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[betterthanu333]

yeah this is making me lock in again

[betterthanu333]

let's be real—your problem isn't your metabolism, genetics, or any of the other excuses you keep clinging to.

it's your lack of willpower and discipline.

you say you want to lose weight, but when it comes time to make the hard choices, you cave in every time.

if you can't handle saying no to a donut, how do you expect to achieve anything worth having in life?

until you get disgusted enough with your own laziness, nothing will change.

stop blaming everything else and start blaming yourself.

[betterthanu333]

Preach 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

Few more months of suffering and i can get the b0dy i dreamt of my whole entire life and go back to eating my maintenance c4lories.

few. more. months

I couldve already been sk11ny a month ago, two months ago, five months ago, a year ago, two years ago, five years ago. Why give up now? Time WILL pass regardless. Just be patient.

Ps dont forget to reverse diet!

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⭐️ diary July/1/2024

Day 5:

I fucking hate myself. I binged like 3 days ago and couldn’t stop. Last time I’m doing it bc I wasted 4 days on being closer to my dream body and for what? My friend and I were joking about how we need someone to break up with us so we can glow up and drop the weight, and I was like that’s not gonna do anything for me bc I would hypothetically just binge myself into depression after a break up. But no, today I found my equivalent to a break up glow up.

I was out walking, and I passed by 2 hot college boys walking their dogs with their fathers which are kinda hot as well. I hated my self so much bc first of all, I passed by one of the boys before on a walk as well and he was good looking and I was wearing a fucking oversized twilight t-shirt. Never again. Oh but it did happen again because I today I saw him and 3 more hotties ( the other boy and the dads) in an oversized Nike t shirt. But I didn’t cafe about that, my hair was a mess and I looked beat. I was looking on the floor most of the time and then I just glanced up and I could swear I saw one of the boys like smile just a little bit. And I swear it was because they could sense my anxiety and embarrassment on how ass I looked. After that I hit my cheek so hard, I hated that I didn’t lose weight and even if I do, I do look as good as the skinny blond girls they probably fall for. It’s not that I hate the girls, I just wish I could look like them, and I’ve always wanted to have their bodies. I was a kid when I first felt that, & was like it’s fine I’m a kid. But I’m 18 now and there are girls younger than me who are prettier are are probably the same type those boys like. I’m barely keeping myself from crying right now bc what the actual fuck am I doing. Like it’s now or never, and I hate that when I’m on a grind with fasting/restricting and then my mom telling me to eat and just bugging me. When I have little to no food noise, she just brings it back when she throws a quick and small comment about when was the last time you ate?

Anyways, it’s day 1 for the last fucking time bc I’m crying right now because I hate how I look so much and just wish I can wake up and have my dream body but I know it’s not that easy. I hate that I see fashion inspo that I love but I know I can’t pull off because of my big thighs and loose fat arms. All I can do for now is walk because I’m not allowed to go to a gym. And the only work out I do is the blogilates arm workout but I feel like it’s not gonna work.

Please please please, I beg you, if you have any tips tell me! Especially concerning restricting or food, because sometimes I want food just to chew or have something in my mouth. Love you guys, and just know ur not the only one struggling with losing the weight but I swear we are gonna fucking do it I don’t care anymore it’s my only goal in life.

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⭐️ diary June/27/24

Day 4:

Officially ended my fast of 93 hours because I ate 1 scrambled egg (no butter or oil) with seaweed and had petite baby carrots with tzatziki dip. Kinda mad at myself but my mom was on my head 24/7 today but I gained her trust tonight bc I had proof that I ate so I don’t think she’s gonna ask my about what I eat anymore. She’s been telling me that I’m gonna die if I keep starving myself (I tell her that I’m not but i am kinda 😊) and that I look deathly and my eyes and face show how I’m so thin and that why do I want to be skinner than I am, that I already am as skinny as a twig. WHICH I’m not guys istg I’m 174cm and I’m about I think 63kg or 62kg. I had kinda thick thighs (no thigh gap 💔🙏🏽) and I do have a kinda flat stomach with the most beefiest and loose fattiest upper arms. I’m tryna have that vs or at least Pilates build body.

Anyways I had a cup of green tea so flush this shit outta my body and then I’m gonna pop a melatonin to get enough sleep to wake up tmrw at sunrise to go walk/jog. Oh and today I went for only 1 walk💔 but it was like an incline and then so many fucking steep stairs I almost fainted bro wait actually that might be my fucking asthma but fuck it. Omg this hot boy in like college I think he had a beard was walking with his dad. My brother and I passed then with the incline up( the walking and stairs lead to the beach but we were leaving) and his father stopped to talk to a security man while his hot ass son was waiting AND I FEEL LIKE THAT MF SAW ME FROM AFAR & WAS LIKE HOLD ON LEMME WAIT.

So I passed him and his father was still talking with the security about how they’ve been living here for 15 years, keep in mind this place is on the hills and has an ocean view and the houses are fucking amaze balls ( rich rich bby ) anyways I passed by and I cursed at life bc we had to tackle the 1000 STAIRS, bro when I tell u I was fucking heaving, it was so embarrassing I hand to grip onto the handles and take a minute while they fricking passed me. Keep in mind my younger brother did not give 2 shits about me and I kept telling him to wait up.

Sadly I do not have the endurance nor stamina I thought I had with inclines and stairs which I need to BUILD STAMINA FOR BC THATS THE SHIT THAT TONES U AND MAKES U LOSE WEIGHT BUT I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE READY FIR THAT WHEN I EAT ZERO shit so for the love of god if u annies have any tips on how to control ur fucking breathing or at least have energy before a workout, Which I thought I had since I ate carrots and drank half of a WTR MLN WTR drink that has electrolytes and I walked out the door thinking I was swell IH FCK I JUST REMEBERED I HAD A MATCHA WITH VANILLA SYRUP TODAY BC I WENT TO A CAFE WITH MY MOM AND SISTER but I didn’t drink it all ohhhhh myyy gooodddddd guys I fucking hate myself today I ruined my diet and for what. I’m not gonna binge though bc I built the self control for that and I need to pushed off the deep end more than this in order for me to binge.

I burned 1,745 cals today. I need to get back on my 2,000+ grind like day 2 but I walked/cardio 2 times that day which I plan on doing tmrw. I did do a blogilates and workout (the one where she wears a turquoise set) but I only burned 83 cals which isn’t much but ugh anyways.

This was an especially long diary check in so pls tell me if I need to shut the fuck a bit more and summarize my day better… also emojis are fucking cringe but I use them so u guys understand my tone 👅

Goodnight annies

[betterthanu333]

The food isn’t going anywhere.

Use your potential as long as you’re young and live your best life.

You can eat all of that junk when you’re old and ugly.

[betterthanu333]

“Don’t eat for the body you have eat for the body you want” 😄🙂‍↕️😔😩

“every taste adds to the waist”

“what you eat in private, you wear in public”

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⭐️ diary June/26/24

Day 3:

Hi hi hi annies, I know I said yesterday that today I would wake up and go for a walk/jog but I realized that I drank like zero water and if I actually went for that run I would end up fainting. I was gonna take the rebellious route and walk to the beach ( a path everyone takes goes under a freeway bridge ) I might faint and a deranged male take advantage. As you can tell I’ve never had any interaction with the male gender and am scared of them while craving them in private LOL that’s not the point. So I decided to fuel up for tomorrow and these are the ways I plan on doing it!

1. Eat one scrambled eggs since I almost threw up from take 4 FUCKING NUTRAFOL PILLS

2. Go get celtic sea salt to put into my water so I can get electrolytes since I just figured out me drinking a gallon a day is not rlly helping me since I’m flushing out the electrolytes. Or get pickle juice to drink ( ty Ty ty to the amazing person who gave me that tip in my last diary check in ) oh and get a lime or two as they recommended that as well!

I’m currently sitting in the living room bc I only like to do this when my family leaves, idk it just hits better when ur in the house alone. Anyways wherever I fucking look I find cookies and snacks. In front of me are these chocolate chip and white chocolate soft cookies from the grocery store and I didn’t eat it but barely. Actually not so barely I’m surprised that I had enough self control to the point where I imagined myself eating it and it breaking in my mouth then I was like yup that’s enough for me bc I know the amount of guilt I will feel after doesn’t make it worth it.

I think the only reason why I’m getting better at controlling my fucking mouth is me getting on tumblr and 3d twitter whenever I feel like I’m craving something or if I’m bored. Honestly me feeling tired is worth it bc whenever I wear leggings I have a flat stomach and now feel like I’m kinda a skinny girl which I’m not rlly but it’s the manifestation and continuance that’s gonna get me to that goal. I’m gonna check back in at the end of the day if I manage to go to the super market to get what I need.

Once again, any tips to get energy or anything for keeping up with the 3d/fasting/r3str1ting and not feel tired and out of breath pllllssssss let an Annie know! 🙏🏽

Update: got pink Himalayan salt, 2 limes, and the mio electrolyte drop thingy for my water and this watermelon electrolyte drink! I as well got green tea but I wanna ask if there is any point in it if I don’t even eat? Went for a 4 minute jog and I burned 31 CALORIES? I’m about to get into running bc I burned so much ( at least for me ) in that short amount of time rather than burning 131 calories in 35 mins walking. I burned 1472 calories as of 8:25pm.

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⭐️ diary June/25/24

Day 2:

Hi annies, today I woke up so tired since I was reaching the 35 hour mark of fasting and only drinking water and matcha which I’m not doing anymore till I get zero calorie vanilla syrup, the only reason why I’m addicted to vanilla matcha is because of the taste and bc it empties out my stomach if I binge. But now since I’m fasting I don’t eat food so there’s no need, I will not lie I had 3 pistachios right after I took my FUCIJNG 4 nutrafol hair loss pills which taste disgusting and I can barely swallow it bc then I can smell the taste…

anyways my mom told me I can walk again YAY so tmrw morning I’m going for a major walk and I’m gonna try to incorporate jogging>running but it’ll be a bit hard since I am basically a professional bed rotter and I have asthma. I also wanted to weigh myself but found out we have no fricking scale so I have to order one.

Oh and whenever she feels like it my mom says what did you eat, oh you look so tired, your gonna die if you continue, and all I respond is that you don’t know what I eat. I am trying to make her think that I do eat when in reality I haven’t. I smell the food they order and I fucking crave it then I remember one little bite leads to a 2 month fucking binge so hell nah.

But omg guys I really hope those 3 pistachios don’t break my fast I just randomly ate it after my hair pills since they say u have to take it with healthy fats for it to absorb better and I didn’t want to eat 1 scrambled egg.

Anyways my workouts today was an hour of walking and like 2 mins jogging by the beach then I rested for a bit and then walked in my neighborhood with an incline. I burned a total of 2,157 calories today (whoop band statistics).

If you have any ANY tips on how to fast better and not feel as tired and out of breath please please please tell me I am in desperate need! I also wanted to ask if I can lose 10 pounds my at least late July and still eat at least 1 egg a day?

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⭐️ diary June/24/2024

Day 1:

I’m actually gonna kms, I’m not allowed to go walking like a normal human being so I opted for the next and ONLY option… a gym. And my mom disagreed fully saying it’s disgusting & disrespectful like bruh. I’m going to be fucking skinny not to have men ogle at me??? Which is why, if she is gonna prevent me from having the one thing she endlessly told me to do in order to lose weight, which is exercise, I’m gonna prevent myself from eating. Yes you heard it here folks, I’m gonna fast and eat very little food so I can be skinny, as this is the only way I can lose weight if I don’t move my fucking body. And don’t be children and be like oh stop why are u starving urself you don’t have to do that ur gonna develop and ed. Bitch wake the fuck up its 2024 everyone has an ed whether it is eating too much or eating too little bitch so don’t come here and yap in my ear this is the only way I can fucking lose weight whether I like it or not so do not fucking prevent me from losing weight and having my dream body and finally being fucking happy you SLUT.

I’m this close to eating the wingstop that’s in the fridge but I’m not because you know what? I know I will feel guilty later, so instead of eating it and feeling guilty when I wake up and having to start from day 1 again, I won’t bc I would rather wake up and applaud myself for having enough fucking self control to not go eat fucking leftovers you PIG. So many people stand in my way and it’s only bc I let them. Now, I will not eat, and if I can I will workout out. FUCK EVERYONE AND ANYONE WHO STANDS IN MY WAY OF BEING HAPPY.

Update: I didn’t eat the wingstop ☺️

[betterthanu333]

“Binging because you ate two cookies

Is like

Stomping on your phone because you dropped it”

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this is what i imagine my husband will see me in when we first meet and feel like I just came out of a 2000s rom com ethereal hot girl messy look

equinox set by buci nyc.

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I stole this