gay-and-afraid

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i want a relationship where the flirting never stops.

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the urge to deactivate everything and go missing

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“Be with someone who will take care of you. Not materialistically, but take care of your soul, your well being, your heart.”

— Unknown

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“Do you ever miss yourself? The person you were before you had your first heartbreak or before you got betrayed by a person you trusted?”

— Unknown

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Hope is a tricky thing. It helps you keep alive yet kills you slowly.

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The one who loves the moon, still loves it when it is not in the sky, when it might not be in front of their eyes. The love is still there.

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are you that delusional about what went on within our relationship and that in denial about your abusive behavior or are you truly narcissistic, intentionally trying to cause me harm and paint yourself as the victim while I'm covered in blood from the wounds you carved?

it's been nearly eight months of no contact.

when will you give the manipulative tactics a rest?

will you ever let me rest?

why won't i let myself rest?

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ramblings at 3:18

i'll never forget the ways in which you made me feel

both the love

and

the pain.

the caveat to being with women

after finding myself with men for so many years

as a lesbian

is that the stakes are that much higher

the weight of the hurt greater

and the effort becomes laborious

yet there is no fruit to bear

that is safe enough to eat.

i will never be the same.