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Day 5:

I’m going slightly nuts. I have to resist the urge c4lorie count, use my f4sting app, and w3igh myself every morning and I’m getting scared I’m gaining

While yes, the gaslighting works, the issue is killing old habits and not freaking out when I eat 2 meals+ snacks a day. My snack of choice is fruit so it shouldn’t be that bad but still im getting worried :,,)

I’ll keep at it though, for experimental purposes

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Starting the “fake it til you make it” month, where I gaslight myself into strictly doing this that I would do at my ugw. How my skinny self would be. I won’t be taking my w3ight again until September 1st and we’ll see if it goes down, stays the same, or gains.

August 1st: 233.8lbs

Goal: eh, maybe 10lbs loss? Don’t wanna get my hopes too high just in case— 223.8lbs

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So on instagram I came across stealth_health_life and he makes low cal/high protein freezer meals. The worst part about f4sting is the end of it, when you need to find something that won’t make you sick and cause a b1nge. So while I wouldn’t say you should eat those meals to break a f4st, I would say they’re filling and should prevent a b1nge. Protein is important in making you feel full, lose w3ight, and takes longer than carbs to break down in the body, i.e.: you have more energy for less intake.

And with my lifestyle, working full time, a toddler to care for, a house to maintain, it’s hard to find the energy to make healthy meals every night. So I think having homemade prepared freezer meals ready to go is probably a good decision. Plus they make a lot and the portions are small/medium sized, so even if you didn’t eat all of it, you could store it for a little while longer to have for later.

I’m tired of making unhealthy choices while also being in a c4l deficit, it makes me constantly hungry, tired, moody, and depressed. I think if I do this then I’d have more energy to do things like work out, play with my kiddo, go out on weekends, clean, etc.

If any of you have tried or are in a low c4l/high protein lifestyle, how is it?

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So we all know the “eat like your skinny self, not current self” thing right? But is your skinny self constantly thinking about food/the next time they eat? About counting calories 24/7? About worrying that they’ll get fat if they eat what their body tells them to? I don’t think so.

So I’m gonna try and gaslight myself into losing weight by already acting like my skinny self would. Would my skinny self eat that whole portion? Probably not because I’ll get too full and I’ll feel sick. Would my skinny self laze in bed all day being anxious about not moving? Maybe sometimes, but my skinny self would go for a walk/hike just for the hell of it, because I like it. I take vitamins because they help me feel good, drink lots of water because it makes me look good, eat lightly because I makes me happy to still have the food I like and save some of it for later, I work out because it makes my body feel good. My skinny self does things that make her happy, she is #1, her body is a temple.

Call it manifesting or loa, but I’m gonna legitimately try this and be cookoo out of my cocoa puff type delusional about it, and see what happens. I’ll start on August 1st that way I have a clear marker and check back in on September 1st. I’ll only weight in twice, it’s gonna drive me mf nuts to not check it every day but I’ll hold off for this experiment. Once at the beginning of the month and once at the end. I honestly think this could go well or I’ll just maintain. If it doesn’t work then oh well, I can at least say that I tried and I can report back to y’all and let you know if this genuinely works or not. I’ll just go back to the tried and true st4rve cycle of not. But I have hopes for this tbh.

Wish me luck 🍀

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The fucking LIFE app was shut down

Bro how tf do I internally challenge my circle groupies now?

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I wish looking at and smelling food would cure my hunger as much as eating :(

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F4sting today and I feel great. My coworker who knows I have a d1s0rder is on vacation this whole week so I can finally do a week long work f4st gods it’s amazing🫧🩷

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Restaurants Safe Foods Masterpost

Food from my master post, this is just so you don’t have to scroll through the whole thing if you didn’t want to on my masterpost

A&W

Applebees

Arbys

Bojangles

Burger King

Bj’s

Carrabas

Cheddars

Chick-Fil-A

Chilis

Chipotle

Chuck E Cheese

Cici’s

Cracker Barrel

Culivers

Dairy Queen/Orange Julius

Denny’s

Dominos

Dunkin Donuts

Fire House Subs

Five Guys

Fuddruckers

Golden Coral

Hard Rock

In and Out Burger

IHOP

Jasons Deli

KFC

Krispy Kreme

Little Caesers

Krystals

Logans Road House

Long Horn Steak House

McAlisters Deli

McDonalds

Movie Theaters

Olive Garden

Outback Steak House

Panda Express

Panera Bread Co.

Papa Johns

Papa Murphys

Pizza Hut

Popeyes

PF Changs

Red Robins (yuUUMMM)

Ruby Tuesday

Sonic

Steak and Shake

Subway

Taco Bell

Texas Road House

Tim Hortons

Waffle House

Wendy’s

White Castle

Zaxbys

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tw: m34n$p0 for me

If you keep eating the way you do, you’re gonna end up one of those fat old people who can only go out in motorized scooters. Can’t even walk without support due to their weight, having to take 20+ pills everyday, and always being overweight. Dying due to being overweight

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I just wanna look cute and petite and dainty and I want my friends look at me and just know they need to protect me. I want to get full from three bites of food and people just smile and know cause I’m too tiny for that much food.

They don’t feel the need to protect me if I’m f4t, there’s too much padding. They don’t think I’m too little for that much food because I’m already so big, so now they’ll know I’m losing weight. They’ll know that I hate myself and that it’s okay for them to hate my body too

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Heyy, not sure if you have any, but could you put together a mealspø board but like annotated ones that show the calories?? If that makes sense lol

🍽 mealsp0 w c4ls 🍽

personally i love this kinda mealsp0 because it really breaks down what youre eating and makes you think about it more ykwim? anyway i hope this is accurate to what you wanted 💗

(all pics from 📌trest)

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mealsp0 with kcals!

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Low-cal meals that are my go to🤍

So here are a few low-calorie meals that I heavily depend on, and they are each under 100 c@lories:

1. Cucumber and Hummus Bites

Ingredients:

- 1 small cucumber (16 c@lories)

- 2 tablespoons of hummus (60 c@lories)

Instructions:

1. Slice the cucumber into rounds.

2. Top each cucumber slice with a small dollop of hummus.

2. Egg White Scramble

Ingredients:

- 3 egg whites (51 c@lories)

- 1/4 cup chopped spinach (2 c@lories)

- 1/4 cup diced tomatoes (5 c@lories)

- Salt and pepper to taste

Instructions:

1. Spray a non-stick pan with cooking spray.

2. Scramble the egg whites with spinach and tomatoes over medium heat until cooked through.

3. Season with salt and pepper.

3. Strawberry and Cottage Cheese

Ingredients:

- 1/4 cup low-fat cottage cheese (40 c@lories)

- 1/4 cup sliced strawberries (13 c@lories)

Instructions:

1. Combine the cottage cheese and strawberries in a bowl.

2. Mix well and enjoy.

4. Zucchini Noodles with Tomato Sauce

Ingredients:

- 1 cup spiralized zucchini (20 c@lories)

- 1/4 cup marinara sauce (40 c@lories)

Instructions:

1. Heat the marinara sauce in a small pan.

2. Add the zucchini noodles and cook for 2-3 minutes until tender.

5. Celery and Peanut Butter

Ingredients:

- 2 large celery sticks (10 c@lories)

- 1 teaspoon natural peanut butter (32 c@lories)

Instructions:

1. Spread the peanut butter on the celery sticks.

2. Enjoy as a crunchy, satisfying snack.

6. Greek Yogurt and Blueberries

Ingredients:

- 1/4 cup non-fat Greek yogurt (25 c@lories)

- 1/4 cup fresh blueberries (21 c@lories)

Instructions:

1. Mix the Greek yogurt and blueberries together in a bowl.

2. Serve chilled.

7. Veggie Soup

Ingredients:

- 1/2 cup diced tomatoes (15 c@lories)

- 1/2 cup chopped celery (8 c@lories)

- 1/2 cup chopped carrots (25 c@lories)

- 1 cup vegetable broth (10 c@lories)

Instructions:

1. Combine all ingredients in a pot and bring to a boil.

2. Simmer for 10-15 minutes until vegetables are tender.

I only eat these when I desperately need to take my vitamins or most of the time I'm too lazy so I jus don't cook and take a nap instead or drink a 0 c@l drink.

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Idk what happened to my brain last night but I had a midnight b1nge and holy fuck I feel like I’m gonna explode 🤢

god I’m such a fucking disgusting fat pig

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My body is a circus and these are my clowns <3