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[7nvk]

theres something addicting about destroying myself then putting myself back together again

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the worst part of my day is waking up

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sometimes i wonder if i could have been happy if my circumstances were different

[7nvk]

don’t ever say that i didn’t show any signs because i did. i begged you for help and you left me to die.

[7nvk]

new year, new suffering

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having to press my fingers against my pulse to remind myself that i’m alive; that my heart isn’t just dead weight in my chest

[7nvk]

i will give and give until nothing is left of me

[7nvk]

i think that (if you want) you should have a nice hug <3

thats very sweet, thank u anon (:

[7nvk]

i can’t remember a time when i didn’t feel this way. maybe it started when i began to feel far too empty for a 12 year old girl, and the rusty boxcutter on the counter started to seem enticing

[7nvk]

it’s hard to focus when everything feels like a dream

[7nvk]

anxiety traps me within my own mind and tears me apart quietly

[7nvk]

trying to live up to these impossible standards in my head to feel worthy of love is exhausting

[7nvk]

i wish i could go back to when i was younger and tell that little girl not to pick up the knife

[7nvk]

some days i think i’m okay and some days i wish i was six feet in the ground

[7nvk]

i want to leave everything behind and disappear

[7nvk]

i mourn the girl i could of been

[7nvk]

i feel far away from this world and body, my memory wiped clean just to be replaced with mind numbing nothingness