aellie-me

[aellie-me]

POV: He's too good for you to the point that you're starting to doubt if he really likes you.

[aellie-me]

I never really realized that I'd be this scared of love.

[aellie-me]

UPDATE: I WAS ACCEPTED ACK

Not gonna live with the mindset "I'll try it next time when I'm ready" anymore

So I've applied to an opportunity I am really eyeing for forever last week. It felt like a calling, but I knew there would be tough competition. I've never been exceptional for it, well not yet, but I still tried because I would rather not live wondering what could have been the result while I wait for that moment when I'll be "ready" anymore. Result? No reply. I guess I am still not qualified for it but hey, this is a great start for someone who lived second-guessing everything. That gal alr found something she's sure of: she will not bypass what really calls her heart.

[aellie-me]

“Just because you took longer than others doesn’t mean you failed. Remember that.”

— Unknown

[aellie-me]

Update: I was shortlisted! Ok, girl, I know that challenging times are still ahead of you, especially since that competition is tough, but really, this is enough reason to just keep going, to start with what you can.

Not gonna live with the mindset "I'll try it next time when I'm ready" anymore

So I've applied to an opportunity I am really eyeing for forever last week. It felt like a calling, but I knew there would be tough competition. I've never been exceptional for it, well not yet, but I still tried because I would rather not live wondering what could have been the result while I wait for that moment when I'll be "ready" anymore. Result? No reply. I guess I am still not qualified for it but hey, this is a great start for someone who lived second-guessing everything. That gal alr found something she's sure of: she will not bypass what really calls her heart.

[aellie-me]

The secret to being a private person is to overshare dumb shit so people think you are an open book but then not tell them any of the important details of your life.

[aellie-me]

what's wrong babe you've barely touched your potential even though all your elementary teachers really liked you and said you were gifted and that you were going to do great things

[aellie-me]

Not gonna live with the mindset "I'll try it next time when I'm ready" anymore

So I've applied to an opportunity I am really eyeing for forever last week. It felt like a calling, but I knew there would be tough competition. I've never been exceptional for it, well not yet, but I still tried because I would rather not live wondering what could have been the result while I wait for that moment when I'll be "ready" anymore. Result? No reply. I guess I am still not qualified for it but hey, this is a great start for someone who lived second-guessing everything. That gal alr found something she's sure of: she will not bypass what really calls her heart.

[aellie-me]

“you are still learning. you are still changing. you are still growing. breathe. you will find your way.”

— Unknown

[aellie-me]

Latest heartbreak: giving up my childhood dreams.

My childhood dream was not to soar to the moon, not to have handy tools in my hand to heal and care for people, nor thread a story of magnificence or fantasy. My childhood dream was to have a happy family, but now that I am getting older, I realized that I have just given up the tales of my young heart.

[aellie-me]

Ever been the not-so-conscientious person in a bunch of highly competitive achievers? This is a how-to-survive 101.

Respect differences. As much as you have your own schedule, professionalism comes with respect to other people's working styles. So what then? Do you just adjust every time? Nope, you–

Communicate. It's best to open your realities and arrangements. Be transparent when you can finish an output on a reasonable time that won't damage deadlines.

Dont beat yourself for not having the same working style as the others. You dont need to change yourself, you just need to align and find what works.* Take it easy.

*tho "what works" is vague ik. as much as you are contributing to the goal at a reasonable pace that no tasks are left, youre good to go babe. ofc, i also acknowledge that being in an understanding environment is not a guarantee, so it will still vary at the end of the day.

[aellie-me]

Latest heartbreak: giving up my childhood dreams.

My childhood dream was not to soar to the moon, not to have handy tools in my hand to heal and care for people, nor thread a story of magnificence or fantasy. My childhood dream was to have a happy family, but now that I am getting older, I realized that I have just given up the tales of my young heart.

[aellie-me]

um

Be a bitch and don't let them in.

[aellie-me]

have you ever felt the need to stop yourself from getting frustrated with other people because you know you were the one who's wrong, but you still end up frustrated for god knows what reason? you know it's not rational but youre emotional. got any tips?

[aellie-me]

Signs of aging: your current hyperfixation is internship/job hunting.

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the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.