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hey guys I'm abandoning this account because I keep getting fakeclaimed and that is horrible for my mental health !!! sorry !!

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hi, i hope u dont mind me asking, but with flashbacks is it normal to forget the contents of the flashback after its over?? i’ve been saying i have some type of ptsd but i cant remember my flashbacks after i have them, which makes me curious that it might be something else

that is possible! I have ptsd and I often forget the content of the flashbacks after they end. it's just another form of dissociative amnesia (:

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life update I pierced my own septum !! it's definitely too low but I don't rly care I'm still slaying

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just got out of the psych ward and barely avoided a schizophrenia diagnosis :D here are some pride flags I've made so you can have content. if you wanna use credit me and reblog/like whatever

[image 1: a striped gradient of yellows as the background, with the word piss in the upper left corner and trans/phobic in the lower right corner. there is a picture of a centipede, a fly, a bee, a cockroach, a worm with ed sheeran's face, and a snail with a cowboy hat. image 2: the rabies pride flag is the background, the word boy? in the upper right corner and the word autism atthe bottom middle. there is a picture of a dinosaur taking up the left and an orange cat on the bottom right next to the word autism. image 3: the foggender flag is the background, the word boy? is in the upper right corner, and autism is on the bottom middle. a dinosaur is on the left side of the flag. end]

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kind of a vent just a rundown of the situation I've found myself in

so a lot of shit happened. I left(? kinda it was a weird thing) front for a day and freaked some people out and pissed off the gatekeeper who is now trying to replace me with a new host. I am holding onto front for dear life but the other supposed to be host is also stuck up here with me so we are chilling. I'm not rly sure what to do with this situation but we're waiting it out and I feel bad that they split and were shoved into the middle of this immediately because it's a mess right now. best case I keep being host and maybe she becomes a co host and worse case I am banished from being host and send my friend into a suicidal breakdown so let's hope for best case !!

alao tips for dealing with someone literally wanting you replaced because holy shit i know I'm unstable but I don't think this is necessary

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It's okay if your system was caused by non-direct trauma, such as domestic violence against someone else.

You were a child. Watching someone else go through that trauma was too much for a child to cope with.

Just because the specific traumatic incident(s) didn't directly happen to you does not mean they had no effect, nor that you did anything wrong by being traumatized by it. Your trauma is absolutely still "bad enough" and all of your parts still deserve dignity, respect and recovery.

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Things that can happen in DID/OSDD but people don’t talk about them as much:

An alter being co-conscious or influencing you without you knowing.

Being aware of a co-con alter but not knowing who they are.

Having difficulty telling apart your inner experiences. (Was that an alter or was I just feeling differently or was I just daydreaming?)

Having difficulty identifying your own emotions. (I feel “something”)

Knowing how to do something yet feeling like you don’t or shouldn’t know how to do it. (How do I know how to use this phone? I feel like it’s 1998 when I didn’t know what a phone was yet.)

Being in a familiar place/situation yet feeling confused, like it’s unfamiliar. (I’ve lived in this house for 7 years but I feel like this is my first time ever being in it.)

Being confused that your body is smaller/taller than you thought.

Feeling or being unable to do things that you normally can do at other times. (I just couldn’t drive the other day. I don’t know how. I just forgot how to do it.)

Things that happened a few days ago feel like months ago, or things that happened months ago feel like a few days ago.

Experiencing pain, headaches, visual impairment, or other physical symptoms that doctors can’t find a cause for.

Waking up as a different alter than the one who went to bed.

A co-conscious alter being able to influence or take control of certain body parts (like using the arms to hold & comfort you).

Being unable to tell if you’re dreaming or awake.

Feel free to add on!

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People need to stop acting like therapists and other mental health professionals all know everything there is to know about psychology and can never be wrong.

First of all, they can be (and many of them are) racist, sexist, ableist, etc either on a conscious or subconscious level. I've seen people say "I was denied an autism diagnosis because my psych didn't believe women could be autistic" and then there's dozens of comments saying "well they're a professional so they're obviously right!!! Just admit you don't have autism!!!" even when the person explicitly said they were denied a diagnosis because of a sexist and inaccurate stereotype.

And also, I guarantee you most psychs are not as educated as you think they are (which plays into the above point, they aren't educated enough so they have these biases). Despite how long they spend in school, they often come out knowing about MAD and GAD (without tangible causes) and CBT, and that's about it. Often times certain disorders get mentioned once for a single paragraph and that's it, and/or taught about incorrectly. I've heard people say that Split was shown as an accurate representation of DID in their psych class. Unless a psych has specialist knowledge in a certain disorder, it's safest to assume they barely know anything about it, unfortunately.

Even when it comes to well known disorders. I'd say most therapist are not trauma informed enough to treat PTSD and C-PTSD. I've had MULTIPLE therapists admit to me that they know barely anything about OCD and I had to explain to them how to treat me. They don't even know about PTSD and OCD, so how they hell do you expect them to know about dissociative and personality disorders???

This is not to say all therapists and mental health professionals are unqualified. This is to say that they have biases and prejudices, and that the psychology training system teaches you about depression and anxiety and not much else. So no, you shouldn't treat them like flawless gods that can never be wrong ever. So yes, sometimes they misdiagnose. Sometimes they fuck up. That DOESN'T mean that the patient is faking. And this ESPECIALLY means you shouldn't believe a therapist's take about a certain disorder just because they're a therapist. For example, all the therapists who are not qualified at all in personality disorders saying shit about "narcissists" and "sociopaths" (especially on social media, because they do that stuff for clout and don't care about facts).

So the bottom line is: stop assuming mental health professionals know everything. And if they don't specialize in a certain disorder, don't take their word as law. You wouldn't take a dentist's opinion on cardiology, don't take a depression/anxiety therapist's opinion on NPD.

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[Text: This system doesn’t care if you ask system questions but please don’t ask them to diagnose you.]

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hi! I'm not sure if you wanted anyone to respond to this but our system works the same way, and I know another system that does also, so you're definitely not alone in this experience. for us, it's because it was never safe to not have someone right there to be able to keep up the same persona very quickly if needed so the host basically becomes frontbound. others can front, but I'm (the host) always co con, and once the alter leaves the memories of it are forgotten either gradually or immediately and it just leaves me with a vague sense of what happened and maybe a few specific snapshots of a memory. it's also very hard for me to identify switches, and most of the time it leaves me with the same "im me but I'm not me" feeling until they leave unless they make me aware of who it is. I didn't think that many others experienced it this way, so i know the isolating feeling, but you are definitely not alone in things working like this<3

always wishing I could just not be in front for a while. idk why I'm always here, I've never seen a system like me where the host isnt able to like, fully switch out and not be aware. when switches happen I'm like, "me but not" and sometimes I can tell who it is, sometimes I can't, but I'm always aware until they switch out and I'm fronting alone, and then my memories of them being out get all blurry and forgotten, and that's part of how I recognize switches. but I never have possessive switches and am *always* in front. I'm just so tired

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The absolute overwhelming fear that you’re a bad person because of all the mistakes you’ve made and the times that your symptoms affected other people is an awful experience

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sometimes I do things that I know are bad for a reaction and then I don't even get the reaction I want and I want to explode emotionally and physically

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vividly imagining splitting on someone that has been my best friend for three years that I can't lose and internalizing all the rage instead of actually telling them all of it is self care

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"wow look at this person I bet he deals with real or perceived abandonment in a way that makes sense because he doesn't want to be abandoned "

I ghost people.

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being mentally ill and also having mentally ill friends sometimes just fucking sucks because when one of us is doing bad, the other starts doing bad because our mental illness just bounces off of each other until we're both spiraling

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source does not define an alter.

introjects are the same as any other system member, no matter what.

they aren't copies, they aren't characters.

"problematic" or not, they're a person and they matter just the same.

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If you struggle with substance abuse but not addiction, you still deserve support. If you struggle with suicidality/self harm urges but don't act on it, you still deserve support. If you struggle with psychosis and paranoia but have insight, you still deserve support. If you struggle with anything but are "coping with it," you still deserve support.

You dont need to be in imminent crisis to get help - safety planning, harm reduction, resources, and accommodations. You're still struggling. You're still suffering, You're still at risk/in danger. You deserve better - you need better. Your health and wellbeing matters.