter what your emotions are, they are valid. You are allowed to feel.

But that does not mean your reactions may be valid too. You cannot hurt other people because of your emotions. You are responsible for your reactions to emotions.

Responsibility does not dismiss your validity of feeling a particular emotion.

[xoprincessbarbiexo]