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Filled

I wish you well on your journey through this world.

May it be filled with many pleasant memories,

And surrounded by the warmth of friends.

I hope that obstacles are liveable

and that they help you grow.

And if there is pain, may you be comforted by those around you

And that you always know that you’re loved.

I wish that you never lose your passion,

and that a fire always burns within.

And I wish you love.

My friend, may your life be filled with it!

People. Passion. Entertainment. Joy.

May your life be filled with love given and received.

And even when I am not in it,

Know that you were too love by me.

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Can these minutes save my life

The minutes pass like days

But the days feel like moments

And though the seconds feel like hours

I know that time is never enough.

I grow older with the passing day

But somehow life always remains the same.

And though I swear I'm moving forward

The scenery stays the same.

Please tell me

What's the secret to moving ahead?

I see the world go on around me

Why do I remain the same?

I cry out but no one hears me

Because I have mastered the art of being invisible

Even when I long to be seen.

Please find me

I'm drowning in the minutes turned to hours and continuing for days

And as the years fill my lungs

It's the moments that flood my memory

Why don't the good ones last as long as the loneliness?

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Safe Harbor

My heart belongs to the ocean breeze

Whose salty breath hangs in the air.

And when the sun caresses my skin

I know it is the only touch I'll ever need.

I lie on the soft, warm sand

And find a deep sense of peace.

The waves are my mantra

And the spirit of the sea fills my soul.

The tide around my toes awakens me

As the cool water laps up around my calves

A rush of cool relief runs down my spine

and as the chill dissipates, my burdens do as well.

At times there are storms that darken the sea,

Toss me around, and break my spirit

There are tidal waves that threaten to destroy me

And try to swallow me whole.

But no matter how far out at sea I become

A light always leads me back to shore.

And once the salty air of my safe haven hits my lungs

I know that I'll survive.

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Gone in a flash

His arm wrapped around my waist,

I lean in a bit closer.

Big smiles across our faces.

Flash!

nn…no! don’t pull away…..

After the cameras are handed back, we lean in

Eager to see the results.

I can hardly focus with his face so close to mine.

“Yeah, that’s good” we laugh

And he turns to walk away.

I wish I had something clever to say

Or some way to keep him near.

But now he’s gone and out of my life

And I’ve done nothing to be remembered…

Just another girl-a crazy fan

In and out of mind just as quick.

And now we’ll never know

How our story could have been.

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Intro to Nicki and her craziness

               Hi, I’m Nicki, and I’m a hopeless romantic. And I do mean Hopeless! Try as I might, I just can’t help but fall for guys at the drop of a hat. Sometimes I don’t even wait for the hat to drop, sometimes it’s just at the THOUGHT that the hat is going to drop. A flirty comment, a side smile or a casual comment made by a friend and BAM! There I go again.

                But is it really such a bad thing to see so much good in people? So what if I see the good traits in people and find them as desirable traits to have in a partner? Isn’t that an open minded and optimistic point of view? Isn’t that admirable of me?!?!

                Sure, sometimes I fall too hard for people I hardly know, who may not be interested in me. I might get a little obsessed before anything happens. I even sometimes get a little heartbroken if they start dating someone else even though I knew it wouldn’t work out right now because they live in another state and only met me that one time and it’s not even that they rejected me because they didn’t even know that I was interested because they don’t really know me or know I was interested and if they did then maybe things would be different but because the timing was off and they didn’t know, so they started seeing someone else and I’m still alone BUT THAT’S NO REASON TO GIVE UP!!!!

                I mean, it has to work out with ONE of them, right?!?! … I’m just an optimistic person! So why not just go ahead and put those different possibilities out into the universe in hopes that one of them will come true? I’m just saying, I can’t be wrong EVERY time

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My heart will lead me to you

I love the fact that you are you

And I am me

And no matter if we're together or apart,

We just are.

I don't have to be with you

To know that everything will be alright.

And even when you're alone

I may still cross your mind.

And the funny thing is,

We don't even know how perfect we are for each other.

In fact, we may not know each other at all.

Maybe I've passed you on the street,

Been in the same movie theater

Or even shared the same experiences from different points of view.

But as of this moment, we're not "together."

The funny thing is though,

You're always in my heart

In my mind, in my soul

Even if I don't know who "you" are.

I hope you see in yourself

All the things that I'll love.

I'll find you someday

And you'll find me

And we'll find ourselves in each others eyes.

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Look to the sky

She sat with her back against the hard concrete wall outside the local bar. Her legs pulled tight to chest as she rested her head against her knees.

She sighed. Then lifted her head and took a long, deep drag of her cigarette. She only smoked when she drank, and on nights like this, she smoked like a chimney.

‘How did I let this happen again?’ she thought in the inebriated state. A few tears streamed down her face. She couldn’t help it, she hated losing it in public. But the bar was silent outside as the world of drunken debauchery swirled inside. At least no one would see her cry or hear her muffled sobs.

She tilted her head up and released the puff of toxic poison to the sky. She watched it as it floated up and dissipated into the cool California breeze as she tried to figure out her next move. All she knew was that she wanted to go home…

But where was home? Surely it’s not with the stranger she lived with who masqueraded as a boyfriend while continuing to pursue anyone of the female persuasion. That was no more home than the apartment the man pouring shots down her throat live in. No. She wanted to be back in Arizona, no matter how hot it was or how much she was trying to run away from.

She longed to curl up on her mothers sofa and watch chick flicks until dawn. She wished to be surrounded by her sister and the babies, even if it meant watching Chipmunks for the 5th time in a row. Her only desire was to be in a place that she knew with people that loved her.

But she had made her bed and now she had to lie in it. She chose to move out to another city, another state! to live with a man she barely knew. He loved her he said. Everything will be alright, I’ll take care of you.

Hah! How many times had she heard those words before. They echoed in her ear, a constant reminder of mistakes she had failed to learn from and was destined to make again. Hadn’t she told herself to build up a wall? To protect herself from men and those who wanted to break her. Hadn’t she learned not to fall for the bad boy who’s heart shimmered with fools gold?

Apparently not. Or else she wouldn’t be sitting here in the alley behind the bar she first met him in.

Not her fault really. The boy has a voice smooth as velvet and a way with words that could fool a politician. He made her promises of a life they could live together, if only she would trust in him to catch her. And the fool she was jumped in, eyes closed, head first, willing to give her full heart to him.

And as others before him had done, he smashed it on the floor and walked away. Leaving her alone to pick up the pieces.

How many times could she go through this?

How many times would her heart break before she gave up completely?

As she stared up at the clear night sky shy heard the door open beside her. A tall, skinny boy wearing a band tee came out and looked around.

He saw her on the ground and he gave her a little smile. She couldn’t help but smile back at the sweet smile the boy had on his face.

He grabbed a cigarette from his pack and fumbled around for a moment.

He turned back to the girl, “Hey, got a light?”

“Yeah,” she said and tossed him the Scorpio lighter.

“Thanks,” he smiled again as he inhaled his own poison. “I’m Roger, by the way.” He handed her back her lighter. 

And that’s how it all started….

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If I gave you my heart, would you promise not to break it? Because I don’t think I couldn’t take it, even one more time.

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Hidesight

It’s hard to look back and see what happened

Though everything’s clearer in hindsight

It’s hard to see things you use to long for

Are things you later turn away.

Once upon a time I loved a boy,

and he loved me,

and we loved each other;

then he changed his mind.

Oh how I wanted him back.

How I longed for him to love me again

And I tried what I could to get him back.

We caused each other so much pain.

The lies, manipulations, tears shed and words said

All to try to make sense of things.

Things that became so clear in hindsight.

Over the years I let go

Hearing still from one another on occasion,

We even met and talked like human beings.

Come to find out that I’m his biggest regret

The one that got away

When he had walked away first.

And still, he’s exactly the same.

A little older, balding now and a college degree

But still the same insecurities that had plagued him before.

If you had told me he would want me back

I would have waited forever for that chance.

I would have gone to the ends of the Earth for that glimmering hope.

But it’s better I didn’t know,

Without the hope I was forced to move on.

It allowed me to change.

I grew into a person with self respect

And one who can love themselves

Even without a man.

The person I am now

Doesn’t see the world as she did before.

Her interests have changed as has her taste in men.

And because I am different while he remained the same

I cannot love him the way I did

And I never will again.

And looking back

Maybe everything did happen for a reason.

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This one's for you and you'll never know

I wrote down a poem

As I sometime will do

Some of the words

Were written for you.

As much as I long for

And I wish I could say

That all of those feelings

Have all gone away,

I would be lying

Because it’s still true

That every night I end up

Dreaming about you.

I wish I could tell you

That the aching is gone

And that after some time

It turned out I’m strong.

But the truth is I love you

And with every heart beat

I hope that someday

We will once again meet.

I wish you meant nothing

Like I do to you

And that none of the feelings

That I had were still true.

But my face will reveal it

For as long as I live

All of my love

Only to you I can give.

I wish I could change this

Believe me, I try

But to say I don’t love you

Is only a lie.

So alone I will be

Until my dying day

Because I gave you my heart

And you threw me away.

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To tell you the truth, your love would hurt me more than your rejections. I’ve broken my own heart enough, but pure hope could shatter my soul. No, allow me my own misguided truths of life and leave me with no delusions of having more. Loving you could ruin everything.

Sarah Nicole

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Soul mates

You’re the most beautiful person in the world to somebody.

They think that you must be blind

Not to see how beautiful you truly are.

Someone loves you more than anything

And can’t imagine a world without you.

You are a life changer for someone.

You make someone’s life better and give them hope.

You’re the love of someone’s life.

Without you, there is a void in their heart.

You are their missing pieces and you complete them.

You’ve touched many lives

And you mean so much to so many people

But you are one person’s whole world.

You are their reason to wake up

And you give them strength to make it through the day.

You may not have met them yet,

But the idea of you keeps them going.

They’ve been dreaming about you

And you’re so much more than they could hope for.

Being made for each other doesn’t mean it will be easy.

There will be times when you will be challenged

But they want to work through it

Because to them, you, and your love, is worth it.

Don’t settle for someone just so you’re not alone.

Don’t give your heart to someone who doesn’t complete you.

There is someone out there who was made for you

So why would you want to be with someone made for someone else?

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I tell her everything she wants to hear, but really I just don't care enough to tell her the truth.

Confession Sunday

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I've felt like this. Sometimes I feel so numb to love that I wish I still wanted him. But we grow and change, and nothing will take us back to who we were.

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I write because it is in my soul to do so

There are spaces in my heart

That only words can fill.

No matter where I am in life

Words are always there.

Catching me when I fall.

Making sure that everything is okay once again.

Filling the voids where something is missing

And showing me I'm not alone.

Words are twist able, pliable,

You can change them and breathe life in

Just as they do for me in return.

Words are my solace, my safety

Returning the balance back to my world.

I write because it frees my soul.

Only through words do my dreams come true

And happily ever afters truly exist.

In my words there is hope,

A brighter tomorrow

And strength to make it through today.

I write because I know no other way