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sweet sanrio 🍰🍬

credit : 少女兔iiilass on Weibo

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For once I’d like to know what it’s like to make a mistake and not feel the need to punish myself so badly. For once I would like to know what it’s like to make a mistake and have someone help me through it and not worry about how much they hate me for doing something so fucking stupid

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this is the paperback cover for the raven boys

it’s them

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Did anyone else’s parent/parents convince them that they were ugly with glasses on but could never put a contact in or keep it in to save their lives??

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can’t believe before caller ID, people used to pick up the phone and just have to deal with whoever was on the other line

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Hmmm… I’m thinking of being more active here as I can be as anonymous as I want and speak my mind. Like I don’t have to be afraid of anything that I say spreading to anyone, especially with how quickly things get around online (if that makes sense).

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TW// talks of body image etc. (Idk what this post will consist of as I haven’t fully thought it through)

Has anyone else gone through waves of begging and wanting so badly to be the other gender and then being okay with who they are for a few months until it hits them again? It’s been like this since I was 11 and my own therapist had thought about gender dysphoria when I was 15 but I got scared of the conversation. I never really grew up caring about pronouns. I feel like though that if I were to be referred to by any other pronouns than what I’m used to, that nobody is actually talking to me or about me but rather someone different but then again I always feel that way no matter what now. I also know that I don’t get a choice either way as even though my immediate family is supportive not only is the rest of my family probably not but I’m not safe to do anything about it where I am right now. I’m afraid because people that I work with would go out of their ways to take photos of me like they have other trans coworkers. I’m afraid of someone stopping to yell slurs at me again and I’m afraid because despite being feisty, mean, and a fighter, that they’ll see right through me because I’m small. Idk. I have worked so hard to gain the body image of the gender that I was born with because I was afraid of being ugly but it doesn’t feel quite right right now. I’ve worked so hard to change my wardrobe and everything only to still be miserable and hate it. I know a lot of people are going to tell me “well that’s JUST body dysmorphia” but I feel like there’s more to it. I shouldn’t just HATE being me because of my gender for weeks and months only to be okay for a little and repeat the cycle. It’s horrible and it’s a cycle that idk how to end, especially since I don’t feel safe to do so. I went through the same thing before I was outed as bisexual at 11 years old (I at least knew this then.) I think that I mainly identify as queer now sexuality wise. I always stress to anyone who talks to me that they don’t have to put a label on anything as long as they’re comfortable, but I’m stressed because I HAVE no label to put on this and what not. I’m deeply sorry if this post has offended anyone or caused any stress to anyone or anything. It’s just been on my mind for almost a decade now if I’m being honest.

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Me actively dysfunctional every second of my miserable little life:

Therapist: Is there anything you struggle to deal with?

Me:

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reblog if you wear glasses. too many mutuals don't know they have glasses wearers in their midsts

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Chrome extensions I actually use as a mentally ill university student

Making websites easier to digest:

Dark Reader - Changes any webpage to dark mode.

Mercury Reader - Simplifies the layout of any webpage to eliminate distractions and irritating formatting.

Podcastle AI - Turns any article into a podcast. This is a lifesaver for being able to process what I’m reading, to be honest.

Spelling/grammar:

LanguageTool - Spelling and grammar check for those of us who regularly type in more than one language.

Grammarly - Spelling and grammar check for those of us who only type in English. Can be used with LanguageTool installed, which is what I do.

Google Dictionary - Define any word on the webpage with a double-click.

Google Translate - Translate an entire webpage or even just a short segment.

Misc:

AdGuard Adblocker - After trying quite a few adblocker options, this is the one I find the best.

The Great Suspender - Automatically suspend inactive tabs to help with performance. <- as an edit, I don’t believe this is available anymore

Honey - Try coupon codes automatically to save money on online purchases.

Built-in Chrome tab grouping - Group your tabs to keep organized and minimize distracting clutter.

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if the gangsey did a presentation night

(“a brief presentation” it’s actually 162 slides long)

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Why is this the first thing I see when I open tumblr. To be fair I have a five paged paper due tomorrow and I haven’t even started because I’ve been so busy lmao

girlie stop scrolling through tumblr you are one second away from crumbling under academic pressure

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I know bluesy is way more underrated than pynch because of tumblrs love of gay characters but please,,,this scene between them makes me melt and I will not stop thinking about it. I read this like two years ago and I still think about it all the time

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me: say it— i need to hear those three words

library database: Full Text Online

me, shedding tears: i love you too

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What if, mayhaps, I have been writing a story just to get used to my new laptop and I kinda, maybe, have fallen deep and now I really like it?  I doubt that anyone would read it but I do like writing quite a bit