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It's difficult for me to re-watch whc season 1 even if I really want to. It's almost like I have to mentally prepare myself before even trying to sit down with that story again.

Season 1 felt all too real, too raw. The feelings, the situations, were something people around me might have found themselves in. The isolation in sieun's world, how he strived to do well and his anger when he snapped, I could almost taste it on my tongue. Him, being caught in the middle of a friendship that was falling apart, not knowing what to do, trying his best to hold on and pull it all together, I could feel that strain in my own hands.

I felt my heart break for yeong i when her guilt drove her away from the friendship she'd built. How did she deal with the pain, because unlike sieun, it's not like she'd have beaten people up. How much it would have hurt to lose yet another home.

I understand Beomseok, I get what leads him to those actions. His character is so well written. God knows I can't empathise with him. After a point, I could almost understand how suho felt towards Beomseok, it's almost disgust.

Season 2 was great, I love those characters so much. Real in their own ways. But something about season 1 hit home so hard.

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I got really excited about this edit, so I thought I’d share it here too.

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Reminder: "Aroace" is not the umbrella term for aromantics & asexuals.

It only specifically refers to those who are on both spectra simultaneously. The aroace flag also only represents people who are on both spectra simultaneously.

If you mean all aromantics and all asexuals, you need to say something along the lines of "aromantics and asexuals" or "aros & aces". "Aspecs" also exists, though this is not exclusive to aromantics and asexuals, since it also includes everyone who's on at least one atertiary spectrum (aplatonics, afamilials, asensuals, etc)

I'd appreciate reblogs on this so it reaches the people who need to see it, thank you!

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it’s genuinely wild how often weak hero gets reduced to "bromance,” like the story is just about a particularly intense friendship and not something far more complicated, far more intimate. this isn't just shippers projecting. this isn't just wishful thinking. you don’t need the director and cast members repeatedly claiming that suho and sieun are each other's first love to interpret that on your own. the narrative already tells you—quietly, devastatingly, and with absolute clarity.

the queer subtext isn’t subtle. it’s not hidden in glances or throwaway lines. it’s built into the structure of their relationship, in every decision they make. suho knew beomseok had tampered with his bike. that wasn’t just bullying; it was a premeditated act of violence. he knew what kind of danger he was walking into when he went to the ring, and he went anyway. alone. outnumbered. no illusions. he knew he could die. but he went. because they hurt sieun. because sieun got hurt for him.

that’s their language. not confession, but action. not sentiment, but sacrifice. die for each other. kill for each other.

and sieun, who had always been defined by his discipline, his detachment, his spotless academic record? he lets himself spiral. he got expelled. stopped eating. stopped sleeping. stopped going to cram school. when he found out suho was in critical condition, he froze in the middle of the street and didn’t move, even with a car speeding toward him. as if life without suho wasn’t a life worth returning to.

he came back from a coma asking for suho, looking for him. suho was already in one because of him. they revolve around each other like twin stars caught in gravity’s pull—self-destructive, unstoppable, and impossibly close. love doesn’t always look like romance, but that doesn’t make it less real. or less queer.

so no, it’s not just a bromance. and if that’s all you see—if you can watch all of that and not feel the weight of what’s being said without words? then i'm sorry, but you’ve missed the entire point.

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shse aquarium date anyone?

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I've reached the point in my asexuality discovery where I've stopped asking what's wrong with me and started asking what's wrong with y'all.

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shse on a ice cream date except neither of them know it's a date

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and you're not "missing" anything. you're you and that's all that matters. you deserve just as much happiness.

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why am I only attracted to characters & narratives in which they are profoundly alienated from those around them due to some inherent unchangeable quality of their being? I'm sure it says nothing about me

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shse

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idk why all the yaoi/yuri i like gotta be doomed, like pls let the gays live in peace

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:3

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he 😭 has 😭 someone 😭 who's 😭 waiting 😭 for 😭 him 😭

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at the beach, in every life