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i did it again, this time not as deep tho. i’m disappointed in myself, i could’ve gone deeper. it barely even went through the surface. mainly like bad scratches. i could do way better.

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I’m okay.

it’s getting bad again

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Maybe she’s born with it, maybe it’s her dads fault.

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i did it. i broke the streak. im no longer sh free. and it feels so bad in the best way. i did it with some scissors and the cvt wasn’t deep sadly. i have chickened out. but i put rubbing alcohol on it and it felt great. it hurt so good. i felt like i could breathe again

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Do I have to die to be loved?

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we are all born to die right? so is it wrong of me to speed up the process?

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i had to cut my nails to avoid sh. it’s so fucking hard. i just want to do it to ease the pain again, why is it so hard

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"You need to relax"

Best I can do is dissociate

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the 988 crisis line is so stupid and makes you feel like a customer

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i have a plan to end it but idk if this time it will work

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i want to ď1ę

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berry and greek yogurt smoothie with cheese and tomato on garlic bread along with a poblano soup for lunch. i only had tea for breakfast.

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cup of fettuccine and 4oz of chicken with lemon iced tea. 711 cal. a bit too much than i wanted but still under my goal

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Green tea and Raspberry Tea with banana on the side for brunch.

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okay new plan. i’m gonna post what i eat here to keep myself accountable. i have gained weight and now im 260 pounds. i can’t live like this. my clothes don’t fit i have to buy a bigger size. i feel like im a failure. starting today i will post everything on here.

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༉‧₊˚List of Safe Foods˚₊‧༉

Rice cakes

Apples

Cucumbers

Grapes

Strawberries

Diet Coke

Green tea

Light yogurt (greek is even better for added protein)

Celery

Lettuce

Watermelon

Egg whites

Green beans

Shirataki/konjac noodles

Zero Sugar Gatorade

Cauliflower rice

Boneless skinless chicken breast

Mushrooms

Sugar free jello

Sugar free popsicles

Sugar free coffee creamer (in small amounts)

Light string cheese

Imitation crab

Cherry tomatoes

Meal replacement/protein bars

Protein shakes

Canned/pouch tuna

Skinny Girl syrups & dressings

Progresso light soups

PB2 (powdered peanut butter)

Quaker Rice Crisps

Air popped popcorn

Applesauce pouches

Fiber brownies

Sugar-free gum

Halo Top ice creams

Lowfat/Fat free sliced chicken or turkey deli meat

Dill pickles

Radishes

Blueberries

Joseph's lavash bread & pita bread

Broccoli

Brussels sprouts

Unsweetened almond milk

Zucchini

Cantaloupe

Bell peppers

Roma Tomatoes

Ultra thin pretzel sticks

Here are all of my favorites 💖 Anything I should add?

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You have to be EMPTY to LOSE WEIGHT.

If you KEEP EATING you'll be FAT babe, that's how this cruel world works