dzai0samu

[dzai0samu]

attempted to draw mizisua...

drew this after my french exam because my teacher wouldn't give me my phone back 😠😠

i absolutely wrecked sua 😭😭

mizi looks normal but i'm so sorry sua 😢😢

anyways reqs are still open and there a bunch of wips coming soon!!

[dzai0samu]

llllllllove them

[dzai0samu]

reqs are open!

im almost done school for the year, so reqs are open again!

fandoms i write for:

bungo stray dogs

haikyuu

blue lock

project sekai 

jujutsu kaisen

dandadan

ouran high school host club

rules:

-no smut

-nothing offensive

-no age gaps/pedophillia

that's all!

-ari 💕

[dzai0samu]

this is gonna be incorrect and random tags but wtv!!

anyways guys hello!

my ex is my biggest hater and it's so funny like what do i even do anymore 💀

like she is threatening me on every single platform she knows my accounts on (wouldn't be surprised if she found this too 💀)

she has it in her mind that i'm gonna kms without her and i need to be with her to function it's so weird

she found out the PHONE NUMBER of this guy i'm talking to (not even the snap, the phone number!) and is texting him sending very obviously edited screenshots of our texts, saying how he shouldn't be with me bc i'm crazy and suicidal

she keeps texting me off of other people phones and threatening to send out my nudes (again, edited because i would never send anyone photos like that)

i honestly don't know what to do pls help

also here's a ss she sent my friend

anyways hagd!

-ari

[dzai0samu]

short chuuya drabble!

comfort/angst, chuuya being bad at comforting you, mentions of suicide

Chuuya knew you never had a great relationship with your family, but he never imagined it could be this bad. From the moment you both had stepped foot into your childhood home, to the time where you were saying your goodbyes, you were treated like garbage. The snide comments your mother would make about your job or how you looked in a post you made on instagram or the backhanded remarks your siblings would say about how Chuuya probably had prettier exes then you, it was horrible to hear. The only person who didn’t say anything was your father, who barely even acknowledged you. He wondered how someone so loving could come from such a cruel family. The second you stepped out of the house, you bursted into tears. It broke his heart to see you like this. While the both were in the car on the way home, you didn’t speak a word. You were completely unresponsive. He remembered the time you finally opened up to him, told him that you used to harm yourself and even tried to kill yourself once. Chuuya never cried, but hearing these words, he broke down. When you arrived inside, you still said nothing, just put pajamas on and climbed into bed, with Chuuya not far behind you. All he wanted to do was comfort you and tell you it was okay, but he couldn't find the words to do so. instead, he just held you in his arms, hoping you would be okay.

i'm projecting if you can't tell.

[dzai0samu]

lost love

resentment. that's all you felt towards him at the moment. it was a truly horrible feeling. dazai osamu, a man you felt love and affection towards, the only man you  felt love and affection towards, and all those feelings crumbling away with just five simple words. "I don't love you anymore." how could a person just say that to another, especially after all the time you've spent together. you opened up to him, told him things you could never imagine telling another living person. he told you the same. so how could he just wake up one day and decide not to love you? were you just that unloveable? were all the times he said he would love you forever just empty words? were all the times he said he would be by your side no matter what empty promises? all the times you doubted your abilities, or just yourself in general, he was there. who would be there for you now? no one would. did you even deserve his love in the first place? maybe it was your fault. it was your fault.

guess who went through a breakup lol! anyways dazai angst bc i feel like it

[dzai0samu]

rate my drama cpt!!

so last semester i had drama, and our culminating task was to write a monologue. so, please rate it for me!!

the criteria was to have 2 lines of beginning dialogue to understand what the story is about.

mine was about a girl who has a deadbeat mom who doesn't care, who drinks her problems away, and the girl has to do everything for herself, and eventually she gets tired of it, and confronts her mom

here it is:

2 lines of dialogue:

Me: Where have you been? I made dinner for 8, you said you’d be home by then. 

Mom: Does it matter where I was? I’m the adult here, you don’t get to question me like that.

Really? Is that all you have to say? I’m so done at this point! All I do is work and clean and you never do anything to help! I’m basically parenting you!  Everytime I think it’s going to get better, you come staggering in the door at 3:00 in the morning, slurring words that I can’t even understand! I always think that maybe today will be the day that you don’t reach for the bottle, that you don’t attempt to drown your sorrows in alcohol, but it never is. 

(Pause)

The worst part is, you don’t even bother to hide it anymore! At least when I was 12 and 13, you would try to hide the bottles, tried to pretend you were sober. I never believed you, but at least you didn’t want me to know! I get it, Dad’s death was hard for you, but what about me? Yeah, he was your husband, but that was my dad! That was the only person who cared about me! The only person who would listen to me, and wanted to make sure I was okay! I’ve been depressed since I was 11, but you’ve been too preoccupied with yourself to even notice something was even the slightest bit wrong! 

(Sniffle)

You don’t care at all! You’re the adult, you’re supposed to be the one keeping the house together and getting the bills paid, not the other way around! I’m only 16, I can’t be expected to do all the work around here, it isn’t fair. Do you know what it’s like to be the kid and the adult at the same time? 

(Slight pause, as if waiting for answer, but keeps talking)

Do you even care? I can’t do this anymore! I deserve to feel happy and safe in my own home, but I can’t, not knowing if you’re gonna be nice for once or just hit me until your hands hurt, or scream at me and call me worthless and a disappointment until you lose your voice! I’m so tired of the excuses too. “Oh, it’s been a long day.” “I just want to relax.” All you do is drink and smoke, and I’m expected to just accept that. Accept that the only thing my mother loves in this world is a bottle of booze. I don’t hate you because you’re an alcoholic, I hate you because you never tried to be better!

(Looks down slightly)

.Even before Dad died, you always treated me like you never wanted me, like I was nothing. The way you always look at me says it all. You don’t want me here. You act like I’m just a burden to you, but it’s the other way around.

(Looks to the side quickly and looks back)

 It hurts, Mom, don’t you understand? It hurts knowing you don’t care at all, that the only reason you keep me around is to cook and clean and provide for you, like how Dad used to. I’m just a replacement, except you loved him, and you have no regard for me. Honestly, I don’t even know why I’m still talking. This isn’t going to change anything. No matter what, you’ll always choose the bottle over me. It’s not fair. I don’t just want a mother, I want a mom.

what do you guys think my mark should have been? (anyone who comments, i'll reply with the mark i received on it)

thanks guys, love u all! have a great day/night!

xoxo,

ari 🫶

[dzai0samu]

help?? there was 3 chuuya ones and the dazai one won the poll 💀💀

how do i write dazai properly 😓

hey guys!!

i'm working on some oneshots, which ones should i continue working on first??

i think i like chuuya.

[dzai0samu]

hey guys!!

i'm working on some oneshots, which ones should i continue working on first??

i think i like chuuya.

[dzai0samu]

my intro! :3

hello! my name is ari! some fandoms i'm in are: 

bungo stray dogs 

vocaloid

stray kids

sanrio

haikyuu

blue lock

project sekai 

jujutsu kaisen

dandadan 

danganronpa

ouran high school host club

and more!

i will write for any of these fandoms, and maybe some more by request! i'll probably write mostly for the bsd fandom, but i'm still open to writing for other fandoms too! 

i enjoy writing fluff and angst, maybe a little lemon, but i don't write pure smut, because i feel uncomfortable doing so

DNI List

30+ 

pro shippers

homophobia 

racism

sexism

discrimination 

pedophillia

jokes abt rxpe

that's all, hope you all have a great day/night!!

xoxo,

ari 💕