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The Tendefoot zine!

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(Tenderfoot poster by Laura Jayne and Paige Collins)

TENDERFOOT II @ APG works, Sidney Street, Sheffield

Artists: (click names for blogs)

Belinda Ayres

Paige Collins

Jayne Dent

Natasha Eves

Jessica Heywood

Steven Hithersay

Oliver Hunt

Laura Jayne

Alex Noble

Lena Peters

FACEBOOK EVENT PAGE

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Another year of Tenderfoot! The opening evening went wonderfully and the turn out was brilliant! Thank you to everyone who came and to anyone who comes during the week. I'm so happy with everyone's contribution and effort they put into this years Tenderfoot and I cant wait for year number three!!

Outside APG Works @ Sidney Street, Sheffield

Oliver Hunt and Lena Peters

Lena Peters

Oliver Hunt

Alex Noble

Paige Collins

Jessica Heywood

Jayne Dent

Belinda Ayres

 Natasha Eves

Laura Jayne

(For more photos and a much more interesting blog post check out: http://www.thecreativeoutlook.co.uk/2014/07/tenderfoot.html)

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End of year college show!

"The mind is a weave. An interlocked system of thoughts and memories, conscious and subconsious. Working with the Stream of Consciousness I had written several passages referring to my father. The series of three works show a timeline of my thoughts and memories, what happened (marriage proposal), what I remember (the shirt), and my thoughts now (handkerchief), Most people, me included, are not comfortable with revealing their inner thoughts to a large group of people, hence the fragments and coding. I wanted to explore and share myself but not entirely."

du jävel Egyptian cotton, digital print.

du Acyrlic wool, cotton, ceramic buttons.

Close up I

Close up II

du låg Handkerchief, embroidery thread, receipt roll, ink stamps.

Close up I

This year at college has been such a wonderful year! I have developed my style and skill so much and have met the loveliest of people, staff and students. I'm so grateful for all the help, support and kindness I've received from everyone around me, so to whoever I know who is reading this THANK YOU!!

My final grade for my course was Distinction* Distinction* Distinction* and I got into my first chosen university (Leeds College of Art) and I'm so excited to start! I wish all the best to everyone I met on the course and all of the Foundation students I met this year. Thank you for making this year so pleasurable xxxxx (I love you)

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I am my own slave. A

torment. A tormented mind that

you have given me. Of love?

Of sorrow? Of hate? Of lack

of love and passion? My mind is

not only mine. but yours too.

You hold so many parts of my 

mind and thoughts like a bear

trap. I want to be free from

this slavery.

[automatic writing: 27/04/2014]

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You lay. I lay. What is

it thats so different?

Yours is forever. The

stiffness and soreness

from laying down forever.

I wouldve gotten on. So

well.

[automatic writing: 06/04/2014]

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Nothing I have nothing.

Not a word. A phonecall.

Nothing. All I have is

shitty photographs from more

than half my life ago.

Thank you very fucking

much. You bastard.

[automatic writing: 06/04/2014]

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I started my FMP this week! Stream of Conciousness, is a project brief I have created to explore the mind. My aim is to experiment with the mind, through the influence of meditation, substances and dreams, through this the deeper thoughts are revealed.

Last night, I had my first go at automatic writings and this is what came out:

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100 Years Later, 2014.

Final outcome from my latest project, Transparent.

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PURE, UTOPIAN, PRINCIPLE?

Last sentences from my "depression journal", during the period of which I had depression and was treated with counselling. Pure, Utopian, Principle? demonstrates the lack of understanding of the subject of mental illnesses, with the vessel and the text being the same colour it signifies the absence that people hold when introduced or involved with mental illnesses, although in this case it is focused on depression. The vessel form itself signifies the process from during and after depression, as the cylinder or circle represents the togetherness whereas the small hole holds the emptiness and darkness.

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FACES OF ME // WHAT MAKES ME SAD

What Makes Me Sad are taken from my diary from when I was a child, the text shows significant events in my life from aged seven to eight. Faces of Me is a reflection of myself now, each with a caption showing the texts from my diary which I think has been a contribution to my struggles and how they have shaped me as a person. The flaws in the stitches, material and drawings is a mirror of myself. Even though people may seem alright on the outside that doesn't mean to say they are in the inside. Which goes for a lot of people.

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The making of my final piece.

A vessel inscribed with last lines of my journal pages. The most raw and blunt parts. I decided to make the vessel into a cylinder as a circle represents togetherness, showing my healing and recovery. The small hole represents the emptiness of depression. I purposely cut the hole small so nobody can see inside very well, the emptiness and darkness is shown clearer this way.

I plan to follow the white on white through and glaze the whole vessel white.

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A series of white on white collagraph prints.

The white on white elements signifies the lack of understanding of mental illnesses and how it is largely pushed to one side by a lot of people because you cannot physically see it. The collagraph plate has sections of text that has been marked by a needle pushed into cartridge paper. Subtle and unable to read.

(Better quality photographs to come soon)

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Monoprints of text from journal.

The text I used was either the first or last lines of each page of my journal. The lack of understanding and sense of the text when it's put together in this way signifies my own struggle with trying to make other people understand with how I was feeling. And also because I don't want people to read so deep into myself. All the text is continuously joined up to make it less understandable.

The gradual fading of the ink represents my own personal struggle, how even though the darkness has faded and I have spoken about my depression, there is still the patches of the feelings, that still appear every so often.

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My work space/board at college.

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So, I started a new project roughly six weeks ago! It is named Document. I decided to start my project with the theme of mental illnesses, particularly the taboo of it for general society. I began research for the project and concentrated on the obsessions and the repetitive acts which occur quite often.

I felt as though the elements of repetition and obsession of the subject was quite dry and didn't feel as though it was developing and to anything. I decided to make it more personal, particularly by my own struggles through depression. I felt as though this element made it more personal for viewers as a lot of people have struggled with the "taboo" of having a mental illness.

My starting point for this was to use my own personal "depression journal" which I kept throughout my course of counselling.

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