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You’re worth caring for. You were always worth caring for. I’m so sorry if someone has made you feel otherwise.

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💓 «I'm a lot of things» 💓

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yeah I’m into that freak shit like holding hands and cuddling and forehead kisses

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I'm so tired, I really just need to be held at this point. Just needy for someone to hold me softly in their arms and keep me safe as I drift off to sleep. Maybe they'll even kiss me softly and run their fingers through my hair as I lay with them? That would be really nice rn...

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ive been struggling with letting go and moving on from a very short relationship. there is a lot of shame that comes with not instantly moving on. especially when the relationship only lasted a month or two. it feels stupid to care so much when you barely even knew the person. ive been feeling ashamed of not being able to let go even when my best friend assures me that they don't mind hearing about it. it feels like im "overreacting" and honestly, the guilt and shame around not moving on so easily has been harder to deal with than the actual breakup itself.

it took me until very very recently to start letting go of that shame because its not helpful to hold on to. so what if it takes me longer to process things and move on? everyone's brain works differently. not to mention the resources one has access to, like being able to keep yourself distracted, going out with friends, having a job you can get busy with, etc. all things that i currently do not have access to. also in a way its a good thing i guess, it means i cared about the relationship, the person, and everything surrounding it even when it was so new. im audhd. i have trouble regulating my emotions. there has always been things i have to improve in the future. such as not caring to a fault about something so recent; there is a balance to maintain when it comes to attachments and i will keep that in mind for next time.

but for now, being cruel and ashamed of myself and letting my internlizied ableism run wild, is doing nothing but hurt me; so i choose to let it go. and if you are also struggling with something like this, trust me, its okay to care, its okay to hurt, your pain might be "overreacting" to some but they dont decide what is appropriate, you do. just feel it, take care of yourself, and remember that you are loved and worthy no matter how someone made you feel.

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a zine transcribing a post by @spiderversegf , the post being this one. i really like that post, and i wanted to give myself an extra reminder of it

this is part of my project to make a zine a day in april

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I just…people still really don’t get it. We don’t get to direct the lives of public figures. We don’t get to tell them who to be, who to date, what causes to be vocal about. Because public figures are still just people. Real people. And internet keyboard warriors not only don’t see it they don’t give a fuck that bullying these real actual human beings does nothing to further whatever agenda they have but does wound the real person behind the persona. All they care about is the illusion of moral purity and that just. Isn’t real. No one is morally pure. Do your best but it’s not black and white. You’re fucking up too, just like whoever you’re attacking.

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unavoidable that you will be the villain in someone else's story. You will be painted in an unfavorable light. You will be the irredeemable one. and all of this will happen despite how nice you might usually be or how kind or how respectful or how warm. and you will just have to move on.

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Happy birthday Charlie Spring <3

Love you baby <3

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aliceosemanart Happy Birthday Charlie Spring!!! 🥳🎈🍂🌈🥁 

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NIMONA Q&A

Hey y'all! Now that NIMONA’s been over for a few weeks I decided to compile some of the questions into a grand ol’ question-and-answer post. There are certain questions that I won’t answer for reasons of IT’S A MYSTERY but the questions I will answer are under the cut for spoilers.

Keep reading

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im still working on the nimona video essay btw. editing is just hard 😭

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no dude you just wouldn’t get it, our autism4autism nb4nb and switch4switch sex cannot be outmatched

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how much fun are we having in this timeline folks?