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SH POSTING TIPS HELP PLS🫶

Hey guys! Okay so ive posted some TW s3lf h@rm pics on here and put a lot of effort into the posts. But when i go back the whole entire post will have been deleted even though it had a lot of notes and comments. And i never get a notification for it being taken down at all. So can anyone give me some tips for how to post my pics without them being taken down unbeknownst to me??? And does anyone else know WHY i havent been being notified about my post being taken down?? Im so confused please help!

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I may not be able to contain my rage anymore.

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Why do people get so bent out of shape when i cvt myself🙄🙄

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Who was there for you when you needed support?

me ASF:

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The moment you actually start thinking about suicide again after being okay is so painful

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there's something poetic about being the first to pick you up and last to put you down

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After she has had a long hard day being strong and independent. Slide your thumb in her mouth and watch her mind turn off while she sucks on it.

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Me when they interrupt the ending to YMCA to start playing Hayley Kiyoko at the bar

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The Society of Others by William Nicholson

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Dealing with pet loss...

My almost 14 year old cat passed away last night...and while I've had pets die before, his has been hitting me harder than I ever expected. I didn't want to hand his body over to our vet techs to get him cremated. I wanted to just keep holding his stiff scrawny body forever. I spent three hours in my bathroom last night, watching him fade away and it's something I wish I could erase from my mind forever at this point because seeing him suffer and not being able to do ANYTHING at all to help ease his pain felt like torture.

As soon as he lost his bowls and threw up the remainder of the food he'd eaten, I knew it was coming. I held him in my hands, just feeling his heart slow to a stop and I just broke down. I've had him since he was a teeny little kitten that my mom brought home from the Safeway parking lot in 2010. I know he had a good long life and I pray he found comfort in knowing I was there with him till the end. He would have been 14 in October. I've never had a pets death hit me as hard as it his did...and I'm sure it's because I was there for his last few moments of life but my main question is for tips/advice on dealing with the pain of this loss. I've cried more over losing him than I did over losing both of my grandparents and it feels like every fiber of my being is hurting.

Here's some pics of him...his name was Kage (ca-gay) which means shadow cuz he always chased his as a kitten.

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An eternity with you still wouldn't have been long enough. Wait for me on the other side?

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For Yonah

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There’s a part of me that feels empty when I remember you’re no longer here. And I can’t help but feel overwhelmed with being left with so much love left to give.

—1:19AM