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But the only thing that makes me alive is the feeling of being terrified

And I haven't felt fear for some time

I'm not brave enough to step over that line

HANNAHKAY

Being weak

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I am unbelievably happy to announce my next book "An Oracle for the Weary" is coming out January 20th and is available for preorder on my website site now!

This book of poems and prose is something that I hold so gently in my heart. With the amazing art of the lovely @/ intothavoid (via IG), this book all around is some of my favorite and proudest work I've created.

Split into four parts for different learning experiences, scenarios and emotions, I describe in metaphorical detail of my perpetual journey of grief, healing and learning to forgive.

I'm excited to see what you all think and thank you for supporting me while I figure out my strengths and weaknesses in talent and opening up!

I’ll see you along the way ❤️🍄

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Into the rose garden amid conversations between space separating

In light lodged in cul-de-sac eyes declaimed

In fallen petals, I found you loved me In wilted roses, I discover our eternity

Pressed stories of rose and lilac in a shadow box for displaying

Labeled "My love that became the garden I tour frequently"

HANNAH KAY// INTO THE GARDEN

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HANNAH KAY// AN ORACLE FOR THE WEARY

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To be gods saddest creation

God gave up on me

Savored teethed, slipping out lies, leave me with the moonrise

Welcome darkness, welcome the open door off the horizon

You showed me god

Dangled him on a leash I’m front of me and teased me with the idea of being content with living

I pray but it seems no one is listening 

I’ve become exhausted with hopeful wishing 

I was too pretty to be contemplating life

Now I’m too gone to be contemplating god

And I beg, “take me to the mountains. He is there waiting for me”

HANNAH KAY//POETESS

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HANNAH KAY//POETESS

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“The winter is a phantom of me

It's who I always become in solitude, alone with such melancholy

deeply rooted in such a hopeful body”

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HANNAHKAY// AN ORACLE FOR THE WEARY

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“Your name is the choir that sings me to sleep”

HANNAHKAY//AN ORACLE FOR THE WEARY

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I’d garden and see a graveyard

I’d forget to cry and watched us die

Seeping in and separating

In the inside I feel of what I’ve caused of this

It’s just too late to go back and hold her

HANNAH KAY//POETESS

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I could never love you enough to put the bags down

How could you believe in realities where we were sweet?

You are the fire I never put out

The thunderstorms never ending

You hardly remember who we are from the drugs stealing you from me

Sobriety was a metaphor surrounding life conspiring against you

Treachery in a romantic fantasy

The only romance being in the heartbeats stolen from me

When the drugs wear off; I can’t compare to the woman in your head

Borne in a hopeful afterlife

Will be our restless souls mended

Hannah kay poetry

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My mind aches

Pulsating like breaths under sheets with a lover that broke my mind completely

Pain found new meaning when avoiding that the true thing destroying me isn't answers conspiring against my limited thinking, but a man that thought nothing significant of me

I knew him like ink on page

But I read him before I became another sellouts fantasy. and his story was engraving

Bleeding into margins turning red and losing focus of smeared lettering haze

My eyes are heavy, and tired

and please don't tell me you understand I don't need to be understood.

I need to know I'm wanted.

When I gave my heart to you, The Willow tree cried and broke.

I cried to God for what I did, And with the noose I choked.

COFFEE TABLE GOODBYES// HANNAH KAY + C.R WRATH// OUT NOW

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My new book “COFFEE TABLE GOODBYES” out now!