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Thank you for being alive.

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Buffalo chicken Mac and cheese, green beans, carrot sticks and a nutrigrain bar for dinner 🤘🏻

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Started coloring again 🫶🏻

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No Kings protest, Virginia ❤️

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Anyone have a detailed experience about getting their appendix removed? What the healing process was like, how painful it was, etc? I have OCD and all I can think about is going to sleep and not waking up after. I really want to come out of it safely. I have stairs and need to know if I can walk down them because I’m genuinely terrified of like, a stitch popping or something like that as soon as I leave the hospital. Any comforting information would be great. Thank you 🫶🏻

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Absolutely a favorite look lately

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Misty, foggy morning in the forest.

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They literally look so chill like they go backstage and play some tears of the kingdom and talk about the lore and eat some pizza after a show

The two giants and two smols

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Tumblr in 2012:

Tumblr in 2022:

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I’ve felt a lot of grief lately. Having memories come up where I remember feeling so worthless and being told I’m hopeless, stupid, I was stood by out of pity, and I ended up being too much.

Can you imagine that being your inner voice for the majority of your life and then being in multiple environments that treat you otherwise? It’s a constant internal battle. I feel lost during times that I feel good about myself because it somehow feels wrong. I have days where feeling confident feels right and I have a great day because of it, but the second it feels too good, I feel a shame fall over me and I have to go back to being modest because I can’t let people think I’m too much, annoying, or somehow make them think I’m better than them when that couldn’t be further from the truth.

I have to work so hard to understand things and be on track with other people that learn. I have to ask more questions. I have to take more notes. I have to have people who are patient with me because I sometimes feel frozen and just don’t want to end up doing something wrong and I sometimes need help over that hurdle.

It’s not because I’m not worthy or because I’m too much. It’s because I’m different. I am okay with being different, but a lot of others aren’t okay with it and would rather see me struggle because they think their way is the right way, than to just let me fucking live. If I ask for help, and you can help, just help me. I don’t ask for much. I just ask sometimes for an ear. Sometimes I ask for physical help that shouldn’t take more than a couple hours out of your day. I sometimes am just really lonely and want to hang out with someone.

There’s so much anger, sadness, and loneliness that comes with realizing the mindset I had to be around for years among various people. People I’ve lived with. People I’ve worked for. People I’ve dated. Being around healthy minded people is a lot more triggering than one would think.

I don’t have a resolution to this post, just a realization that it’s okay to feel this way and to acknowledge it, even if there’s no clear answer to healing from it right now.

How do you handle grief?

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Crazy, I was told for 6 months that my gums were fine despite flossing being painful to find out my bite is off and my grinding is terrible because of it too. So now it’s pretty much required for me to get clear braces to stop feeling pain lol

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rip magneto you would have loved killing elon musk

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I fucking love blend bunny

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