haradollroar - Tumblr blog

[haradollroar]

3714) It shocks, stuns and often horrifies me how many fully grown parents don't even understand the meaning of love when it comes to their own children.

[haradollroar]

Ughhh

So hard to resist food. I'm on break and working at McDonald's doesn't make this any easier. -___- ughh must have willpower!!

[haradollroar]

I did it!

One full day no cigerette! :)) in a few hours it'll be the end of my first day of this water fast :)

[haradollroar]

A recent picture.

[haradollroar]

Today has been hell

I decided to stop smoking today and to start a 10 day water fast. At first I was OK. Now reaching the end of the day I'm getting a slight headache and becoming irritable. Ughh. I'm trying to stay focused because I know it will be worth it..

[haradollroar]

:))

I love this boy. Not like that. But he's such a great friend. I never thought a straight guy would be this awesome as a friend. So thankful :)))

[haradollroar]

If you have a job..

Stop bitching and take your ass to work. Oh my life sucks, I gotta work today. Pfft. I Fucking WISH I could find work.

[haradollroar]

I guess I can't complain.

I was around about 5 or 6 kids earlier in lazy/boy mode. Which is shorts, tee shirt and my Kansas city hat. One kid was like hey is your name Kasey? I said yes. He said told you! To another kid and was like it says it on her* hat! So they walk away. One kid says is Kasey a boy or a girl? Another one says dude its a girl look at her hands. She doesn’t have man hands. LMAO. I died laughing. He said ohhhh OK. I realized then that life isn’t so bad. I’m in lazy/boy mode and still getting correctly gendered. I feel like kids are they hardest audience. Even more so because at that age they don’t have filters and can be kinda ruthless lol. Then after that escapade I go to the gas station in red gym shorts, grey tee and my kansas city hat and get "yes mam". Completely wasn't expecting that again given my attire. But the last week has been awesome. Met about 10+ new people all of which correctly gendered me without question. Its so nice hearing the correct pronouns, I never knew how happy that would make me. :)

[haradollroar]

Seriously. It repulses me. My life isn't a joke.

3407) Every time I see a transvestite or drag queen it makes me furious. They make me feel like everything I'm doing isn't legitimate.

[haradollroar]

Getting gendered correctly at the pool by random people. Yes please! ^__^

[haradollroar]

Today I have on a Cami with a hoodie over it. First time having my chest this exposed. Feels good though. I feel super empowered lol. <3

[haradollroar]

Ughhh itchy nipples @_@

[haradollroar]

Yay!

Orientation for my new job went smooth and I start tomorrow! So amazed that I lost one job and got another in less than a week lol. Hopefully this job goes well and I can continue getting things done as far as transition goes!

[haradollroar]

Owieeeeee

My boobs that is. They're SOOO sensitive now. The right one aches when I even lay on my stomach on my bed. -__- my friend flicked my left one as a joke and it nearly brought me to tears. @__@ this is crazy..but hey it means growth right?

[haradollroar]

I got fired today because there’s not enough hours. Never mind the fact that a new person was hired a week ago. Bleh. Just keep swimming…

[haradollroar]

Oh the havoc that hormones creates in your brain. @_@

[haradollroar]

Am I?

Am I that much of a deviant from society that no one wants to be with me? Am I the only one who feels like NO ONE wants them? Like am I not worthy of affection companionship and love? I don't get it. Legitimately I work as much as I can just so I don't have to be alone. Ugh. Another rant about transgender blues to the aybss of cyberspace. .