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fandom is a lot more fun when your goal isnât to be âthat big, popular accountâ within the fandom but just to have fun and talk about what brings you comfort and happiness by the way
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writing? oh, iâm definitely writing. in my head. during the most inconvenient times. like in the shower or when iâm about to fall asleep. actual typing? no, no, we donât do that here.
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I have read fanfics that have left me in tears, both happy and sad, had me laughing my ass off, wanting to scream. Fanfics might be seen as weird and taboo (weirdly enough) but no one can say that some fics arenât so well written it feels like youâre reading a best selling book!
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maybe i was born to read fanfic and obsess over fictional men idk
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Some of the fanfics I've read are legitimately better than any published book I've read.
There are some talented ass people on Tumblr.
See my recommended fics and bloggers in my pinned post đ
reblog if you believe fanfics are as valid as books that were published and sold by authors who write as their main careers. I'm trying to prove a point
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This is me. Kinda jealous of all the writers who can write quickly because I can't.

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It's really weird when you join a fandom during a peak because when more casual watchers disperse into other fandoms and/or lose interest in it, you really feel that loss.
Eddie Munson (and Stranger Things in general) was impossible to ignore when I joined the fandom in October 2022. It was everywhere. And because of that, it was easier to find a community because there were so many fans eager to create content.
But people move on and that community shifts and changes. Hyperfixations become less intense and that creative spark doesn't light as quickly as it once did. There is a sense of loss for something not tangible, a loss of people you may have only interacted with through a screen.
And if you're feeling that, you're not alone. It's more than just note count or comments or requests. Yes, those can be motivating, but it's the meaning behind those comments and requests. It's the community and sense of belonging.
The fandom isn't "dead." As long as there is one fan, there is a fandom. Maybe it's a little harder to find these days, maybe it's a little quieter than it was almost three years ago, but it's there. We breathe life into it with each fanfic, each gif set, each piece of fan art, and each time we support each other.
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what was older!eddies reaction to the first time reader came home from going out with friends? just drunk and clingy
this is my favorite genre and activity is getting drunk and then being clingy and silly. need to do it with my fave of all faves!!! contains silly drunk reader and sweet older!eddie. no smut. just fluff. and tw- gina.
The doorbell sounded once, twice, three times before it was going off in short, annoying successions. Eddie groaned in annoyance, standing from his recliner.
"Easy! Alright? The fuck-" He looked out the peephole, half expecting to see Gina, furious about something. He was pleased to find you there instead.
"Open the dooooorrrrrr!" You whined, half swaying, leaning against the brick. "I need to pee, Ed, hurry."
Eddie fought back a smirk, twisting the lock and opening the front door. "Hey, bunny,"
"Hi," Your face melted, oozing with a drunk smile, eyes glassy from the countess beers you'd had. "Can I come pee?"
"Of course you can." Eddie said around a laugh, holding the door open with his foot, offering his hand to you. "Watch your step, baby." He muttered, nodding towards the step under the doorframe. You crossed it dramatically, taking a big, wide legged step in.
"I didn't know you were coming over." Eddie shut the door, watching you stumble down the hall towards the guest bathroom. "I thought you were out with your friends."
"I was," You muttered, behind the cracked door of the bathroom, the room already beginning to spin as you sat. "But I wanted to come see you. I knew Brielle was gone."
"Yeah? What'd you want to come see me for?" Eddie grinned teasingly, walking down the hall towards you.
"I wanted to sleep over." You admitted, staggering against the doorway, holding the frame for balance. "I wanted you to rub my back."
Eddie barked out a laugh, your bottom lip jutting in a pout. "Rub your back?"
"Yes, Ed." You whined. "You always do it good an-and it- hic!- it always puts me right to sleep." Your words were beginning to jumble, the effects of too much alcohol starting to take over.
"Alright. I can do that for ya, I suppose." Eddie sighed dramatically, holding his arm out for you, placing an anchoring hand on your back as he guided you to his bedroom.
"Lemme get you a shirt to sleep in. I've got-" He turned around, finding you already naked. That had to be a record, he was convinced. Drunk and that coordinated?
You were already crawling into the bed, shoes and clothes kicked off, climbing under the cool sheets that smelled just like Eddie.
"Hold on, bunny, you want a shirt?" Eddie grabbed the sheet before you pulled it up, earning a huffy whine from you.
"No," You whined. "Want you to rub my back, Ed, already told you."
Eddie fought back a grin. "Demanding little thing, aren't ya?" He shook his head playfully. You didn't reply, your cheek smushed to the pillow, already beginning to drift off.
Eddie slipped beside you anyways, snorting lightly when you rolled over on him, leg hiked up over his waist, arm slapped over his chest, face in his shoulder. Still, he rubbed your back, calloused hands gliding over the bare skin, up and down your spine in small circles, the way you liked until you were snoring lightly.
He knew you'd be sick tomorrow, hungover and hurting with a headache, with the spins you always got. And he'd do the same thing then, coddling you, rubbing your head to soothe the ache away. Content in his care.
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FERAL.

Patron Saint of hellfire | Eddie Munson x reader



stranger things masterlist / inbox
summary: Eddie treats you like you're the only virtue worth holding, but it's his vices you're trying to bring to light
word count: 3.1k
tags / content warnings: basically porn with minimal plot, I swear I tried to synonymise more but then i gave up, again, i cannot reiterate how little plot this has, it's just me being self indulgent
a/n: the grammer checker keeps saying my writing lacks clarity but i'm done trying to fix it
The air between you is thick, chargedâevery molecule laced with the scent of him, of you, sweat and salt and something darker, something desperate. A hunger that doesnât just gnaw at the bones but devours them, relentless, the kind that lingers long after the body is sated, etched into the skin like an emblem. You move with deliberate slowness, savouring the way his fingers dig into your thighsânot hard enough to bruise, never hard enough to bruise â not when he treats your body like something holy, but enough to make your nerves hum with the promise of more. His grip is worship and restraint in equal measure, caught between devotion and destruction, the scales trembling as you teeter on the edge of it.
Every drag of him inside you is a revelation, slick and filthy, the sound obscene in the best wayâa wet, rhythmic counterpoint to his ragged inhales. His breath hitches, sharp and punched-out every time you clench around him, his voice breaking around your name like itâs the only word he remembers. The gasps coil low in your stomach, molten and sweet, a live wire sparking under your complexion, setting every nerve alight. You can feel him everywhereâthe heat of his body beneath yours, the way his muscles tense and tremble, the desperate roll of his pelvis as he chases friction, chases you, like heâd follow you straight into damnation if you asked.
His lips part, his gaze locked on yours, dark and fevered, like youâre the only thing left sacred in his worldâlike heâd carve your name into his ribs a thousand times over just to keep you looking at him like this. Like heâs already damned, and youâre the only altar he knows how to kneel at. The reverence in his touch is almost unbearable, tracing your figure like heâs memorising the shape of you, the feel of you, as if this moment might be the last one either of you gets.
And you can feel how close he isâevery tendon drawn taut, his voice raw and wrecked, his hips stuttering against yours. His control unravels with every thrust, every whispered plea against your lips, his body trembling on the edge of freefall. Right as you know youâve got him thereâright as his breath fractures, his grip tightening like heâs afraid youâll vanishâyou stop.
His body jerks beneath you, a strangled groan tearing from his throat as you pull awayâas you let his throbbing cock slip free, leaving him twitching, flushed and straining against nothing. His hands fly to your waist, digging into it like a lifeline, as if clinging hard enough might keep him from shattering.
You see his restraint unravellingâthe muscle leaping in his jaw, the sharp hiss of breath between clenched teeth, and the tremor in his thighs where he fights to stay still. But he doesnât move. Doesnât take.
He just shakes, wrecked by his own want.
And it kills you.
Because you know why he hesitates. You see it in the way his throat works when he swallows, in the way his thumbs flex against youâlike heâs afraid his touch alone could break you. Like if he lets go, if he gives in, heâll ruin everything.
But thatâs exactly what you want.
You want ruin. You want his control to snap, want him to forget every reason he ever had for holding back. You want his palms on you like a brand, his mouth like a confession, and his body moving with yours like thereâs no tomorrow.
But he doesnât give it to you.
He wonât.
And thatâs the whole damn problem.
Dating Eddie had beenâŚÂ unexpectedly sweet.
Which, given his reputation, you never saw coming. The man was a walking provocationâall sharp grins and dirtier promises, the kind of bastard whoâd murmur exactly what he wanted to do to you in the middle of a crowded bar just to watch your breath hitch and your thighs press together. Maybe it was wrong to admit, but you loved those wild flashes of himâthe way his fists clenched when you danced just out of reach, the growl in his voice when someone looked at you a second too long.
But he always leashed it. Always.
Now? Now he was soft. Thoughtful. Devoted. And yeah, it was greatâobviously. The way he traces every curve, freckle, and dip of you like you were scripture and he was learning you by heart. The way he kissed you like he could imprint his love into your bones with every swipe of his tongue. The way heâd linger, his breath ragged against your lips, his body trembling with restraint as if youâd dissolve if he pushed too hard.
Eddie treated you like something holy.
Which left you in this predicament.
Because he worshipped youâreverentlyâwith his mouth between your thighs, savouring you like communion. With his hands cradling your face as he fucked into you, slow and deep, murmuring, "Fuck, look at you, so perfect, so good for me," like you were the answer to every prayer heâd never dared to speak. He ruined you in the gentlest ways, drawing out every gasp and shiver until you were shaking apart beneath him, until you sobbed his name like a plea.
And God, you hated how much you loved it.
Because fuck, you didnât just want gentle. You wanted the real Eddieâthe one whoâd wreck you and make you thank him for it. The one who snarled curses at hecklers, who pinned you against the bathroom door at the Hideout, teeth at your throat, inhibitions drowned in cheap whisky and filth spilling from his lips. You wanted the Eddie whoâd flip you onto your stomach with a growl, whoâd mark your thighs with his fingerprints and your skin with his teeth, and whoâd remind youâbetween panting, filthy kissesâthat even saints fall to their knees.
And Christ, you were tired of waiting for him to figure it out.
You hadnât planned itânot consciously, anyway. But the moment you caught that wild, desperate glint in his eyes when you pulled awayâjust before he could cum, leaving him gasping, his fingers knotting in your hair like he was a breath from snappingâsomething in you ignited.
You had to see it again.
Had to drag that spark into open air and watch it burn.
So you pushed.
Teased.
Denied.
Again and again and againâ
Your hands on his belt, undoing it slowly, savouring the hitch in his breath as you never quite touched where he wanted.
Your tongue tracing the vein of his cock while precum beaded at the tip, tormenting him with the crusade.
Your body sinking onto him, just shy of where he needed youâclose enough to torture, never enough to satisfy.
Eddie, ever the goddamn martyr, took it.
Every.
Fucking.
Time.
âgrowling, resisting, defiant, even as his body sold him out with every ragged breath, every frantic jerk of his hips. And Christ, the noises he madeâguttural, wounded, your name a blasphemy on his lips, the only blessing his sinful mouth had ever known.
âCâmon, sweetheartâjust this onceâlet meâfuck��!â
The words fracture into a gasp as you lean in, your lips grazing his jaw, just to feel him unravelâlike even the phantom of your touch was enough to wreck him, like he was one frayed thread from coming apart.
And there it was: that tension, wire-tight, humming between you. His pupils drown the warm brown of his eyes, nothing left but plain hunger. His hands twitch against youâgripping, releasing, gripping againâtorn between yanking you down and flipping you beneath him, between pleading and claiming.
He was breaking.
You could see itâthe way his throat locked, the way his teeth sank into his lip, biting back a sob or a swear. The way his voice, usually honey-smooth when he was trying to be good for you, turned raw, ruined.
âFuckâplease.â
Close.
So close.
But not yet.
You grind down against himâjust onceâa slow, deliberate roll of your frame, the friction agonisingly brief. Just enough to make him hiss through clenched teeth, to wrench his head back into the pillows as his tongue catches between them, biting down hard to stifle the groan clawing up his throat. And then you still.
The pause is persecution. His body arches beneath you, every ligament locked, trembling with the effort of holding backâlike the need inside him is a living thing, ravenous, threatening to swallow him whole. His hands flex at your waist, fingertips finally digging in hard enough to leave a mark, but he doesnât move, doesnât thrust up. Just lets out a shattered exhale, ragged and uneven.
"Eddie." Your voice is a whisper, edged with challenge and something darkerâ something malecious â as you drag your nails down his chest, leaving faint, pink trails in their wake. His breath hitches, chest expanding under your touch like heâs starving for air. "You wanna cum, baby?"
His answer is a broken noise, half groan, half surrender. "Y-yeahâfuck, yeah, pleaseâ"Â Thereâs something raw in his voice, something beyond desperation.
Fear.
The kind that lives in the hollow of his ribs, in the silence between heartbeatsâthe terror that if he lets go, if he snaps, heâll ruin you. That the hunger inside him, the one gnawing at his restraint like a wild thing, will be too much. Too scorching. Too rough.
Too eager.
You can see itâthe heave of his chest, the tendons in his neck pulled tight, his jaw clenched until it twitches. His hips jerk once, involuntary, before he forces them still again, a broken gasp tearing from his lips. Heâs the eye of the hurricane, a storm barely contained in every frazzled breath, another battle in his endless war. Itâs a brutal stalemate of muscle and bone and sheer fucking willpower, all straining against the need threatening to split him open.
And yet.
He holds.
Some stubborn, adamant part of him clings to discipline, to the dread that this is just amusementâthat youâre being sardonic, that if he really lets go, if he surrenders to the itch clawing at his membrane, heâll ruin you too.
As if you wouldnât let him.
As if you wouldnât beg for it.
As if you wouldnât fucking thank him for it.
You lean down, your mouth a slow, searing brand against the shell of his earâclose enough that the slightest shift would catch flesh between your teeth. Your voice is tempered with honey and sin, each word a deliberate provocation:
"You could make me."
A shudder wrecks himâviolent, full-bodied, as if lightning has scorched the words into his soul. His fingers spasm against you, and for one suspended, hungry secondâyouâre certain heâll break. That the last fibre of his control will snap, and heâll finally, finally give in.
But he doesnât.
His restraint is maddening. Beautiful. Agonising. Every inch of him is coiled steel, a spring wound to the point of bursting, his body locked in brutal defiance. You feel the tremors wracking through him, the raw, shuddering effort of denialâof refusing to take what he craves so desperately.
And youâ
You want to annihilate him.
You want to crack him open, peel back every stifled groan, and every choked plea. You want to watch him come undone, to be the flood that drags him under, the reckoning he canât escape. You want to be divine wrath and unholy absolution, the force that burns through his resolve until nothing remainsâ
His heartbeat is a ferocious thing, thrashing against your palm like a caged beastâeach frantic pulse a hammer strike in the fraught silence between you. The heat of him burns into your skin, his blood a fevered drum beneath your touch while the war inside him rages behind those darkened eyes. You stare at itâthe fraying edges of his control, the way his breath saws through his teeth, ragged and sharp, as if heâs one whispered plea away from snapping.
Thenâ
Eddie breaks.
His voice is smoke and gravel, stripped raw, a growl ripped from the depths of his chest as his fist twists in your hair. The grip is brutal, sending lightning-shocks of thrilling pain searing across your scalp as he drags your gaze to his.
âTell me you want it.â
The words are ground between his teeth, his voice tremblingânot with worry, but with the sheer, splintering effort of holding back. Heâs dangling over the edge, one breath away from freefall. âI need to hear you fucking say it.â
And youâ
You donât hesitate. Not a heartbeat. Not a flicker of doubt. Your answer is an abdication â an inauguration.
âTake me.â
His restraint doesnât just crashâit fucking implodes.
A low, guttural sound tears from him, the last vestiges of his control collapsing inward like a star giving way to gravity. Eddie doesnât just fallâhe erupts, demolishing every boundary, every hesitation, with a groan that vibrates through your core. And, God, you want to drown in itâin the raw, unfiltered flood of him, in the way his need devours you like a riptide, dragging you under, deeper, deeperâ
The version of him youâve grown accustomed toâthe one who would stoop at your altar for eternity, who would worship you with reverent hands and whispered prayersâvanishes. In its place stands something feral, something devout in a way that puts iconoclasm itself to shame.Â
This isnât devotion.
This is desecration.
And then thereâs nothing but him. The world tilts, the room spinning in a dizzying whirl as he flips you over, his body a furnace against yours. One hand pins both of your wrists above your head, his fingers lacing through yours in a grip thatâs as possessive as it is familiarâlike heâs reclaiming what was always his. His weight sears into you, tainting you with every ragged inhale, every tremor that wracks his frame. But heâs not shaking with hesitation anymore. No, this is the aftershock of holding back for too goddamn long, the seismic release of a man whoâs finally stopped denying himself.
His mouth crashes against yours like heâs starved for itâlike heâs been dying of thirst and youâre the first taste of water in decades. Thereâs no finesse, no patience, just the brutal, consuming need to take. His other hand grips your thigh, yanking it higher, wider, his palm a brand as it slides up, leaving fire in its wake. Thereâs no room for gentleness here. No room for hesitation. Only this: the sharp sting of his teeth, the bruising press of his hips, the way he claims every inch of you like heâs carving his name into your bones.
The first thrust is a revelationâblinding, brutal, a declaration so fierce it steals the breath from your lungs. You have to fight to keep your eyes open, to watch the ruin youâve orchestrated unfoldâbecause God, itâs beautiful. The way his control fractures, the way his body bows over yours like a man in sacrament, like a sinner finally surrendering to damnation. His touch is everywhere, rough and reverent, dragging you against him with a desperation that borders on violence. As if he could fuse your bones together if he just held tight enough. As if he could carve this feeling into them, rewriting every moment he denied himself with the searing mark of his touch.
Every snap hits deeper than the lastâa dire rearrangement, a reckoning for all the time heâs wasted curbing the desire.
"This what you wanted?"
His voice is a wildfire let loose, a growl scraped raw against your throat as his teeth find your skinâkissing, scraping, and biting. He doesnât wait for an answer. Doesnât need one. Not when your body is singing its reply with every shudder, every gasp, every broken noise he wrings from you.
"Wanted me to lose control?"
You canât answer. Canât fucking thinkânot when every drag of him inside you is pure incandescence, not when his rhythm is relentless, perfect, each withdrawal a taunt, each thrust a demand. His breath scorches your neck, his chuckle a hot gust that prickles down your spine. Itâs carnage, every movement a chord struck in the symphony of your undoing, and he conducts it with a goddamn smirk on his lips. This isnât just fucking.
Itâs punishment.
Itâs fealty.
Itâs everything.
Itâs punishment and worship fused togetherâhis hands rough with greed, his touch reverent with something dangerously close to dread. Every movement is contradiction and deference, the bite of his fingers against you a stark contrast to the way his lips brush your pulse point like a whispered benediction. Heâs unravelling you, thread by goddamn thread, even as he wills himself resilient â as if the outright force of craving you is enough to rip him apart at the seams.Â
âTell me youâre mine.â It's not an inquiry, it's a fucking dictation.
It tears from him like heâs mitigating the clash between desperation and demand. Itâs not just wordsâ itâs a need, carved from the very marrow of his bones, and you can see the overture in it, the consolation heâs reaching for and the tenacity thatâs written into his genetics.
Your reply comes without thought, without hesitationâpure instinct, molten and immediate, giving him exactly what heâs so wretched for:
"Yours. Always yours."
The words ignite something primal in him. A growl rumbles through his chest, vibrating against your ribs as he claims your mouth, his kiss equal parts possession and surrender. This is more than ownershipâitâs covenant, itâs consecration, and itâs the last frayed cord of his control snapping.
And thenâ
The realisation creeps into your veins like poisonâtoo late to stop the spread. Heâs a quick fucking study.
Before you can flutter your lashes, his hips roll with devastating precision. The tables turn so violently your guts plummet to the floor. Your arch is instinctive, a silent plea, but his palm presses down on your abdomen, pinning you under his newfound dominion. His tongue clicks in mocking agreement, the sound travelling straight through your sternum to pool liquid-hot between your thighs.
A predator's grin slashes across his features as he leans closerâbut not close enoughâhis breath scalding against your parted lips.
âOh no, love.â
His voice is refined malice, syllables dripping with a cataclysmic edge that makes your pulse stutter. The hand not holding you down drifts up, tracing counterfeit awe down your throat, a farce of tenderness.
âYou wanted to with fire?â
Each word is candied malevolence, a lullaby wrapped in a threat.
âGonna show you exactly how it burns.â
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Soft Hands, Softer Hearts
âAm I needed?â
Itâs a weird text to get. Makes you smile through confusion a little as you text back a couple of question marks.
â??â
As a reply you receive a photograph of Joeâs clothed shoulder that heâs clearly taken on selfie mode whilst heâs out walking. You can recognise where he is from whatâs visible of the street.
If what he means is, âdo you need a shoulder to cry onâ, the answer is no, you donât. Your interview went shit, but you are very capable of shrugging off what isnât meant for you. Something else will come along that will fit you better, you believe.
ButâŚ
If heâs offeringâŚ
âNot sureâ you text back, which is technically true. Who knows, maybe they will call you back and offer you a job, even though you stuttered through some non-answers that made one of the men on the other side of the table take a deep breath as he took notes.
Itâs not really looking the best... but, the universe could still surprise you.
Joe reads the message right as you send it, ticks immediately blue.
You receive a photograph not unlike the previous one, his shoulder, covered by a jacket, but this time, in the corner of the frame his index finger is visible, pointing at that same shoulder. For emphasis, youâre sure.
Thereâs something inside of you that doesnât want to lie or take advantage of a situation.
âNw Iâm fine, just unsure! Couldâve gone better, but weâll see, I guess.â
When another photograph of his shoulder follows, this time with half the jacket held open for you to see inside, you know itâs not as much a question as itâs just a weak excuse to see you.
It looks like heâs already on his way, too.
âmy fridge is emptyâ you text, giving in, knowing exactly what the rest of the day is going to look like. Joeâs going to come over and take over for a minute. Heâs not above folding a bit of laundry as you tidy up your bedroom, or throwing a quick meal together as you empty out the dishwasher. He knows what itâll get him in return.
âempty empty or just nothing you fancyâ
âif you want to eat pickles with mayo or soy sauce be my guestâ
Joe reads it, goes offline, and you know heâs already putting together a mental shopping list for when he stops at sainburyâs âround the corner from where you live.
Youâre not entirely sure which steps had lead to where you were now with Joe.
What had changed, exactly.
The starting point was very different and feels like itâs miles removed from this current way of being. Not that thatâs a problem. But you worried for a little while that this pattern that youâd developed was purely transactional.
It wasnât.
You were friends.
Friends do things for each other, donât they? Help each other out. Are kind and friendly and do favours and give compliments, and if that results in scratching along Joeâs back whilst he sinks into your side on the sofa, than thatâs fine, isnât it?
It still felt a little weird, though.
This hadnât ever been what youâd planned for, but maybe thatâs exactly where the beauty of all of it was kept.
It takes about another thirty minutes for Joe to show up, orange plastic shopping back in hand.
âAll right. Talk to me.â he says as he whizzes past you, into your kitchen. âWhat happened? How did it go?â
You close the door behind him, shrugging as you follow him in. Heâs already got the fridge door open, bag on the counter, and is putting away an assortment of meats and cheeses.
âFine, I guess.â
âYea?â he asks, giving you a glance over his shoulder. âFine is good!â
âHmm,â you donât agree or disagree, but the hum that leaves you makes Joe turn around fully to give you a proper look.
âNot good?â
âI just donât know, I never know what people want, what theyâre after. âWhere do you see yourself in five years?â I donât fucking know, do I? So I lie and answer what google tells me is a clever way of answering that question because I want to impress them, but then they can obviously tell Iâm lying, that Iâve googled that question before andâŚâ you sigh, shoulders dropping. âI donât know.â
Joe closes the fridge, all picky bits inside for later.
âNot even sure I want the job.â
âYea, thatâs a good way toââ
âNo itâs not.â you interrupt, frustration leaking from your features. âBecause then if I donât get it, then what? Iâm such a fucking loser, canât even get a job I donât want, Iâm justââŚâ
You get shut up by two hands that grab you by the face and force eye-contact.
âHi.â Joe smiles. âDo you want some French cheese?â he tightens his grip when you try to pull away. âNo. No, no. Do youââ
âYes.â
âAll right. Weâll have some French cheese then.â
A kiss gets pressed to your forehead that could mean nothing or could mean everything. Youâre too scared to make that choice for yourself, so you just let it exist as what it is: a kiss to your forehead by a friend.
A friend that will come over just so you can exist in each otherâs space for a while.
A friend who will put on a film and ask you to put your feet in his lap so he can squeeze and knead and rub until youâve fallen asleep.
A friend that will put together a whole charcuterie board whilst you tidy away whatever mess you left from breakfast that morning, reassuring you that it'll all be fine in the end, no worries.
A tightness inside of your chest that you didnât even realise was there slowly eases up. It releases a weird threat of tears that doesnât manage to push through entirely because Joe is there, and thereâs cheese, and bread, and heâs already looking through your collection of supermarket wine as he tells you to get two glasses out.
Thereâs no real issues and everythingâs okay. The job you still have fucking sucks but you still have a job, and you have time to find something else, something new.
You donât need comforting.
But still.
Still, Joe being there and taking over for a second is nice enough for you to not even care if heâs just doing it in return for some slow tickling fingers in his hair.
âCome sit.â Joe places the last things down on your coffee table.
When you donât immediately drop whatever youâre doing, Joe comes over and grabs hold of you by your shoulders.
âAll of this will be there to tidy up later, come on.â
You get turned around, and then a warm palm on your lower back guides you over to your sofa.
Joe pours you a glass, hands it to you, then cuts some cheese and offers you a cracker. Sat on the edge of your sofa, cheese knife still in hand, he turns to watch you until youâve taken a bite, eyebrows raised and waiting until you audibly let him know through hums that whatever cheese youâve just been fed tastes good.
You see the slightest of little smiles before he turns back and makes himself a little bite.
Is it a crime to let your eyes wander across his back and focus on the bit of cotton between his shoulder blades that pulls taut? You donât think so. Moving your hand to touch him there and swipe your finger across might be, though.
Through chews Joe smiles at your touch as he slides back onto the sofa, wine glass in hand.
âYouâll get the job.â He says, mouth full of soft cheese, glass held out for you to cheers him.
You retreat yours though, smiling, raising a hand up to cover your mouth when you say, âI wonât get the job.â
Joe shrugs, smiles wider, and goes to clink your glass as he almost celebratorily says, âYou wonât get the job! Cheers!â
And itâs not like this is exactly what you need, but everything about all of this is comforting as fuck. You cheers to you not getting the job which eases your worries and slight frustration at life and then you wash all of it down with French cheese and nice wine.
With nice ham and a couple of stuffed olives.
With a friend who likes to fidget with the arm of your sofa as he slowly loses himself in the foreign film that he put on.
With a friend who every couple of minutes will sit up to grab himself a little bite to eat, and before he sits back, will put a little bite together to give to you before he settles into the sofa again.
Who are you to deny any of this, you know? Even though, actually⌠the wine isnât really your fave, and French cheese doesnât exactly sit the nicest in your stomach, and also, youâre watching a foreign film that you need to read subtitles for but you canât keep up, which is slightly annoying, but Joe is really into it, so you try your best, and, yea sure, if you actually just watch whatâs going on itâs easy to kind of context-clue yourself into the plot just enough to not ask Joe âwhatâs happeningâ every two minutes.
After a little while, you slump far enough for your head to find his shoulder, you can feel how Joe turns his head to look down at you.
A silent laugh escapes him.
âYea, thatâs right. I told you.â Joe says, referencing his shoulder that he sent you three photos of. Three.
âShut up.â
âShut up.â Joe mimics in a whiny voice, but then shoots into action to keep you in place when you pretend to want to move away from him.
The rest of the film you spend in Joeâs embrace.
In big arms that feel heavy where they rest across your frame.
Warm, comfortable.
It doesnât take long for Joeâs head to find a nice place to rest on top of yours, his cheek pressing into your hair, and naturally, your arm moves over his front as you slowly slump into each other more and more.
The soft cheese on your coffee table, whateverâs left of it, slowly flattens out, and by the end of the film, youâre struggling to keep your eyes open.
Credits eventually roll and you expect movement from Joe. Expect him to reach for the remote, to sit up and stretch his spine. However, when you move, Joe falls forward a little as a frustrated whine leaves his throat.
âDid you fall asleep?â you whisper, moving to lay down on the sofa, to get more comfortable in a horizonal position.
âAm still asleep.â Joe murmurs softly and chases the warmth of your body, easily accepts the legs that swing over his lap and then lets himself slump over your hip.
In a weird tangle of bodies, you smile at Joeâs face that presses and rubs into your stomach. You ignore whatever else his nuzzling makes you feel.
You let your head fall back and softly pat his head as you sigh, feeling the most comfortable you think you might have ever felt.
Joe sighs too, deep slow breath in, deep slow breath out, but then you still your hand and he letâs a little frustrated huff leave him.
Itâs clear what he wants. What heâs after.
Youâre surprised he hadn't moved your hand into his hair sooner, if youâre honest.
Your fingers slide into his hair and scratch over his scalp. You can see how Joeâs lips part slightly as his face relaxes and you silently wonder if you would do this with any of your other friends. If Joe would.
It takes literal seconds for Joe to fall back asleep, and the last thing you see is your TV, asking if youâre still watching.
You told Joe earlier that you never know what people want, that youâre never sure about what theyâre after.
Itâs all lies.
You know what you want, and you think you have a fairly good idea about what Joeâs after as well.
Right now thatâs soft warm wonderful sleep whilst slow fingers lovingly stroke gently across his scalp. Itâs having comfort food and a nice drink that warms you from the inside out. Itâs watching a film on a snug sofa that holds just enough space for two bodies to fall asleep on. Itâs to forget about anything else for a moment.
And youâre lucky.
Because thatâs exactly what youâre after too.
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Itâs not even funny how relatable this is.
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people who don't experience hyperfixation don't know what it feels like to hyperfixate so much on something that it becomes not only your subject of obsession but also your source of happiness and literally the main reason why you still keep going; literal source of strength and life.
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