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FAFO is a FAIL

FAFO damages class solidarity based on economic, racial and other forms of class and has weaponized apathy towards the prolonged genocide in Palestine, ICE detentions targeting undocumented people of color, sowed division that spreads hate instead of knowledge and is reactionary, rather than proactive and productive.  FAFO is not useful to the cause of class consciousness and solidarity as it…

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America is NOT "Great"

Don’t get it twisted and don’t be fooled, the US is not a great country.  If America was ever great, then we wouldn’t have president after president and Congress after Congress manufacturing crises, imposing imperialism, and working only for the interests of the ruling classes.  A great nation, not only has diversity, equity and inclusion, but it uplifts, supports, and empowers its citizens,…

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Spending time by myself, and learning to love it

Who do you spend the most time with? I’m an introvert who loves my time alone, so I spend the most time with myself. Still, most people admit that time by themselves could be scary, which is exactly why the pandemic was such a traumatic experience for many people across the globe. Nonetheless, I enjoy spending time with myself, and by myself. On one hand, I’m the most productive reflective,…

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Pride is liberation

But liberation isn’t always solely about identity.  For me, it’s greater than that.  Pride has, this month, been about allowing myself to be more authentic to myself. I have tolerated far less, in terms of bullshit, impositions, and other nuisances of life than I normally would. Pride is, this month, about embracing the life that I actually want to live, rather than accepting a present reality…

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My most stable friendships are with dogs

What quality do you value most in a friend? And I admit it. I love every dog, but especially the ones that I have cared for. They bring me such joy, and they help me to forget the things that I go through on a regular basis. Dogs give me hope and a reason to live, as well as a reason to hope. My late dog, Kiba, was my best friend and gave me endless amounts of joy just by being there. My dog…

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Fear of the unknown debilitates me

What fears have you overcome and how? Anxiety is another word for the ways in which I interact with this fear. Anxiety can often take such a hold on my life that I begin to act, even in my own ways and sometimes in ways that aren’t productive. For instance, I have had several terrible interactions when I have come to the office as of late, so I was filled with anxiety walking into the building.…

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The duality of the Internet on the marginalized

Do you remember life before the internet? On one hand, without the Internet, I wouldn’t have many of the experiences that I have had.  I wouldn’t have had work for as long as I have had, I wouldn’t be going to school right now, and I wouldn’t have had the opportunities to meet so many people who I vibe with.  I’m autistic, immunocompromised, and queer and nonbinary, after all, in Texas of all…

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A knack for getting ignored

What are you good at? And underestimated.  My entire life has been fraught with being underestimated and constantly having to prove myself.  Now, you may think that this is normal, and it is. But, for me, there’s always a special err of “you aren’t like us so we don’t even care about what you have to say and do.” Hence, why I feel that I’m getting kicked out of the corporate sphere, why I feel…

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I’m okay with never having it all

What does “having it all” mean to you? Is it attainable? I’m too autistic to be socially acceptable, have too much ADHD to be focused and attentive, too fat to fit into anyone’s physical standards, and too boring to be of much interest to others. But it won’t deter me from fighting for myself or others, I’m just great with the idea that I’ll never have it all or that I’ll never be what everyone…

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My headspace is perfect no matter what

You get to build your perfect space for reading and writing. What’s it like? It already exists, my perfect space for reading and writing is wherever I happen to be. Because, whether I feel like myself Or like a totally different person. Whether I’m angry, And upset, Insecure, And unable to go on… Or when I’m joyful, Happy, Secure, And free to be myself. The constant is the fact that…

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Redefining identity (because who are we?)

Redefining my identity is redefining myself according to my experiences with humanity, and I do this every day. #identity #humanity #poetr

NOTE: My posts are a mental roller-coaster ride, be prepared for this. Who I am is who I was meant to be Despite my resistance. Who I will become can be who I aspire to be Despite insecurities. Humanity is the most important identity that we have Because our shared humanity holds the key to understanding all of our own identities. Identity is a guidepost for us to understand how the world…

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Why I'm back to school at 30, and might quit my job

Why I'm back to school to get an education at 30, and might just quit my job - all because I will always prioritize my future career, life ambitions, and happiness. #career #education #school #future #happiness

I’m 31 now, but last semester was my first semester of college since I graduated with my Bachelor’s degree in 2018 from the University of Houston, and I was 30 at the time. I also attend university online, remotely. As always, I had been pondering what to do with my life, and (between insecurity and career pressures) realized that “upskilling” would be a good idea for me. However, after a few…

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LongBook: Say more, WAY more

Business idea: LongBook, the place where you can say more, WAY more. #longform #attention #adhd #vent #rant

Daily writing promptCome up with a crazy business idea.View all responses Social media has massively trained the world to pay less attention To think less deeply, to be less patient, and to “get to the point” prematurely. Let’s take advantage of that. Introducing: LongBook The really, really long-form social media platform that trusts your ability to ramble And their inability to pay…

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Admiration to Ambition: My Journey to Data

I admire data analysts and data scientists as they hold the insights necessary to build the future. However, I want to become a creative and ethical data analyst/scientist. #datascience #data #future #futurism #creative

Daily writing promptWhat profession do you admire most and why?View all responses Note: I drafted this prompt and initial paragraph of this post on August 2024. I have always been obsessed with innumerable subjects. From history, to science, art and beyond, I have always seen myself as being a multi-faceted in the span of my interests. I could never just “stick” to one thing, and I can never…

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Creativity is my existence

How are you creative? I am inherently creative. Nothing can stop me when I’m in that mode. When I’m in the mood to create, I can do absolutely anything. Creation is how I instantiate my imagination. Creativity is core to my very existence. Without it, I am nothing. Whether it’s in writing, creating art, or using code, the media and canvas don’t matter anywhere near as much as the creation,…

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Freedom from expectations

Freedom from the emotional, psychological, and physical pain I experience on a regular basis would be nice. #pain #chronicillness #freedom #poetry

This 2025, I wish for freedom from expectations, those from others and myself. This 2025, I wish to just be myself, to just exist without worrying about what others think. As much as I wish that I could stop caring about others, it isn’t in my nature to be that way. I am perpetually empathetic, and it literally hurts when others cannot empathize with me. The pain of living is sometimes a…

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2024: My year of deeply reflecting on myself (and unlearning myself to grow)

2024 was a year of reflection, as well as learning to better understand myself for the sake of personal growth and transformation.

NOTE: I found this in my drafts and decided to finish it as it has been one hell of a year. February 2024 I have spent far too much time worried about the way that others perceive me. I have tried everything in my power to undo what I believe are “bad behaviors” and have tried to do more “positive” things with my life. But, every time I do this, I feel a part of me dying, soon, lacking the…