why is pain or sad stuff so comforting to me in a way? like im not saying i don’t wanna get better or anything like that but for the longest i’ve always found things that are meant to be deeply upsetting or disturbing to be comforting. its so hard to explain i wanna try again 😭
i wanna say this is normal actually because why the hell else would tear-jerking movies be a thing, right? the feeling isn’t exactly pleasant per se but im just so attracted to anything i can consume because i wanna constantly escape reality. but everything i wanna do is illegal. feh.
dude i need to seriously get my shit together and lock in for the rest of the semester. im on the right track but i think getting fried as much as a do rn isn’t helping how long should i take a t break fksbdk sbdosbdosdimsbo please dont be mad at me dude im not happy about it either
anyways im back in my musical theater phase rn and im listening to peak rn. those old WIP animatics were awesome.
i dont wanna overuse it but theres no other short and simpler way to say it, im doing my best.
currently thinking about how awesome it would be if i lived in an alternate universe where the owl house never got cancelled. (the most ideal universe ever)
me every time i remember i actually have to do work and be productive instead of doing the bare minimum in order to be as rich and famous as i wanna be
i seriously hate mfs that feel the need to say, “it’s too early to be eating that.”
GIRL WHAT THE FUCK DOES THE TIME HAVE TO DO WITH ME BEING A FATASS?? niggas be acting like stomachs don’t open until 11am and be closed all day on sundays. fuck outta here 😭
I JUST FUCKING THREW UP ON THE BUS AND DID IT AGAIN BACK TO BACK WHEN I GOT TO SCHOOL AND HAD A WHOLE SENSORY TRIGGERED EPISODE IN THE NURSES OFFICE IM SO FUCKING EMBARRASSED JDHKSJDKSJHDLS I DONT WANNA GO BACK TMRW IM SO DISTRAUGHT RN I WANNA DIE SO BAD RIGHT NOW /j
im gonna fucking lose it i wont get to see my bsf for months because they’re doing sum sort of therapy program. awesome for them but sad for me. okay but then again its not about me and it shouldn’t be, i truly hope they get better