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Dress your scars in glitter, come let's dazzle the world.

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Parallel lines meet at infinity.

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The 4th.Loving the name

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There was an idea..

To bring together a group of remarkable mishas

To see if we could become something more

So when they needed us

We could make the edits they never could

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Who can even wih these 2

(source)

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Sam just makes me.feel like home.

beautiful baby boy

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“I hate solitude, but I am afraid of intimacy. The substance of my life is a private conversation with myself which to turn into a dialogue would be equivalent to self-destruction.”

— Iris Murdoch, Under the Net

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💜💜💜

Robert Smith 1987 (found on fb, Pictures Of You)

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Bees are the best fckn thing in this world amd we're just to busy to notice.

if anyone feels sad tonight please hold this thought for a minute:

the bees in my yard are now so familiar with my walking pace and usual route that they sometimes stop and wait for me to pass when our paths intersect.

polite bees.

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Whaaa

Do you ever get hit by anxiety so hard you feel dizzy? Or is it just me...

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😍

We think we know someone, but the truth is that we only know the version of them that they have chosen to show us.

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Coming into a fandom late

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Women's march

I feel so bad for not going but also kind of relieved since I tend to have anxiety attacks near crowds. I also feel like all my friends are judging me for not going even though they haven't actually said anything directly to me.

Anyway, I'm so happy to see so many amazing women marching around the world. Really proud.

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OMG Gabriel is back I 'm crying.

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Y cuando nadie te quiera, Quiérete tú, Y verás que todo el mundo te amará por eso.

Poeta Invisible (via poetainvisible)

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Love this. Start with one at least.

small habits to adopt

wake up early

drink a glass of water as soon as you wake up

meditate or concentrate on your breathing for at least 2 mins

visualize your goals for the day and for the future

make your bed 

do calf raises or squats while brushing your teeth

floss

dry brush

take a cold shower (or end a hot shower with cold water right after for about 3 mins)

put on lotion while your skin is still damp

cleanse, tone, and moisturize your face

apply sunscreen

drink a glass of water before and after every meal

listen to a podcast/ted talk instead of music while walking or driving

park far away from where you’re going

stand up straight

look at people in the eye when talking to them

look straight ahead when walking, not at the ground

smile at strangers

stop complaining (it’s bad for your health)

bring cash instead of credit card

track your expenses

turn off notifications on your phone when doing work

resist the urge to go on your phone and observe your surroundings more

set a timer for 5 mins when scrolling through social media and stop when the time is up

learn at least 5 new vocab words from your target language every day

exercise while watching shows/videos

read at least 10 pages every day

do tasks that can be done in 2 mins right away

drink tea

prepare workout gear the night before

jot down tasks for the next day before sleeping

write down quotes/lyrics that strike a chord

spend 30 mins on a hobby

journal and write down things you are grateful for

aim for 7-8 hours of sleep

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Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s having sex because you want to be used or abused or defiled. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.