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reblog if you remember what it felt like to walk into blockbuster

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unfriendly reminder: this is a sex worker positive space. I will not tolerate the disrespect of sex workers here, and if you cant agree with that without a doubt then you're not welcome here.

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If you can’t reblog this, unfollow me now.

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Just an experiment. Reblog if you actually give a fuck about male victims of domestic violence and rape.

Of fucking course

What sick bastard doesn’t

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Does anyone else ever get the urge to write a fanfiction based on one of your OC’s x a canon character, but then you realize no one else will understand because you never wrote the first fanfiction to even explain who your OC is and what their deal is?

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Reblog if you think asexuality is a legitimate sexuality.

I'm trying to prove something.

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Hey if you wanna send it my way, go for it 

REBLOG IF YOU WANT A LOVE LETTER FROM A FICTIONAL CHARACTER IN YOUR ASK BOX NOW

Lmao I doubt any of y’all would do it but I mean it you’re bored please send it my way

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I’m bisexual but all of my partners have been women because of various things, namely that I just find myself attracted to all women, and I’ve been told a few times that I could have chosen to be straight passing, or that I should have dated more men 

rb this and tell me why tumblr would deem you bad lgbt rep

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If you can’t reblog this, unfollow me now.

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Anyways, soon I’m going to give a ton of my headcanons for Cinder Fall that absolutely no one asked for 

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RIP to people who will put up with toxic behavior “ because they’re family” but I’m built different. 

( This doesn’t apply to people who have no choice but to put up with it because of circumstances, I feel so sorry for ya’ll) 

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Oof, this is how I feel with the whole ‘ Aang should have killed Ozai discourse’ 

“This children’s show is Problematic because the pacifist child main character didn’t brutally murder all the bad guys!!” Like, do you even hear yourself?

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Have you ever liked a character who’s pretty divisive among the fanbase for one reason or another, be it their actions or the shipping war which goes on and then it’s impossible to find reasonable discourse and discussion about them?

It’s either: “ Character A is the best character in the fandom and they absolutely did nothing wrong” and it removes any of the negative aspects about them, some of them did make the character more interesting to read/watch, even if some of them are exaggerated by the fandom, removing them all or pretending they aren’t there is disingenuous. It’s okay for a character to be wrong sometimes, to have negative traits and to do bad things which we can analyze. Sometimes the people in this part of the fan-base are so sprung and wound up to attack that any analysis of the character which doesn’t give them a gold star of approval is attacked, and they rush to make accusations about you because you didn’t validate everything about the character. 

And then other the other hand there’s: “ Character B is the worst character in the fandom and they did everything wrong” and they do the exact opposite of the above. Any good deed the character did is erased, all of their character traits which are positive are either removed entirely, ignored or twisted to be malicious somehow. Like a character is nice to their allies and then gets called a nice guy or incel or something like that. And then all of their bad actions are magnified. A genuine mistake they made at the start of their journey gets held against them hundreds of episodes/chapters later. One less than ideal quote from them is thrown into every conversation. And then you have the opposite problem of the above. If you have anything positive to say about these characters, you’re somehow toxic for doing it. 

It’s just so annoying to like these characters and run into either end of the spectrum. If you run into the first part of it and you want to say something even slightly critical of them or negative, you have to be prepared for the rampant parts of the defense squad, and then if you run into the second and have anything good to say about them you get ready to deal with the hatedom. 

What’s even more annoying about this is that these two feed into each other. Group B dislikes a character so much that hearing people defend all of their actions and say they did nothing wrong, and so they double down on them being the worst character ever and disliking the fanbase of that character more. Then Group A sees all of this happening and they become more and more defensive about the character. 

There’s a handful of characters and ships in some fandoms I like and I just never bring it up because either way I don’t want to deal with that part of their fanbase. 

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You know I stand by the idea that writing is for yourself, you should write what you want and enjoy what you write, and it doesn’t matter how many people do or don’t appreciate it. I am someone who writes a lot, and most of it doesn’t get noticed or shared, and I love the process of writing so much it doesn’t bother me. 

But, I saw a really good analogy once that I’m not going to be able to do justice, but I can try and recapture the spirit:If you spend hours making a cake for a party and no one eats it, it’s going to feel disappointing. Maybe you just love baking, maybe the cake is your masterpiece, and maybe it isn’t very good, but the idea that no one tried it is a bummer regardless of where on the spectrum it is. 

In my current fandom, artists complain of how little notes their content gets, but fanart always get more likes and reblogs and comments than any fanfic. While most writers reblog fanart consistently, artists almost never reblog fanfics or god forbid, leave a comment on a story. It often feels like writers get treated as dispensable and second class content creators

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Sometimes, you write a fanfic where the target audience is quite literally just yourself, and the idea probably doesn’t work, but if that makes you happy then go for it. I know people have put this in way better ways than I could, but it’s okay if your writing is just for fun.

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One thing I hate about being a non-fandom RolePlayer is the fact that if it’s not Gay or an already existing character, no one wants to RP with you.

For those of you like me who put a shit ton of effort into your OC’s and those who don’t want to RP boylove all the time, I see you.

You’re doing amazing and someday soon you’ll find someone to RP with and you’ll finally be able to heave that sigh of relief.

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( Warning: This is a very long and ranty post. If you’re not curious, I totally get it and you can scroll past it or block it.) 

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This post serves as a follow-up post for anyone curious about what I posted last night, about something happening that hurts your feelings in a way which isn’t serious enough for it to matter. I took the time to sleep on what happened, and yeah it does still upset me, so here’s the full story below. I accept that I was maybe in the wrong about it, but I just wanted to vent if anyone wanted to listen/read. 

Firstly what I meant when I said that it was a small thing is that it is an interaction I had with members of the RPC, and a lot of the people I know IRL and would like to talk to about it ( my girlfriend, family, friends, etc.) don’t really know about the RPC and they mean well but they’re very much logic based people and probably wouldn’t understand why it makes me so upset. I understand and acknowledge that issues with the RPC are pretty first world and small in the grand scheme of things 

When I said it trapped me in a loop it was my problem at the end of the day. I have a very hard time letting things go, and things get under my skin. I am definitely the most sensitive person in my friend group, and I have had to learn sometimes that I won’t be getting an apology from people all the time, and so I have to try and learn to let things go and break the loop on my own. 

I have a lot of issues with the RPC in general, and I’m not always the best at articulating things and the issues I have. This is a rant post, and very likely not the most put together. The situation that happened left me very confused and frustrated, and I’m not sure that I understand it fully anyways, so if you have any thoughts on it I’ll listen and maybe I am wrong about all this like I said. With all of that said here’s what happened 

One of my hobbies is to RP for a lot of the fandoms that I’m in. I mostly RP at Wattpad ( but I don’t feel comfortable sharing my Wattpad and I won’t be sharing the Wattpad with anyone involved in this story, I would feel uncomfortable doing it). 

My thoughts on Rp in general is that it has to be a collaboration. Neither of you are going to get the perfect verse that you want, at least that happens very rarely. There has to be a back and forth respect and collaboration when it comes to things like ships, changes to the world and to the timeline, and things like that. But I do have one pretty solid line in the sand when it comes to RP: “ If someone’s OC is involved, you do not have the right to speak over their desires for the OC, and what they tell you about their OC is factually true: It is their creation.”

Anyways one of the fandoms I started to RP for lately was Percy Jackson and the Olympians, and I have an OC for the series named Hokuto. I don’t want to info dump about him but the very basics on him if it helps anyone understand the story better-

Hokuto is Asian-American, and the son of Ares and a mortal woman named Sakura. Once Ares left the family, Sakura threw herself back into competitions to try and attract Ares back, and Hokuto was left alone, until he ran away, meeting Luke, Thalia and Annabeth, and going to Camp Half-Blood with them, until Thalia turned into a tree, and when she came back and joined the Hunters he had some abandonment issues pop up, and other things. 

I had been speaking with someone on Wattpad for awhile and planning a group RP with a few people, and planning how to make it all work with our OC’s and adding them to the story. All of us had decided on an order to present our OC’s in, and I ended up being the last to go, and I have to say they all had really cool concepts for OC’s, and I was excited to have Hokuto bounce off them, and work on this world

In the canon of Percy Jackson, Thalia ends up joining a group called the Hunters, and swearing off romance. I had in mind that depending on how the RP went either Thalia could leave the Hunters to be with Hokuto ( In canon I believe people have left before? This might be an error on my part) or with the two of them acknowledging there could have been a romance between the two of them, but the two of them have gone in different paths in life, and it’s too late for them to be with each other. 

So I was….surprised and hurt in a way when they began to say they weren’t interested in the concept, and more than that, downright hostile in a way to me. ( Like I said I don’t feel comfortable sharing my Wattpad or theirs, and I don’t have screenshots of the messages) And I tried to defend myself against some of them and explain the dynamic I wanted for Hokuto and Thalia. Here are a couple of the things they said, and how I tried to defend myself

‘ The two of them are toxic to each other’- Yes Hokuto and Thalia don’t always get along with each other, and they have a hard time speaking with each other. But the two of them are teenagers, and teenagers aren’t always perfect communicators. Hokuto and Thalia also have an extremely deep bond with each other, and a care is always what underlines their fights, and some of their pettier moments, they love each other at the end of the day 

‘ Hokuto is a boring wangst character’- Yes, Hokuto does have a dark backstory, dealing with survivor’s guilt, abandonment issues, a guilty complex and self-esteem issues. But the point of his character is that he’s working to be more than all of those things, and he’s trying to be better. And as it is, PJO as a series has explored all of those themes with different characters, and so it’s not as though it would be entirely new or out of place 

‘ Having Thalia leave the Hunters to be with Hokuto is heteronormative’- I guess I don’t have a response to this one. That’s why I said that Hokuto and Thalia I would like at the very least to acknowledge they could have a romantic relationship with each other, but that door has closed to them, but they were unwilling to do even that. This one in particular frustrates me because several of them shipped Thalia with a character named Reyna, and one of them had written a fic centered around Thalia and Reyna together, with Thalia leaving the Hunters to be with Reyna, and I don’t understand why her leaving isn’t considered unhealthy for that. 

This went on for a little bit, and in the end, all of them said they would no longer RP with me, and they would be advising other people they knew about me to block me, and not RP, before I was then blocked by them. 

It’s not a big deal in the scheme of things. It’s really not. But the situation frustrates me, upsets me, and honestly it still does. Like I said in my initial post, what they did is not serious enough it merits an apology, but it made me feel really shitty, and I am bitter about it, and I know that I have to choose to let it go on my own, and just move past it. 

Hokuto is a character I worked really hard on, and I thought and think he is a cool character, and his dynamic with Thalia, at least the way I pictured it was fun and I wanted to do it. But I instead had to defend my OC and the potential ship to people who honestly just seemed dead set on fighting against it. 

If anyone does understand why Hokuto was such a problem for them or has their own problem: Please please let me know, I just don’t understand. 

And for everyone else: If you do RP, please just communicate with people, and do not speak over them about the visions they have for their OC