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I deserve a styrofoam cup.

Suddenly hit with a desperate urge to move my body and take a walk in the scorching Jersey heat, I was in search of some revitalization. In such times, I resort to my usual set of speeches and podcast episodes, so today’s lucky winner was this one. In this speech, Simon Sinek, a bestselling author and motivational speaker, shares five life rules. The last rule revolved around the following…

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i'm a reader now?

I was never the bookworm kid. Even when all the children were obsessed with books, I was never one of them. I was the movie/TV show buff. I’d love coming home just in time for my Disney and CW channel shows. I’d rush to pee during the commercial breaks (yes, remember those?) and aspired to be the Disney channel kids using their magic wands. I was still a creative, obsessed with playing…

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what is love?: [answered]

Ordinary love is the best kind of love ❣️ “May our home be a place where people can accept themselves.” “We don’t hide behind each other. That we have our own identity and are at one with ourselves. That we’re not hiding behind another person or expecting them to fulfill what is important to us.” “Ordinary is extraordinary. If you think of your life, it’s the little things–the ordinary little…

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dear diary, what even is love?

As someone who has never been in love, I’ve been thinking about it a lot recently. What is it? How do you know when you feel it? What is it supposed to feel like? What are you supposed to do with it? So many questions, very few answers. This video popped up on my feed today. The person states that in a romantic relationship these three things are what we should be looking for: You have to be…

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my grandma turned 78 today. here's what I learned from her.

This was taken nearly a decade ago. Clearly, the Kode siblings were not fans of the camera back in the day, but hey, at least you can see my very youthful looking granny in the back. I was raised largely by my paternal grandmother (aka Nani), a woman whose presence defined my childhood in many ways. With both my parents working demanding IT jobs, leaving early in the morning and coming home just…

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dear diary...

Why do we do it? Why do we expect ourselves to work like a goddamn horse every single day? Why are we taught to work all day every day? Some say, “Because discipline is a necessary skill to have.” Discipline. What a word. ‘Discipline’ is used as a form to control. It’s used to gaslight ourselves into thinking that if we kill our bodies and minds by “pushing ourselves,” we will attain some…

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Tuesdays with Morrie - a reflection

PC: Detroit Free Press Mitch Albom’s Tuesdays with Morrie is a beautiful, timeless, ever-relevant book in my opinion. The book chronicles the weekly (every Tuesday, hence the title) conversations that Mitch Albom had with his professor, Morrie Schwartz, who was diagnosed with a terminal illness. Morrie taught me a lot about death and how to approach life after having accepted death. In Morrie’s…

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An epiphany about loneliness

I call him Dr. L. He doesn’t appear to be a solid in form. He’s more of a flowy, gaseous entity composed of black, gray, and tinges of white, which is often overpowered by the black and gray. He starts from the top of my stomach and makes his way to the center of my chest. He sometimes even clouds my mind. He suffocates me: a lump forms in my throat, my mind races to numerous different thoughts.…

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choose children over war.

PC: @assala_chouk Back in October 2023, the first video that stuck with me was of a young Palestinian boy with big, frightened eyes as he stood in a corner of a crowded hospital, shaking in fear after just having survived a nearby explosion. The fright, anxiety, and complete desperation on his little face and tiny body was absolutely gut-wrenching to watch. I remember thinking to myself at that…

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I GRADUATED!

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having a 'Girl Dad'

@therock As an Indian-American girl, my relationship with my parents has been a BUMPY rollercoaster ride, to say the least. In particular, my relationship with my father fluctuated greatly throughout the years. Despite having my differences with him, Papa Kode said something the other day that I will forever cherish. A few weeks ago, I found out that one relative was shit talking me behind my…

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One Day....after-effects

Image Source: Netflix There’s A LOT I wanna say about the incredible casting, the double-standards for women (and women of color) in the romantic genre, THE REPRESENTATION, the story, and much more. But I want to talk more about a single part from the show that absolutely wrecked my soul. For those of you who watched Ambika Mod and Leo Woodall’s One Day on Netflix, like many others, you must’ve…

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ceasefire! 🇵🇸

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plane rides 🛩

In T-14 hours, I will be getting on a 30-hour plane ride. As I put aside clothes to wear for the plane ride this morning, I thought Damn, this plane ride is gonna be hell. My legs are going to be so crammed and my digestive system will go haywire and my back is gonna die. That thought led to me thinking about the notion of the classes on planes (ie, first-class, business-class, economy-class).…