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I made this so now all y'all have to look at it.

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We've Made Changing Your Mind Look Like a Flaw Instead of a Virtue

The internet has taught people to archive your opinions and weaponize your growth. If you evolve, you're a flip-flopper. If you admit uncertainty, you're weak. If you take time to rethink, you're stalling.

So people fake certainty to avoid punishment.

Intellectual honesty, though, requires change. If your views haven't changed in ten years, that says less about your clarity than it says about your lack of reflection.

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this made me so unwell but I’m so here for it

I like the headcanon of Jason having autopsy scars on his torso

I love it too! Though there's also another scar headcanon that I've seen and immediately fell in love with:

The burn/shrapnel scars in the shape of his Bat logo on his chest. Like, imagine Joker burning it into him for shits and giggles, then Jason dies and comes back to life, and the Bat logo is still fucking there even though the only thing he can think about is kill Batman and this new replacement Robin, and absolutely hating looking at this farce carved into his chest that reminds him he was supposed to be part of the Bat Family.

And then slowly starting to kinda be fine with it/maybe even like it when he finally bonds with his family again, despite the ups and downs. Sometimes he absolutely hates the scar. Sometimes it reassures him. The angst. The feels. So much to do with that! Especially if Batman saw the scar when he recovered his dead Robin, so much feels for him too!

But yeah, the autopsy scars are also such a good concept. They scream "I died" so loud, Batman or Dick or Tim seeing this and feeling bad about it coz it's a physical reminder they failed Jason (or for Tim, that that was the precise reason he started wearing the suit).

Anyway. The two arts above are my own official scar maps. There are even more almost invisible scars, but the big ones are here. I just can't decide whether I want the autopsy scars or the Bat logo scar.

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The thing is, even if you were lucky and your parents taught you how to clean, they probably didn't teach you how to clean the stuff you clean stuff with, like brushes, mops, sponges, rags, and so on. Or how to clean your cleaning appliances, like a dish washer, clothes washing machine, and clothes dryer and its ducts (if you have a ducted dryer), or a carpet cleaner, vacuum, Or how to clean up clean messes, like spilled bleach or detergent.

My parents threw away all of these things (even the vacuum cleaners and the dryer) when they got too dirty to function, because no one even told them THAT they could be cleaned. Cost them thousands of dollars over the years.

All I'm saying is that cleaning is not intuitive, and not knowing how to clean is not a moral failing, but it is something you can learn.

I'm going to reblog this post with resources for learning how to clean things and how to clean cleaning things (I'm not at my desk at the moment). If you have any favorites, please feel free to add them in too!

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at the heart of it all

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David by Lorde but it’s Jason Todd so “I don’t belong to anyone” can never be about freedom, because all he’s ever wanted is to belong to someone. “I don’t belong to anyone” but make it about abandonment; and all the people Jason has ever wanted to belong to.

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i don't think jason actually died knowing bruce loved him till the end. i think this another case of fandom taking bruce's words at face value when evidence says otherwise. lots of ppl believe jason was an angry, rash child because thats what bruce kept reiterating after his death [to absolve himself of responsibility, to rewrite his memory & make it easier for himself to grieve because surely if someone was at fault he wouldnt have to acknowledge the injustice of the situation, the fact that sometimes bad things happen for no reason at all]. so when he says that 'that was the mistake you made. even in the end jason knew how much i loved him' it is laughable. ppl take it way too literally. its literally just him making that up, living in his delusion. bruce thats the child you looked right in the eye, after he had RUN AWAY btw to whole another COUNTRY by his own at FIFTEEN looking for someone who would love him unconditionally since you clearly didnt seem to understand him, in his eyes at least, that you arent here to look for him. lol. lmao even. did he love you till the very end, bruce? abide by everything you & his bleeding heart thought was correct? absolutely. did he die knowing you loved him without condition, without a second thought? no. the only reason you were along with him was because your targets seemed to coincide. jason heard it loud & clear & said as much 'theres nothing glamorous abt hunting down a runaway'.

is this all to say that bruce didnt love jason? hell no. he loved that kid. well what do i want to say then? jason didnt know that.

obviously just my interpretation of things, my opinions. live love laugh etc etc

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any “Jason/Red Hood shouldn’t be in the batfamily” take ends me, because it so fundamentally misunderstands that one of Jason Todd’s core desires is to be apart of that family. His idea of family just isn’t compatible with Bruce’s… I.e. “You not only die for your kids, you kill for them, too.” I don’t think it makes any sense to say he was only broken up over losing Robin to Tim, it was also losing that role as a son, it was that feeling of being thrown away. Jason came back to life to a family that had moved on without him, a family that had established itself without him, a family that had spun a false narrative about how he died and why. it was seeing that the person he most loved in his life before he died (Bruce) had aged without him, had chosen someone else like Jason’s death didn’t mean something. (Jason was not around to witness Bruce’s grief or how Tim got the role he did, he had to assume it was similar to himself: Bruce had chosen Tim). Jason Todd shouldn’t be in the batfamily doesn’t work, because all of Jason’s issues stem from the fact that he still sees himself as a part of it, even if he also feels rejected by it. His entire identity is wrapped up in being wanted by Bruce.

which is also why it makes sense that while he believes in killing when necessary, he’s been willing to compromise with Bruce (even though the relationship is shaky and abusive at best) to work with him still. In one sense, it does nerf the autonomy and point of Red Hood, but in another, it validates what we’ve always known about Jason. He wants a family. He always has. it’s what got him killed. Jason never left Bruce of his own accord, he was brutally taken from him.

when he came back to life, during and right after the coffin, all he did was try to get back to Bruce.

Jason is never going to stop trying to get back to Bruce.

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Sooooo few people are actually willing to defend the basic human rights of people who have committed crimes. Like I know it's not fun but if you genuinely believe in human rights as a concept you can't be okay with the state violating them in prisons I'm sorrrrry. Having moral principles is not always a fun time.

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How Court Really Works

Do you want to know how court actually works? Do you have some vague idea from television but a lot of burning questions? Do you have no burning questions because you're completely at sea?

Great news!

I wrote a series of posts a while ago when no one was paying attention to this blog called "How Court Really Works."

Part 1: Police Investigations: How do cases start? Why are police so bad at investigations??

Part 2: Bail and Arrest, or: So You've Stumbled On the Philosophical Problems Inherent in Paying Money to Get Out of Jail

Part 3: What is Trial & How?, including preliminary hearings, what makes a jury "grand," and how trials work

Part 4: Punishment, Rehabilitation, Deterrence & Incapacitation: Why Prison

Part 5: Probation and Parole, which is for some reason considered an "act of judicial grace" by the case law

I also do take questions and also am perfectly willing to consult on specific written works (including fanfic which I have done for my friends). It's part of my fight against misconceptions about court, and I like talking about myself.

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I need to read a lot more into abolition, but I really relate to the thought process in this post surrounding it, too, so I'm reblogging for the sake of conversation/dialogue.

I’ll never forget when I was arguing with a person in favor of total prison abolition and I asked them “what about violent offenders?” And they said “Well, in a world where prisons have been abolished, we’ll have leveled the playing field and everyone will have their basic needs met, and crime won’t be as much of an issue.” And then I was like “okay. But…no. Because rich people also rape and murder, so it isn’t just a poor person thing. So what will we do about that?” And I don’t think they answered me after that. I’m ashamed to say I continued to think that the problem was that I simply didn’t understand prison abolitionists enough and that their point was right in front of me, and it would click once I finally let myself understand it. It took me a long time to realize that if something is going to make sense, it needs to make sense. If you want to turn theory into Praxis (I’m using that word right don’t correct me I’ll vomit) everyone needs to be on board, which mean it all needs to click and it needs to click fast and fucking clear. You need to turn a complex idea into something both digestible and flexible enough to be expanded upon. Every time I ask a prison abolitionist what they actually intend to do about violent crime, I get directed to a summer reading list and a BreadTuber. It’s like a sleight-of-hand trick. Where’s the answer to my question. There it is. No wait, there it is. It’s under this cup. No it isn’t. “There’s theory that can explain this better than I can.” As if most theory isn’t just a collection of essays meant to be absorbed and discussed by academics, not the average skeptic. “Read this book.” And the book won’t even answer the question. The book tells you to go ask someone else. “Oh, watch this so-and-so, she totally explains it better than me.” Why can’t you explain it at all? Why did you even bring it up if you were going to point me to someone else to give me the basics that you should probably already know? Maybe I’m just one of those crazy people who thinks that some people need to be kept away from the public for everyone’s good. Maybe that just makes me insane. Maybe not believing that pervasive systemic misogyny could be solved with a UBI and a prayer circle makes me a bad guy. But it’s not like women’s safety is a priority anyway. It’s not like there is an objective claim to be made that re-releasing violent offenders or simply not locking them up is deadly.

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The thing that gets to me the most is that nobody knows what happened to Jason. No one alive but the Joker and Jason himself know how he got lured into that warehouse and exactly what happened there. And everyone is so fucking sure they know, Bruce fucking Wayne is so goddamn sure he knows what happened bc he started telling himself a story until he believed it and forgot there was any other reality available. And now he gets to be the arbiter of truth around Jason's death, an event he was not present for and doesn't know any details of--the filter through which everyone in the world hears about it. So everyone gets this story he made up where Jason got what was coming to him for disobeying Bruce, and Jason has zero credibility to contradict that, so why would he even try? It's all so fucking vile.

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I feel like a lot of liberals, especially the younger generation, don't really have any core beliefs other than "let everyone do as they please!" they're radical individualists. If something makes me happy, then it's good. If something makes them happy, then it's good because who am i to get in the way of someone else's happiness and freedom. No structural analysis. No attachment to anything other than individual personal fulfilment. Very spineless imo and antithetical to socialism and feminism.

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I always explain it as: I believe in the death penalty on principle, but not in execution. There are absolutely actions on this earth worthy of death. However-- do I trust the systems in place to give people in death penalty trials proper due process and convict them based off of proof beyond a reasonable doubt? No. No I do not.

So welcome to the stalemate.

I also believe in trying to think beyond your knee jerk desire for retribution. The animalistic instinct to kill is not always wrong, but it lends itself to a barbaric sense of self that I don't fancy.

having anti punitive justice morals sucks because you want to say "man that guy sucks he should get hit with hammers until he dies" but you also want to make it clear you don't think anyone should be put in charge of the 'hit people with hammers until they die" machine.

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it's kinda comforting to me when my friends are a little annoying or longwinded or abrasive or tired and inarticulate, or they don't do the exact politest thing in every interaction, and stuff, because I know I'm sometimes annoying, or take up a more than my share of conversational space, or forget to ask them questions, etc etc, and... like, I'm always working to be nice to my friends and to get better and better at friend-ing, but it just makes me feel more human about it :}

anyway I love you friends plz know I'm not counting, in fact I feel great affection toward you even (especially) when conversations go less than Perfectly Ideal

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"Bruce is allowed to have boundaries/not want to kill/Bruce shouldn't kill the Joker" -> yep fully agree no issue here

"it's so unreasonable of Jason to demand that of Bruce!" -> aaaaand you lost me.

The chronology of the last issues of Starlin's jaybin are absolutely crucial -a lot of people jump to UTH and assume they have the info on Jason's viewpoint but that's actually jumping in the middle of the story, it's missing so much context.

It goes like this:

-Jason, voluntarily or accidentally, directly or indirectly, causes the death of Felipe Garzonas. Nobody gonna weep.

-Actually, José Garzonas, Felipe's father, does have his grievances, and sets up a trap to kill Batman and Robin. After a fight scene of transcendental absurdity, Bruce climbs on an unstable pile of cars and when José shoots at him, the cars fall and kill José. Somehow this is Jason's fault. Bruce explains to Jason that it's the natural reaction of a father to his son's death to try to avenge him.

-Jason's relationship with Bruce is conflicted. He finds out that his birth mother isn't who he thought and leaves the country to look for her.

-Bruce hears about Jason leaving but goes to Africa for separate reasons and coincidentally finds Jason and helps him find his mom. Jason is hurt by the disappointment that Bruce isn't actually here for him.

-Jason immediately latches onto Sheila, not even bitter about having been abandoned, instead expressing immediate empathy, trust and affection towards her.

-Sheila betrays Jason, chooses the Joker over him after a stand off with guns in a warehouse and then they explode and both die.

-Jason comes back to life and finds out his father didn't kill/doesn't seem to attempt to kill Jason's murderer.

-> Jason sets up a confrontation between him and Bruce in a warehouse with a stand-off with guns and explosives rigged in the building.

So it's like, yeah, Bruce shouldn't be expected to kill the Joker. But it wasn't Jason who set that expectation: it was himself. And from Jason's perspective, it makes perfect sense.

(also would like to point out that in the final scene of UTH Jason isn't asking Bruce to kill the Joker okay byyye)

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Louis really had the unenviable task of explaining to the nicest boy ever created, that he in fact, needs to defend and justify doing a good action and saving innocent people.