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conversation with a friend

my first eyeliner I got from you,

showed me the exit of toxic masculinity,

that hold me back, everytime I tried to heal.

tears filled eyes by that speech from you about confidence;

„its so poetic!“, I said and laughed the truth behind it away.

you were always right; even it was a hidden joke at the end.

I didn’t take that for granted,

a feeling for you that never faded.

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I am so disgusted with that Blonde movie... is horrible that someone thought using the life of another human being and twist it to this shock value pretencious bullshit was a good idea.

I really wanted to give this movie the benefit of the doubt, but is clear to me now that the major people involved in the conception of this movie had no respect to Marylin Monroe whatsoever.

My blood is boiling. This is three hours of an erotic sensationalist fanficion showing Marilyn Monroe as nothing but a suffering piece of meat, a sexy victim and nothing else.

As if she wasn't a real person who lived and loved, and was loved, and who deserves to have her memory and the legacy she fought so hard to build respected.

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it’s time for more sketches

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Dairy #1

today I waited annoyed at the bus stop for my shuttle. I got lost and went to a place I did not know, without data volume, Internet, etc. and I actually wanted to be home earlier.

at some point, a little boy walked right up to the bus stop and I was startled for a moment when he stood in front of me. He just looked at me and sat down next to me on the bench. his mother was a little further behind the bus stop. He was excitedly watching for the bus. he was so excited and fidgeted the whole time and when the bus finally came he jumped off the bench and called his mother full of joy that the bus is finally there and he grinned at me.

he was happy about such a small thing and I wondered when the last time I was so happy about something. but I had to grin about it.

sometimes I had the feeling that you were happier as a child and you were happy about the smallest things. What has changed?

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goals

handwritten letters, old libraries, vintage aesthetic, neck kisses, coffee shops, rainy days, annotated books, unorganised bookshelf, fictional crushes, sleep deprived eyes, love poems for moon

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roadside 

along the roadside, we walk together 

hoping this way will never end.

you run ahead, full of energy, 

dancing on the street, full of joy;

you reach out, I take your hand

dancing a little and feeling home.

you never see yourself as a good-heart;

wishing you could see my point of view

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Journal Question #2

do you think your younger self would be proud of you now?

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I'm tired

I’m tired,

waking up in the middle of the day,

blue printed sky, no clouds at all.

is there a formula for good days

or a plan for every action on this earth?

breathing in and out,

to work, after endless thoughts

ending up again by watching clouds,

till counting stars at night,

still not seeing a shooting star 

I’m tired.

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“As I began to love myself my relationship with everyone changed.”

— Unknown

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“Choose a path. Stay with your path. Be ready to face obstacles. Even if you take a wrong turn, at least it will be your turn, your life, your mistake.”

— Naomi Levy

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time changing 14.02.2022

When I was still stuck in my teenage life, a good friend of mine used to say to me, when I turn twenty, my life will change like a roller coaster with good and bad things. She also said that this new timeline will help me find myself in ways I couldn't have imagined when I was eighteen. There will be new things to discover, more freedom to attain, and most importantly: more self-acceptance.

Now I'm twenty-one and I still remember her words like a tattooed quote in my brain and she was right.

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Journal question #1

what's the most comforting thing someone has ever said to you?✨

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“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

— Maya Angelou

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““We accept the love we think we deserve.” - Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower”

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Welcome✨

Hello :3 ,Welcome to my page! I'm Melvin and to introduce a bit about myself; I'm actually just a random boy with the pronouns he/him who loves coffee, poetry, games and art in general ✨

since my high school days (it's been a while😬), poetry and writing feels like a journey full of emotions to me. Maybe that's why I never finished a whole book (hehe) , even though I had lots of ideas! It took me a while to realize how much I wanted to write down all my inner thoughts, ideas and experiences to possibly inspire or make people think.💭

So here I am, 21 years old and finally at a point in my life where I can write about my journey, and I hope my works are inspiring to you in some way!

this is a →safe space← for everyone, so pls be kind ti everyone! soooo welcome to my blog and my little journey ✨

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what if it’s us (2018)

↳ becky albertalli and adam silvera

“I believe in love at first sight. Fate, the universe, all of it. But not how you’re thinking. I don’t mean it in the our souls were split and you’re my other half forever and ever sort of way. I just think you’re meant to meet some people. I think the universe nudges them into your path.”

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“Never apologize for how you feel. No one can control how they feel. The sun doesn’t apologize for being the sun. The rain doesn’t say sorry for falling. Feelings just are.”

— Iain S. Thomas, Intentional Dissonance