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[drippingwithwords]

Do you know that the number one lie is, “I’m fine?”

Really, it is, you can look it up. So, I wonder about all the lonely people, who say “I’m fine.”

What happens to them if they stay lonely forever?

I mean–maybe their world began to crash, like a tsunami burning pools of chaos at their feet over and over. Because that does something to a person, you know? Tragedies piling on top of catastrophes–fast & heatedly. So, after every forfeiture–they crash, like that first wave and begin to retreat, following each new episode–exhausted. 

But I bet withdrawing can be lethal–it becomes comfortable.

And maybe they do it unknowingly–but before long, being alone, becomes as comforting as wearing their favorite hoodie jacket. I don’t know.

But I want to help them all, don’t you?

Because I know so many get hit hard by life. And they say “it makes you stronger,” but it breaks people, too.

And isn’t that, ok? That they break? I think so.

Because not much can throw punches harder than life. So, I wonder about all the lonely people.

What happens to them if they stay lonely forever?

Gosh, I hope something beautiful happens for them. Like one day it all transforms and they wake-up to a lovely life.

Because life can get really lonely, sometimes, I know.

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I know what gets me.

All the people, who think everything is okay. They flock like pigeons to the man on city’s bench, sprinkling seeds on the ground–they act like vultures, trying to get the most kernels, never questioning anything, at all. And the man on the bench? He just stares–eyes glazed over, smiling.

And so, when you asked “what unsettles me?” That does.

Also, what happens to the people, who see through the facade, like it’s a polished-glass window?  What happens to them? They start to withdraw from it. That’s what. And they just hope so hard their spark doesn’t go out. So, they look fervently for the other matches, to keep the fire going. 

And then you asked me when I began to feel this way. As if it were my fault I can see through that window.

So, I thought, “Hey, listen Mister, I just wanted to know where it all went wrong.” And then, I looked at Hope & said, “C’mon, let’s go, I need to find someone who gets us. Maybe someone will understand–if I write-it-out.”

So, I hope you understand this.

I need somebody to understand this.

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The Now: Dripping with Words

I struggled what to write as my first post, what to even title it...

Because I don't want to start at the beginning. If I went back to where it all began, until now? It'll drain what's left of me right from the very faucets that drip these words. Because I feel like I'm in the midst of something, now - big, otherworldly. A shift of some sort that's out of my hands. It's like reading the stars, akin to astrology, which I'm totally into. The anticipation's so intense, it makes me sick to my stomach, most days. My intuition underscores something is coming. But, I'm not sure if it'll knock me down further (for the 100th time. ha.), so I can rise like a phoenix, higher than ever; if it'll take me out, completely, this round; if it'll induce some enormously beautiful transformation, or some combination thereof...

So, I'm starting this blog from "now"...

It's impossible to get to know me all at once or who I am from this one little, tiny blog post. But isn't that the case for everyone? Because there's so much to this - and me. Though you can glean some semblance of me from my description, here, on tumblr or check me out on Instagram. But, I mean, do you just meet someone for the first time in a cozy coffee shop and get to know everything about them in a heartbeat? No. You can't...

But you’ll get to know me and my past, through my present and future posts… well, that's if you stick around these pages to learn more about it all - and what I've come here to share, which may help others. And I can learn more about you, too. So, I hope you do stay with me…

My life went the way most thought it had to...

Or it needed to, in order to be "successful," (e.g. HS, college, Master’s Degree, job, boyfriends, societal achievements, etc.). But I always had an insatiable desire for the night's answers. A yearning to know everything beyond what was right before me… wanting to find out what the f--- we're really doing here; not just accept the status quo. And I found people to entertain these thoughts with, in many facets, and beyond… that took me to depths I never knew existed.

Just know...

This ride isn't for the faint of heart... the one where you want to "know" and do everything you can to find the answers. You open a flood gate of sorts. I'll stay away from specific terms, for now, and just call it my “life path.” But when you embark on "finding the truth" everything may come undone (at times). But, also, there's much that's truly magical along the way and riches to be gained - yet other things will leave you questioning everything; rightly probably yourself, who you are - your very existence. And it can be beautiful, yet challenging - as I've found it to be. And, well, anyway, I look forward to catching you on my blog, here... and just know, we're in for quite a ride and look forward to the journey with you!

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